Glass Butterfly

It was the first time that Ruan Youqing's container had visitors.

In the afternoon, Tang Tu touched a few beads on the window sill and asked him why he chose glass, and he prevaricated by saying that it was beautiful.Fortunately, the other party was a little absent-minded for some reason, and didn't investigate further.

It was late at night, and he didn't turn on the light. He looked at the unpretentious glass marbles by the moonlight, and one of them was extremely clear blue.

This color is a heavy color favored only by porcelain, as thick as the deep sea.It took him a long time to adjust the color to make the deep sea water transparent in the glass. Now he can recall Jiang Jilan calmly, and many details that he deliberately avoided before became clear.

Eight years ago, 19-year-old Jiang Jilan held a glass bead and spun it towards the light. He turned his face slightly and turned the corner of his eye to ask Ruan Youqing meaningfully: "Do you know what glass means?"

It's a pity that he couldn't understand the meaning of this sentence at that time.

The first time I saw Jiang Jilan was in midsummer when I was five years old.

Since Ruan Youqing could remember, he couldn't easily integrate into the group of children around him. He didn't know what the children were laughing about, and he was isolated over time, and gradually got used to being alone in silence.He reads the comics his grandfather bought for him in the office of the kiln every day, waiting for his grandfather to get off work.Occasionally sneak to the work area to see the adults busy.It's not interesting to stack mud and draw blanks. He likes to watch his grandfather's painting blanks being glazed. The rough and dry porcelain blanks become smooth and bright little by little.Grandpa likes the celadon glaze imitating Ru kiln, and it is because of this that he deliberately named him celadon glaze.

One day he climbed into a chair and sat at his grandfather's desk as usual, wiped off the glass covering the wooden desk, took out a Doraemon with curled edges from the last drawer, and flipped through it tirelessly, no matter how many times he looked at it All with relish.He didn't notice when there was someone more in the room, and when he raised his head, the other person was staring at him for an unknown amount of time.

Ruan Youqing has seen all the children around here, but there is no such clean child among them, with pale skin, big eyes, neat short hair, and delicate clothes.In the high temperature of midsummer, even the airflow stirred by the fan was hot and humid, but the child was still wearing a small white coat, neither blushing nor sweating.The other party's mouth moved, and Ruan Youqing couldn't hear anything from far away, so he lowered his head and went back to the book, ignoring him.Anyway, sooner or later he will gradually alienate himself like other children, the young Ruan Youqing thought so.

They didn't see each other for a long time after that, so long that the memory of this person almost disappeared from Ruan Youqing's little mind.

Xia Tian left and came back, and the child appeared again.Ruan Youqing pushed open the wooden door of the office, and found that there was a little brother who was half a head taller than him standing inside the door, still wearing a thin coat. The other party stepped forward and involuntarily stuffed a few glass marbles into his hand.

"Xiao Youqing." He called his name, and pointed to himself: "I am Jiang Jilan." He spoke very slowly, like coaxing a babbling baby.

Ruan Youqing looked down at the glass marble in his hand, not knowing why.Jiang Jilan spread his hands flat, facing the window: "Look."

He saw that the shadows of the light passing through the marbles and falling on the palm of his hand were bright colors.

Ciqing has been an important town of porcelain since ancient times. The marbles played by children have always been moist porcelain balls painted with blue and white patterns and painted with cloud patterns. This is the first time he saw transparent marbles. Although glass is everywhere, windows, water cups, Bottles and cans, but he never realized that the light and shadow of glass are so beautiful.

Then Jiang Jilan was like this, often appearing together with the warm light of summer, and then disappearing soon after.

Ruan Youqing later learned that he was the son of Ciqing's richest man, Jiang Xuechun, who was four years older than himself.Most of the porcelain kilns in Ciqing are owned by the Jiang family.

Just as he guessed, Jiang Jilan, who always had a faint scent of traditional Chinese medicine, was weak and seemed to be born with a disease in her mother's womb. She couldn't run and jump, so naturally she couldn't play with other children.They spend every summer vacation together in the non-air-conditioned office reading paintings and calligraphy. Jiang Jilan always brings new things and teases him to talk tirelessly. He was chatting, and Jiang Jilan was the first to discover Ruan Youqing's hearing impairment at that time, and when he realized that the child was farther away, he shouted as if he couldn't hear him and didn't look back.However, the half-year-old child managed to persuade his family to persuade Ruan Youqing's grandfather to take him to see a doctor.

At first, my grandfather was skeptical. He always felt that his grandson was just withdrawn and introverted: "If he can't hear clearly, how could he get [-] points in the test." At that time, Ruan Youqing had successfully completed the first grade of elementary school.He didn't tell his grandfather that he couldn't hear the teacher clearly, and he couldn't make many friends at school. The children were like the children in the neighborhood, isolated him for no reason, and always stared at him. Whispering, and even naughty little boys made faces at him, muttering something, and everyone around him burst into laughter.Ruan Youqing didn't care if he couldn't hear clearly, so he laughed together, thinking that everyone was the same.

But I didn't expect the physical examination to find out the problem.Grandpa took him to a big hospital for a systematic examination. The doctor asked him why he took so long to come because the hearing loss in both ears reached 60db. It became like this in the future. I thought it was caused by children gradually realizing that they don’t have their parents by their side, so they feel somewhat inferior and introverted.”

