Wife's Observation Log

Xie Zhen has thought about it for a long time, her mother doesn't belong to this era, and her wife doesn't seem to belong either.

Many years ago when she was young, Guo Tianhui said to her before leaving, "There are many strange things in the world. Some people return to life with dead bodies, and some people have to make such choices. Maybe Ah Zhen will understand in the future, or it doesn't matter if he doesn't understand for the rest of his life. It won't hinder you from making a choice", but cruelly tricked Xie Zhen into making a choice that she shouldn't have to bear.

When she asked softly, "Ah Zhen, would you like to save someone after not seeing your mother for a long time", she didn't say that the poison hidden behind it was called life and death.It would be great if these clips could be forgotten like Kang Wang treated his childhood, but Xie Zhen, who has a good memory, was able to regurgitate the childhood clips countless times in the days and nights that followed. While uncovering the secrets of Guo Tianhui, he also realized what kind of choice he had been given once.

It is precisely because of this that Xie Zhen always felt that he was sorry for his father, and regretted that if he had said "no", would Guo Tianhui have been able to stay, and Emperor Changning would not have lost his love—after all, they are such a loving couple. Among so many history books she has read and so many emperors she has heard about, her husband and wife get along well, and she is rarely out of it.

Bearing such a sense of guilt, Xie Zhen faced the last wish of Emperor Changning and what he represented, Guo Tianhui, alone.

In addition to her last wish, Lan Wei has been with her for a long time. When she was a child, she was not so picky, she was just one of a group of radish heads, but occasionally she was very thoughtful, and would plan two tricks to "deceive the truth" when raiding the kitchen, so Xie Zhen had long locked her under his protection, thinking that she would be able to draw a sword for him in the future and pacify the world.

When she was 13 years old, in the austere and tense city of Yanjing, she followed Emperor Changning to the tower and watched the dust rising in the distance. : "The siege of Yanjing is over, the front is destroyed, and the direction must be conquered. Nothing like my love will meet the spring."

Xie Zhen also saw that her beloved general came from thousands of miles away day and night, even though they came to the city only to bid farewell briefly and then continued to pursue the desert.But after looking at Lan Wei the size of a sesame mung bean so far away, Xie Zhen firmly believed that she came for him.

Therefore, Xie Zhen has no reason not to be nice to Lan Wei. After Chang Yuchun died, Lan Bi returned the military power, and Lan Wei also lacked fighting spirit. The opportunity to become a famous story of monarchs and ministers in history.

Xie Zhen doesn't mind Lan Wei's clumsy words, and doesn't think she is a fool if she doesn't understand government affairs. If Lan Wei wants to hear, she can explain it slowly. If Lan Wei doesn't want to listen, Xie Zhen also likes her to accompany him like this.After being with her, it became a habit. She likes Lan Wei's plain talk. Of course, it's not bad for Lan Wei to add some humor.

All in all, she hated being "alone" too much, and Lan Wei was able to accompany her as not as humble as possible, which gave her a little "community" feeling, so she grabbed it and was unwilling to let it go.Later, she also discovered that Lan Wei liked her own appearance very much. If it was someone else, she would feel offended by the superficiality of the other party, but at the moment, she was a little unruly complacent.

Well, then let's start trapping Lan Wei, no matter in the name of being a close friend of a monarch or minister, anyway, she doesn't want to marry a young man who comes back and gives birth to a child but will kill him.

The more she fell into the trap, the more excited she was to see Liexin, but she also saw more and more traces of Lan Wei's similarity with Guo Tianhui in the details.

She was still worried, could it be that Guo Tianhui used his dead body to return to Lan Wei's body?Later, after gradually verifying, I was relieved.Then she suddenly realized that if she had to choose between Guo Tianhui and Lan Wei, she would no longer be able to choose. If Guo Tianhui's question of saving someone back then meant saving Lan Wei—this matter probably didn't belong to them. Fang's anomaly has something to do with it—then Xie Zhen thought, it's God's will.

She hasn't mentioned this matter for a long time. In fact, she asked Lan Wei more than three years ago, "Do you believe that there are people who transcend time in this world?" At that time, she only knew Guo Tianhui's true identity, and hadn't noticed it yet. Lan Wei's anomaly.But when Lan Wei later served up the messy desserts, showed her stubborn direction towards technological inventions, and lost her composure in front of the jewelry left by Guo Tianhui, Xie Zhen knew about it, but she was very happy because she felt that if it wasn't for Lan Wei Falling in love with herself let go of her guard, with her previous performance no different from ordinary people, she would not hold these clues in front of herself.

But in this matter, Xie Zhen could feel that Lan Wei had some contradictory fears and retreats. After letting go of her guard, she really wanted to bring those good things in the future to herself, but she never dared to explain. It made her feel very nervous and talked about him from left to right, just like just now, when she was asked, she didn't intervene for a long time.

Xie Zhen thought that it would be difficult for Lan Wei to reach a tacit understanding with himself and enter a state of "I know" or "I know you know", and there will always be times when it will be broken.Call her selfish—she always feels that she is not aboveboard, and facing her selfish desires is not in line with the words of a sage, but she thinks there is nothing wrong with it in the past 20 years, and it has even made her more aware of where the bottom line is—she herself has no way to pretend that she is not. Know it, and then acquiesce to the most important person around you suddenly saying goodbye one day with an inexplicable question.

