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Two years ago, if it wasn't for her mother's dying hope and worrying that Jian Huai would be left alone after she left, Jian Huai would never have planned to fall in love.

He seems to be born with a lack of strings in this regard.

Later, Jian Huai tried and worked hard, but the experience was not good.

Being questioned by suspicion, entanglement and quarrel with each other, and the final explanation and concession, each item is exhausting.But these are frequently filled with Jian Huai's life.

The tragic talk of the previous relationship ended, which made him stop thinking about falling in love.

Love is not a necessity in life, now I work every day, and I already have a lot of things to do.

If you are free, you can go out to play with Lu Yanming.The other party seems to be very experienced, and there is nothing to learn from.

When I get old, if I feel lonely, I will raise a cat.

Lu Yanming raised three of them, and if they encounter difficulties, they can also ask each other for advice.

Even though they haven't known each other for long, they have already included Lu Yanming in their life planning. This fact makes Jian Huai feel strange.

Maybe it's eye-catching.That's what he thought.

However, no matter what, it should not be the current development.

They are friends.

It is a friend who can travel and play, and talk about everything.

Why does it become like this.

Are you kidding me?

Jian Huai was suddenly glad that they were on the phone now, so they couldn't see each other's expressions.

He felt that his throat was a little dry, and he said after a while, "Aren't you straight?"

"I don't know," Lu Yanming confessed honestly, "but I like you."

"I only like you."

"You are the object of my fantasy."

Jian Huai tightened her fingers, and her breathing was a little constricted.

He has experienced many confessions, and he has long refused to reveal his experience, so he can end the topic without changing his face.

Even used this method not so long ago.

But now, Jian Huai seems to have returned to Xinshou Village, not knowing how to deal with it.

After a while, he said, "Sorry."

Aware of being too indifferent, he added, "I don't want to be in a relationship."

"I want to be single forever."

"Don't waste your time on me, you deserve better."

After finishing speaking, there was silence, neither of them spoke, only breathing passed between each other, seemingly nothing.

"Do you hate me?" Lu Yanming asked.

Jian Huai shook his head, reacting that the other party couldn't see, and said, "I don't hate it."

To be precise, I like it.

"Getting along with you is very pleasant and relaxed. I think friends may be more suitable than lovers... What do you think?"

It's not because of me, it's because——Lu Yanming's breathing was obviously heavy, "Because of that little boy?"

"what?"

"You don't want to be in love anymore because of your pretty face?"

Jian Huai was stunned, and wanted to refute, but couldn't find a reason for a while, "It's my own reason."

Take the easy way out.So it's because of that little boy.

"I'm going to kill him!"

"What did you say?"

"He screwed you up so much that you can't even talk about love. Fuck, I'm too tired to talk about it! I can't stop talking to him!!"

An audible crash.

"Murder is against the law, calm down."

"It's this time, you still speak for him??"

"It has nothing to do with him."

"It's okay??"

"Lu Yanming!"

There was a moment of silence.

"...You yell at me," the tone was a little aggrieved, "I calm down, Doctor Jane, don't be angry, it's not good for your stomach."

Jian Huai's heart trembled slightly, she lowered her eyelids, and when she heard a rustling sound on the other side, she asked, "What are you doing?" "I couldn't speak clearly on the phone, so I'm going to find you now, let's talk face to face." Lu Yanming Saying that, the door was slammed shut.

Jian Huai could hear the wind, and the other party seemed to be running.He opened his mouth, but finally swallowed the words of refusal, and said, "...slow down on the road, don't worry."

"I know," Lu Yanming said. "Don't hang up the phone."

"it is good."

Listening to the non-stop wind, Jian Huai asked: "You want to run over?"

"Yes. I'm out of the apartment."

"Let's drive, it's quite a distance."

"Not far, I run very fast. Huh, I mainly want to vent, lest I can't control it and make you angry."

Jian Huai paused and did not continue the topic.

When Lu Yanming finished speaking, Jian Huai had already stepped out of the elevator and was walking towards the door.

Because he didn't want to sweat, Lu Yanming only wore a vest, and his coat was loosely tied around his waist.Seeing Jian Huai coming out, he put on his coat twice and touched his nose, "Doctor Jian."

"Go to the teahouse next door?"

"Okay, you decide."

Jian Huai led people into the teahouse, asked for a small box, and ordered a pot of tea and some food.After the waiter put everything together, he first ironed the tea set, poured a cup and pushed it to Lu Yanming, and then poured a cup for himself.

The two sat opposite each other, looking at each other silently.

After waiting, seeing that Lu Yanming didn't intend to speak, Jian Huai said, "I've said everything I need to say on the phone, what do you want to say?"

"Hold on."

Lu Yanming reacted, drank the tea in one gulp, sat up straight and said solemnly, "Doctor Jane, I like you."

I thought the meeting would be reserved, but I was thrown a straight ball.Jian Huai's heart was confused, but she didn't show it on the surface, "I know."

"Then can I chase you?"

Jian Huai pursed her lips, "No."

"Then you want to alienate me?"

Jian Huai was silent and didn't want to answer.

Lu Yanming scratched his head, a little irritable, "I'll just say it straight."

