The whole e-sports circle is waiting for me to drop the horse

Chi Mian's lips moved, and he didn't say anything for a long time.

Such Ji Shiyan made him too strange, so strange that he had the illusion that he would never be able to catch him, as if he no longer needed his protection, and would never return to his arms.

"Smoke smoke..."

Ji Shiyan looked at him calmly, seeing that Chi Mian had no intention of answering, she lowered her eyes, continued to pick up the bowl and walked into the kitchen.

After flushing through the water and putting it into the dishwasher, Ji Shiyan pushed open the door, without looking at Chi Mian again, and walked around him directly upstairs.

Chi Mian suddenly raised her hand and grabbed his wrist.

His voice wasn't too loud, just enough for Ji Shiyan to hear clearly: "He's awake, but his mental state is very bad. Shen Zhijiu took him away."

Ji Shiyan paused.

The word "wake up" is like a small knife. It cut a crack in the ice wall that Ji Shiyan had been holding back to think about it for the past few days. , the entire ice wall collapsed.

Without the support of pretending to be strong, Ji Shiyan seemed to have lost all his strength, no matter whether he was in front of Chi Mian or not, he just knelt down slowly, buried his face in his hands, and began to cry softly.

It seems that there is hope for everything.

The light came in, the ice and snow melted, and the soft heart inside was beating vigorously again.

As long as Lu Chaokong is still alive, Ji Shiyan feels nothing to be afraid of. He believes in Lu Chaokong, and he will wait for him if he wants.

From Chi Mian's angle, one could clearly see the boy's thin shoulders shrugging slightly, a few tears slipped down his wrist, the sobs were as small as a cat's cry, but they cut his heart one by one .

He put his hands on the table so hard that his knuckles turned white, resisting the urge to overturn a table of dishes to vent his emotions, closed his eyes, then pushed aside the chair and squatted in front of Ji Shiyan.

"Yanyan, don't cry."

Chi Mian touched the side of Ji Shiyan's face with her fingertips, and softly comforted her: "Yanyan, don't cry, it won't look good if your eyes are swollen from crying."

Ji Shiyan snuffed his nose, wiped away his tears casually with his sleeve, and when he raised his face again, his expression of indifference had recovered, and he stood up: "I'll get us some soup."

Chi Mian was taken aback.

After a while, Ji Shiyan came out, brought two bowls of hot soup, and put one bowl in front of Chi Mian. The formula said, "Be careful, drink more."

Chi Mian sat down stiffly and took the spoon. He knew very well that Ji Shiyan's current reaction was because this "deal" had already taken effect, so his attitude towards himself would change for the better.

Not at all from the heart.

"Smoke smoke..."

Ji Shiyan raised his eyes.

Chi Mian and him looked at each other awkwardly for a moment, and then smiled: "I know you said you didn't like roses before, but he took you to the rose garden, so I'm not sure if you still like them now. I'll be back next week, do you have any other flowers you want me to bring?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, he regretted it. He knew that Ji Shiyan would definitely say no.

But Chi Mian had never flattered anyone so much before, and he didn't even know what to talk about, so he added in a self-defeating manner: "Forget it, I'll see for myself."

Unexpectedly, a few seconds later, Ji Shiyan said: "Iris."

Chi Mian's smile froze.

This answer is not as good as "no".

Every year for the past three years, he has been able to see the iris sent by Lu Chaokong in front of Ji Shiyan's tomb. He knows that the flower language of the iris is - I will always miss you, so every time Lu Chaokong leaves, he will throw a large bunch of exquisite irises into the garbage can.

In fact, he didn't even want to let Lu Chaokong enter Ji Shiyan's cemetery. If his mother didn't feel that he owed Lu Chaokong, let Chi Mian unconditionally agree to a request from Lu Chaokong, and Lu Chaokong chose this, Chi Mian would never let Lu Chaokong see Ji Shiyan. tomb.

When he was still by his side, Ji Shiyan never expressed that he liked irises, and he might not even know this kind of flower.

Seeing that Chi Mian didn't make a sound for a long time, Ji Shiyan said indifferently: "That's no need, just do whatever you want, as long as you are happy."

Chi Mian gritted her teeth and said slowly, "Okay, I'll bring it back for you."

Ji Shiyan said "um", "Thank you."

"You don't need to say thank you to me in the future."

Ji Shiyan: "Oh."

For the rest of the meal, the two didn't say anything to each other, but Ji Shiyan didn't leave, and sat quietly opposite Chi Mian.

After dinner, Ji Shiyan didn't go for a walk by the beach or read a book in the living room as usual, but went straight back to the room and locked the door behind his back.

He sat on the carpet, staring at the darkness outside the window in a daze, his right eye kept twitching, and he felt a little uneasy in his heart.