"Fortunately, I am here. If it is later, the language ability may be affected." The doctor is a little regretful: "wear a hearing aid. Otherwise, the existing hearing will continue to degenerate. If you can't hear, you will not be able to speak. It will affect intellectual development and psychology after a long time. healthy."

"Hearing aids?" Grandpa was a little hesitant. At that time, hearing aids were the same as reading glasses in the public perception. They were prepared for the elderly who were deaf and dazzled. A low-energy person, he took him to be equipped with a machine according to the doctor's advice.

There are not many choices in small places, imported machines are too expensive, and expensive in-the-ear hearing aids are not suitable for growing children, so they chose bulky but cheap box-type hearing aids.The moment the doctor adjusted it for him, Ruan Youqing tore off the earplugs in fright, and looked at grandpa in horror. Earplugs are brought back.

From then on, he could hear clearly again, he could hear the chirping of insects and birds, the pop songs on TV and his grandfather's favorite opera, and at the same time, he could hear the laughing and whispering classmates discussing his innocence. The naughty kid who had no father and no mother said, "No matter what you scold him, he will laugh. If you don't believe me, just watch." He shouted at Ruan Youqing, "Little dumb! Little deaf!"

Ruan Youqing turned to look at him, thought for a while, and then silently turned off the hearing aid.

In the past 16 years, box-type hearing aids have been completely eliminated, and new hearing aids are emerging one after another, such as fingernail-sized deep ear canal type, once-and-for-all cochlear implants, with the help of technology, hearing-impaired and even deaf people have the opportunity to become normal people.But he is still accustomed to the behind-the-ear style, which is not easy to lose. He can take it off and put it in his pocket at any time, making the world quiet again.

After getting off work on Tuesday, Ruan Youqing received a greeting from Tang Tu.He asked Ruan Youqing if he wanted to move out of the cold container.

From Ruan Youqing's company to the Art Hotel where Tang Tu was located was only 10 minutes by subway, and he didn't know why he suddenly wanted to see him.It seemed that every time he saw Tang Tu, he would instinctively forget his original purpose. It wasn't until the two separated again that he vaguely remembered that he had many questions that he hadn't asked.This time he firmly reminded himself to ask all the questions he wanted to ask.

In less than half an hour, he entered the hotel lobby, stood in front of the intercom at the elevator entrance, and pressed the floor and house number on the sign. Soon a girl picked up the intercom, and Ruan Youqing asked her if Tang Tu was off work.The girl politely asked his name and asked if he had an appointment.

It turns out that you need to make an appointment in advance to see him.

Ruan Youqing shook her head, and immediately added: "No. I'm Ruan Youqing."

"Then... you can come up here first." He thought he would be rejected, but he didn't expect that the other party unlocked the elevator for him after he announced his home, and greeted him outside the gallery door.

Ruan Youqing stepped forward and looked at the extremely petite young girl who stepped on shiny patent leather high heels and smiled politely at him: "Mr. Ruan, he is in a conference call right now. What is your urgent matter? I can go in and help you... "

"No." Ruan Youqing hurriedly stopped her, he just came here on a whim and didn't want to disturb other people's work.

"That's it..." The girl introduced herself: "My name is Xu Hanyi, we met. I have also seen your works. If there is nothing important, can you go to our top floor and wait for a while?"

Ruan Youqing remembered her, the one who helped with the clothes last time.He really had nothing important to do, so he followed her into the elevator and returned to Tang Tu's walnut-hued office room.

"Then I will continue to work, Mr. Ruan." Xu Hanyi trotted away and took the elevator, Ruan Youqing was not used to being called Mr.

The room was the same as last time. There were two suit jackets hanging on the hangers. He reached out and touched his flat and shapely shoulders, and sure enough...with a layer of shoulder pads.Tang Tu looked very tall when he was wearing a suit, but he was much thinner when he took it off. After several encounters, the person was quite different from what he had imagined. Ruan Youqing even overturned the mature and capable returnee elite image in his mind in his first impression. .

He withdrew his hand, turned around and sat down at the desk, and was shocked when he saw a blue eight-treasure candy glass ornament on the table.

This is the smell of many people's childhood, and he doesn't know much about the others, but he is sure that the blue is the smell of soda.

He picked up the eight-treasure candy covered with granules, and recognized at a glance that it was clearly his experimental work back then, and it was a pair with the one on Lu Keke's schoolbag.It was about before he graduated. He happened to see the works of Japanese glass artist Mo Takahashi in a magazine. He thought the grainy matte surface was very interesting. It reminded him of the candies he loved when he was young, so he tried According to the magazine, colored glass powder was sprinkled during the firing process to make two eight-treasure candies, one blue and one green, and all of them were given to Lu Keke.The little girl likes green, so she hangs it on her schoolbag every day. Ruan Youqing doesn't know where the blue one will end up, but it should be left in a corner by Lu Keke and left ashes.

Holding the slightly cool glass candy, he repeatedly confirmed that it was the one he made. It was just a trial at the time, and it was just similar in shape. A closer look was full of flaws, and the glass powder was not fine enough and not uniform enough.

But why did it appear on Tang Tu's table?