Glass Butterfly

Ruan Youqing bid farewell to Jiang Jilan and Qin Xiaoran, sat in the green Central Park for a while, and took the subway in New York alone.

In the most prosperous city in the world, the Big Apple, which everyone flocks to, is a different scene underground.

He thought it was an exaggerated exaggeration of the drama, but unexpectedly it was the result of beautification.The homeless people haven't woken up yet, sleeping soundly amidst the disgusting smell and eyes full of garbage, looking down at the track, there is actually a mouse desperately dragging a piece of pizza that is about to mold.He dragged his luggage and chose a place as clean as possible to stand. After getting into the car, he avoided the seats with obvious shoe prints and unknown liquids, and staggered all the way to the airport in the more pungent smell.

The latest flight back home was in the evening, so he bought an economy class ticket, sat with a cup of coffee for several hours, and finally waited for the flight to check in.

The sharp sting of the moment of take-off finally made him realize the biggest omission of hasty departure.

Before coming to New York, Tang Tu put painkillers and soft earplugs in a small transparent box, and that box was packed in his checked luggage, and it had been separated from him not long ago, and was sent to the luggage compartment at the bottom of the plane .

He survived half an hour of take-off, entered a level flight with slightly weaker symptoms, and finally couldn't bear to ask the foreign flight attendant for help, but the tinnitus continued, and he could hardly hear what the other party was asking in English.So I had to abandon the discussion of symptoms and painkillers, find similar items from the in-flight shopping magazine, point them to the flight attendant, and soon got a decent pair of earplugs.

He looked around the cabin, with indifferent faces, no one knew that the sky was falling apart in his head, the only person in this world who knew everything about him was not here.

During the twelve hours of traveling forward, he still could not close his eyes. When people experience pain, their time perception also slows down. There are only two words left in his mind: it hurts.

It seems to hurt more than ever, and the flight lasts longer than ever.

When he finally returned to the familiar city, the sunset here seemed more gentle.

The clean and bright subway took him home, but the house was dark and no one was waiting for him.Only his own shoes remained in the shoe cabinet, and in the cloakroom of the bedroom upstairs, Tang Tu's suits and shirts arranged by color were gone.It was only half a month before and after, but standing on the stairs, he felt as if he had passed away.

When he dialed Tang Tu's number, he got the expected busy tone, and when he dialed again, it was still busy.

Ruan Youqing has always known.

He knew that Tang Tu was not as invulnerable as he seemed, and his insecurity about love was his biggest weakness.The current Tang Tu must be like a porpoise in danger, taking a breath and erecting dense spikes to protect himself in the middle, rejecting all possible harm from the outside world, even if no one is willing to hurt him, he will not Dare to believe it easily, he thought he was betrayed and abandoned again.

Ruan Youqing has always known.

But Tang Tu should also know about him, know that he loves him and relies on him.He thought that their relationship was so close that it was indestructible, but now, the other party didn't even give him a chance to explain, and resolutely fled his world.

Ruan Youqing sighed, the bumpy road, ear pain and insomnia, he tried to swallow all the exhaustion and helplessness, rubbed his throbbing temples vigorously, took a bath and changed clothes step by step, cooked himself a bowl of noodles and ate them, and climbed back to bed for a nap Sleep till dawn.Tang Tu likes to be decent, so he shouldn't make himself too embarrassed.He told himself that the other party was just angry for a while, and things would get better when he calmed down.His lover is so gentle, how could he be willing to leave him like this.

After waking up, he brought two undelivered birthday presents and rushed to Tubai.

He met Xu Hanyi in the elevator, and the girl looked surprised: "Why are you here?" The other party seemed to know nothing about him and Tang Tu.

"Can't I come?" Ruan Youqing reluctantly curled the corner of her mouth at her, without moving.

"No, the boss is gone, so are you looking for me at this time?" Xu Hanyi joked at him while unlocking the office door.

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Ruan Youqing squeezed the small box in her hand, staring blankly at the girl with normal face: "...where did he go..."

"I went to Europe." Xu Hanyi realized something was wrong, turned to look at him, and asked tentatively, "Youqing...you don't know?"

have no idea.He is like an idiot who doesn't know anything.That person really gave up on him.

He quickly rushed to the door of Tang Tu's cubicle, and pushed open the unlocked door.

The candy trinkets on the table, the Rembrandt ivory pen he gave in the pen holder, the hammered glass water bottle in the refrigerator, and a bunch of ice cream deliberately brought from home, all disappeared.Just like Ruan Youqing's first visit more than two years ago, there is no trace of his stay here.

Ruan Youqing's heart was lightly and heavily punched, the tight pain lasted for a few seconds, and was replaced by numbness.

I don't know if he is already familiar with being pushed away by Tang Tu.He touched Tang Tu's neat walnut table with his fingers, leaving behind the iris tie.

Last time Tang Tu pushed him away and chose to send him to Hokkaido, but this time he just sent him away.

The rest of Tubai sat at their desks step by step, everything was as usual.He mechanically nodded goodbye to them and left silently.

"He's so weird today..." Xu Hanyi looked at the man's lonely back and sighed while sorting out the mail.