Sure enough, before going to bed, there was a knock on the door outside.

Ji Shiyan tightened her fingertips.

"Smoke."

Chi Mian's voice was still very gentle: "Open the door."

Ji Shiyan looked at the door lock for a while, reckoning that it would not be able to withstand Chi Mian's kick, then he compromised with himself, got out of bed and opened the door.

Chi Mian has already changed into her home clothes. When she has a normal temper, her eyebrows and eyes are very good-looking, her peach blossom eyes are slightly curved, and she is not aggressive at all.

It should be that he just finished his work, or he hasn't finished his work yet. With the computer in his hand, he smiled at Chao Ji Shiyan: "Are you going to sleep?"

Ji Shiyan let out a "hmm".

"Then you go to bed first, and I'll watch the computer next to you for a while."

Ji Shiyan looked at him, with one hand still on the doorknob, without moving or speaking.

Chi Mian rubbed his tired temples, and said softly, "Yanyan, I won't touch you, can I just sleep on the same bed with you?"

Ji Shiyan thought about the consequences of disobeying Chi Mian, so instead of rejecting him, he turned around and took out a new set of bedding and pillows.

He arranged it on one side of the bed, then got into the bed, wrapped himself into a silkworm chrysalis and stuck it against the wall.

But Chi Mian didn't come over soon, but continued to look at the computer on the side table.

He didn't sleep all the time, and Ji Shiyan couldn't sleep well.

I don't know how long it has passed, Ji Shiyan couldn't bear it anymore and fell asleep in a daze, but in his sleep he suddenly felt that he was being hugged in his arms, and then he woke up suddenly.

He struggled to sit up and saw Chi Mian's arms around his waist. The latter had just fallen asleep, and his eyes were too tired to open.

"Smoke."

Chi Mian closed her eyes, and said in a tired voice, "I don't do anything, I'll just give you a hug."

Ji Shiyan stared at him for a while, then lay down again, but took Chi Mian's arm away.

Chi Mian's arm was put up again, he took it away again, and Chi Mian's arm was put on again.

Ji Shiyan gave up, shrunk himself into a ball, and closed his eyes forcibly.

Soon the sound of steady breathing came from behind, and seeing that Chi Mian really hadn't done anything, Ji Shiyan was relieved and went back to sleep.

When he woke up the next morning, there was no one around him.

When he got up, he saw that Chi Mian was sitting in front of the computer and working. The room was still dark, and the lights and curtains were not turned on.

Ji Shiyan, who was half asleep and half awake, just wanted to say that dark light is bad for eyes, but he soon woke up. Chi Mian's life or death has nothing to do with him, so why remind him of such things.

He straightened his messy hair and got out of bed.

Hearing the sound, Chi Mian turned around and smiled, "Yanyan, you're awake."

Ji Shiyan: "Yes."

Chi Mian stood up and came over to hold his hand: "Let's go, let's go down to eat."

Aunt Huang is here, or Chi Mian is still very restrained, and he doesn't have any excessive intimacy during the day.

In the morning, Ji Shiyan sat in front of the large French window in the living room and read a book, while Chi Mian worked beside him. After lunch break, Chi Mian took him for a walk on the island, watching the waves, flowers and plants.

Shiyan from the previous century knew that Chi Mian was very busy. To support such a large family business, countless competitors were eyeing him. Chi Mian could not relax for a moment.

This is also the reason why Ji Shiyan never hated Chi Mian in his previous life. Although he was paranoid and possessive towards him, Chi Mian worked desperately there in order to provide him with a completely carefree growth environment and professional atmosphere.

Otherwise, given the extremely poor relationship between Chi Mian and Chi Nanjing, Chi Mian would probably be a prodigal, and how easy and happy it is to be a rich second generation idle.

He was so tired only because he had someone he wanted to protect.

But Lu Chaokong is not like that.

As soon as he thought of the three words Lu Chaokong, Ji Shiyan's gratitude and friendship to Chi Mian would all disappear.

Sometimes he even wondered, if he had never existed in this world, would Lu Chaokong and Chi Mian have a better life than they are now, and even cherish each other because of their similar abilities.

But it seems not.

He remembered that Chi Mian mentioned his mother on the cliff that day, and he didn't think that Lu Chaokong would kill an innocent person. If he could go back, he planned to ask Lu Chaokong out of curiosity.

On the second weekend, Chi Mian came on time, holding a large bouquet of irises.

Although it was completely different from Lu Chaokong's packaging and flower arrangement style, when Ji Shiyan took the bouquet and the light fragrance lingered at the tip of his nose, he finally had the illusion that Lu Chaokong was by his side.

