Beauty across the cloud

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Wei Han patted Luo Weiqiu and pointed to the corner of the road.

There is a magnolia slanted out there.This place is at the end of a certain path in the school. It is very secluded, with large magnolia trees blocking people's shadows.And when the magnolia blooms in early spring, the trees are covered with snow, clusters of clusters, which are originally pure and elegant flowers, abruptly blooming a feeling of prosperity.But this branch is not, it is a lonely branch, the flower bud is about to open, but it shows its mouth, lonely and lonely, like a worry that has just begun and has nothing to do.

Jin Lan was standing under this magnolia, and the shadow of the flower was reflected on the side of his face.

"Speak well," Wei Han leaned into Luo Weiqiu's ear, and said in a low voice, "Don't scold people, you must speak well." After speaking, he patted Luo Weiqiu's shoulder again, and then walked away from Jin Lan passed.

When they passed each other, Wei Han also said to Jin Lan, Senior, excuse me.

In fact, if Wei Han was asked how he felt about Jin Lan, if he thought Jin Lan was a bad person, he would say no without hesitation—even if something happened, he would still say so.He hadn't met Jin Lan a few times, even if he questioned him this time, he could count on one hand.He still remembered that when he went to Jin Lan with a little anger, he almost slapped the table excitedly, but the person sitting opposite him just listened to him finish the whole fire without saying a word.

He didn't say a word, but that doesn't mean he didn't listen carefully.The focus on his expression made Wei Han feel as if he was chewing those words with dirty words and anger word by word.

It's not like being guilty and silent, it seems like a kind of self-punishment.Wei Han couldn't bear to say any more.

Jin Lan waited for a while and couldn't wait for the next knife before asking, "Is he okay?"

At first glance, the tone is still very stable, only the final coda is vain.Just like the seemingly neat handwriting, if you don't look carefully, you will never see the trembling at the last pen.

Solid color shirts and coats, with soft eyebrows and eyes.There is a quiet force in Jin Lan, but quietness can produce wisdom, and it can also hurt itself.Probably each of his eyelashes is a fence. When he looked away and looked down, all the turbulent emotions were locked in his eyes, and the only thing that could reveal his feet was an unconscious ending.

"What do you think, senior?" Wei Han sighed helplessly, "It's not good, it's too bad."

Jin Lan folded her hands on the table, her head drooped slightly, as if she was about to wither: "It's all my fault."

Wei Han didn't disturb Luo Weiqiu, he found out Jin Lan's contact information, and went to find him himself.When he returned to the dormitory and informed Luo Weiqiu to go to the appointment to "talk" on time, Luo Weiqiu's reaction to him was actually even more confusing:

At that time Luo Weiqiu said: "You have contacted him."

Wei Han nodded: "That's right. Otherwise, can we still meet by chance?"

Luo Weiqiu turned his head away: "I didn't find him."

No one answered the phone, and there was no waiting downstairs in the dormitory.

I didn't even find you, why can others.

Luo Weiqiu stood there with his back straight, like a stubborn branch.He looked at Jin Lan, and Jin Lan looked back at him.Finally Luo Weiqiu turned his head away.

Luo Weiqiu said like this: "You lied to me."

This is the truth, Jin Lan didn't speak, he lowered his head, tortured by the silence on the spot.

"I trust you so much, you lied to me."

Not "I like you so much", but trust.Whether it is Jin Lan or Mochizuki, he has always trusted him.Luo Weiqiu doesn't care about many things, the trust in those close to him is what he relies on to live and work.But the fact was like a slap in the face, making him stare in the face.

"I'm sorry. I should have told you earlier, sorry."

In fact, what Jin Lan wants to say is: "I like you, it's true." Even though 99% of this relationship is fake, this 1% is true.Jin Lan is not sure whether this 1% is precious to Luo Weiqiu, and whether it can offset the hypocrisy of the 99%.He had also made up his mind to tell the whole story, explaining his misunderstandings and intentions clearly, but now his courage was shattered by a sudden change. After all, being honest and being exposed are two completely different things.

Jin Lan once recalled this day after a long time, and he found that the biggest mistake he made from the beginning to the end was not speaking in time.But at this moment, Luo Weiqiu stiffened his neck and never looked back, even refusing to give him alms out of the corner of his eye.

What if he said "I like you" and Luo Weiqiu said "You are disgusting"?

Jin Lan was really not confident.

The wind is still, the birds are quiet, the world is still, as if the whole world dare not let out the atmosphere, watching the two people quarreling.But neither of them spoke.There was only silence screaming in it.

