don't like me

Tong Jin's birthday is coming.

But she doesn't want to be mentioned, and even her birthday was accidentally heard by me. The nurses were chatting, and I received such a message when I was washing fruit for my mother.

I shared this incident with my mother, and she was naturally excited. She said how can I only know about this kind of thing after listening to others, and let me firmly remember that Tong Jin’s birthday must not be forgotten. I said: "My own birthday I don’t know, remember someone else’s?”

My mother said: "How many times have I told you, the 27th is the 27th, why can't I remember?"

"How many months?"

"October."

I asked her to pull it down. The last time I asked, she said it was January.

My mother said that she was sorry for me, and she was depressed by herself again. I didn't care who made her remember it. She didn't remember her own Good Friday. Do I know what it's related to?

"April 4, remember." I said.

My mom said, "Really?"

I said, "It's on the ID card."

My mother said it was credible, and silently recited it.

It's normal for her not to remember, she didn't love me that much before.

Even if you don't really love me right now.

"Why isn't Xuxu coming? Didn't Jin Jin tell you?" My mother misses her daughter, but her daughter doesn't want to. This is really annoying. Is it because I don't want to bring her here?

"She had a school event two days ago, she was rehearsing."

"Should she be on vacation? Where does she live now? School? Don't go home on holidays?" My mother was in a hurry. She hadn't seen her for a while, and it was almost a month after careful calculation.

"Stay at home, I will ask you this week."

"Don't fool me again. Tell her that if you don't come again, you won't be able to see her mother, and you won't be happy to see her after a few days. Do you have to wait until I'm buried?" Her blood pressure became high, and she started talking loudly Panting, the heart rate was displayed on the screen, and I glanced at it to reassure her.

"Okay, tomorrow, I'll bring her to see you." I surrendered.

My mother was still silent, she was really sad, I handed her the apple, but she was not willing to eat it, either Wen Zhixu came to see her, or I married Tong Jin in place, fuck, who did Tong Jin provoke ?

I said, "Don't worry, if I don't see her tomorrow, I will marry Tong Jin in place."

Hearing what I said, she was happy. Like a child, she needed someone to coax her. She took the apple and took a bite out of anger. Tong Jin just came in, and my mother hurriedly greeted her.

For Tong Jin's birthday, I asked her what she wanted, but Tong Jin said don't prepare anything, she doesn't like birthdays.

Tong Jin was dispensing the medicine, and I was watching. It was just the two of us inside, and we didn't hesitate to speak.

"Is it what those girls said? How old am I, what birthdays are not birthdays, the wish is that there will be fewer patients, and everyone can stay at home healthy and with their families, work, and that's fine."

"You are really kind." I played with a discarded needle in my hand.

"What, I really don't want to think about it." Tong Jin put aside the prepared medicine in her hand, she finished her work today, and finally found time to ask me, "Do you want to have a meal together?"

I dropped the needle and raised my chin: "Go."

Tong Jin took off her white coat and followed me.

I invited her to eat at a nearby restaurant, which Tong Jin often comes to. She is more familiar with me than me. She greeted me and the proprietress. Judging from the good friendship between the two, Tong Jin should have come here quite a lot.

The proprietress is a middle-aged woman with a slightly fat body, 37 or [-] years old, just look at her face.She has a loud voice, and you can hear it when serving dishes to greet people. Don't mention it, this kind of small restaurant is more lively and popular than high-end restaurants. I am comfortable staying here.

"That's your boyfriend?" The proprietress looked at me from a distance and said, her voice was really unrestrained, as if she was afraid that I wouldn't hear, Tong Jin looked at me with her, and then greeted me One sentence.

"Brother Xing." She also called me Brother Xing, because I am two years older than her, and many people around me are younger than me.

"Here we come." I walked over and asked them what's the matter. In fact, I knew it. I heard the two of them talking just now. I'm sorry Tong Jin explained it to me again.

"So handsome," the proprietress suddenly shouted, "Jiao Jiao Xiao Chen, come here."

Tong Jin acquiesced to their actions, but I didn't understand the situation, and saw two girls who were about the same age as Tong Jin come out. They were wearing work clothes and asked the boss what was wrong.

The proprietress pointed at me and said, "Look, Jin Jin's boyfriend, but which one are you looking for?"

I've never seen someone so ostentatiously handsome, the lady boss is very funny, and I looked cheekily at the two girls, who were whispering something.

The scene was once awkward and cramped.

Indeed, how can such a thing be shouted so much?

"Look, I let you see Jinjin's boyfriend, why are you embarrassed? Isn't it the one you are looking for with a successful career? And you are handsome, don't you look down on those dicks in the back kitchen?" The voice of the proprietress drew the people from the back kitchen out, and a head poked out from the window for serving dishes.

"Sister Ling, please keep your voice down when you speak ill of us, don't you want to lose face?"

"Oh, I'm sorry, I forgot." The proprietress covered her mouth in a hurry, but she couldn't change anything.

The man in the back kitchen raised his eyebrows at me as a friendly gesture, and I raised my hand in response.

"Then let's do this first, Miss Ling, just serve two servings as usual, and I'll still sit at table number 6." Tong Jin said.

The proprietress waved her hand: "I know, I know, take your boyfriend to sit, and I'll let someone get ready."

Tong Jin said politely, "Thank you, Miss Ling."

The proprietress rolled her eyes: "Be polite with me."

