follow my heart

Traveling is always a rush.

Ji Wan regained consciousness, the sky had already darkened.The environment of this hotel is quiet, and the sound insulation is well done. The whole room is so silent that it is in a vacuum.

Waiting for the car to pick you up.

She played some music on her mobile phone, somewhat dispelling the suffocating loneliness.

The little guy went hiking today.

Heartless, I don't know if I remember to bring an umbrella.

After Ji Wan finished her business, she held her mobile phone and refreshed Moments several times, but she didn't see anything updated by her.Shouldn't a student of her age take a picture of Jiugongge every meal?

The list randomly played songs, skipped to "fiction" and played it, with a clean and clear voice as gentle as an angel.She cut the song right away.

Ji Wan put down her phone and rubbed her eyebrows.

She thought, what should I do.

Can you use a business trip to take a little time away and look at the situation?

In front of Ji Wan is a desk lamp, illuminating her eyes, but half of her body is sitting in the darkness.There is still unremoved makeup on the face, and the slightly melted makeup reveals the busyness and fatigue of the day.

She was thinking, what did Meng Yong Tuogu say at the beginning?

It seems that, if possible, take care of your daughter as much as possible.

He should be clear that Meng Buqing has no intention of going abroad at all.The mother can't take care of her. If a little girl works hard on her own after graduation, it's easy to embark on a rough and hard road.

According to the network resources Ji Wan had at that time, it was not difficult to arrange a leisurely and decent job for her in a familiar industry.

This level of care is probably what Meng Yong wanted for his daughter.

But she moved directly into Meng Buqing's house.

I also want to take care of the little girl about the debt.

"..."

Ji Wan closed her eyes and rubbed her eyebrows.

I thought to myself, maybe I am a very bad person, right?

Meng Yong is actually her benefactor.

He is the direct leader of her first job, and he has the grace of supporting and cultivating her.After Ji Wan quit her job, she inquired about his preferences, and bought an ancient book from the auction house as a gift for him.

Appreciation of antiques is her family education.

Although the gift is not a song edition, it is also a collection-level treasure.

Meng Yong thought that she was a friend, and would often talk to her about these things in the future.

A faint connection was maintained between the two.

As time went by, Ji Wan's anger at ancient books due to her dislike of her father gradually faded, and she even became interested in collecting ancient books just like him.

And I like Meng Yong's daughter very much.

At first, I felt that the little girl named Meng Buqing was very similar to her childhood environment.Too similar, it is inevitable that there will be some natural intimacy.

Later, I discovered that the little girl's personality was much more pleasing than the stubborn and gloomy self.

I like it more.

Ji Wan even said bluntly to Meng Yong: I don't want my daughter, you can raise it for me.

"..."

He said it in a playful tone, but hid his sincerity.

She lives like a closed and self-sufficient island, busy all day long, and doesn't think she can be a partner with anyone, let alone have any children.The loneliness in the second half of life can be clearly seen.

I want a smart and lovely daughter to accompany me to break this long and dark trajectory.

It doesn't matter if it's your own.

Meng Yong also showed her a photo of Meng Buqing.

It is a group photo of the whole class taken after the kindergarten's New Year's Day program.

Everyone in that photo is smiling at the camera, the classroom is full of excitement, only one little one is standing half-standing with his hands on the stool, looking around.

Her vertical and soft hair clung to her cheeks, her chubby white face, her black round eyes, and she was wearing a fat red cotton jacket.

As cute as a little doll in a New Year picture.

Ji Wan remained calm and looked at it for a long time.

In fact, my heart is not so peaceful.

She really wanted to snatch her over and raise her for herself.

It's a pity that she can't even grab the ancient books collected by Meng Yong, let alone his living and charming daughter.She could only hold back unrealistic thoughts.

Until, Meng Yong officially started his business but was diagnosed with stomach cancer.

God made such a heavy joke on him.He didn't have time to be depressed, he regrouped and wanted to promote the project to make money and cure diseases at the same time.

On the day when I was alone with Ji Wan, at the same time, I used the house to repay the debt and borrowed money from her.

Ji Wan's heart was beating very fast, and she felt that her life had to start over in a different way, so she immediately had other thoughts.So she suggested that Meng Yong write down such a will.

If he is cured, the will can be changed and the money can be paid back slowly.

If he is unlucky... Ji Wan wants to adopt his daughter over as a matter of course.

Who knows, after thousands of calculations, what she never expected is that Meng Yong's daughter is not five or six years old, not seven or eight years old...not even seventeen or eighteen years old.

Both are 20 years old.

The moment Ji Wan learned the truth, her expression seemed to be struck by lightning.She would indeed be delighted that the ancient books she found were older than she imagined, but raising her daughter would not like older ones...

There was a trance of being deceived.

For such a big daughter, Meng Yong has talked so much, but he only talked about her kindergarten and elementary school stories.

"..."

Ji Wan fell into memories.

The original decision was said to be too impulsive, but it was not too impulsive.

Because I'm always in a hurry, I don't notice the real time.In a flash, she was almost 30 years old, and she was still driving alone, and she still couldn't see the state of her destination.

Recruited at the same time as Ji Wan, there was a girl from the countryside who was promoted very quickly.

She is smart and hard-working, with a gentle and tenacious personality. She can handle the workload of two to three people by herself, and is quickly assigned to a higher position.

When I heard the news again, it was an obituary passed quietly among my colleagues.

