Qiu Mu

Maybe it takes time to see her heart clearly, Li Jing is always afraid to face her real self, afraid to think about her feelings for Ling Xia.Tossing and turning, unable to fall asleep, I heard the sound of the wind blowing the window outside, and after a while, there was thunder.Li Jing was already suffering from insomnia, and with the wind and rain outside, she got up anyway.

She put on a thin coat, went to the balcony, checked the windows, poured herself another glass of water, leaned her head on the sofa, and looked up at Ling Xia's room.She wanted to come to Ling Xia to sleep and take off her hearing aid, but she couldn't hear the sound outside, so when Li Jing wanted to knock on the door to see if she was afraid, she stopped the movement of her hands.Li Jing sighed, in this long night, she actually suffered from insomnia because of Ling Xia, but what about Ling Xia in the room.For so many years, Li Jing would always suffer from insomnia on stormy nights, because at this moment she would feel that she was extremely lonely, with no one around her, no friends to talk to, no sisters, no relatives, no partner.

After pulling up his clothes, Li Jing walked to his room, walked to Ling Xia's room, couldn't help but take another look.At this moment, Ling Xia's door suddenly opened, Li Jing was a little surprised, and Ling Xia was even more surprised, he hurriedly turned around and picked up the hearing aid, put it on his ear, and said, "Why haven't you slept yet?"

"It's thundering, I can't sleep, why are you up?" Li Jing asked, Ling Xia looked outside, and said: "Lightning, I'm a little scared, so I want to get up and walk."

"Are you afraid of lightning?" Li Jing asked, Ling Xia nodded, when she was a child and couldn't hear or speak, she always felt that lightning was scary, she was afraid that the light would blind her eyes, she was too afraid that she would lose it again.I thought I would always be deaf and dumb, but I could hear miraculously, but I still had a shadow of lightning in my heart.

"Go to sleep in my room?" Li Jing asked half-questioningly. After hearing this, Ling Xia just stared at Li Jing, and suddenly felt that his heartbeat became irregular, as if he was a little nervous, and he seemed a little shy. answered.Li Jing looked at Ling Xia's uncertain eyes, shook his head, pulled Ling Xia past him, and walked into his room.

This is not the first time Ling Xia has entered Li Jing's room, but it is the first time he wants to sleep in the same bed with Li Jing.Seeing that Li Jing took off his pajamas, revealing his smooth body, Ling Xia hurriedly lowered his head, and said with a slightly hot face: "Why did you take off your clothes?" While speaking, he didn't dare to look at Li Jing, Li Jing turned around and realized that Ling Xia's eyes were already red, couldn't help laughing out loud, walked up to her, and said: "Raise your head." Ling Xia didn't dare, and buried his head even lower, Li Jing shook his head and raised it with one hand Ling Xia's chin made her look directly at her, at this moment Ling Xia had completely messed up her breathing rhythm.Li Jing's body was exposed, only wearing a pair of underwear, his body was visible at a glance, while Ling Xia's hands were already sweating, but Li Jing smiled and said: "What are you afraid of, I won't eat you, I'm used to sleeping naked. "After speaking, he sat on the bed, looked at Ling Xia again, and said: "Are you not going to sleep?"

"Um, sleep..." Ling Xia quickly walked to the other side, got into the bed, Li Jing smiled and turned off the light, Ling Xia slept next to him, not daring to take half a step, not daring to get close to Li Jing .But Li Jing couldn't help pulling Ling Xia closer, and said: "It's not that I'm afraid, sleeping so far away, I want lightning to strike you."

"Ah, no, I'm taking the hearing aid." Scared by Li Jing's words, Ling Xia took off the hearing aid and entered the quiet world, but in fact, she really wanted to hear Li Jing talking in her ear.Still couldn't help moving towards Li Jing, Li Jing felt Ling Xia approaching, the corners of his mouth raised, he didn't speak, he grabbed Ling Xia and hugged her, Ling Xia felt that he was pressed against Li Jing's warm body , Feeling at ease, unknowingly fell asleep.