In the end, Jin Lan also stood up unconsciously, as if at the end of her strength, desperately holding back the turbulent emotions.The taste of rust in his mouth began to spread again, and Jin Lan gradually turned calm from the initial apprehension, and finally he didn't say anything.If it is said that he is about to have nothing, then the last treasure left behind by his desperate efforts is the dignity that no one cares about.He thinks that he is not a frank person, not an honest person, he is entangled, he is twisted, he has no advantages, he is not likable, so he has to become a person with self-respect.Otherwise, besides myself, who else would love him?

Humans are really delicate creatures, with sudden fragility and untimely stubbornness.

However, a liar and an instigator still seeks self-esteem extravagantly. For a moment, Jin Lan felt that she was really shameless.

In fact, he should have nothing at all. Jin Lan still clearly remembered Luo Weiqiu saying in front of the teaching building that he didn't like men.The good times between him and Luo Weiqiu, all the tenderness, were all cheated by him.So now it is just to return everything to its proper place, even if one more sentence "I really like you" can change anything.

The old saying told him that retribution is not good.Jin Lan has no objection to the causal law that one must repay karma after one creates karma.At the same time, there was a voice in his heart that was raving like a demon: Is it painful, this is the price you should pay.

Jin Lan tasted the pain and took all this as a natural punishment.Opening your mouth again can't change the ending, what is lost is doomed to be lost.

After no one spoke for a while, Luo Weiqiu turned around and left.He was really sad, and there were even some tears in his eyes, like crystal flowers blooming on a tree.The moment he turned around, he blinked vigorously, and the flowers fell down, spreading all over the ground in a mess.

Luo Weiqiu casually wiped her cheek with the back of her hand while turning an intersection.A student next to him passed him by, and took another look in surprise, wondering what sad things happened to him and made him cry as he walked.

They are known in winter.Everything is revived in spring, and I thought everything would have a smooth start.

Now that the flowers have fallen, spring should be over.

Jin Lan stayed where he was, looking at the place where Luo Weiqiu had just stood, and remained motionless for a long time.

In fact, he has a lot of love and shame to confide in. If someone passed by here at this moment and asked him what's wrong, Jin Lan would probably grab that person and talk about the last day and night, how he deserved it, how he was. Steal a heart.

But looking up at the branches that are shaking the leaves, only the wind is willing to pass here.

A few weeks later, Luo Weiqiu called Jin Lan for a nonsensical reason: he wanted to get back the custody of the rabbit.

Jin Lan accepted it this time, but in a bad tone.He bluntly said that he couldn't do it. He said at the time that he said that he would be raised by him, and he would be raised by him. Now it is not divorced and the property needs to be divided.

Luo Weiqiu became anxious, saying that we picked it up together.

Jin Lan showed a rare toughness, he said no, he just couldn't, there was no room for negotiation on this matter.

Luo Weiqiu was so angry that she hung up the phone directly.

Jin Lan silently put the phone on the table.What he didn't tell Luo Weiqiu was that the day he was "released from prison", he found the rabbit dead.

At that time, the classmate who was entrusted by him to feed the rabbits on time went out with his girlfriend for two days on weekends, and ignored it for a while.The stomach of a creature like a rabbit is very fragile, and it will not work after returning.

Jin Lan buried it beside the path in the school garden.

Naturally, the classmate came to find Jin Lan several times with guilt, and invited him to dinner at any time, but he was willing to buy ten or eight rabbits to compensate Jin Lan.

"Damn it, isn't this what you're going to use for your experiments?" The students were very nervous. If they accidentally killed someone else's experimental product, it would be a major delay in graduation.

Jin Lan waved his hand and declined any compensation.

He was struggling with how to talk to Luo Weiqiu, but then he received a message from Wei Han.

It's all right now, he thought, he doesn't have to worry about it anymore, probably Luo Weiqiu already hates him, so are you afraid that he will hate him a little more?

But he didn't expect that when he heard Luo Weiqiu's voice, he still couldn't speak.Just let the rabbit live on, in the unreal lies he wove.

There is at least one last tie between them, one last connection point.Even if Luo Weiqiu never sees him again, when he thinks of that rabbit, he can still think of him by the way.

Standing in front of the window, Jin Lan happened to be able to see the dilapidated path outside the dormitory.It has just rained, and the loose floor tiles are full of mud and water. Anyone who steps there must be careful. At this moment, a boy walked on it carelessly, and accidentally pried a corner of the floor tiles, so he was immediately splashed all over his trousers , the scene is very funny.

It was very funny, and Jin Lan did indeed smile a bit.

Then he covered his eyes with his hands, and slowly, slowly, turned his back.

There is still an email lying in Jin Lan's mailbox, which is from Lao Zou.

The content of the email is only a few words: Approved, and the visa will be processed quickly.

Jin Lan walked directly from the school, he didn't inform anyone of the date of his departure, so naturally no one came to see him off.

