teach life and death

Ceremony of offering sacrifices to heaven, performing ceremonies for sacrificing women, fasting imperial meals, offering incense to the emperor, saluting by ministers, and finally celebrating. At this time, Xiang Yicheng is officially offering sacrifices to Qi. Walking towards the altar, he spoke a few words of congratulations in a high-spirited manner, stretched out his hand to lay the jade silk, and then entered the zu, and performed the first gift, the second gift, and the final gift like flowing water. The eunuch removed the food, and then Sending off the emperor and looking at the gods, this process is lengthy, the etiquette is complicated, and it consumes a lot of manpower and material resources. There is a Kabukicho for every sacrificial link.

Li Jinan saw that Fang Yansheng was so bored that he was about to fall asleep, but the sacrificial ceremony was over, the emperor wanted to drive all the officials back to the palace, and for the feast of breaking the fast, Shentu Zuowu was escorted into the chariot, Li Jinan After shouting Fang Yansheng, Fang Yansheng cheered up and followed, the two of them got into the car, the people shouted congratulations, the royal relatives, relatives and officials started their return journey in a mighty manner, and the smoke of thousands of incense on the altar went straight to the blue sky.

Back in the palace, it is said to be a feast of fasting, but there are both meat and vegetables. Incense is burned on a treasure tripod. In the Qingming Palace, dragons and phoenixes are painted on the throne. On each end are rare delicacies, including jade scallops cut into silver shreds, fine tea cooked with jade pistils, seven treasures inlaid with chopsticks, eight treasures in spoons, red silk marijuana and horse suckling lamb, cups and cups filled with Yaochi jade liquid, golden flowers and emerald greens in the hall Ye Erfei, there is a fairy voice singing new words, the maid of the Ministry of Rites is playing songs beside her, Shentu Zuowu, who is in a high position, glances at the officials, his face turns dark when he passes by Fang Yansheng, Li Jianan actually brought this person with him up.

On the second day after the banquet, Shentu Zuowu suddenly announced that Li Jianan would enter the palace. Li Jianan had already sensed the emperor's intentions, and it was expected that he would go to Jizhou, but Shentu Zuowu still disappointed him.

Shentu Zuowu said, "The Jizhou case is getting more and more serious. This is the first few officials to die suddenly. I need a trustworthy person to investigate whether there is a ghost in it. I can't believe that everyone wants you to help me. I will send Wei Wenqun went with you."

He replied: "Okay"

On the day of departure, a dream within a dream, who is coveting the things in the bookstore?

In the busy city at night, between the two of them, it was him and Fang Yansheng.

"Just now you were yelling hungry in the car, what are you doing now?"

"Auntie took me shopping, I want you to take me shopping." There was a commotion all around, and the people around me heard a sentence.

"Do you miss Auntie? I'm not your Auntie, and I don't have any milk to drink."

"I don't drink milk, and you don't have milk either. Auntie said that it would be fun to go shopping with the people you like. Are you unhappy?"

"happy."

"My lord, we are surrounded."

"You protect Fang Yansheng."

"I want you, just you."

"Do you know what to like or not to like, to love or not to love?"

"To like is to like, right? Then do you know what it means to love someone?"

"I don't understand and I don't want to understand. It's just a burdensome feeling. Let's go back."

The candlelight was flickering, and the shadow of the wall overlapped, it was him and Fang Yansheng.

That Fang Yansheng raised his hand to caress his eyebrows and then hugged him tightly, "I want you, and this country has changed hands."

"You forgot."

"Forgot what?"

"Jiao Nucheng and I."

When hatred occupies all the mind and cannot restore rationality, people will often transform into ghosts, that is, Prajna, and Prajna is him.

Many times, Li Yanan felt vague and hazy, not knowing whether the thing he suddenly remembered or just experienced, whether he had really experienced it or whether it was all a dream.

Always confuse dreams with reality, but what is the difference between dreams and reality?

Suddenly someone's voice rang in his ear, and he said very familiarly: Maybe your dream is reality, and the reality you experience is your dream?Nothing is difficult to transform, Li Jienan, how can you be sure whether you are in reality or in a dream?Maybe, what you have done in reality, what you recalled in your dream, all you have experienced is your dream, you lie down in the dream, and then you wake up, you are in the dream at this moment Or in reality?Are you awake?Li Jiannan. "

Li Jienan didn't understand this situation, what happened that he didn't know, he seemed too resistant to accept it, so would he think so?He thought in his heart that this was a dream, of course it was!

The voice came out again, blowing like the wind in his ears.

"No, the reality will be very cruel. The dream is not real. Li Jienan stop talking to himself like this, and accept the reality slowly."