Since receiving the flowers last time, Ling Xia has received a bouquet of flowers almost every day, and every time the blessings of the flowers are sent out with "one degree below zero", "One degree below zero, you actually look beautiful when you smile. Laugh more." After reading it, Ling Xia frowned, tore up the card and threw it into the trash can, and put the flowers aside.At this time, the text message on the mobile phone rang again, Ling Xia turned on the mobile phone, "One degree below zero, can I meet you face to face?"

"Who the hell are you?" Ling Xia turned back, and after a while the person came back and texted, "I want to know who I am, come to XX restaurant tonight, and you will know who I am naturally." After reading the text message, Ling Xia said, I don't want to be stared at from behind so inexplicably anymore, so I decided to check it out at night.

In the evening, Ling Xia avoided Li Jing, claiming that he had something to go to the bookstore, and went to XX restaurant alone.The layout of the restaurant here is very romantic. After arriving at the restaurant, Ling Xia looked around, not knowing which one was the shadow she was looking for, Ling Xia suddenly felt a little stupid, why bothered with such text messages and flowers, and ran here alone.Just as he was about to turn around, a bouquet of fiery red roses suddenly appeared in front of him. Ling Xia raised his head, and a head poked out from behind the roses. Zhang Yan smiled and said, "For you." The person who texted will be Zhang Yan.

"How could it be you? How do you know I'm one degree below zero?" Ling Xia asked, but Zhang Yan just smiled and stuffed the flower into Ling Xia's hand, saying: "Sit down and talk." He was in a good mood, He earned 500 million from the previous investment. Although he has not paid off the debt, he knows that the boss will have new products in a while. It really is a blessing for his store. He has never lost, so Zhang Yan is going to press it once. Big, but he was still a little worried, so he wanted some support.I don't know since when Zhang Yan has always been thinking about one person in the company, that person is Ling Xia, even he himself doesn't understand that the little assistant who didn't take him seriously at the beginning, now attracts his attention like that and mind.

"Mr. Zhang, you haven't answered my question yet." Ling Xia still wanted to find out, Zhang Yan's thoughts were pulled back, he smiled and opened a bottle of red wine to pour Ling Xia a glass, and said: "Call me when you are not in the company Let's name it, I'm not a few years older than you." At this moment, Zhang Yan was no longer domineering and childish than usual, Ling Xia looked at the red wine and said, "Sorry, I don't drink."

"It's okay, you can do whatever you want, I won't force you, okay?" Zhang Yan was very polite to Ling Xia today, Ling Xia let out a breath and asked, "How did you know?"

"It was Xiao Ning who accidentally discovered one of your manuscripts, and then saw the same article in a book, and then I knew it was you." Zhang Yan replied, but Ling Xia was surprised, she did not expect that it would be Zhang Ning who discovered her identity , She suddenly thought of Zhang Ning's eyes looking at her several times and the last time she looked at her unfriendly eyes at Li Jing's house, Ling Xia suddenly had a bad feeling.

"I didn't expect that you are so talented, it's a pity to only be Li Jing's assistant. I know people from the publishing house, and I can help you become a real writer." Zhang Yan said excitedly, but Ling Xia shook his head , said: "Thank you, those were just some part-time writing before, and now I write very little." Ling Xia never wanted to be a writer. People knew her identity, but let Zhang Yan know, Ling Xia didn't know what to do.

Zhang Yan saw Ling Xia's worry, he sighed, and said to Ling Xia: "Do you not believe me? Are you afraid that I will speak out? You don't want people to know your identity, right?" Ling Xia Unexpectedly, Zhang Yan would guess what he was thinking and nodded.But Zhang Yan said with a smile: "I guarantee with my personality, I will definitely not tell others about you, including Li Jing, and I will also tell Xiao Ning not to tell others, so that's fine." Ling Xia reluctantly hung up With a smile, Zhang Yan rolled his eyes and said, "Oh, you must be thinking, Zhang Yan's personality is not trustworthy, a prodigal son, very unreliable."

