The whole e-sports circle is waiting for me to drop the horse

Lu Chaokong's first reaction when he heard these words was not that Chi Mian actually left all his inheritance to Yan Yu, but...he didn't know how to face Yan Yu.

Rao has seen life and death all over, experienced the death of his lover, and was polished by society evenly, but he still can't get used to life and death.

In other words, no one can get used to facing life and death.

Seeing that Lu Chaokong didn't speak for a long time, Yan Yu already understood, his lips trembled, and tears fell like rain in an instant.

At this time, Lu Chaokong finally felt that Ji Shiyan was completely indifferent to Chi Mian's death.

They were all tears bursting out of the embankment, and they were all crying silently, but compared with Yan Yu's, Ji Shiyan cried when he heard Chi Mian's death, and really just shed tears without emotion because he poked the lacrimal gland.

However, when Yan Yu was crying at the moment, his facial features and expression did not change at all, but his eyebrows and eyes seemed to have been soaked in sadness, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and the strong sadness was rendered for no reason. It was too strong, and the surrounding air seemed to be crying along with it.

Lu Chaokong could no longer see the brilliance of the past in his eyes.

"Hug...sorry..."

Yan Yu casually wiped away tears, bit her lips hard, trying to suppress her inner emotions: "I couldn't control it, I lost my composure. I won't bother you anymore, I'll go back first..."

The door of the training room was suddenly opened from the inside. Ji Shiyan didn't want others to see Yan Yu's current state, so he opened a small slit, and got out from that slit, holding a pack of tissues in his hand.

He walked up to Yan Yu, with worry on his face, and asked in a low voice: "Yan Yu, do you want to go to our room and talk?"

"I……"

Yan Yu was stunned for a moment, it was obvious that the whole person reacted slowly because of the trance, so Ji Shiyan directly took his arm and supported him to walk forward.

Ji Shiyan and Lu Chaokong lived together naturally, Lu Chaokong opened the door for the two of them, and then closed it gently after they entered, but he did not follow in.

Ji Shiyan didn't care, he sat on the side of the bed with Yan Yu directly, took out a tissue and gently wiped the latter's tears: "Don't cry, Yan Yu, don't cry..."

Then he suddenly thought of something, paused, did not continue to wipe, but hugged Yan Yu: "Forget it, you should cry, maybe it will feel better if you cry."

As soon as the words fell, he felt hot tears dripping down his shoulders, more and more dripping down.

Yan Yu's crying was still silent, he just shed tears silently, but after a while, he seemed to be unable to hold back anymore, he raised his hand to cover his face, and sobbed softly between his fingers.

Ji Shiyan's heart seemed to be pulled, and he felt an unspeakable pain.

But he couldn't do anything, he couldn't share Yan Yu's pain, he couldn't even empathize with him, so Ji Shiyan could only hold Yan Yu tighter and pat the latter's back lightly.

Yan Yu was still trying to control it, and after a while, he put down his hand, raised his head from Ji Shiyan's shoulder, stared blankly at one direction, and said in a trance, "Yanyan, can you tell me what happened? , if you have time now..."

"Have time."

Ji Shiyan pursed her lips, handed Yan Yu a piece of toilet paper, and recalled that not-so-good experience again.

He couldn't remember some details clearly, such as how Lu Chaokong was kicked to the ground, such as the scene of Chi Nanjing's death, but Yan Yu obviously didn't need and didn't want to know these.

Ji Shiyan only mentioned that Chi Mian committed suicide in front of him, and then turned his face to look at Yan Yu worriedly.

"Ah."

Yan Yu was silent for a moment, and tried to say in a relaxed tone: "Yes, he told me to let him give up on you unless he gave up his life."

Ji Shiyan didn't know how to answer the conversation.

He felt that no matter what he said at this moment, it would make Yan Yu's heart a little bit slower.

"He also told me that he has no nostalgia for this world. When you died for the first time, he wanted to go with you, but his father used your reputation to force him to live."

Ji Shiyan let out a "hmm".

In Chi Mian's villa, Chi Mian also told him this.

"He said that he is alive now, but he just doesn't want his father to hurt you again. In fact, he knows better than anyone else that he can't take you away from God Lu. I can understand, Yanyan, I can understand why he would Suicide, maybe it was his last chance to let you come back, although it was forced, but he still voluntarily chose to let you be with Lu Shen, and he killed his father again. The two obsessions that support his life, One has been completed, and the other was abandoned by himself, so he..."

