inferior possession

After get off work in the evening, Jilu didn't go home, so he went to the porridge shop by detour.

Since Duan Congzhen said that he can play as much as he wants, he will go back later. That house, that is, Lu really doesn't want to go back, resists almost out of instinct, even more than Duan Congzhen's house before.

When he entered the door, he was greeted with a rich aroma, and the deer's cold and worried face was relieved a little. He walked to the ordering counter and ordered a vegetable porridge.

The waiter stared at him for a while, nodded hastily, and went to the kitchen. After a while, he came out with a man who looked like a manager, pointing at the deer.

Even though the deer noticed his movements, he was a little confused, but he became alert instinctively, and quietly clenched the knife in his pocket.

The manager glanced at the deer, whispered a few words to the waiter, nodded, and walked towards the ordering counter.

"Sir," the manager asked with a polite smile, "Is your name Jilu?"

Ji Lu was slightly stunned, his eyes dimmed, but he still nodded, "It's me."

The manager immediately became excited, wiped the corner of his clothes with his palms, and bowed again and again, "Sir, thank you so much, we never thought that the little effort we made would be remembered in our hearts..."

Seeing this, Ji Lu was even more puzzled, frowning slightly, "This..."

The manager explained, "Our store has been serving the Qingai Children's Welfare Institute for decades. They are all simple food. Our store manager is a kind person and has never confiscated money. You remember it in your heart, came here specially to thank you, and donated so much money... We really don't know what to say."

Hearing what he said, Ji Lu remembered the porridge that Duan Congzhen bought for him that day. He felt that the taste was very familiar. He thought it was a coincidence, but he didn't expect that this shop was actually a restaurant that served the orphanage back then.

Looking at the humble and kind man in front of him, that is, Lu's throat was dry, he pursed his lips somewhat awkwardly, and hurriedly supported the man who bowed to him, and felt that he was worthy of his thanks.

"You just said..." Ji Lu was surprised, and asked late, "donate...money?"

The manager nodded repeatedly, holding his hand, his voice choked up, "Sir, don't worry, we will continue to support children in orphanages with this money, so that more people can be helped."

Hearing what he said, there must be a lot of money donated. Even though Lu was a little suspicious, he could only think of one person.

"Excuse me, who made the donation?" Ji Lu asked.

The manager said, "A gentleman came to see our store manager that day, and said that his old friend had received our kindness in the Qingai Welfare Institute, and he was entrusted by you to express his gratitude. It was he who donated the money."

Ji Lu thought for a while, then asked hesitantly, "His surname is Duan?"

The manager thought for a moment, but shook his head, "No."

After a moment of surprise, Ji Lu realized and asked again, "Is your surname Li?"

"Not at all."

The manager asked the waiter to bring the donation certificate at that time, handed it to Ji Lu, pointed to the signature below, and said, "It's this gentleman."

It signed a completely unfamiliar name and donated 1000 million to the store.

That deer frowned slightly.

Suddenly, the manager said, "Mr. Lu, we really can't express our gratitude. We will donate the money in your name to provide nutritious meals for more poor children."

Even Lu Weihuang, after hearing what he said, smiled lightly, "You guys are doing good deeds too, you took care of me when you were young, and now I'm here to thank you, I hope it won't be too late."

The manager shook his head again and again, holding his hand, his face was full of relief and gratitude.

When he came out with vegetable porridge, the deer stood on the embankment by the sea, blowing the salty sea breeze, and suddenly felt empty in his heart.

The car stopped not far away, but the deer didn't want to get back into the car, so he found a wide place, sat down on the floor, and opened the porridge box.

Familiar aroma blows, that is, the deer's Adam's apple slides, holding a spoon to stir in the porridge, the inside is full of ingredients, the diced sausage and minced meat that I didn't have the chance to taste when I was a child, are all in this bowl of porridge, but the deer is gone desire to eat.

Things that I wanted so much when I was a child, but when they are within easy reach, I don't want them anymore.

He wants a complete family, a mother who loves him, and a father who protects him.

I want a healthy body, and I don’t want to take medicine; I want to have chocolate to eat, and I want to share a little vegetable porridge for children.

Later, I wanted Duan Congzhen to visit him often, wanted his brother Duan to smile at him, and wanted to meet him.