It is said that when she was staying up late at the company and working overtime, she suddenly felt numb all over, and thought about holding back and waiting until she finished her work before going to the hospital.

As a result, he died of acute renal failure.

After the person died, the parents came to the company to make a very ugly disturbance.

After recovering a large amount of satisfactory pension, they directly used her savings before her life and compensation after her death to buy two houses for her son in full.

Ji Wan doesn't have a deep friendship with her, but she did drink the coffee she invited.

Knowing that she has a bad relationship with her family, even the money for going to school is only obtained by writing an IOU with her mother.

After hearing this, she was full of astringency.

Thinking over and over again whether there is any point in working hard now.Ji Wan's purpose of making money has become vague after going through several changes, and she can't grasp it clearly.

In fact, enough money is earned.She plans to leave her job and wants to change to a less difficult industry.

But he was kept by the big boss all the time, and he couldn't find a suitable opportunity.

So on the day she learned of Meng Yong's death, Ji Wan directly applied to the company for a job transfer, preparing to start a new life that mainly focused on raising children.

The fact that Meng Buqing is already a college student hit her hard.

In the end, I can only grit my teeth to comfort myself, it is better to be sensible, don't bother, maybe you can get along and become a harmonious relative.No matter how bad it is, she will pack up and take away the ancient books collected by Meng Yong.

Who would have expected that at the first breakfast after moving in, Ji Wan would hear the special stalk written in her novel from the mouth of the little girl sitting across from her...

Things have been very different since then.

Ji Wan lowered her face, staring at the dimmed phone screen in a daze, then raised her face suddenly, and looked out the window through the balcony into the darkness.

Next, the road, how should we go?

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It may be that the speed of climbing the mountain is too fast, and after reaching the top of the mountain, I feel a little exhausted.Meng Buqing came up in the drizzle all the way, and was blown head-on by a strong wind, his cheeks were cold and he had a splitting headache.

She turned away from the wind.

The loose clothes were constantly heaving in the air, and it was extremely cold today.

Meng Buqing stared at Yunyi from the mountain, in a daze.

It feels like after waiting for half a century, two classmates finally climbed to the top and asked in surprise, "When did you arrive? Why are you alone? What are you doing here?"

Meng Buqing yawned and said drowsily, "I came here a few days ago, and I'm here to practice Tai Chi."

classmate:"……"

Everyone chatted with each other.

Meng Buqing listened and responded, but he didn't have any opinions.The whole person seemed to be blown cold by the wind, and he didn't really care about what others said.

Wait until the sunset and catch the sunset at the top of the mountain.

Meng Buqing took out his mobile phone and wanted to take a picture, but stopped and forgot.Why bother to look for a sense of existence so pitifully.

"..."

After playing, Song Wenyi was picked up by Xiao Anqiao.

Meng Buqing took the bus with everyone.

She continued to sleep in the car.

It may be that I caught a cold, and my temples throbbed and hurt.He raised his hand to touch his forehead, it was hot.

Meng Buqing didn't show it on his face.

She doesn't get sick very often, and she is especially unfamiliar with this feeling of weakness in limbs and discomfort all over her body.I came home slowly, thinking about taking a hot bath and sleeping, I should be fine.

She took the key and opened the door.

In a daze, it was like returning to the days when my father had just passed away.In the dim living room, the windows were closed and the curtains were drawn tightly.

It was Ji Wan's sudden visit that broke the depression in the whole room.

Now she's gone too.

Meng Buqing raised his hand and wiped the corner of his eyes vigorously, then went into the bathroom to take a shower.

half an hour.She came out steaming all over her body, and after drying her hair roughly, she quickly got into the bed and lay down.I closed my eyes for most of the day, without any sleepiness, and my stomach kept rumbling.

She struggled, the sick man had no strength, he couldn't even move a finger.

I had no choice but to take out my phone and order a takeaway.

After placing the order, Meng Buqing closed his eyes and struggled to rest in fatigue and boredom.

Another new notification sound.

Ji Wan: [I'll come over later to get something. ]

Meng Buqing's heart skipped a beat, and he responded silently.

Why did you come here to pick up things today?

"..."

Now, I can't sleep anymore.

She pricked up her ears, subconsciously paying attention to any movement at the door.

After an unknown amount of time, I heard the sound of a key opening the door.

Meng Buqing's mind was very confused, she closed her eyes, quietly pulled the quilt to cover her face, pretending that she was not at home.I dare not go out and see her.

She knows her virtues.

If he sees Ji Wan's face again, he will definitely put on a show and tell all the lies, just begging her to stay.stay with her.

The selfish man is almost overwhelmed with desire.

Ji Wan went upstairs, and after a while, footsteps came down again.

And the sound of the trunk.

After a while, there was a slight sound of opening the door, and an obvious sound of closing the door.

It should be that Ji Wan took the good things and left.

Meng Buqing pursed her lips.

The long eyelashes blinked, and the eyes were warm and moist.She felt that she was so amazing that she was willing to let go of a person she had loved for so many years.

Quiet for a few seconds.

The bedroom door was knocked three times.

Ji Wan pushed open the door, holding a takeaway paper bag in her hand.

There was no expression on her face behind the backlight, but her eyes were looking at her sternly, and her voice was as calm as ever: "Didn't you never eat takeaway?"

"..."

The author has something to say:

Suddenly something happened today, I don’t have time to write more, I also have a date on Valentine’s Day tomorrow

Give everyone a small red envelope~