After a pause, Yan Yu continued: "I'm sorry Yanyan, I shouldn't have said that, he knew that he committed suicide because he wanted you to feel indebted to him, no matter how bad he was, he could make you forget him, he was really selfish, in the end I am still hurting you with my own hands. And you were taken away by them because they put a bug on me and heard that I wanted to find Lu Shen and leave you alone, so I sent you a message with my account. Sorry, I know my apology-"

"Need not."

Ji Shiyan immediately interrupted him: "Don't apologize, don't think about me, we are standing on your side now. Yan Yu, don't think about me, I am accompanying you to think about yourself."

Yan Yu was slightly taken aback.

His lips fluttered for a moment, then he suddenly lowered his head, his voice was very soft, as if a gust of wind could blow it away: "He said that he was a person who was dying, and told me not to be tempted by him, but if this kind of thing can be so easily controlled , he won't let go of his feelings for you, so do I..."

Ji Shiyan pursed her lips, and hugged him again: "Well, it's not your fault—no, I mean, there's really no way to do this, I... I don't know how to comfort you, I can only say I am sorry for your loss."

"fine."

Yan Yu smiled at him, but his eyebrows and eyes were still faintly sad: "Thank you for telling me all this, I should go back too, you must be tired after going through so much, go to rest early."

Ji Shiyan nodded.

"Yanyan, you and God Lu must take care of each other and cherish every moment, because natural disasters and man-made disasters may only last for a moment."

"Mr. Chi just called me yesterday afternoon and said he would come to watch CJ's game. Today I... can't wait for him anymore."

Yan Yu's voice was a little dazed, but he quickly regained his composure: "Let's not talk about this, we have a training match with ERG tomorrow, can I have an appointment with you in two days?"

Ji Shiyan responded immediately: "No problem."

Yan Yu smiled: "Thank you, Yanyan."

As soon as the two opened the door, Lu Chaokong was also walking from the corridor.

approached.Ji Shiyan was startled suddenly, and raised his face to look at Lu Chaokong.

He smelled the long-lost faint smell of smoke from Lu Chaokong.

"God Lu."

Yan Yu nodded to Lu Chaokong, and said politely, "Sorry to bother you."

Lu Chaokong's expression was flat: "No."

"Then I'll go back first."

Lu Chaokong: "Yes."

Yan Yu then smiled at Ji Shiyan, turned around and walked towards the end of the corridor.

"correct."

Lu Chaokong suddenly said again: "Before Chi Mian commits suicide, let me do the last thing for him. It is to tell you about his death after the World Championships. He doesn't want to affect you. But I'm sorry, I didn't expect his lawyer to contact you. you."

Yan Yu paused.

It took a long time before he turned around, his expression had just calmed down, but now his eyes were slightly red again.

He bowed very solemnly to Lu Chaokong: "God Lu, thank you, thank you very much."

This thank you contained many meanings, such as allowing Ji Shiyan to accompany him, such as telling him about this matter, and for example, before Chi Mian committed suicide, Lu Chaokong tried his best to stop him.

Lu Chaokong's face remained calm: "My condolences."

Yan Yu responded, and then continued to walk in the direction of CJ.

"you say……"

When Yan Yu's figure disappeared into the darkness, Ji Shiyan naturally took Lu Chaokong's hand: "Did Chi Mian ever like him? Or, did you ever love him?"

Lu Chaokong didn't answer him, but said another thing: "I didn't expect Chi Mian's lawyer to contact Yan Yu first, and the speed was so fast, probably because the inheritance he left to Yan Yu was a A very large sum."

"Chi Mian didn't want Yan Yu to know about his death, but he didn't have time to tell his lawyer that his suicide was impromptu, which means that his will had been made long ago, and he had decided to put all his The inheritance was given to Yan Yu."

Ji Shiyan's tone was a bit sad: "Maybe it's because Chi Mian always felt that he owed Yan Yu?"

"Do you think he looks like someone who has the mentality of being in debt and making up for it?"

Lu Chaokong bent down and hugged the boy, "Except for you, because he loves you."

Ji Shiyan opened his eyes slightly: "Then he treats Yan Yu..."

"do not know."

Lu Chaokong said: "Maybe we will never know."

