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Leng Feng is the last artist to join this batch of residency creation projects. The day he came happened to be the Chinese New Year, and the residency gave him a simple welcome ceremony as usual.

There were a lot of people in the public hall, including artists and staff, except for Jonas and those who had received Leng Feng, he didn't know anyone else. Leng Feng glanced over and thought that each of these people looked more "artistic" than himself , He felt that he had really been out of this circle for a long time, and now he suddenly saw so many unruly people, he would feel out of place and not used to it.

The newcomer wanted to introduce himself, so Leng Feng had to stand up and briefly say a few words, what is his name, what he does, where he is from, and then he sat down. He has not yet adapted to the atmosphere here, nor does he want to be here What is in the limelight is eye-catching.

But as soon as he sat down, someone in the crowd yelled, "geil!", and everyone burst into roaring laughter.

Leng Feng was taken aback, he knew the meaning of this word, if there were decent Germans of the older generation around, he would cover his face and scold others, this is a word with a very strong meaning of sex, even though he praised Leng Feng as "general batch", but at the same time, it also fully expresses the desire to be with him in one way or another, which is very straightforward and naked.

Leng Feng couldn't help frowning, trying to find the source of the sound.

It was obviously a man's voice, and this "geil" directly ignited the somewhat indifferent party scene. People all over the world liked to boo. Asian faces.

Although the man was coaxed for a while, his face was a little red, but his eyes did not evade. He looked at Leng Feng with some kind of shining eyes, walked over to shake hands with him, and said in jerky Chinese: "Hi, I His name is Li Jiahao, and he is a photographer."

Leng Feng understood, this is the German-Chinese photographer with a Lycra around his neck, and he gestured to Leng Feng for the camera after speaking: "Can you?"

Out of politeness, Leng Feng had no choice but to nod, Li Jiahao pressed the shutter to him a few times, gestured OK, and said, "It's too noisy here, there are too many people, I'll take some good photos for you later. "

Other people's attention is no longer on Leng Feng, today is New Year's Eve in Germany, people in the room took advantage of this reason to have a party and revelry, and they got excited, Leng Feng bowed his head and said to Li Jiahao: "Thank you, but no need, I I don't like taking pictures."

Li Jiahao shrugged: "You won't say that when you see the photo I took of you."

Leng Feng also shrugged like him, and repeated in German: "I don't shoot."

"Okay, okay, don't shoot if you don't shoot," Li Jiahao said, "Only have sex, don't take pictures, that's fine."

Leng Feng was like wrestling on the ground and choking on water, he was so shocked that he didn't know what to say, he stared at Li Jiahao, Li Jiahao was also stunned, after a while he leaned into Leng Feng's ear and said: "Are you a virgin? Or do you not like men?"

Leng Feng said something belatedly, pushed Li Jiahao away, and said, "Stay away from me."

Li Jiahao didn't know what the brain circuit was, and he wasn't angry, but he was a little puzzled, and asked, "Are you really an artist?"

It's not easy for Leng Feng to answer this question. After all, he just picked up this identity not long ago, so he can't justly say that I am an artist. Seeing him stunned, Li Jiahao nodded understandingly and said, "No wonder, you are a newcomer, right? Have you never been to the station? Still can’t let go.”

Leng Feng had a series of thoughts in his heart, what to let go or not... He frowned and said: "How you want to play is your business, don't take me."

Li Jiahao took a beer, took a sip and said, "Do you know about the Olympics?"

Leng Feng didn't bother to answer these irrelevant words, Li Jiahao smiled and said: "Every time the Olympic Games, athletes from all over the world come together, do you know what is the largest amount of rubbish produced?"

Leng Feng still didn't speak, and took a drink by himself, Li Jiahao said, "It's a condom."

"It was a short, unscrupulous carnival. Because of its shortness, many people may only see it once in this life, and will never see it again in the future. Therefore, there is no need to bear any burden. If you like it, you like it. If you want it, you want it Yes, this is not disregard of shame, but to face one's own instincts calmly."

Li Jiahao blinked: "All the resident creations are the Olympics of the art circle."

"So you're here to play group sex?" Leng Feng said in a cold voice, feeling a pang of remorse in his heart, what kind of resident creation, if I knew it was such a lewd thing, why did you come here?

"Don't describe it like that," Li Jiahao said, "This is liberating nature and part of artistic creation. If you treat it as promiscuity, I will be disappointed."

Leng Feng thought to himself whether you are disappointed or not is none of my business, but I am still disappointed, who can I reason with?

Leng Feng drank the wine dully, thinking of the person like winter snow and clear spring thousands of miles away, he knew that he didn't need the so-called "liberate nature" at all, all his desires were on that person, he All the "natural" people have already helped him to be liberated.

He turned to Li Jiahao and said, "Indulgence is nothing. If you need unlimited indulgence to be inspired to create, how is it different from xidu?"

He didn't want to argue with strangers at this time, it was meaningless, after drinking a beer, Leng Feng decided to go back to his room to sleep.

He knows that Europe has always been the base camp of sexual liberation, especially in Berlin, the distribution center of avant-garde art. He does not reject these. In the development of human civilization history, sexual liberation has occupied a very important meaning, representing the spiritual and physical. Double anti-depression and independence, but that was in the past, and it is not the same thing as the casual dating now.

Leng Feng understands and understands, but he is like a person watching the fire from the other side. It is the freedom of others to do what others want, and he respects it to a certain degree, that's all.

He just thinks that this kind of love, whether it's sex, is too easy, everything is too easy, and it loses its original meaning.

Li Jiahao feels very disappointed. There are not many Asian-faced artists in this residency project. His aesthetic preference is still biased towards this type of face. Today I saw this newcomer, regardless of appearance, body shape, or temperament. They are all the ones that make him fall in love, but unfortunately, they are an ascetic wood.

After Leng Feng left, someone came over and patted Li Jiahao on the shoulder, jokingly said, "Did you miss it?"

Li Jiahao smiled at the back, and said to the man provocatively: "There is still half a year, just wait and see."

The man touched the beer with him: "Good luck." Then said: "That man is really geil."

Li Jiahao glared at him: "I saw it first."

"Finefine," the man raised his hand again and again: "I won't touch it."

At night, Leng Feng was a little irritable and wanted to send a message to Bie Dong, but his phone had already been handed in. He wanted Bie Dong very much, and felt that the decision to come to Berlin was really stupid. He thought there would be some real art exchanges, but unexpectedly Group sex, he didn't dare to tell Bie Dong.

Now the only wish is to make the work quickly, then turn around and go home.

Unable to fall asleep, Leng Feng got up and flipped through his sketchbook, there was a whole book of Bie Dong in it, all drawn by him in various gaps, he is not a photographer like Li Jiahao, but he recorded almost others All the looks of winter.

Finally he fell asleep with his sketchbook in his arms.

The author says:

Regarding the word geil, I asked a friend who had studied in Germany. Traditionally, it has a very pornographic and dirty meaning, but now young people also use it to express real praise. Anyway, it is a handsome and dirty description.If friends who learn German feel that it is not used correctly, they can also leave a message to talk about it.