please let go

When Jiang Chen woke up and lay on the bed again, after the anesthetic wore off, the pain crept up densely and penetrated into the bone marrow. Only then did he react, and he was even glad that he could still feel the pain.

I thought that before death, people would look back on the past life, but one second he was still at the intersection, and the next second he woke up, he was already lying in the hospital.

For the first time, I felt that death was too sudden. There were still so many things to do, and I didn't finish my studies, so I didn't have time to say goodbye to my parents.

The last news I saw before he died was that the man would go on a blind date and get married.

It would be a pity if he really didn't wake up.

Tears dripped from the corners of his eyes and itched into his ears. He wanted to raise his hand to wipe it off, but with a little effort, his arm hurt so badly that he had to give up.

There was the sound of the door opening, but Jiang Chen was still staring blankly at the white ceiling without saying a word.

It wasn't until the person who came in stopped in front of the bed that he turned his head and stared blankly at the person he hadn't seen for two years.

If the 11-year-olds don't understand love, and the 17-year-olds don't understand what love is, then the first time they meet again after two years, they will have the definition of love in their hearts.

In this bloated season, He Chuan still implements the principle of "grace, not temperature", wearing only a gray round neck sweater and a windbreaker of the same color.

Simple outfits complement his slender figure.

The standing man's Adam's apple rolled, and he called tentatively: "Jiang Chen..."

The boy back then became more and more mature, but the look in Jiang Chen's eyes has never changed, it is the eyes of sleeping in the same bed, being with him day and night, and loving him sincerely.

Jiang Chen blinked, and felt that He Chuan seemed to have lost weight again, or grown taller again, did his hair also become shorter?Why are those eyes still so beautiful?Wearing so little, isn't it cold?

"You are…"

Jiang Chen wanted to ask He Chuan how he knew what happened to him, but was interrupted by He Chuan: "Jiang Chen, I beg you, please kill me..."

What is this?

Jiang Chen was also sad, crying in his heart: He Chuan, why don't you kill me...

He didn't say this, but just smiled and said briskly, "Are you here?"

It must be very cold outside, Jiang Chen saw that his neck was exposed to the outside and was slightly red, and frowned and said, "Why are you wearing so little..."

He didn't drink water for too long, his voice was very hoarse, and he simply closed his mouth again.

He Chuan took a deep breath, and his chest heaved obviously, "The phone call came to me, saying that my lover was in a car accident."

"Do my parents know?" Jiang Chen asked.

"I don't know why...the call came to me first, and the traffic accident certificate has not yet come out, but it seems that the owner of the car was drunk and driving."

He Chuan didn't even dare to touch Jiang Chen, with a distressed expression on his face: "Slight concussion, three broken ribs, two stitches for a sprained wrist, and multiple soft tissue bruises."

He choked up a bit as he spoke, "Jiang Chen, I was really scared when I received the call."

"It's okay...just a broken bone...he's not dead yet..."

"Jiang Chen! Just one rib fracture is very likely to be accompanied by hemothorax and pneumothorax, leading to dyspnea and shock!" He Chuan calmed down and lowered his voice again, "Fortunately, no internal organs were injured... no need to put steel nails in."

"Do you know why the phone calls you first?" Jiang Chen tried to sit up again, but his whole body ached when he tried, so he could only continue to lie down and look at He Chuan.

"Because the note I gave you is... lover"

Beloved, it starts with the letter A.

Of course it will be the first in the address book.

He Chuan didn't speak.

"He Chuan, I'm in pain." Jiang Chen felt his eyes getting hot, but he didn't want to cry in front of He Chuan, so he quickly closed his eyes.

"I'll call the doctor." He Chuan turned to go out.

"It's useless to call a doctor." Jiang Chen just saw someone, and didn't want him to leave, so he continued to ask: "How long have we not seen each other?"

He Chuan said: "726 days."

"Remember so clearly..." Jiang Chen smiled wryly, "It's not a bad thing to have a car accident, so I can't see you now?"

"Jiang Chen! Can you fucking stop talking so lightly?!" He Chuan realized that he had lost his composure, and said again, "You have a good rest."

