inferior possession

Standing at the gate of the mental hospital, the deer lowered its head, put its hands in its pockets, kicked a small stone away with its toes, and watched it roll away with indifferent eyes, and then hit the tree trunk by the side of the road.

The building next to it was tall and deserted, with a sense of coolness, like a cage, like an empty coffin.

Beside the road, there are sycamore trees planted, tall and towering, and when autumn comes, they start to wobble and drop their leaves here and there.

Ji Lu's eyes were lost, he stared at the trees above his head for a long time, took out his mobile phone to check the time, and walked in after all.

Even if you don't want to, you still have to face reality.

The hospital corridor in the early morning was empty, just like the day when he sent Qi Ran into the hospital, silent and dead, echoing his own footsteps.

It's a pity that it's me who needs to see a doctor this time.

Walking outside the familiar door, Ji Lu pursed his lips, straightened his clothes, combed his hair that had just been blown by the wind, and calmed down in his heart for a while before raising his hand and knocking on the door.

"Please come in."

There was a warm and soothing sound from inside the door, as well as the sound of flipping papers and light music, that is, the deer quietly forced himself to relax a little, and pushed the door open.

Going straight to the chair in front of the table and sitting down, Ji Lu clasped his hands, twisted them unconsciously, trembling slightly with force.Ji Lu bit his lower lip and cut straight to the point, "I've finished the medicine, I might need some more."

The doctor was flipping through the medical records and holding a pen. Hearing what he said, he paused in surprise, and then smiled, "I think, can we have a chat first?"

"What are you talking about?" Jilu bit the corner of his lips compulsively, lowered his head slightly, and looked up at him, his breathing was not smooth.

He doesn't want to talk, he is already much better, but he is more dependent on drugs, and after a while, with Brother Duan by his side, he will definitely get better soon.

He was sick when he was a child, and when he was in the most uncomfortable time in Qingai Orphanage, as long as Duan Congzhen's mother brought him here to visit, Lu would get better soon.

It will definitely work this time too.

He doesn't need to talk, he just wants to get the medicine quickly now.

"How do you feel recently, nearly two weeks?" The doctor guided patiently.

"pretty good."

"What about sleep and eating? How did you sleep? Eat more or less than usual?"

"Fine, no difference."

"Then is there..."

"Doctor, I'm fine." Ji Lu interrupted him, lowered his eyes to avoid making eye contact, and asked anxiously, "Can you prescribe me the medicine directly?"

"That's the deer." The doctor put down his pen, closed the notebook, and put it aside, "Although I do have the right to prescribe medicine, I can prescribe it for you, but I can't prescribe it randomly, right? I want to know about your recent That's the situation, that's all."

The tone is still persuasive, expecting that Ji Lu can speak some useful information, but the gentler he is, the more invisible oppression he feels.

Ji Lu could hear the slight helplessness and pity in his words, his lips moved, opened and closed several times, but he didn't say anything.

Seeing that he was a little loose, the doctor continued to induce and encouraged him to continue, "Can you tell me about your recent situation? After you leave...where, where do you work?"

The doctor wanted to say "after leaving Dongqingshan", but remembered that this was not a good memory for Jilu, so he chose to hide the place name.

"The bar." Ji Lu answered truthfully, and added, "Boss and colleagues are very nice."

"Not bad. Are you busy with work?" The doctor asked with a smile, as if an old friend who hadn't seen him for a long time was really greeting him.

Ji Lu shook his head and loosened his clenched hands, "It used to be a bit busy, but later the boss hired another waiter. If three people are divided, each shift will not last long. Basically, it only takes half a day a day, one day a week. rest."

"Very good." The doctor nodded, "Is your place close to the bar?"

As soon as this remark came out, the deer froze again.

address……

It refers to his rented house with extremely poor sound insulation and the environment is basically the same as a slum, or... Duan Congzhen's home.

"What's the matter?" The doctor saw that he didn't respond, and called him softly.

"Ah, I..." Ji Lu pinched his palms unconsciously, his breathing became rapid, his pupils trembled slightly, his whole body was undergoing subtle changes, and he spoke intermittently, "I live now... um..."

Seeing that he was a little abnormal, the doctor keenly noticed what was wrong, his face turned a little calm, his tone was still calm, and he continued to ask, insinuating, "How long does it take to commute on the road? Do you take the subway more often or walk?"

Jilu was silent for a while, "Soon...to walk."

"What do you do at home in your free time? Do you watch some movies?"

That is to say, the deer was silent again.

The doctor immediately noticed that there was something wrong with the residence.

"Jilu, you live alone now..."

"Doctor." Ji Lu suddenly interrupted him and asked again, "Are you done talking? Can you prescribe me medicine? I have other things to do today."

"That's the deer, you..."

The phone in his pocket vibrated suddenly, and the deer immediately took it out and clicked on it.

It was from Duan Congzhen, asking where he was.

Ji Lu hesitated for a moment, but still typed quickly, saying that he was seeing a doctor and would go back immediately.

There was no audio from the other side.

"Jilu, how is your current living environment?" The doctor asked, with a trace of seriousness, "Can you talk to me about both the natural environment and the social environment?"

Ji Lu pursed his lips, stared at Duan Congzhen's name on the screen, and didn't answer the doctor's question for a long time. After a while, he avoided the important point and said lightly, "The window is bright and clean, free from dust. It is far away from the noise, and the sound insulation is very good."

"Where's the neighbor?" The doctor looked at him. "Are the people around you easy to get along with?"

Jilu stopped talking again, was silent for a while, and was about to speak, then lowered his head to look at his phone.

Duan Congzhen sent a question mark, and then:

[I'm not a doctor?What doctor do you need to see? 】

Across the words, even the deer could feel deep dissatisfaction, and instantly curled up their fingers, digging on the side of the phone.

"A deer?" the doctor called to him.

His eyes dodged slightly, that is, the deer turned off the screen and tried not to look at him, the corners of his lips were tightly pursed, and there was a faintly detectable feeling of resistance to communication all over his body.

Seeing the man in front of him shrinking back into his comfort zone again, the doctor didn't understand what went wrong, but his professional experience told him that there was a big problem with the place where the deer lived.

Maybe it's the environment, maybe it's the people.

"You..." The doctor responded, "Are you living with someone?"

Ji Lu's eyes were slightly dazed, his breathing stagnated for a moment, and his chest heaved, as if he was a little lacking in oxygen.

"That's a deer..."

The phone rang again, and then the doctor said something, which Ji Lu never heard clearly.

A few simple words on the screen grabbed all his attention.

Duan Congzhen said, "Fu Ruibai, with sugar and no milk, please deliver it within 10 minutes, thank you."

Ji Lu stared at it blankly, and felt a little angina when he saw the familiar words.

Sure enough, Duan Congzhen was still bored doing experiments and just wanted to tease him to have fun.

Ji Lu sighed softly, and then received a message from Duan Congzhen. After a slight pause, he stood up abruptly from his chair, turned around and walked out, bowed slightly to the doctor, and apologized hastily, "Sorry doctor, I have something to do, I'll see you next time." ...Let's talk again."

After finishing speaking, he walked out quickly.

He is still willing to buy Duan Congzhen another cup of coffee that he doesn't know how to drink at all, and send it over eagerly.

Because this time Duan Congzhen told him "be careful on the road".