"Shut up!" It was he who retorted.

For Li Jienan, a person's life is really short, more than ten years have passed in a blink of an eye, but no one has ever told him what the meaning of life is and how to take every step of his life, but if someone tells him If he asks him, he will probably not compromise. How should he walk in his life, how to calculate every step seems to be chasing something that he cares about. Everyone has a different path, whether it is a dream or waking up. It's his own business, it's boring, he seems to have forgotten something, a person is still something, the heart is so empty that it is filled with air, it fills up and overflows and then disappears.

"Your dream may be reality..."

"who are you?"

"I am you, he has been waiting for you for a long time."

"Who is waiting for me?"

Familiar scenes, is he dreaming?Who is waiting for him?

"Treat him? Ling An, you are poisoned, it's time to treat yourself."

"The heat and cold of the world are all flowers in the mirror of water and moon. Where does it come from and where does it go? If there is a root, there must be a fruit. Whether you wake up or not, there is him. Why are you obsessed?"

"I said save him!" Fang Yansheng said with a cold face.

Qing Yan also sighed: "Bring him in."

Fang Yansheng put the man on the bed, and Qing Yan also stepped forward to feel the pulse of Li Jinan, with a complex and inconceivable look on his face, "His snow poison has gradually entered his heart acupoint, I can detoxify him, and the nightmare demon has to be left by himself." Come."

The so-called inner demons are not just hatred, greed, delusion, obsession, and resentment. These inner demons can exist forever, arise suddenly, hide, grow, devour people's reason, and experience people's will. The biggest enemy is yourself.

Qing Yan also looked at Fang Yansheng's silent hysteria, and couldn't help but say, "Stupid child, you are like this, and you are the same life and different death?"

Qing Zhili came back with Fu Wangduan. In fact, his father had already seen Li Jinan, so why did he not need him at all, but Fu Wangduan insisted on going to see him, as if he didn't give up, he kept repeating Fu Wangduan's warning failed to hold him back, so he had to take him with him. When he entered, he saw Fang Yansheng. Fu Wangduan was about to step up to look at Li Yannan when he was swung away by Fang Yansheng.

Fu Wangjuan got up from the ground and pointed at Fang Yansheng furiously: "Don't think you are the king of Hades and I am afraid of you! Who do you think you are Li Jiannan's? A liar! You are a liar who lied to him!"

When Fang Yansheng heard his words, the anger in his face was like a runaway wild horse, and in an instant, he seemed to explode completely.

As soon as Qing Zhili said, he pulled Fu Wangduan aside: "Fu Wangduan shut up, you, what do you know, just yelling nonsense."

"Did I say something wrong? You..." Before he could finish speaking, Qing Zhili knocked him out. He resisted Fu Wangduan and left.

Two days later, Qing Zhili was ordered to come over to persuade Fang Yansheng. In fact, they all knew that no one could persuade him. He entered the door and saw Fang Yansheng still in the same posture.

At this time, Fang Yansheng was sitting on the side of the bed, watching Li Jinan with his eyes closed, his complexion was already very pale, but now he is even more unreal, his breathing is very weak, he is thinner than before, suddenly Li Jinan let out a cry With a groan of pain, Fang Yansheng grabbed his hand in a daze. Li Jianan's pale face was distorted by the pain, and thin beads of sweat oozed from his forehead, as if he was enduring a huge torture.

"What's going on!" Fang Yansheng yelled at Qing Zhili who was beside him, and his several days of silence turned into a roar at this moment.

Qing Zhili opened Bai Su's fan and looked at the slovenly man in front of him for his beloved. Although he looked very haggard, his red eagle eyes were still sharp: "He has a nightmare, whether he wakes up or not depends on himself. Just like you experienced the psychological battle in the Nine-Layered Calamity Tower, you should rest, landlord."

"Show me him!"

"Landlord, you should recognize the reality." Qing Zhili said cruel words, he didn't care about Fang Yansheng's mood at all, he was not a good person in the first place, and this couldn't be cured at all, so why call him here to find something?

Fang Yansheng was a little crazy, he was powerless to see Li Jianan in pain, the feeling at this time was like returning to Wang'an City in Japan, the corners of his eyes were red and moist.

Qing Zhili gently closed the door and went out, Fu Wangduan strangled him away, Qing Zhili closed his fan and clapped his hands vigorously: "Are you trying to murder your husband?"

Fu Wangjuan was shocked when he heard the words, and forgot what he wanted to do, so he pushed Qing Zhili away, pointed at his nose and cursed: "Fuck you, why are you still my adulterer? How shameless? ?”