Evening was still the most difficult time for Ji Shiyan. He was hugged tightly by Chi Mian from behind. Although he was only touching through the clothes, the arm around his waist still made him almost suffocate.

During the day, the two still read a book and work while the other went for a walk side by side in the afternoon.

During the two of them getting along, Ji Shiyan still didn't talk to Chi Mian very much, but he didn't say anything very sad. Every time he lowered his eyes calmly, Chi Mian always felt that he was gradually different from the quiet and obedient him in his previous life. With that little resemblance.

Under the high-intensity work pressure, it is rare to have such a slow-paced gap, the beautiful scenery is in the sky, and the lover is with him. Chi Mian always wished that time would freeze at this moment.

But on the third weekend, he didn't come.

Although Ji Shiyan didn't want to care if Chi Mian came or not, Aunt Huang still told him: "Mr. Chi has something to do this week and can't come, so he said he will bring you flowers next week."

Ji Shiyan responded.

He stuffed the prepared Chimian quilt pillow back into the closet, got into bed with a good mood, and got into the quilt.

Ji Shiyan opened the curtains a little, stared blankly at the dark and turbulent deep sea for a while, and suddenly opened her eyes wide.

He slowly sat up straight, the more he thought about it, the more correct he was, and immediately turned over and got out of bed.

——If Chi Mian knew last week that he would not be able to come this week, he would definitely tell himself.But he didn't, which meant that he must have been unable to come temporarily.

But how did Aunt Huang know that he was busy and said to bring flowers for herself next week?

Her character doesn't dare to speak freely, so she must have contacted Chi Mian.

——Aunt Huang has a way to communicate with the outside world.

Ji Shiyan couldn't control the joy in his heart, but he stopped when he just ran to the door and touched the doorknob.

Chi Mian probably told Aunt Huang not to allow him to communicate with the outside world. He had to find a way to borrow Aunt Huang's phone or e-mail.

Ji Shiyan stood there for a while, then returned to the bed step by step.

He wrapped the quilt tightly, looked out of the window again, and at the same time was thinking about what news he could bring to Lu Chaokong if he could really get in touch.

He believed that Lu Chaokong must have been trying to find him over there, but it would be hard for a normal person to think that Chi Mian would be so frantic that he would directly take him to an isolated island.

But Ji Shiyan didn't know where he was on the small island, so he planned to look for clues that could point to the location.

And it's the weekend now, even though Chi Mian said that he won't come back, he's not afraid of [-] but just in case, the safest thing is to wait until next week.

It just so happened that I was thinking of a way these days, thinking about the news I could provide to Lu Chaokong.

That night Ji Shiyan suffered from insomnia for the first time, listening to the sound of the rolling waves, lying on the bed with his eyes open, he did not fall asleep until dawn.

Seeing that he didn't go down the next day, Aunt Huang was extremely worried and anxious like ants on a hot pot. When it was twelve o'clock, she simply came up and knocked on the door.

Ji Shiyan was awakened by the knock on the door, slowly got up, and went to open the door sleepily.

His skin is extremely fair, with a little dark circles under his eyes, which are particularly obvious. In addition, he is not fully awake and his eyes are not bright, so he looks very fragile.

"Hi, are you alright?"

Aunt Huang raised her hand and touched his forehead, with a worried expression on her face: "I don't have a fever either, is there something wrong with your body?"

Ji Shiyan shook his head, and his voice was a little hoarse: "It's okay, Auntie, I just had a dream last night... I dreamed about my mother."

Aunt Huang was taken aback: "Your mother?"

Ji Shiyan instantly understood that Chi Mian had told her that she was an orphan, so she immediately changed her words, and at the same time showed an embarrassed smile: "Adoptive mother. I am an orphan, but she treats me very well, so I always call her mother."

"That's it."

Aunt Huang immediately felt relieved, and sighed: "Oh...she must miss you very much too..."

Ji Shiyan pursed her lower lip and said nothing.

Aunt Huang hesitated for a moment, but still asked: "May I ask, is she... still there?"

Ji Shiyan nodded: "Yes. It's just that I had a fierce fight with her before I left, and I didn't miss her for the first few days, but now... thinking about it now, she was doing it for my own good. I'm just throwing a tantrum."

As he said that, Ji Shiyan's eyes turned red.

He thought of Lu Chaokong.

Aunt Huang also thought of her child who died young, and rubbed Ji Shiyan's head: "It's okay, next time Mr. Chi comes, you can tell him and ask him to apologize on your behalf."

Ji Shiyan's tears flowed down: "He has a bad relationship with my mother, and he will definitely not help me. It's okay, auntie, you don't have to worry about me. I will go to dinner after staying alone for a while. I... I am It's so sad, I really want to say a few words to her..."

