Saan

Gu Zuo slowly pressed the black keys and white keys one by one, and a piece of music flowed out, beginning with the tenderness of that moment.

Babbling, toddling, the first Gu Zuo was happy.Even if there is no father, the beautiful mother always teaches him to write by hand. The two of them wipe the floor and fold clothes together at home, ride a small bicycle in the garden, and sit in the trolley in the supermarket and wink at the people who choose goods. Mother.

The sound of Gu Zuo's piano, gently and silently expresses all his thoughts.

Nightmares always come across unexpectedly, my mother smiled as always but covered her face with a wet towel, Gu Zuo was struggling, and that sweeping feeling of suffocation accompanied Gu Zuo for most of his life. .So close to death and so far away from survival, Gu Zuo chose a fragmented way of life. As long as he can survive, he can bear anything.

Occasionally Gu Zuo would fantasize that maybe one day his mother would remember him and bring him back.Then in the long years, Gu Zuo learned to wait.And in the endless years, Gu Zuo learned to endure everything.

The melody chanted by the sound of the piano has become the unresolved sorrow in spring.Just like the appropriate sadness and tenderness in Gu Zuo's heart, it's not that he doesn't hate, it's not that he doesn't hate, it's just that as time goes by, memories overcome hatred, and it slowly brews into a shallow injury in spring.

Gu Zuo, who was playing, showed a slight smile, and the tone of his subordinates gradually changed, but the door of longing in his heart could no longer be closed.

In those days of humiliation, the little happy and beautiful fragments will be continuously enlarged in my heart, like a painting, shown in my mind over and over again.

Can I go back?Still can't go back?

Will those people forget themselves?Or have you forgotten?

The slow beat, the gradually lowering tone, the fusion of tenderness and despair, even Gu Zuo himself couldn't tell whether it was regret or relief.

Recalling the sound of Gu Zuo's piano, it was like falling flowers all over the sky, gently falling to the ground and turning into ashes.He doesn't need others to comfort him, and he doesn't need others to understand his fragility. Gu Zuo doesn't want others to underestimate him, and he doesn't want to become an excuse for depravity because of the corruption of the past. The more unloved, the more he must love himself.

The melodious sound of the piano seems to be catering to Gu Zuo's thoughts, and it has been circulating in his heart.He used to look forward to life, and wanted to grow old with his dearest person. Gu Zuo thought that his dream had been wiped out by reality, but he didn't expect it to be outlined bit by bit at this moment.His wasted life seemed to have a purpose again.

Why not experience one absurd trip after another endlessly like this?Gu Zuo's piano sound has slowly changed, the melody is still sad, but it has a different meaning.

The unbridled fire, the humiliating animal mark, Charles turned his head in a daze, and Sebastian played the violin while matching Gu Zuo's piano music.As if sensing Ciel's gaze, Sebastian smiled slightly at Ciel.

For a moment, Charles felt relieved, he turned his head awkwardly, and met Elizabeth's gaze.Those were a pair of eyes twinkling like stars, as if recalling the scene when Charles disappeared, Elizabeth couldn't help feeling a little anxious, and leaned closer to Charles.Elizabeth didn't show a smile until Charles held Elizabeth's hand harder.

Standing by the piano, Dort listened carefully to the music played by Gu Zuo, praising the wonderful timbre from time to time.

Liu still sat motionless, frowning slightly.At the beginning, I just felt that Gu Zuo was quieter than he remembered, and his every move had a sense of maturity that did not belong to his age. Liu felt a little embarrassing, and he missed Gu Zuo's growth stage.But gradually, Liu noticed something different.

Gu Zuo doesn't like to be served by others, and he is more willing to accept foreign language than before, and even his taste in clothes and meals has changed.Gu Zuo and Liu grew up in Shuzhou, and they have a heavy taste in food since they were young. I don't know when Gu Zuo only ate some light food.Maybe Gu Zuo just grew up... Liu said this to himself, he was still unwilling to doubt Gu Zuo who was like a brother.

Is it really just that Gu Zuo is a brother?Liu didn't know.

But Liu knew that no matter how far away it was, he drove the horse back to the mansion just to see how Gu Zuo fell asleep peacefully.Occasionally seeing him sleeping very restlessly, Liu would light a stick of incense, wait for Gu Zuo to fall asleep, gently brush his hair, and help him wipe away his fine sweat.

Gu Zuo's pair of bright eyes are even brighter than Liu's memory, like glass, and his whole person often unconsciously exudes a different style.It was harder for Liu to refuse Gu Zuo than before, as long as Gu Zuo slightly raised his head and showed a pleading look, Liu would agree to anything.

Until Gu Zuo showed his flaws... Liu could no longer turn a blind eye, why Gu Zuo forgot the saying that the Qing people called themselves Manchus and not his own creation, why Gu Zuo was so surprised when facing the Indian princes and forgot their teacher One of them is an Indian. Why is Gu Zuo's body so smooth that there are no scars and the scars from martial arts training when he was a child are gone... There are so many questions, Liu just chooses to remain silent, he is waiting... Waiting for Gu Zuo to help him explain.