After that, the deer didn't think about anything.

Because he knows that there are some things that cannot be obtained just by thinking about them.

After taking a mouthful of porridge and swallowing it, Lu Lu suddenly felt that this bowl of porridge was actually very ordinary, not as delicious as when he was greedy when he was a child. It was just that he was looking forward to it too much at that time, and every time his wish failed, he deepened his love for it over and over again. it longs.

Ji Lu was a little disappointed, but perhaps, this bowl of porridge has always tasted like this, ordinary, monotonous, sweet and greasy. It was his desire that deceived himself. The higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment.

After eating a bowl of porridge with the wind blowing, Lu Zai carefully put away the box, tied the bag, and put it aside, sat on the embankment, relaxed his body tiredly, and leaned back slightly.

Close your eyes slightly, that is to say, the deer puts his arms behind his back and leans down gently. Suddenly, his back bumps into something and is slightly resisted.

Startled, Ji Lu suddenly opened his eyes, and when he turned around, he saw the man standing behind him, looking down at him.

Duan Congzhen lowered his eyes lazily, raised his long legs halfway, and pressed his toes against his back that fell backwards, causing Jilu a little pain, so he quickly straightened up and looked back at him.

Ji Lu looked at him, opened his mouth, and said nothing.

"Why are you here?" Duan Congzhen looked down at him and asked quietly.

Ji Lu pursed his lips and argued softly, "You said I can play outside."

"En." Duan Congzhen responded, tilting his head slightly, "I said so."

The corners of the deer's eyes drooped slightly, "Have you repented?"

"not yet."

Ji Lu pinched his palm and said in a low voice, "Then you're here..."

"Is this your beach?" Duan Congzhen asked back, "Can't I come?"

Ji Lu stopped talking, looked away, and there was a bit of unbearable sadness on his face.

Duan Congzhen bent his knees and sat down next to him, raised his jaw and pointed to the beach not far away, and said, "Do you know how many people die every year in that bay?"

Ji Lu looked down at his palm, "There are so many accidental drownings every year, what's so strange?"

"It wasn't an accident," Duan Congzhen was silent for a moment, then continued, "It was suicide."

That is to say, the deer looked up and followed his gaze. The bay in the distance was sparkling, reflecting the setting sun, which was particularly brilliant.

With such a beautiful bay, it is no wonder that many people choose to end their lives here every year.

"What's wrong?" Ji Lu lowered his eyes, and glanced at the man sitting next to him from the corner of his eye, "Are you worried about me?"

"Yes." Duan Congzhen replied.

Ji Lu slightly raised his eyebrows, "Afraid I commit suicide?"

"That's not it."

Ji Lu took a deep breath, stared at the beach in a daze, and belatedly remembered something, turned his head slowly, and glanced at Duan Congzhen.

Duan Congzhen bit his cigarette, rested his hands leisurely, his eyes fell on the sea in the distance, and he didn't look at him.

Ji Lu licked the corner of his lips and called him, "Duan Congzhen."

The man looked back with a cigarette in his mouth, his face was indifferent, his eyes were deep, and no emotion could be seen.He looked at Ji Lu in response, and asked vaguely, "Huh?"

Ji Lu thought for a while, then asked in a low voice, "Are you ever worried?"

Without answering, Duan Congzhen stared at him for a long time, and a small amount of ash piled up on the cigarette between his lips, before he opened his mouth and replied lightly, "Occasionally."

Ji Lu looked at him, "Is it about the same frequency as you regret it?"

"That's not it."

That is, the deer stopped talking.

Sitting on the embankment for a while, the night was getting dark, and the sunset completely disappeared under the coastline. Duan Congzhen stood up, reached out and touched the top of Jilu's hair, "Get up, go home."

Ji Lu didn't say anything, but gave him his hand, and he obediently pulled him up, carrying his own trash, and followed behind him, thinking of something, touched his pocket and said softly, "... here are the car keys."

Duan Congzhen looked at him sideways, "No need." He said, shaking a bunch of keys in front of him, "I've got them."

That is to say, the deer's hands in the pockets were empty, and he scratched the pockets a few times, but found nothing.

"... When did you take it?" Ji Lu was slightly startled.

Duan Congzhen raised his eyebrows slightly, and said in a lazy tone, "When you weren't looking at me."