my female

"Don't be stupid, Julius, once you've been turned into a beast, you can never go back." Sara said sadly, "If you let yourself release your power again, the consequences will be disastrous."

The air is cold, and the mountains in the distance are covered with clouds and mist, which looks empty and far away.

The breeze blows, the time is silent, and no one speaks.

After a long time, Julius took a deep breath, raised his head, and glanced at the snow-capped mountains under the sun. His blood-colored pupils watched quietly, neither sad nor happy. After a while, he opened his mouth softly and said, "I clear."

"What are you going to do when the time comes." As a parent, this is probably the last compromise.

Taking a deep breath, Julius turned around silently and said, "I promised him that I would not leave him behind. Even at the last moment of my life, I want to fulfill my promise."

"you……"

Sarah was speechless.

He is too familiar with the feeling in front of him. Once upon a time, that person was so relentless... Unexpectedly, this child even resembles him in this way. I don't know if it is luck or misfortune?

He lowered his eyes, then raised his head abruptly, and smiled at Sara with curved lips. There was no sadness on his face, and he was quiet and peaceful. Then he jumped down from the tree, stood on the snow-white ground, raised his chin, and waved at Sara. Waving his hands, he said with a smile as if saying goodbye at the end: "Thank you for visiting me, Mom and Dad, I'm doing well, I just want you to know that."

After saying goodbye with a smile, there is no turning back.

Sarah seemed to be calling him, but he pretended not to hear, the expression on his face remained calm, but his shoulders were trembling.

Can't go back anymore.

No one knows his body better than him. He can no longer control the leakage of power. That power will consume his life at a faster rate. He can't escape. Feeling the power of awakening, how long is it?He doesn't know, and he doesn't want to know.

Abandoning his hometown, his relatives made his heart cry. Julius knew that his mother and father were still behind him, but he could only turn his back to avoid the eyes of his mother and father, and swallowed tears.

It seems that in an instant, it is an eternal farewell.

Suddenly it snowed, and large flakes of soft snowflakes fell on his body. On his face, the wind blew up, and the snow was like pale flowers flying all over the sky, covering the road in front of him, but he didn't want to hide it anymore. .

Maybe his choice is wrong, he doesn't know, but he wants to listen to his heart, even if the road ahead can't be seen clearly, even if reason tells him so clearly, even if the black mark on his hand is gradually getting bigger, even if It may not be long before he is forced to say goodbye to Kay, too.

but not now.

Julius clenched his fists, and he shook his head. He stood alone in the increasingly violent snowstorm, and he could no longer see others.

Only he is left in the whole world, and in this snow-white world, only him is left.

"Don't look back." Feeling cold, he rubbed the corners of his dry eyes and muttered to himself.

Surrounded by wind and snow all around, it was a vast expanse of whiteness, with no roads to be seen, and the strong knife-like wind made the body tremble non-stop. Step by step, it was difficult to lift up the frozen legs, and kept breathing into the palm of the hand, hoping to gain a little warmth. Her hair was frozen, her ears were numb, and even her eyelashes were covered with frost.

After walking for an unknown amount of time, Julius saw a figure running towards him in the wind and snow from a distance. He stopped and looked intently. The man was already running close, screaming like a roar.

"Julius!"

In an instant, he was hugged tightly.

The body that was about to lose consciousness felt the warmth, and so did the heart.

The moment he was hugged, he couldn't help the tears in his eyes, raised his frozen hands, and gently hugged the orc who was also covered in frost.

"You found me." He said happily.

"I thought you were really gone!" Panting heavily, Kay panted heavily anxiously.

The childish tone and movements made Julius stunned for a moment, then he laughed and rubbed the wet corners of his eyes.

"What are you laughing at?" Came back to his senses, Kai curled his lips, but gently touched his frozen cheek.

"Kai is like a child."

"Stupid female! You seem to be younger than me, right?" Angry again.

Breathing the cool air, Julius smiled slightly, pulled Rakai's sleeves, and said, "Let's go back, it's too cold."

"Yeah." Holding Julius' hand, Kay hurried towards home.

After a while, Julius asked, "Has Kai been looking for me?"

"Of course! Who told you to be taken away!" Kai turned back angrily.

Raising his eyes and looking at each other for a while, Julius thought for a while and asked, "If one day I suddenly disappeared, would you go find me?"

"Of course!" Answered immediately, Kai frowned, tilted his head and asked, "Why are you saying this all of a sudden?"

"No, I'm just asking casually." Lowering his eyes, Julius shook his head.

After a while, Kai stopped and said, "Your eyes are red again, are you nervous?"

Dazed back to his senses, he remembered what he said to Kai at the bottom of the cliff before, so he nodded, and Julius said softly, "Yes, I was very nervous when I was taken away suddenly."