Tong Jin took me to sit on the side. This table No. 6 had just been cleared, and the bench was still hot. Someone was there before, so we came by coincidence.

As soon as I sat down, Tong Jin said to me: "Miss Ling is just like that, if you offend me, take care of me."

"How can there be no offense? It's interesting." I said.Tong Jin knows my temper, so she won't care about this matter, that is to say, she came out to seek peace of mind.

"I like her very much," I said sincerely, looking at the busy proprietress, "It's a bit like a neighbor I used to have. Although she has a loud voice, she is not as warm-hearted as your sister Ling."

"Can it still be cold?"

"Yeah, you haven't seen it before, it's so cold that when you greet her and walk past her, she can pretend she can't see you." A little girl who was called to see me just now served us two glasses of boiled water , I thanked her, she blushed and said no, and went to work.

Tong Jin was puzzled and said, "Is there really such a thing?"

I pushed the boiled water in front of Tong Jin, "I won't frame you."

"Why is that?" Tong Jin said, "I've seen patients with the worst temper, and they wouldn't ignore us."

"Because you are doctors," I said, "She is different. She may look down on us. From what my mother said, there are many family conflicts, life is not good, and her temper is very cold."

"Do you still live near your house?"

"No, it was before. I didn't live here before."

I rarely mention this to Tong Jin, let alone her, no one around me knows where I am from, they all think I am a local, and I can’t tell that I am an outsider with an accent. ten years.

Tong Jin said, "By the way, I'd forget if you didn't mention it. I always thought you were from our local area."

She bowed her head and smiled.

"I almost forgot about it myself," I said.Really, if I don’t mention it again, I almost forgot where I came from.

"The food is here, be careful." The little girl who served the food put the plate on the table. She wore an apron around her waist, and the rolled up sleeves revealed her snow-white arms. She looked about 20 years old, maybe eighteen_ Nine, minors are not necessarily.

Seeing me sizing up other people's eyes, Tong Jin came up with an idea and said, "If you fall in love with her, I'll help you talk about it."

I came back to my senses, Tong Jin looked like a matchmaker, but it amused me, I picked up the boiled water and said, "I'm really not interested in minors."

Tong Jin said, "Where is she underage?"

I said: "No?"

Tong Jin said: "It's definitely not. Sister Ling is a serious worker here, and she doesn't dare to do it even if she is a minor."

Even if Tong Jin said so, I still think this girl is small, maybe it's just because she looks small.

Tong Jin saw that I hadn't retracted my look, and said, "Brother Xing, you don't really like her, do you?"

It's inevitable that you will like it if you look at it more, don't you think so?There are so many beautiful girls and handsome boys on the street. If you like it like this, you may not be able to fall in love.

"I ask you a question."

Tong Jin nodded sharply, she was very interested in asking her a question about a person she admired.

"How do you define liking this?"

A few people came in one after another in the restaurant, filling up the seats around us, making it harder to find us.

Tong Jin looked into my eyes, a little astonished, she obviously didn't expect me to ask this, "Are you serious?"

I nodded, as if I had nothing to talk about, when I suddenly mentioned this.

It's hard for Tong Jin, she thought for a while, and answered me sincerely: "Why did you ask me this suddenly? But... If I say it, I only liked others when I was in school, but after I entered society, I fell in love with others." I have been busy with work, and I don’t have many opportunities to meet others. At that time, I felt like I wanted to see him, but I didn’t dare to. I thought about the scene of encountering each other many times. Shy, if you want to say the biggest feeling... is that you really want to show your best side to him."

"Like what?" I was like an outsider.

Tong Jin thought for a while and said: "For example... I sing very well, I hope he can be there when I sing, but that chance is very slim, usually I can only sing when I go to KTV, in order to express myself and let him notice me, I also went to participate in school activities, all the classmates were there, so that he could see me, the key is that I was very introverted at that time, it was killing me, performing in front of so many people."

She said it more carefully than I imagined. I am very grateful for her sharing. I can't help substituting it in. It's a very simple thing to like, and anyone can tell it clearly.

"What about love?" The depth of the topic suddenly increased, and the girl opposite me lost the ability to express herself, her mouth was tightly closed, and she seemed to be thinking.

My question stumped her.

Not intentionally, I want her to speak freely, and even more people can share their love stories, but when this word is mentioned, most people will be silent, or give superficial answers that are not accurate.

"You don't know," I lowered my eyes and handed her a pair of chopsticks. Tong Jin thanked me, and I said, "Mind if I give you an overview?"

"Of course," Tong Jin said, "Brother Xing, you have a story."

I didn't deny it this time, but said seriously: "The love I understand is not to want to show in front of him, not to let him know what is good about me, nor to ask for his attention, but that I see This person's first impression is what I can do, what I can bring him, what he needs me to do, even at the expense of everything I have, my reputation, my friends, my future."

"But..." I elongated my voice, looked at the girl opposite me with blazing eyes, "That's not good, the best form of human emotion, the highest level, should stay at the stage of liking. In this case, at least anyone on both sides You don't lose a life when you want to stop or quit."

Tong Jin looked very serious, as if we were talking about ancient and modern problems.

And I lost most of my enthusiasm, the decibel dropped, like a curse and a blessing, I said: "Tong Jin, I hope you will never fall in love with anyone in your life."

Just liking, the only thing I missed in this life was thinking that I just liked Yang Xiao.