The whole e-sports circle is waiting for me to drop the horse

Ji Shiyan's heart ached suddenly and it was difficult to breathe.

He thought that the dream of being taken away by Chi Mian in the cage before the summer game, in which Lu Chaokong knelt in front of him with tears, was a picture from his previous life.

——But unexpectedly, this life finally reappeared.

Are they destined... to say goodbye?

Chi Mian's expression also froze, he clenched his fists, and wanted to question Lu Chaokong for daring to tell Shi Yan that Ji Shiyan was poisoned to death, but seeing Lu Chaokong's disheartened expression, he didn't give up.

He had already seen everything from Lu Chaokong's reaction, but he really couldn't believe it...or rather, he avoided believing it.

The three of them maintained their previous postures, and with the breeze blowing gently, everyone's expressions seemed to be imprinted in the air.

After a long time, Chi Mian moved first, his gait was a little unsteady, and he moved in front of Ji Shiyan with one deep foot and one shallow foot, obviously threatening, but his voice was trembling but he seemed so lacking in confidence: "You... know how to deceive me as a result of."

Ji Shiyan still had a faint smile on his lips, and looked up at him: "Really, I never lied to you in my previous life, so I still ended up being poisoned to death by you."

"Chi Mian, what evidence do you still want to hear? You gave me a surveillance bracelet, you put me in a cage, you wanted to rape me in the car, and finally you handed me a poison."

"No, Yanyan..."

Chi Mian's body trembled violently, and wanted to caress Ji Shiyan's face, but when he raised his hand, he saw the blood on his hand and put it down: "I didn't take that...it was the quilt, it was Chi Nanjing Changed, I don't know...I really don't know, sorry, Yanyan is sorry..."

Ji Shiyan was taken aback.

He seemed to have heard Chi Mian's heart-piercing "smoke" before he died, but it had been too long, halfway between the world of mortals and the cycle of life and death, and his whole body was wrapped in pain and despair. Not sure if it was his hallucination.

But now that he knows, what's the use of it, the damage he has done to himself and Lu Chaokong has already been done, they can't go back to the past, Ji Shiyan now only has hatred for him.

"Oh."

He said: "So, you also fed it to me with your own hands."

"I……"

The veins on the back of Chi Mian's hands bulged, and the eyes were in a trance mixed with pain: "Yes, I fed it to you, I'm sorry Yanyan, I...I killed you...I'm sorry..."

"I don't want to listen to your apology, Chi Mian, I still say the same thing, you take Lu Chaokong to the hospital now, if he is fine, I will go with you, otherwise I will die in front of you."

Chi Mian was taken aback.

He suddenly realized something, and gritted his teeth: "You and Lu Chaokong...are you and Lu Chaokong together?"

Ji Shiyan's voice was very soft: "No."

He said: "But when you wanted to cripple my wrist and let someone drive over me to death, didn't Lu Chaokong save me?"

"Chi Mian, you probably don't want me to come back to you with an apology to Lu Chaokong."

"I didn't know it was you, I..."

Chi Mian took a deep breath, put one hand on the side of the car to support her body, took out her mobile phone and made a call.

"I called the medical helicopter, Yanyan, follow me home."

Ji Shiyan let go of his hand: "I want to go to the hospital with Lu Chaokong."

Chi Mian's eyes turned cold, but he quickly controlled his emotions: "He won't die."

Ji Shiyan looked at him without speaking.

Chi Mian clenched her fists, her nails dug into her flesh, and her heart ached at the thought of the relationship between Lu Chaokong and Ji Shiyan.

But he had no choice, he personally pushed Ji Shiyan to Lu Chaokong.

Chi Mian closed her eyes: "Okay, go. Come home with me after you go."

He let the medical helicopter take Lu Chaokong directly to a private hospital.

This is the property under the name of the Chi family, where Shiyan's death in the previous century was covered up as a car accident.

Ji Shiyan felt that his soul no longer belonged to him. Probably from the moment he told Chi Mian about his identity, he suddenly returned to the soul that was imprisoned in the body in the previous life and never had freedom and self-emotion.

The smell of disinfectant filled the air, and the bright green light of the letters ICU hurt people's eyes. Ji Shiyan watched the door slowly close, and then leaned his head on the back of the chair, as if he had lost all his strength. I closed my eyes.

Chi Mian had already wiped his hands, but he didn't dare to touch Ji Shiyan, he hesitated for a moment, and sat quietly beside him.

"Smoke."

Ji Shiyan closed his eyes and remained motionless.

Chi Mian didn't expect that he could respond to her, but stared at Ji Shiyan's side face in a daze, in disbelief, "Yanyan, you're really back..."

"Why am I so stupid, you are so similar to Yanyan, why didn't I think that this is you..."

"Ah."

Ji Shiyan didn't open his eyes, but answered the words: "So I was almost killed by you more than once, because I was very similar to the 'Ji Shiyan' in your heart, but you didn't recognize me after all. Chi Mian, I am no longer Ji Shiyan, let me go."

Chi Mian's pupils shrank.

