Unspeakable

Under the repeated urging of his aunt, Zhang Yang started to pack his luggage.While rummaging and tidying up, there was always a sense of soreness in his heart, and he stopped involuntarily, staring at the blank wall in a daze.

Sometimes, he also feels very unwilling.Why are my feelings not respected, why my life must be led by others...

"Give me a photo of you." Zhang Yang suddenly asked Mu Chen.

"Can't you remember what I look like?"

"That's not true, but at least... I will remember you more directly when I see your picture."

Mu Chen shook his head lightly.

"Why?" Zhang Yang felt incredible.

"I don't have a photo," Mu Chen's eyes flashed with sadness, "We are all people without photos. Once we disappear, we will be clean. Only a few people can prove that we have been here."

Zhang Yang frowned, feeling a little uncomfortable: "Then let's take a photo now, and then wash it out immediately."

Mu Chen thought for a while, but still shook his head: "It's not necessary."

"What do you mean?"

"Really, just trust me for once, no need."

Zhang Yang hesitated to speak, but in the end he didn't force it.

……

Finally, Zhang Yang received a call from his aunt.The aunt on the other end of the phone was overjoyed: "Yang Yang, are you ready? We're leaving tomorrow."

Zhang Yang's heart stopped beating suddenly, the last thing he expected finally came.He remembered what Mu Chen said, this is our destiny, it will all happen sooner or later.

"Ready."

"Oh, Yang Yang has been so sensible since he was a child, do you understand?"

"...Don't worry about me," Zhang Yang said with difficulty, "How much is the compensation?"

"120 million, I said that it was right to buy that house at that time. The house price was cheap at that time. Although it was an unfinished building, it had a large area and a good layout. It was also on the coast. I knew that one day it would appreciate in value. If it was not unfinished, it would have to double. ……Ha ha."

Zhang Yang also laughed dryly twice.

Putting down the phone, Mu Chen stared into Zhang Yang's eyes and said calmly, "Are you leaving?"

"tomorrow."

"Oh...so fast." Mu Chen lowered his eyes, staring at his fingers that were stirring together.

Zhang Yang forced a smile: "I will be back soon."

"impossible."

"How is it impossible? I just said that I haven't visited many scenic spots in China."

"It's impossible for your aunt to allow it. For you, this is a place of right and wrong."

Zhang Yang sighed, who said otherwise.

Mu Chen looked up at Zhang Yang's stiff smiling face, feeling very sad: "Zhang Yang, I'm not a child. No one can accept this, if you really can't laugh, stop laughing."

Zhang Yang shook his head and put away his smile: "It's okay. Then we... that's about it."

"Yeah." Mu Chen looked at Zhang Yang with a smile, his eyes were slightly red.

Nothing to say all night.

The two sat on the sofa, quietly spending the last time together.After staying up until midnight, Zhang Yang finally couldn't stand it any longer and fell asleep drowsily.Mu Chen looked at Zhang Yang's furrowed eyebrows, smiled, and stroked his face.

Zhang Yang said something indistinct in his dream, and then he said hurriedly and loudly: "Don't go, don't go, don't leave me alone!"

When Mu Chen listened, his heart almost twisted together.He sighed, if it doesn't work, just use that method.

Zhang Yang began to cry in his dream, tears rolling down his cheeks one after another: "How can I live without you, what will I do in the future... I don't want to live anymore..."

In the darkness, Mu Chen secretly clenched his fists.He shook Zhang Yang lightly: "Where am I, Zhang Yang, little sheep?"

Zhang Yang woke up with a start, jumped up, touched his face, it turned out to be wet: "Am I crying?"

"Ah."

Zhang Yang sighed: "Oh... I dreamed that I was leaving."

"It's not a dream anymore, but—" Mu Chen looked at him firmly, Zhang Yang even felt Mu Chen's shining eyes in the dark, "I won't let you go."

Zhang Yang wiped away the tears on his face, a little unresponsive.

"I said I want to be with you forever, that is to say, we will live together and die together. I will not let you leave me."

"Then what to do, things have come to this point."

Mu Chen: "Do you still remember Mu Shaonong's research?"

"...Remember," Zhang Yang finally realized after several seconds, "What are you going to do?"

"If someone wants to give something to their future self, they have to cut off a piece of their own skin, tie the item to their skin, and then destroy it."

Zhang Yang felt that his whole body was trembling, but he couldn't tell if it was excitement, or the disbelief before he was relieved.

Mu Chen smiled: "I've been thinking about it, what should we do? Our fate has been decided in this life, but we really can't accept it. We really can't live in this life, so let's wait for the next life. Are you willing?"

Zhang Yang was so surprised that he couldn't speak for a while, but he nodded vigorously: "Will there be any accidents?"

"No, someone has already tested it."

"you sure?"

"Ah."

"Then...it's better than this."

Mu Chen pushed Zhang Yang: "Go to bed and sleep for a while."

Zhang Yang froze for a moment, then walked towards the bedroom.He feels that every step is very difficult. This is towards the end, towards liberation, and at the same time towards happiness.

Mu Chen went to the kitchen, turned on the gas, and cut off a piece of skin on the palm of his hand with a knife.

……

Mu Chen walked to the bed, bent down and kissed Zhang Yang, and then stuffed the scarlet-stained object into Zhang Yang's palm.Zhang Yang clenched his fist subconsciously.

The room was filled with a faint smell of gas, and Mu Chen took out a box of matches from the bedside table.

He sat on the head of the bed, clasped Zhang Yang's hand, and saw tears from the corners of his eyes.

Mu Chen sighed, but at the same time he was secretly happy in his heart.

We have finally liberated ourselves, and we don't have to live so tiredly.

"Goodbye."

Mu Chen smiled, said softly, and then lit a match.

The match pierced the darkness and drew a brilliant light.

everything is over.

In other words, everything has just begun.

Unspeakable.

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