"Hour……"

Ji Shiyan pulled a smile at him that he didn't know whether to cry or laugh: "Really, Auntie, you don't care about me anymore, I'm sorry to make you worry."

Before closing the door, he said to himself again: "It's so easy to say an apology to others, why didn't I know how to apologize to her at that time..."

Aunt Huang was taken aback, watched the door close in front of her, opened her mouth, wanted to say something but still didn't say it.

Soon Ji Shiyan came down to eat, but from this day on, it can be seen with the naked eye that his condition is getting worse and worse, his appetite is getting smaller and smaller, and he often loses his mind when talking to him. I just huddled in the corner of the sofa for a day.

Aunt Huang was very anxious, but Chi Mian told her not to disturb him for a week, and the big brother who was in charge of fishing couldn't come up with any ideas.

Although Chi Mian said that Ji Shiyan must not touch the phone, and that being exposed to the outside world will cause him a stress response, but Aunt Huang knows that her task is to take good care of him, and now his state and health are so poor.

A child who wanted to apologize to his mother did something wrong again.

The frequency of Aunt Huang's sighs has increased a lot in the past few days. She struggled with herself for a long time, and finally when Ji Shiyan only drank a bowl of porridge for lunch, she couldn't help but said: "Xiao...you..."

Ji Shiyan looked at it, and his tone was still polite: "What's the matter, Auntie?"

Aunt Huang looked at his pale face, and sighed deeply again: "Mr. Chi won't let me contact him within a week. Seeing you like this, I have no other choice. In a while, you can use my mobile phone to call your mother." Give me a call."

Then she immediately added: "Mr. Chi is worried that you will have a stress reaction when you contact the outside world, so I have to stay with you when you make a phone call. No, I don't eavesdrop, I just watch from afar."

Ji Shiyan was taken aback.

The past few days have been ruining his body just because of Aunt Huang's words, and finally got what he wanted, but he was not as excited as he imagined.

Ji Shiyan was a little slow to react, and only said "ah" after a while.

Aunt Huang felt even more distressed immediately, and stood up quickly: "I told you to call your mother for a while and have a chat. Seeing your recent state, I feel sorry for you. Do you still drink porridge? I'll serve you some more."

Only then did Ji Shiyan react belatedly. He was able to contact the outside world...or Lu Chaokong.

only……

Ji Shiyan pursed his lips. In his previous life, he only had the numbers of Chi Mian, the manager, and the coach on his mobile phone. He didn't need to contact other people, so he never had the habit of reciting phone numbers.

He couldn't remember Lu Chaokong's mobile phone number, he only remembered the new mobile phone number that Lu Chaokong gave himself to prevent Chi Mian from texting.

His mobile phone had already been dropped in Lu Chaokong's scrapped car, so Lu Chaokong had no reason to reissue his own mobile phone card that he could not receive calls for 800 years.

For more than three weeks, it was a question of whether Lu Chaokong could get out of the hospital bed, let alone buy a mobile phone and get a calling card for himself.

Knowing that Aunt Huang was able to communicate with the outside world, the joyful mood has already been poured cold water, but no matter how slim the hope is, Ji Shiyan will try his best to give it a try.

He drank another half bowl of porridge, then quietly curled up in the corner of the sofa in a daze.

Aunt Huang cleaned up the dishes, went to her own room after she came back, and then handed a PHS-like mobile phone to Ji Shiyan.

"A phone call can only last for 5 minutes, and Mr. Chi will check it out. I'll tell you this time that I couldn't help calling my family. I guess it won't work anymore."

Ji Shiyan nodded quickly, took it, and thanked her.

Seeing that the eyes of the boy in front of him were no longer bright, and he was so thin that a gust of wind could blow him away, Aunt Huang rubbed his head and sighed: "You call first, I'll come over after I put some detergent in the dishwasher. "

As soon as she turned around, Ji Shiyan pressed the string of phone numbers, and then dialed out without hesitation.

Because if he could get through, Aunt Huang hadn't come back yet, so he would have time to call out Lu Chaokong's name.

The moment Ji Shiyan pressed the dial button, his heart rose to the tip of his throat.

He was terribly afraid that there would be a long and endless notification tone on the other side. After a few days of hope and preparation, all he could get was "Sorry, the number you dialed is temporarily unanswered, please try again later."

Aunt Huang has already entered the kitchen, but the phone has not been connected yet.

Ji Shiyan's eyes gradually dimmed, and she lowered her eyes while hugging her knees.

However, the next second, the notification tone suddenly disappeared.

Ji Shiyan was startled, and suddenly held his breath.

For a moment, there came a familiar low voice that was missed by countless midnight dreams, and it seemed that it had been a lifetime since the last time I heard it.

"Hello."

In just two syllables, Ji Shiyan burst into tears instantly.