"Um, I didn't say that." Ling Xia defended, Zhang Yan sighed slightly when he heard it, and said: "Actually, who wants to be called a loser? I know I'm a rotten person, I did it myself that time with Li Jing No, I'm too self-righteous and disdainful of everything, but I also want to be excellent, but the more I want to do things well, the more I can't do them well." Zhang Yan was a little frustrated as he spoke, and his tone was even a little frustrated, Ling Xia suddenly found out that this glamorous dandy A child also has a side that is not known to the public, maybe people are like this, no matter it is good or bad, there is always a side that is opposite to it, and it is precisely this side of Zhang Yan that Ling Xia can see.

"As long as you are worthy of your own conscience, you can correct your mistakes, and those who know how to reflect will definitely not be bad." Ling Xia replied, picked up the red wine glass, and said: "I hope you can find a direction for yourself , don’t do things that hurt yourself and others, I hope everyone around me will be fine.”

"Ling Xia, you are really a good girl, I'm sorry, I always targeted you and bullied you in the past." Zhang Yan also raised his glass, Ling Xia smiled and said: "Let's all go, it's okay." Both of them People smiled and clinked glasses, on the other side of the restaurant, Li Jing couldn't believe her eyes, the roses on the corner of the table were in full bloom, just like Ling Xia's rare smile, charming and moving.

Li Jing exited the restaurant, Zhang Ningyin glanced at the restaurant with a smile, and deliberately asked: "I didn't expect my brother to date Ling Xia, is my brother chasing Ling Xia?" Li Jing didn't have any expression, her heart was extremely cold , She never dreamed that it would be Zhang Yan who gave Ling Xia flowers, Ling Xia actually lied to herself and said that she would go to the book bar, in vain she planned to go to the book bar to pick her up after dinner, but she was here with that prodigal son Talking and laughing, knowing that the prodigal son had hurt her, she actually... Li Jing clenched her fists unconsciously.Zhang Ning has been paying attention to Li Jing's expression. She deliberately brought Li Jing here to let Li Jing see what kind of person Ling Xia is. Although she accidentally went to Ling Xia's room when she was at Li Jing's house, she saw it. Ling Xia's article manuscript, but I'm not sure whether Ling Xia is really the writer of minus one degree, so I told Zhang Yan, she gave Zhang Yan the idea of ​​pursuing Ling Xia, if Ling Xia came here today, it would prove her Her conjecture did not disappoint her, and it was not in vain for her to ask Li Jing to have dinner together after seeing this scene.

"Xiao Ning, it suddenly occurred to me that I still have some things to do. I'm sorry, I can't have this meal with you today, so I'm leaving first." Li Jing finished speaking expressionlessly, then stepped on her high heels and walked outside. Zhang Ning looked at Li Jing's back. Although she was a little jealous, she was still happy. She was happy that her plan was complete and thoughtful. She hated Li Jing for being so concerned about being angry. She knew that the more angry she was, the more she cared. The taller person occupies Li Jing, they have lived together for several years, one room, one bed, how could she just be snatched away by others.

Li Jing was walking alone on a deserted street, feeling very sad, why did Ling Xia come out with Zhang Yan without telling herself, Ling Xia, did she not understand her more and more, or did she not understand her at all? .This kind of sour feeling is not the first time, Ling Xia also had this feeling when he was intimate with Pei Zhen, is this feeling jealous?Was she jealous?Li Jing was a little unbelievable, she didn't know what to do for the first time, and fell into a hesitation.Li Jing took out her phone, at this moment she really hoped that someone could explain herself, she had never been so confused before, but who can help her at this time?Li Jing suddenly remembered that she had received a text message from Lin Qingmo during the day, saying that she had returned to Suzhou. "Sister Lin, I'm so helpless." Li Jing sent Lin Qingmo a text message and walked towards the bar.

I don't know how many glasses of wine she has had, she felt a burning sensation in her stomach on an empty stomach, and she was very uncomfortable with a bad stomach at the moment, but every time she drank a glass, she and Ling Xia always flashed in her mind Little by little, from the interview to Ling Xia's employment, from the first time they knew Ling Xia's background to the typhoon later, it turns out that the bond between them has grown so deep along the way.