"Don't be afraid, I'm here." He patted Julius on the back reassuringly. After thinking for a while, he asked, "By the way, where are your parents?"

"Go back." An understatement.

"gone back?"

"I probably won't come again in the future." She said slowly, smiling, her eyes were red.

Seeing this, Kay felt uncomfortable. Thinking of Julius walking alone in the wind and snow, he felt sorry, and knew that something must have happened between Julius and his parents, so suddenly Holding Julius' hand, lowering his ears, he said, "I'm sorry."

"There's nothing I'm sorry about." Turning his face, the color of dusk fell on his soft face, Julius raised his eyes and looked at Kai silently, "We'll just be together from now on."

"Of course." Clutching Julius tightly, Kai kissed his forehead and narrowed his eyes happily.

"Hmm." She held Kai's arm tightly, but her voice was whimpering.

The cruelest thing in the world is to know that the happiness in front of you is so illusory, but still refuse to wake up from the dream, preferring to close your eyes and let the dream last longer.

Julius shook his eyelashes slightly, the corners of his eyes were moistened by the falling snow, and finally, like teardrops, they fell silently on this snow-white world.

Life is meaningless, but you make my life so special.

Even if, this so-called life is running out.

But I still want to be with you.

……

On the other side of the snowy field, Sarah, who was preoccupied, stood where she was, looking at the direction Julius left in the snowstorm.

Because he was worried, he followed all the way. Several times he wanted to rush up and take Julius away, but would Julius be happy?He wanted to respect Julius' wishes, but... Who wouldn't feel heartbroken to watch his child die and become a parent?

But his silly son still chose to go back with that snow wolf clan.

Is this fate?

However, that snow wolf orc really likes Julius, right?Seeing him treasure her baby like that made Sarah feel a little complicated.Even though he didn't like the snow wolf clan, only that orc from the snow wolf clan could make Julius show such a happy expression... yes, happiness.

Julius has been in a precarious situation since his lycanthropy as a child.

Although I and Bryce helped control his animalization, there were still ups and downs. The worst time, Sarah almost couldn't stop Julius and was seriously injured.

I remember that day, when Julius regained his sanity, he knelt in a pool of blood, hugging Sarah and weeping bitterly. It was from that time that Julius began to close himself.

This child has been strong since he was a child, but Sarah knows that the stronger the person, the softer and more fragile the heart.

He begged himself to make a life mark on the palm of his left hand.

The black mole will spread out when he transforms into a beast, and once he transforms into a beast, it will occupy his left hand.

Then, he will die.

He used this method to admonish and restrain himself, and also used this method to make himself forget.

He hides his real self.

Let yourself gradually become strange, and your consciousness gradually blurred, and use this to hide yourself.

Because he doesn't have the courage to pursue his own happiness, even though he forgot about the animalization after closing himself off, maybe it's subconsciously afraid of hurting others, so he rarely doesn't get in touch with others.

Except Lei Zhe.

Sarah acquiesced to Lei Zhe's child's scheming, but in fact, it was only for Julius' sake. After all, as a parent, who doesn't want their children to live well and live happily?

The cold wind blew and messed up his long hair. Sara closed her eyes tightly, clenched her fists, put them on her lips, and looked up to the sky as if asking, for a long, long time.

But at this time, in the misty forest in the east, Lei Zhe felt a sudden pain in his heart for some reason, his dark green eyes turned to the north, reluctant to part with him, and only a few seconds later, he came back to his senses and followed the reckless Gone is the smell left by the goofy Herm.

Suddenly, a piece of soft snow fell on the face, which quickly melted into water and flowed down from the cheeks.

"Snow?" Lei Zhe felt puzzled as he touched the drop of water.

Why is there snow in the white mist filled forest?

He was stunned, and turned his head again, but he couldn't see through the sky covered by the thick fog, and couldn't see the place he yearned for...

Snowing.

Kay held Julius in his arms and accelerated the pace of going home.

The weather in the snow-capped mountains is bad, and there are often blizzards, and they can be endless at once. Kai doesn't want his female to freeze, although, that stupid female has already fallen asleep peacefully in his arms.

With a helpless smile, Kai tightened his arms.

The stupid female is still very light, why didn't she see any fat?Are you not eating enough?Kai was distressed, he hoped that the stupid female would be fat and fat instead of being so thin!So he thought, tomorrow he should catch more and better things for Julius to replenish his body!

Kai snorted and couldn't help but secretly kissed Julius' soft and tender face.

Looking at this scene, Lumia stood silently on the spot, waiting silently, staring closely at Julius' figure.

"If it turns into a beast, that guy...will he die?"

Clutching his chest and heart, he felt some pain for some reason.

The white snow is still falling until the snow mountain disappears in the sunless dusk.

The author has something to say: In a lifetime... just be willful once.