Jiang Chen opened his eyes and looked at him, "You want a blind date, don't you?"

He Chuan stopped talking.

Jiang Chen's heart ached even more, he didn't show it, he just closed his eyes calmly again, "Okay."

"I won't go on a blind date. I'm on a blind date because of my mother. I haven't seen you." He Chuan sat aside, looking at the bloodless person on the bed. It's not fair to me, to that woman. As I said, I will always belong to you only."

Jiang Chen knew that He Chuan was torn between love and family, and he couldn't bear to force He Chuan, so he didn't bother him for two years.

But He Chuan's few words just now made him feel unwilling, "Have we entered a dead end?"

"Maybe...but I'm so stubborn when it comes to relationships."

"What a coincidence, I'm dead set too."

The two didn't say it clearly, but they made a tacit agreement.

Over the past few hundred days, I have stubbornly stuck to my heart and loved each other consistently.Even if there are countless more two years, this relationship will not change.

The sequelae of the concussion made Jiang Chen feel nauseous, throwing up whatever he ate, and it was even more tormenting at night.

"He Chuan, it hurts, it hurts, I'm good, it hurts... Is there any painkiller, I'm so... hurts, really, it hurts... it hurts..." Jiang Chen felt that thousands of bugs in his body were biting with their fangs. Abraded his skull, ribs, leg bones, "drug...drug..."

His whole body was numb from the pain, he was sweating profusely, his consciousness was lax, and he couldn't think at all. In the end, he couldn't even speak, and all he could think about was the word "pain".

Painkillers have been taken, but to no avail.

He Chuan could only sit beside him and grab his right hand, "Be patient..." In desperation, he put his hand to Jiang Chen's mouth, "Bite my hand."

Jiang Chen turned his head away, tried his best to restrain the urge to shout, biting his cheek until it hurt.

He Chuan extended his arm for the second time and said, "Stop biting yourself."

"Get out!!" Jiang Chen cried and growled.

He Chuan kept wiping the tears on Jiang Chen's face and the sweat on his forehead, and said over and over again: "It won't hurt after a while, it won't hurt after Ren Ren, good boy."

"He... Chuan... woo woo woo..." Jiang Chen was afraid that He Chuan would be worried, so he only dared to sob softly, unable to boldly express how much pain he was in.

For the first time, he experienced the feeling that life would be worse than death. The bone pain from the fixed plate made him want to hit his head to death, wishing he could pass out, but the pain in the skull made him more awake.

So far, Jiang Chen's nerves were in a state of near collapse all night, and when he woke up the second time, he felt like he was alive after a catastrophe.

He saw He Chuan sleeping on the bedside, raised his right hand to touch the soft hair, but was afraid of waking him up, so he had to put his hand down.

"Handsome guy, how are you doing now?" Jiang Chen's three roommates came in, holding flowers and fruits in their hands respectively.

He Chuan woke up after hearing the sound, and his first reaction was to look at Jiang Chen. He carefully raised his hand and asked worriedly, "Does it still hurt?"

"It's okay." Jiang Chen smiled weakly.

Seeing that something was wrong, Super Chen said, "The two of them..."

He Zhou helped to complete the rest of the sentence, "Why do you feel that the atmosphere is a little anxious?"

Ji Jingnian had already seen the world, so he calmly put the things in his hands aside, "Is it better? How long will it take to leave the hospital?"

He Chuan said: "After a week, we will see if I can be discharged from the hospital according to the situation."

"Sick and beautiful boy, do you want to eat fruit?" Super Chen walked to the bed, and after noticing He Chuan, he couldn't take his eyes off, "I'm a good boy, I'm so pretty, Jiang Chen, do you make friends because of your looks?"

He Chuan didn't even talk about it, he didn't even glance at Chen Chao from the beginning to the end.

Jiang Chen stared at Chao Chen quietly.

Ji Jingnian: "Ahem!"

He Zhou also understood Jiang Chen's eyes, poked Chen Chao with his arm, and reminded in a low voice, "Don't look."

Chen Chao came to his senses, "Ahaha! I prefer to look at the ones with strong looks."

Chen Chao didn't know that he offended two jealous people with one sentence.