Old Zou knew when he left school, but he didn't bother to care about it. He wasn't a child going to nursery school, so it would be difficult for an adult to take a plane.

Jin Lan really didn't expect that he could really pass the review. When he first saw the email, he thought it was Lao Zou who made a mistake.

But it is what it is.He was selected, but Fu Xiaoyun lost.

Before boarding the plane, Jin Lan thought of Luo Weiqiu.It's funny to say that Jin Lan watched a movie about a plane crash when he was a child, which left a big shadow on him at that time. Since then, he can't help feeling nervous every time before boarding a plane.This time is no exception.So, while waiting for the plane, he edited a long message and sent it to Luo Weiqiu, telling the truth about his anxiety and expectations these days.

He thought that he had hidden this secret thought for so long, and finally made up his mind to say it, but it was made public under such circumstances, it was really embarrassing.But no matter how embarrassing the relationship, he never thought that he would never have the chance to see the light of day.

But in fact, this is more like an excuse.As an adult, he has long understood that the probability of a plane crash is very low.At this moment, he was just using that trace of uneasiness to pry open the door of his repressed heart and give himself a reason to indulge.What's more, he's about to leave, and it's a perfect escape before he lets himself do something daring.

Yes, he is gay, and he has some crazy thoughts about Luo Weiqiu.Would Luo Weiqiu find him disgusting?It's okay, even if there was, he couldn't see the disgust on Luo Weiqiu's face anymore.

After sending the text message, Jin Lan suddenly felt regretful, she should have looked at Luo Weiqiu more that day.

What if... it was really the last look?

He thought that the endless conversation was the last time before he went abroad, but it was not.

A week ago, a classmate in Jin Lan's class had an emergency at home and had to leave school for a few days, but he was still working part-time in the school's logistics office. After searching around, he couldn't find anyone who could replace him. Lan.

Jin Lan agreed.Before leaving the country, he really had nothing to be busy with. Even Lao Zou no longer assigned him any tasks, but just asked him to prepare to go abroad so as not to get used to it.

The weather was fine that day, and he sat alone on the computer in the office checking a list. The warm wind in the afternoon blew in, and the white curtains were full, like sails waiting to sail.After it was full to the extreme, it was blown apart, the curtains were raised high, and the wind penetrated into the room and turned the paper and book pages, making a rattling sound.

The wind is warm, gently blowing over the eyebrows of the people in the room, making people drowsy.

Jin Lan didn't refuse Spring's invitation to dream. He used his arm as a pillow and fell asleep in front of the computer for a while.

White curtains, white shirt, white paper is turning its skirt corner.

This is what Luo Weiqiu saw when he pushed the door open.He came by the way to help the literary and art committee in the class to hand over the list of props needed for a party.

At first I was stunned, but then I couldn't help watching.Look at the soft sideburns being blown by the wind, and the hem of the shirt being stirred by the wind.

I saw that the sleeves were rolled up to the elbows, and the slender and white fingers were still resting on the keyboard, as if they were preparing to enter some data.

Seeing the corners of the ruddy mouth slightly raised, it seemed that he was enjoying a good dream at the moment.

Seeing the slender figure hunched over the table with one hand open to him was an inviting gesture.

Luo Weiqiu couldn't help but stepped forward, wanting to take a closer look.

He had also thought about what Mochizuki should look like before, and he thought that "she" should look gentle and kind, speak softly, and behave in a gentle manner.Only at this moment did he connect the person in front of him with the image in his fantasy.

He was indeed blaming him, why he couldn't be found by him in time, and why he didn't say a word.

"Why didn't you tell me?" He couldn't help breaking the silence of the room, standing in front of the warm wind, and asked Jin Lan, "I'm most afraid that people will leave without saying anything, do you know that?"

At the end, he smiled selfishly: "Yes, I was afraid that others would lie to me. You really have it all."

He opened the hard shell to the soft spring, and narrated his unknown fragility to a sleeping person.

Luo Weiqiu actually thought for a long time after receiving the text message, but to no avail, he was still not sure whether he could accept a man.In fact, he was right that day, he never had the slightest thought of any man.As for his cousin saying that he is not straight, it is probably just a drunken rambling, or the boy heard it wrong.

He held the phone in his hand for a long time, but he still called back, but all he got was "The number you dialed has been turned off".

Afterwards, Luo Weiqiu also tried to pass by the logistics office again, but found another strange face sitting in the original position.

He tried to ask where the person who had replaced here had gone.

"Oh, you're talking about Jin Lan," the man said without raising his head, "he's gone abroad!"

At that moment Luo Weiqiu became angry, and for the second time, this person disappeared without a word.What's more, this time, he left such a difficult problem to him to think alone!