In Liu's mansion, Liu occasionally heard the sound of Gu Zuo's piano, but never like now, it seemed that he had poured all his emotions into it, surging and surging.

Everyone has their own stories. After joining the Youth Gang, Liu Ye endured all the hardships and refused to tell Gu Zuo. Maybe Gu Zuo encountered something when he didn't pay attention to it.

Liu watched Gu Zuo's back, his back was straight.Even though he couldn't see his face, Liu could still imagine Gu Zuo's delicate and elegant face showing a peaceful expression.

Xiao Zuo... Liu was thinking silently in his heart... As long as Gu Zuo can explain, he can accept anything...

Gu Zuo didn't take other people's thoughts into consideration. In order not to continue dancing with Dorit, he played one song after another continuously, without allowing Dorit a break to speak.

Gu Zuo remembered that path, that house number, stayed outside several times, and wanted to raise his hand to knock on the door, but he never had the courage.He knew that there lived his mother, a relative whom he had not seen for ten years.It was just a door away, Gu Zuo became timid, clearly fantasizing countless times that he mustered up the courage to face his mother face to face, but when the real time was coming, he didn't even have the strength to raise his hand to knock on the door.

Standing in front of this door again and again, and leaving with his head bowed again and again, Gu Zuo asked himself, what exactly do you want?Are you going to restore the broken family relationship, or do you want others to save you from the sea of ​​evil?

Every time, Gu Zuo's heart is always in a state of turmoil, unable to calm down for a long time, and occasionally even hides in the stairwell, waiting for the door to open.Sometimes it's the hostess, sometimes it's a child, but the shadow of the mother is nowhere to be seen. Even if she might appear in the next second, Gu Zuo chose to leave in despair.

That day was sunny and sunny, and it was the last day of school before the school summer vacation.The strange Gu Zuo stood in front of this door again, and this time the door unexpectedly opened slowly.Gu Zuo recognized at the first sight that this was his mother, whom he hadn't seen in ten years.Some are old and no longer have the charm in memory.There are some wrinkles, and the beauty in memory is no longer there.But this is his mother, and the precipitation of the years has made her even more charming.

The two who looked directly at each other, finally, it was the mother who asked if Gu Zuo was a salesman?I'm sorry that her family doesn't need anything for now...it's still as gentle as Gu Zuo remembered.

Gu Zuo ran away very disappointingly, he didn't know what to say, just the look on his mother's face, he knew that she had lived happily in the past ten years, and she didn't have any regrets at the time when she abandoned him and married that person.

The memories came to an abrupt end here, and since then Gu Zuo has never stood in front of that door, never seen his mother again, and just endured the life of being subservient to others day after day.

Gu Zuo's piano sound continued, following the memories, but the sadness was finally diluted.That dark past didn't wear away his will, Gu Zuo was still the same Gu Zuo, patiently waiting for his own new start.

The memory is far away, Gu Zuo repeated it again with nostalgia, each time it became clearer in his heart, maybe for a long time, he would never recall these things again.If time could be turned back, Gu Zuo wanted to ask her how she was doing when she faced her mother.The hatred has faded, Gu Zuo's life was brought by his mother, whether it is good or bad, happiness or not, it is up to him.

Gu Zuo thought, maybe this is the last time he will be tormented by the memory fragments about his mother... In this brightly lit hall, Gu Zuo just played the tune over and over again, completely sealing the past , Shaking himself to put those past on the shelf.

From then on, Gu Zuo was just Gu Zuo, living hard in this weird world.

Suddenly, Ash stood in front of Dorit, "Viscount Dorit, it's time to go back..."

Dort wanted to say something else, and stood up straight the moment he met Ash's eyes, "I'll go back... I'll go back now..."

Dorit has never seen such an Ash. Although there is a smile on his face, there is no smile in his eyes at all, which makes Dorit feel a chill rising deep in his body, as if Ash's In the next moment, the purple eyes will shoot a cold knife to pierce themselves.

No matter how much Dort was reluctant to part with Gu Zuo, he followed Yaxiu timidly after kissing his hands.

As soon as Dorit and Yaxiu left, the dance party came to an end.After all, Charles already wanted to rest, and more importantly, Sebastian felt that enough was enough, so he took the initiative to tell Gu Zuo that he had prepared new clothes suitable for him in his room.

Liu took Gu Zuo and left the hall. Although Gu Zuo complained that Liu didn't rescue him before, remembering Liu's various cares in the mansion, he still followed Liu leisurely without saying anything.

The moment Gu Zuo opened the door, Liu suddenly said, "Xiao Zuo..."

Liu still kept his eyes closed and hid his hands in his sleeves, turning his head to look at Gu Zuo who was standing not far from him.

Liu's hesitant expression was more like expecting something, Gu Zuo felt a little strange, did Liu want to say something by himself? "Thank you...I'll change my clothes right away." Gu Zuo tilted his head and walked into the room, wondering if Liu wanted himself to say that.

Liu En let out a cry, and watched Gu Zuo enter the room. The door closed slowly, as if closing the last hope. He tightly held the hidden note in his hand. In Liu's opened eyes, Sheng Full of deep black.