"Don't drink." Li Jing's hand was held down by one hand, Li Jing raised her head, Lin Qingmo stood beside her, she always appeared warm and stable, Li Jing saw Lin Qingmo as if she saw Like a savior, she grabbed Lin Qingmo and said, "Sister Lin, what's the matter with me? Am I jealous? What should I do? Her mind is all about her." Feeling Li Jing's slight drunkenness, Lin Qingmo helped her While watching her, he pulled her from the outside until he walked to his car. Li Jing suddenly felt his stomach churn, and ran to the side of the road and vomited it out. She didn't eat anything, and all she vomited up was wine.

"Are you okay?" Lin Qingmo hurriedly supported Li Jing, holding a thermos cup in his hand, while holding Li Jing steady, opened it, and said, "I knew you would drink too much, I brought this from home Honey water, it's still hot, drink some first, and hold on." Lin Qingmo pointed the cup at Li Jing's mouth as he spoke, Li Jing slowly opened his mouth, and took a few sips with frowning.Lin Qingmo helped Li Jing into his car again, and Li Jing said to Lin Qingmo in a semi-conscious state, "You're really laughing at this appearance."

"You are following the old path I used to do. You ruined your stomach by drinking at the wine table in order to socialize. You are still young, so don't ruin yourself. It should be feelings that can make our strong woman so strong. If You can tell Sister Lin that since you sent me a message, you must hope that I can give you some advice and direction." Lin Qingmo said to Li Jing, opened a bottle of mineral water, and let her moisten Throat, help her adjust the riding seat so that she can lean on it comfortably.Li Jing sighed softly and said, "It's ridiculous, I seem to be in love with my assistant, a woman."

"You mean Ling Xia?" Lin Qingmo was a little surprised. She didn't expect Ling Xia to be such a special existence. It was the same for Pei Zhen and Li Jing, although she had observed Li Jing and Li Jing in the previous few contacts. There was a subtle feeling between Ling Xia, but she never thought that Li Jing would directly tell herself that she fell in love with Ling Xia.

"I didn't know it before when she saw me dating Fang Lijie, and she got hurt many times because of it. Now it's finally my turn. Hehe, Sister Lin, it's really a turn of events. I really didn't expect that one day I would be killed. I'm bound like this. I thought nothing could soften my heart. I lost my relatives at the age of 15, and the murderer is still at large. I don't believe in the warmth and warmth of others. I only know the darkness of people's hearts and the reality of society, but Ling Xia is Such simplicity appeared in my life, and it infiltrated into my heart so unknowingly, I was completely unprepared, and just fell like this." Li Jing Tao didn't feel like talking about her own feelings. At least this way, Lin Qingmo knew that it was because of the prompting of alcohol that she was able to reveal her thoughts like this.

"Xiaojing, it's not difficult to accept a true self. Everyone will encounter hurdles in their hearts. I don't think you need me to teach you how to do it? Because you must know your heart very well. Many times, feelings are This kind of unsuspecting appearance, we don’t even know when our feet are deep in the mud, but fortunately, when we find out what we want, that person is still there, isn’t it? We still have time and opportunity, to cherish, to go I have." Lin Qingmo's words made Li Jing seem to have some epiphany, she looked at Lin Qingmo with blurred eyes, and asked: "Sister Lin, have you ever had such an experience?" Lin Qingmo smiled and said: "Have you ever This kind of experience is lucky and happy, Xiao Jing, seize happiness, cherish it, and love yourself more for the one you love." Lin Qingmo said while holding Li Jing's shoulder, Li Jing looked at Lin Qing Mo nodded and said, "I understand, thank you, Sister Lin."

"Just understand, I'll take you home." Lin Qingmo started the car as he spoke, and Li Jing suddenly felt a lot clearer. Looking at the night scene passing by outside the window, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

The author has something to say: update the article, actually I suddenly feel that Li Jing is a bit like Lin Qingmo when he was young, but Li Jing discovered his heart earlier, while Lin Qingmo, who was at Li Jing's age, was busy with his career, She is also married and has children, in fact, Li Jing is lucky, otherwise, maybe she would be the Lin Qingmo back then, with an empty heart, marrying a man she thought she could marry, and then busy with her career~

Huahua~~