He reached out and grabbed Ji Shiyan's wrist directly: "Impossible, Yanyan, I can give you everything I have, and I will make up for all the injuries you have suffered, but I can't let you go to Lu Chaokong again."

A life, how to make up for it.

Ji Shiyan knew very well that after Chi Mian knew that he was Ji Shiyan, he would not let him go again, and he didn't have any hope when he said this.

He said "oh".

The air fell into silence again, and both of them knew very well that this would be the case when the topic was brought up.

Chi Mian stared at Ji Shiyan's face for a while, then suddenly said, "Yanyan, I'll call people from KPG to accompany Lu Chaokong, you and I will go home."

After a pause, he softened his tone: "Can you?"

Ji Shiyan trembled all over.

He opened his eyes, and the tears couldn't stop flowing out.

His team...

It is still unknown whether Lu Chaokong can return to his previous peak state. In less than two months, he can't even reach the most basic health. If he wants to go with Chi Mian, he will definitely not let himself go back to KPG.

They lost the bot lane team in the middle of the season, what will they do in the next game? Isn’t it because the ad who was brought up from the second team couldn’t get top players during the transfer period, can they successfully integrate with others in such a short period of time?Even if the running-in is successful, KPG has always taken the ad as the absolute core position. Can the new ad be competent for this C position and lead them to win the next game?

Blame yourself.

In the past three years, KPG has been doing well, aspiring to the top of the world, ruling the LPL, and there has never been a change in personnel.

And once I was reborn, not only half of the support players left, but even the ad and the captain were affected by me, so they couldn't play the game in such an important stage of the summer split, when they were competing for the World Championship.

——I don’t know if I can return to the previous state in the future.

Such a talented player, such a famous adc who is admired by thousands of people in the world.

Ji Shiyan buried her face in her hands, not daring to cry loudly, she could only whimper like a small animal, tears slipped down her fingers and hit her clothes drop by drop.

Seeing Ji Shiyan burst into tears suddenly, Chi Mian was stunned for a while, then quickly hugged the boy into his arms, and comforted him repeatedly: "Yanyan, don't cry... Yanyan, if you want to play a game, I will let you Back to CJ, starting support position, okay?"

Ji Shiyan really wanted Chi Mian to die, there was a flash of hatred in his tearful eyes buried in his palms, but he dared not say anything or move.

He wiped away the tears from his face and raised his head: "Where's Yan Yu? Chi Mian, you're so funny. You said you only love me, but you don't really love others. The fireworks are so beautiful. Don't tell me." You're just playing around, so what are you going to do about Yan Yu's feelings for you? Just leave him like that?"

"I……"

Chi Mian remembered that Ji Shiyan bumped into him on a date with Yan Yu, and closed his eyes in pain: "I'm not... He and I, we just get what we need..."

"Yeah, each takes what he wants. You think he is like me, and you think he is me. This is what you need, but you say, what does he want from you?"

Chi Mian was stopped by the question and was stunned for a long time before answering the question.

Ji Shiyan looked at him, and suddenly smiled: "You can't tell. Yan Yu never wants anything from you, he just likes you."

"So let me go, and let yourself go. You have someone who truly loves you. Yan Yu is better than me in every way. Not only am I cowardly, but I don't know what love is. You and I are in pain."

"Smoke smoke..."

Chi Mian's expression was a little stiff. He really felt that Ji Shiyan had changed a lot, to the point where he was unfamiliar and even scared. After experiencing life and death once, would it really make people change so much.

But he didn't know that just a few hours ago, Ji Shiyan was still instinctively fearing and avoiding him, yesterday Ji Shiyan was still throwing temper tantrums at Lu Chaokong, and Ji Shiyan was still hugging Lu Chaokong two days ago. Lu Chaokong kissed and acted like a baby.

In many cases, people's growth and maturity are only in an instant.

Ji Shiyan closed his eyes again: "I won't go back to play the game. I'm a damn person, I don't want to and it's impossible to replace someone else's position."

"To put it nicely, how could you let me play the game, you will only lock me up so that Lu Chaokong can't find me."

"Chi Mian, because of the two years I took care of you in the orphanage, my two lives were ruined by you. That's it."

After saying this, Ji Shiyan closed his eyes again and stopped looking at Chi Mian's expression.

Chi Mian's lips trembled, and countless words were stuck in his throat, but he was weak and pale, just like his face at this moment.

He knew that what Ji Shiyan said was right, he was the one who ruined Ji Shiyan.

He also knew that it was impossible for Ji Shiyan to fall in love with him.

But even if Ji Shiyan has already talked about this, he will not let go.

The years are still long, he can... he will try his best to make Ji Shiyan fall in love with him, if he doesn't fall in love, he can accept it and go back to how he was before.

The smell of disinfectant still lingers on the tip of the nose, and the green lights are flickering non-stop. In the dead and bleak atmosphere here, it seems impossible to even notice the passage of time.

I haven't slept well since last night, and when this happened again, Ji Shiyan was exhausted, but he couldn't fall asleep anyway.

It was as if a big rock had fallen on my heart, and it weighed heavily on me and I couldn't breathe.