"Don't panic, Lanlan." Xie Zhen pulled her into his arms, and still comforted her, "I won't force you to do anything because of this, the person you marry is still very capable."

Xie Zhen and Lan Wei are about the same height, but Lan Wei is always more aggressive, and Xie Zhen has always been hugged more, so she feels that Lan Wei doesn't feel too good after hugging her for a while, so she just puts her head on Lan Wei's shoulders. Wei shoulders.Lan Wei's breathing was irregular in depth by her ears, Xie Zhen could hear her unsteady state of mind even though she couldn't see her expression, but holding her like this, Xie Zhen felt much more stable.

Xie Zhen is actually very easy to be satisfied.She thinks that she doesn't even force Heaven and Empress Dowager to keep Lan Wei by her side forever, even though she is greedy by nature and desires the most extravagance, she can restrain herself, at least restrain herself from turning into a foolishness of seeking Taoism and Buddha after Lan Wei leaves.It's the only thing she wants, that Lan Wei doesn't have any intention of leaving without saying goodbye after crossing the sea.

She hated leaving without saying goodbye, no matter how she used etiquette to restrain herself to become a decent person, that thorn was pierced into a poisonous sore.When Song Lian and Gui Yanliang left last time, she would get uncontrollable and finally lose her composure to Lan Wei, but it was the result of her awakening.

Lan Wei didn't know that nearly ten years ago, she had a more violent reaction.

That was Liu Ji's departure.The name Liu Ji, with his departure, with Xie Zhen's reaction, and with his death, has almost disappeared from the political arena of the Yan Dynasty.

Liu Ji is more inclined to seek ministers and military planes, and it seems that he has no more contact with Xie Zhen than Song Lian and his friendship.But in fact, although Liu Ji was not a lecturer of literary allusions, he was the guide in Xie Zhen's court, and he was the first courtier who took the initiative to regard Xie Zhen as a political figure.When Xie Zhen felt that the inner palace was not quiet, he cooperated with Xie Zhen through his subordinate censor, and he reported and impeached him, while Xie Zhen took care of the guards and beat the eunuchs, and finally handed over the power of punishment to Xie Zhen At the same time, it also won more rights to exempt the censor's remarks.

Xie's family was born in Huaixi, Xie Zhen's playmates were all from Huaixi, and her teachers were of course all Confucian scholars in eastern Zhejiang.Maybe it's just because she is a stable prince, and the cronies around her naturally don't need to be contaminated by the group struggles in eastern Zhejiang and Huaixi.But Liu Ji is not the case. He may not consider himself a confidant at all, he is the leader of Zhedong; it may also be that he is the leader of Zhedong first, so he is destined to lead the way far away and leave the scene far away.

In the fourth year of Changning, Liu Ji failed in the bet with Li Shanchang.At that time, Li Shanchang had the title of the East Palace, and Liu Ji was only linked to the Hongwen Museum, but Xie Zhen was already prepared, how to see his father and emperor to protect Liu Ji.However, Liu Ji came back very suddenly, and even kept his invisibility, refusing to reply to any letter from Xie Zhen.

At that time, Xie Zhen was puzzled at first, but soon, this confusion began to induce the poison she hadn't noticed, self-denial, doubt, and finally hatred of the other party.

Puzzled: Why did you leave without saying goodbye.

Self-denial, doubt: I did something wrong, or I am too weak, he does not believe that I can have a better way to deal with it.

Hatred: It can be understood as an irrational and excessive anger.When there is no answer at the end of self-doubt, Xie Zhen will finally stab the burning sting towards others.

In fact, she already hated Guo Tianhui already.Xie Zhen never understood, why did Guo Tianhui ask himself?Does an adult, independent and wise woman have to leave a false decision-making power to her young child?Does this choice have any meaning other than to let the child suddenly wake up after many years and then regret it for the rest of his life?

But Guo Tianhui, who buried the poisonous thorn in her flesh and blood, is no longer there. When she encountered a similar situation and left without saying goodbye after asking a question without an answer, she lost her mind. The servant, was rejected, told to be old and not to die in the post of chief; the minister of the Ministry of Punishment made a small mistake and should have been demoted, but was directly deprived of his salary and released, and so on.

That year Zhedong Group was severely restricted and even suppressed, but Xie Zhen was actually beaten even worse. Emperor Changning wanted to suppress Zhedong but not destroy Zhedong. When he found that his daughter's mind was obviously very unclear , Lan Wei hasn't seen Xie Zhen for a long time - without Xie Zhen's summoning or permission, she can't directly enter the East Palace, and Emperor Changning obviously thinks that the prince who is not clear-headed deserves a period of fever and coma.

Xie Zhen was not afraid of being beaten a long time ago. When she woke up, Xie Zhen didn't remember how she was injured and screamed in pain. But she remembered the deep dislike of herself, her willful behavior, and abuse of power. How could she Will do what she hates the most.Then, instead, she pinched the wound that was already dark red and deep purple, and pinched out a darker, darker color, until the water hardened her hand.

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Additional historical background:

Liu Ji=Liu Bowen, needless to say the rest.

The others are not important, they will make a cameo appearance, there is no particularly clear record.