He walked back to the room with Ji Shiyan in his arms, closed the door behind his back, and pushed the boy against the door.

Ji Shiyan thought that Lu Chaokong was going to kiss him, but Lu Chaokong just hugged him tightly, buried his face on his shoulder, and took deep and shallow breaths.

The warm breath hit the side of his neck, Ji Shiyan was stunned for a while, then raised his hand, and wrapped his arms around Lu Chaokong's neck tightly.

He suddenly realized that Lu Chaokong's mood tonight seemed to be a little bit wrong. He was obviously indifferent to everything, how could seeing Yan Yu like that affect his mood, he didn't accompany Yan Yu into the room with him, and even smoked after a long absence.

Maybe it's because I'm too tired. Since I haven't rested since last night, my mood is easily fluctuated.

Ji Shiyan then imitated Lu Chaokong's way of comforting himself, gently stroking the back of his neck.

After a long time, Lu Chaokong raised his head and silently kissed Ji Shiyan's lips.

"Lu Chaokong."

Ji Shiyan caressed the side of his face: "What's the matter, can you tell me?"

Lu Chaokong watched him quietly for a while: "It's nothing, I just thought of me at that time."

Ji Shiyan's heart suddenly missed a beat.

He understood what Lu Chaokong meant, he was thinking of him when he died three years ago.

The strong, deep-rooted love that could never belong to him ended abruptly overnight.

She didn't even have a chance to send him off for the last time, and she didn't even make any preparations. She was just notified of his death abruptly and coldly.

Those forgotten pains and sorrows that have faded away are all remembered instantly when they empathize with them, and they rush in overwhelmingly, as if dragging people into the deep sea, and the suffocation and deep pain when they are completely submerged, even Lu Chaokong can't accept it for a while. .

"Lu Chaokong..."

Ji Shiyan's voice trembled slightly: "Lu Chaokong, don't think about it anymore, I'm here, I'm in your arms now, we won't be separated again."

"Ah."

Lu Chaokong surrounded him in that small space, holding him a little tight, quietly feeling the boy's warm body temperature and strong heartbeat, and only then did he feel that he was still alive in the world.

After a while, Ji Shiyan raised his face and took the initiative to kiss Lu Chaokong's lips.

There was a faint smell of tobacco between her lips and teeth, but the light fragrance from the latter's body lingered on the tip of her nose. She was already hugged tightly, but Ji Shiyan still tried her best to shrink into Lu Chaokong's arms.

After parting, Ji Shiyan jumped out of Lu Chaokong's arms, took the latter's hand, and led him into the bathroom.

"Let's wash up and go to bed."

Ji Shiyan looked up at Lu Chaokong: "It's easy to affect your mood at night, maybe you'll be fine after a night of sleep, and you have to train tomorrow."

Then he took the toothbrush and toothpaste, squeezed it, stood on tiptoe, and handed it to Lu Chaokong's lips.

Lu Chaokong lowered his eyes and wanted to take it, but Ji Shiyan held down his hand.

Ji Shiyan bent his eyes at him: "I'll wash you up, just like before."

Then he paused for a moment, and added cautiously: "It seems that I haven't washed you much...you are helping me."

Looking at the boy's bright and clear eyes, Lu Chaokong couldn't hold back, slightly raised the corners of his lips, picked up the boy, and put him on the sink.

The heart submerged in the sealed negative emotions gradually began to ease.

Ji Shiyan wrapped her legs around Lu Chaokong, put one hand on Lu Chaokong's shoulder, and brushed his teeth carefully with the other.

Lu Chaokong lowered his eyes and kept staring at Ji Shiyan.

After Ji Shiyan washed him, he sat cross-legged on the sink and finished washing himself, then reached out to ask Lu Chaokong to carry him back to the bed.

Lu Chaokong changed into his pajamas and put his own white shirt on the boy.

Just as the fluffy head came out of the collar, and the hair was still a little messy, Ji Shiyan put his arms around Lu Chaokong's neck again, pulled him off, and kissed his lips.

The two tossed and tossed for a while, Lu Chaokong turned off the lights, covered Ji Shiyan with a quilt, and hugged him into his arms: "Good night, Yanyan."

"Good night, Lu Chaokong."

Ji Shiyan looked at him with bright eyes: "You must stop thinking about it, we will always be together."

"Ah."

Lu Chaokong stroked the corners of his eyes and replied, "Yes."