"I had a quarrel with the boss." Zhang Wenbin lowered his voice, with a mysterious expression on his face, "Don't tell me!"

As soon as this sentence landed, Xu Hanyi immediately threw away the work on the desk and went to his desk: "What, what, what, what, what, what! You know what, tell me quickly!" The girl's eyes were as wide as copper bells, and she hurriedly stopped him from speaking, "Hey Wait a minute! Wait a minute!" After speaking, he quickly made a cup of tea, grabbed a few bags of egg rolls and sat directly opposite him, took off the silk scarf and tied a ponytail behind his head to expose his ears, "Come on, let's get started!"

The corner of Zhang Wenbin's mouth twitched: "Don't you just listen to gossip? As for the sense of ceremony..."

"Say it quickly!!" The other party tore open the package of the egg roll with a stabbing sound, with a fierce look on his face.

"Talk about it carefully, the boss asked me to pick him up early yesterday morning! As a result, the boss came out of the arrival hall alone..."

Zhang Wenbin had almost never seen Tang Tu like that. His eyes were swollen, his eye circles were black and his voice was dry and hoarse.The ever-glamorous and suave gentleman climbed into the polished car in a daze, and sat in the back without saying a word.

Zhang Wenbin waited for 10 minutes, and finally had the courage to ask: "Boss, where is Young Qing?"

Who knew that Tang Tu didn't even look at him, and only said one word: "Let's go."

Hearing this, the egg roll in Xu Hanyi's hand fell to the table, completely immersed in the plot, not daring to vent his atmosphere.

"I saw that he was really uncomfortable, so I sent him back quickly. In the end, he told me not to leave. In less than 10 minutes, he packed two suitcases and threw them in the trunk, and then asked me to send him back. The apartment. It must be a quarrel."

"You mean...the boss left his baby, Youqing, in New York, and came back alone????" Xu Hanyi looked in disbelief, "This, how is this possible..."

"I also think it's weird, and yesterday I was cleaning up in the office. You go in and have a look. The box under the table is full of things that Ruan Youqing gave him. After work, I asked me to take him to the airport. I thought he regretted it. When I went back to New York, people told me I was going to Venice, and didn't mention Ruan Youqing at all."

"He won't ask if he doesn't mention you!" Xu Hanyi gathered up the egg roll crumbs that fell on the table, and dragged them into the trash can.

"I dare not. I have to ask you."

"Forget it, what do I ask about the two of you. Let's talk about it when the boss comes back from Venice. After the on-site inspection of the venues, we have to make final adjustments to the plan. I guess next month will be enough for us."

Returning to the big house where he was alone, Ruan Youqing put on a light T-shirt and overalls, squatted in the yard to clear weeds, tidy up the potted plants in the flower beds, and then moved a stool to sit by the maple tree in the middle of the yard to dry. sun.Spring was coming to an end, and there were a few more butterflies in the yard while they were out. He looked up at the sky, and there were white clouds among the intertwined branches.

The moment he came back from Tubai, his chest was filled with the scenery that he had been immersed in together with Tang Tu. The train, the snowy winter night, the elopement across the English Channel, and the bustling night scene of Manhattan.

He silently walked back to the work area, turned on the electric kiln, and his hands seemed to move naturally.

It was dark and then bright again in a blink of an eye. He looked at the scattered gadgets and opened his mobile phone to place an order for a whole coil of fishing line.

He stepped on a ladder and hung them in the air, as if by doing so, all the scenery would freeze here and would not leave him.

He was sleepy and tired, went upstairs several times, closed his eyes, tried his best but still couldn't fall asleep.On the third evening lying on the workbench, his whole body was sore and his eyes were black. He held a huge hexagonal snowflake that had just formed, and finally couldn't support his precarious reason, so he opened his hand easily.Polished columnar crystals of fire like diamonds fell on the dark concrete floor.

The flow of time suddenly slowed down, and his blurred vision focused on the moment the snowflake touched the ground. Amid the clear crackling sound, the crack spread from one corner and turned into a net.In the next instant, irregular glass shards splashed in all directions, drawing dazzling rays of light in mid-air, and falling one after another with flickering bright spots.

Ruan Youqing looked at her trembling hands, and recalled the crash when it fell apart in her mind.

This is the first time in his more than 20 years of life that he has tasted the pleasure of catharsis.He couldn't control the emotions accumulated deep in his heart, and watched them pour out, and they controlled the hands to pick up the delicate snowflakes of different shapes on the workbench one after another, letting them fall like real snow , The fragile glass shattered, like a burnt meteorite, and the bones turned into broken diamonds.

He finally smashed all the shaped glass he could see to the ground and shattered it into pieces, except for the few glass marbles that couldn't be broken no matter what.They rolled on the slippery ground, looking at him mockingly.

He will always be the only one left behind.

it's over.He dragged his heavy steps, wading through the glistening ruins, and lay down on the floor of the living room.

In the dream, the stars in the night sky fell down, and he tried to catch his forehead and palms burned by the burning corners.

Tang Tu held his hand and kissed his wound with distress, just like the day when he bruised his wrist to save a child at Otaru Station.Tang Tu said to the doctor: "His hands are very important."

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Friendly reminder: meet in Chapter 64.In a place young people want to go.It was mentioned earlier.