Qing Zhili waved his fan, with a gentle face: "Dear husband, not an adulterer."

"It doesn't matter whether you are your own husband or an adulterer! I have nothing to do with you!" Fu Wangjuan felt that his face was going to explode, and there were his disciples watching, but he couldn't stop someone from talking.

"You weren't like that in bed yesterday."

"To shut up!"

Qing Zhili looked at the person who left angrily, and followed with a smile.

Fang Yansheng was already poisoned, and after a few days he couldn't hold it anymore. He picked up the medicine powder that Qing Zhili put on the table and swallowed it. His throat was dry and the powder was dry. Nan Xing will definitely coax him when he wakes up, probably played a fool to coax Li Jienan a lot before, but now he has some grievances.

The effect of Xiangyishan's medicine is not for nothing, Fang Yansheng shook his head in a daze, he couldn't sleep yet, but his head got lower and lower, and he slowly fell asleep lying on Li Jinan's hand .

Li Jianan stood in the endless desert, like a lost camel, he heard the voice again, but this time it was not him, but Fang Yansheng's voice.

"Li Yannan, I'm only waiting for you for an hour! Promise me, if you come back and you can't see me, then forget me, but... I will always look for you, I hope you can live... It's good to be alive. I will find you Yes, this is my promise to you."

Li Jianan was startled, and suddenly smiled: "I won't promise you this time."

"Wen Qian, do you remember what you promised me 14 years ago in Jiao Nucheng, but you completely forgot to take me with you, should you be punished? Then punish you to wake up."

"Okay."

He remembered all of this. This was a dream and reality. Li Jienan slowly opened his eyes. He moved his hand and found that he was holding someone. Feeling the warmth of his palm, he knew whose hand it was. He tilted his head to look at it. Seeing Fang Yansheng who was lying on the bed, he slowly gathered his five fingers. Fang Yansheng woke up suddenly. He looked around and saw the person he was thinking of woke up. He said softly, "Wen Qian..."

"Fang Yansheng."

Fang Yansheng had surprise on his face: "You're awake...you're finally awake. I'll call for someone. I'll call for Qing Zhili." He leaned down and kissed Li Jianan quickly, and suddenly thought of something that he bent over to make him hug and go.

"Fang Yansheng let me down, I have something to tell you."

"Wait."

"Put me down."

Fang Yansheng suppressed his emotions, and put Li Jianan back on the bed. He wanted to hug Li Jianan, but Li Jianan struggled to sit up from the bed, his pale face was distorted by the pain, his frowning eyebrows turned pale, and a Covering his left eye with his hand, Fang Yansheng extinguished the candle, pushed open the creaking wooden window, and sat down on the edge of the bed.

"Speak, Wen Qian."

Li Jianan stared at the rain falling outside the window: "I was about five or six years old when I was young. My parents were still alive. I was very active. At that time, I was too ignorant. I thought that I would continue to be happy just like everyone else. It’s beautiful, there will be a carefree childhood, but with the departure of Li Wuji, the collapse of Ah Yu, and the ridicule and underestimation of people in Yuecheng, everything makes me know that the nightmare has begun.”

"Wen Qian, I know everything..."

His eyes were sunken, his eyes were dull, his voice was not as loud as before, and became hoarse. He ignored Fang Yansheng and said to himself: "The self-inflicted sense of inferiority and anger oppressed me, making me unable to lift my head. Come on, my back is like carrying a mountain on my back. I always feel that I am inferior, or even useless. I am most afraid that others will tease me or ridicule me, sarcasm, and even other people’s sympathy and pity will also cause me to panic. In short, I was wary of everything around me, until one day Ah Pie became ill for the first time, and I realized that if I continued to be cowardly and incompetent, I would die, Apie would die too, I thought clearly and thoroughly. I tried every means to disguise myself, but I was still very tired.”

"Wen Qian."

"Wen Qian." Fang Yansheng became a little scared seeing him like this.

"Until then you appeared, Fang Yansheng, your appearance made me let go of my defenses and years of depression, but I should not have let go, I should not let go, I understand now, I remember now, I remember everything , so those things that I couldn’t understand because I lost part of my memory are all clear now, the person in the valley is you, and there are also Mu Yao and the fish in the east chamber. You really have too many flaws, but I’m sorry Only now do I know."

"Fang Yansheng, I understand now, I had a long dream, I woke up, I couldn't wait to say it, it turns out that the reason for my life has always been you."

"Wen..." Fang Yansheng's eyes widened slightly, as if time had stood still, he approached the pale man abruptly, and wrapped his hands around him.

"Can you say it again, I didn't understand..."

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