Ji Shiyan always felt like he had a nightmare, and when he woke up, he was still in Lu Chaokong's arms, training and playing games with his teammates, listening to Jian Beihan and Ling Wang bickering, and drinking the porridge cooked by Liquor.

but no.

He woke up countless times, only to see the glaring ICU letters, his wrist was gripped by Chi Mian, like a prohibition branded on his soul, and he still couldn't get rid of it with another body.

Ji Shiyan didn't dare to show his eager concern for Lu Chaokong in front of Chi Mian, so he could only force himself to put on a flat and numb expression, but the moment the door of the emergency room opened, he still stood up abruptly and was about to rush over.

Because he got up too quickly and didn't move for more than ten hours without eating or drinking, he was suffering from hypoglycemia, Ji Shiyan's eyes darkened, and then Chi Mian hugged his waist.

"let me go."

He yelled at Chi Mian: "Let me see Lu Chaokong!"

Chi Mian's hand strength did not weaken at all, and said in a deep voice, "You sit here, and I will watch for you."

"Chi Mian, let go! You bastard, let go!!"

Unable to break free, Ji Shiyan's eyes were flushed, instantly wet with tears, and he shouted again: "Doctor! Doctor, is he okay...Doctor, please, is he okay..."

The doctor took a look at Chi Mian, and after getting tacit consent, he said, "He is out of danger, but it's hard to say whether he can wake up."

Ji Shiyan's body trembled, tears gushed out like a bank, and his voice trembled weakly: "Lu Chaokong...Lu Chaokong, don't scare me...Lu Chaokong, wake up..."

"Ji Shiyan!"

Chi Mian called him, and at the same time signaled the doctor to push the operating trolley into the intensive care unit, then grabbed Ji Shiyan's arm and pulled him to the next door.

Ji Shiyan's heart ached so much that he was about to suffocate, and the panic that Lu Chaokong might not wake up was about to swallow him up. He was still crying but he bit his lips tightly, his throat choked up softly, and he controlled himself not to cry in front of Chi Mian. speak out.

"Pool sleep."

He wiped his tears, gritted his teeth and said, "Let me meet Lu Chaokong."

Chi Mian didn't miss the unconcealable hatred in Ji Shiyan's eyes, and his heart skipped a beat.

His heart sank gradually, and the realization that Ji Shiyan hated him made him feel a little dazed, almost out of breath.

For a moment, his voice was very cold, but suppressing the bitterness, he asked, "You and Lu Chaokong... have done it?"

"No."

Ji Shiyan stared at him firmly: "It's not like what you did to Yan Yu."

Chi Mian's heart finally didn't feel so uncomfortable. She stared at Ji Shiyan for a while, and then said softly, "I've sent the KPG people over. You can rest assured that they will take care of Lu Chaokong. Yanyan, come home with me."

With that said, he took Ji Shiyan's hand and walked out.

There was a flash of despair in Ji Shiyan's eyes.

When he just walked to the door, he suddenly stopped: "Wait a minute."

Chi Mian turned around.

Ji Shiyan took out something from his neck, and said calmly: "It was given to me by Lu Chaokong, let me go and make a break with him."

When he saw the half heart and the obvious couple necklace, Chi Mian's pupils shrank suddenly, and the strength of his hand holding Ji Shiyan's wrist increased unconsciously.

Ji Shiyan frowned in pain, and it was only when Chi Mian realized that he immediately let go.

"it is good."

Chi Mian's expression was a bit gloomy, but he tried to keep his tone gentle: "Go and return it to him, don't keep me waiting."

Ji Shiyan put on a sterile surgical gown, and the moment he opened the door, tears couldn't stop flowing down again.

He saw that Lu Chaokong's face was pale and lifeless, his lips that had kissed him countless times had lost their color, and he was lying there quietly with his eyes closed, his body wrapped in gauze and filled with countless tubes.

Ji Shiyan flickered, and slowly covered his mouth.

His Lu Chaokong used to be such a high-spirited, fresh-clothed and angry horse, he should turn his hands in the clouds and rain in the Summoner's Canyon and the professional arena he loves, and create his own glory and era.

Instead of lying on the hospital bed like now, with unknown life and death.

Ji Shiyan felt that he was a scourge, a catastrophe. In his previous life, Lu Chaokong's temperament changed drastically, and in this life, his life and death were uncertain.

He stared at Lu Chaokong's face in a daze, as if he wanted to keep this moment in his heart, not knowing when the next time he would see him...whether he would have a chance.

However, after a while, Ji Shiyan suddenly saw Chi Mian standing outside the door, and was about to open the door. He didn't dare to stay any longer, and immediately took off the necklace.

He leaned over slowly, opened Lu Chaokong's fingers one by one, and put them into his palm.

Although it was cold, the familiar touch of the skin made him unable to control his tears.

Then, Ji Shiyan bent down, put his lips against Lu Chaokong's ear, and said every word, very lightly but firmly: "Lu Chaokong, I am Ji Shiyan. I love you too. Did you hear me? I love you too, you must wake up, I will always wait for you."