Jian Huai looked at each other.

"You said that you want to maintain the friendship, but I have no objection, that's fine.

But, uh, for example, now that we are sitting face to face, I really want to sit next to you, close to you.

When you poured me tea just now, I really wanted to kiss you, even more intimately, you know.Until now.Force majeure, but also willingly. "

Jian Huai was still listening carefully at first, but the more he listened, the more something went wrong. In the end, his eyes were complicated, "Do you have skin hunger?"

Lu Yanming laughed twice, touched his chin and thought, "Probably not, I only treat you like this."

"Well, after listening to what I said, do you still think you can be friends?"

Can you accept being next to someone who has plans for you and wants to take you to bed at any time?

Jian Huai tried to analyze to the other party, "As a doctor, I work very long hours, sometimes I have to work overtime, and I also have scientific research projects. Accordingly, it is difficult to balance life and relationship. This will bring a sense of not being valued and insecurity to my partner. feel.

And my ability to deal with emotions is not good, and it is difficult to resolve conflicts in time.In general, being friends is easier and lasts longer than being lovers. "

"But you can't have sex." Lu Yanming said quietly.

Jian Huai stopped holding the teacup, put it down, and decided not to drink water for the time being.

"I have a good figure and feel. You have tested it. It can be used as a doll heater in winter, providing daily pick-up and drop-off services, role-playing, massage and massage. It is not a loss to be a shareholder, Dr. Jian, and I can also provide special services."

"Would you like to try it first?"

"Doctor Jane, what posture do you like?"

"Above or below?"

"Standing or sitting?"

"Do you like people to shout out or hold back?"

Lu Yanming's tongue was out of tune, and he was smiling on the surface, but he was actually observing Jian Huai all the time, thinking that he would stop when he tried it.

But the other party acted very calmly, without being touched at all, which made his heart sink.

In the end, Lu Yanming suppressed his uneasiness and said unwillingly, "Doctor Jian, you are not angry even after I ask you that. In your heart, am I really just a friend?"

After a while, it was confirmed that Lu Yanming would not speak anymore, Jian Huai took a sip of tea and asked, "Are you finished?"

Lu Yanming hummed, but his heart was weary, with a sense of uncertainty waiting for the trial.In fact, I almost know the answer, but I just don’t give up and want to hear it for myself.

"Have some pastries?" Jian Huai pushed the plate forward.

Lu Yanming picked up the piece and bit it.

Seeing that Lu Yanming was eating the pastries by himself, he seemed to be choking at any moment, so Jian Huai poured him a cup of tea.

After the person had finished eating, he said, "I probably understand what you mean. How about it, let's do it once."

"Pfft—cough cough!!" Lu Yanming choked, coughing desperately, picked up the teacup next to him and drank it, and couldn't even wait for a rest, "cough cough, what did you say?!"

After all, you are young and vigorous, and it is normal to have fantasies.

But Jian Huai felt that Lu Yanming had overly beautified some things, that's why he had such great enthusiasm.That kind of experience is actually not wonderful, and I am not as good as the other party imagined.

After Lu Yanming experienced a gap, he would probably give up his attachment.

So, he repeated patiently: "Let's do it once. It's over after we finish this, okay?"

Lu Yanming short-circuited, his adam's apple moved, and he gritted his teeth: "...I'm not a gun*friend."

Jian Huai frowned, and wanted to speak, but saw that the other party's whole body was tense, as if facing a formidable enemy.

Still want to do it.Jian Huai came to a conclusion.

"Not a *buddy. You can treat it as a..."

He got up and walked over, possessed himself under Lu Yanming's gaze, paused, and kissed him on the cheek. "Physiological practice."

Lu Yanming's hand hanging by his side was clenched tightly, and the veins on the back of his hand bulged.

No conflict.Jian Huai dropped her lips again thoughtfully, this time on her lips.

The force is very light, just a simple touch, with my own unique refreshing breath.

Lu Yanming's reaction was too stiff, which made Jian Huai feel like he was being bullied. He was about to leave uncomfortably, but was grabbed by the other party violently, and he fell forward.

It's not like kissing, it's more like biting, with the ferocity of a beast hunting, but careful not to cause substantial damage.

The breath is too warm and fierce, aggressively invading the breath and taste buds.Jian Huai wanted to distance himself, but was followed quickly, followed by more intense bites.

The overhead light was on, and the shadows of the two were entangled on the tiled floor.

After a long time, Lu Yanming let go of his hand.

Jian Huai turned her face away, and her knuckles brushed against her lips, not broken, but hot.

Touching Lu Yanming's devouring eyes that seemed to be burning, Jian Huai suddenly felt a little uncertain.

Will things really go as planned?

No, don't overthink it.Jian Huai told herself.

Now that you've started, you have to keep going.

Jian Huai withdrew her thoughts and tidied up the messy shirt, only to find that a top button was missing.

He loosened his collar, glanced at the shadow by the table from the corner of his eye, understood, then looked at Lu Yanming, "Going to a hotel?"

Lu Yanming's expression was extremely complicated, and his breathing was trembling.

In the end, he twitched the corners of his mouth, his eyes darkened, and said softly, "Doctor Jane, you are really amazing."