He Chuan cast a puzzled look at Jiang Chen, and Jiang Chen shook his head sincerely to show his innocence.

"What are you two doing?" Super Chen was still asking.

"Nervous." He Zhou looked helpless.

Ji Jingnian smiled, "Let me explain the eye contact just now. He must have asked Jiang Chen if he would let you see it casually, and then Jiang Chen shook his head innocently and said he didn't."

"You two??" Chen Chao went to pull He Zhou's sleeve, then pointed to the two, "Them??"

He Zhou was forced to nod in response to Super Chen, "Well... it should be what we both thought."

"I'm a mother!!"

"Why are you here?" Jiang Chen looked at the three of them.

"Oh, He Chuan sent me a message saying that something happened to you. I already told the teacher at the school." Ji Jingnian said.

"Well, thank you." Jiang Chen turned to He Chuan and asked, "Your school..."

"I asked for leave."

Jiang Chen, who was in a plaster cast, was in pain every night, but it was a blessing in disguise, and He Chuan was with him every day.

A week later, the pain gradually subsided. He Chuan helped him get out of bed and said, "It will take at least one month for the plaster cast to be removed, and I will have to come for reexamination later. It will take half a year at the fastest to walk normally."

Jiang Chen frowned: "It's been so long..." He looked down at the wrist where the stitches had just been removed, feeling a little depressed, "It's going to leave a scar."

"It's okay, it won't affect your good looks." He Chuan patted him lightly and comforted him.

Even though ten days had passed, Jiang Chen still felt a dull pain in his ribs, "Why do my ribs still hurt a little? My head is also dizzy and painful."

"You are still recovering. There will be an irritation of the intercostal nerve in the ribs, so there will be local obvious pain. Dizziness and headache are a normal reaction to a concussion." He Chuan lowered his head and carefully supported Jiang Chen to walk slowly. Be careful not to touch the wound.

Jiang Chen has been emotionally unstable lately. He would cry for no reason, and his head would throb with pain when he smiled. The quality of his sleep was also extremely poor. Sometimes he couldn't sleep all night, and sometimes he could sleep for more than ten hours at a time.

He even forgot He Chuan's birthday.

He said with some regret: "Your birthday has passed."

"The important thing is never the birthday." He Chuan said softly.

Jiang Chen turned his head to look at him.

A certain person was looking down at his feet with his head buried, his lowered eyebrows and eyes looked docile, his jaw line was clear, and his profile showed the superiority of his facial features.

He even forgot to take a step, "Can I kiss you?"

He Chuan raised his head to meet the idiot's eyes, frowned and said, "It's all like this, what are you thinking?"

Saying so, he still leaned his face closer to let Jiang Chen peck, "Okay, keep going, if you can't hold on, just say it."

"Ok!"

A month later, Jiang Chen was discharged from the hospital. If he hadn't had a cast on his leg, he wouldn't have believed that he had been in a car accident.

He Chuan sent him to the school gate, and before leaving, he only asked: "Pay attention to rest and diet."

Jiang Chen looked at the back of the far away, and he refused to move into the school for a long time. Finally, Ji Jingnian couldn't bear it and began to urge: "Everyone has gone far away!"

When I went back to bed, I was gossiped by my roommate again.

Chen Chao blamed: "You are so strong! Girlfriend turned into boyfriend!"

"The word 'He Chuan' on the bracelet, the first reaction is like a boy's name." He Zhou also said.

"My boyfriend is too good-looking, too showy and easy to be missed." Jiang Chen was a little thankful that the hand that got into the car accident was not the same as the hand that wore the chain.

"Hey! I don't like to mention a gender. My dog ​​doesn't protect food like you."

He Zhou said leisurely: "I don't know who is staring at other boyfriends.

"It's so pretty hahaha!" Super Chen said with a smile.

Ji Jingnian also nodded, "Indeed."

After the final exam was over, Ji Jingnian asked Jiang Chen if he wanted to call his boyfriend over during the dinner in the dormitory.

Just after Jiang Chen refused, he received a call from He Chuan, he hurriedly connected, and heard the other end say, "My mother wants to see you."

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The next chapter should be sweet