16 years

Fu Yan clearly knew that there was something wrong with his mentality.

He is a man of firm will—and because of this, even if his hard walls begin to crumble faintly, the process is clear and rational.

Fu Yan first noticed the change in his mentality when he shot He Laosan. That was the first time he thought of "next time".

At that time, he just realized that he was one step behind Joe Eden's deployment. Before his rationality could think of a specific remedy, his subconscious drew a plan based on "next time" without warning. The perfect solution.

But is there really someone in the world who can achieve both things and be perfect?

Fu Yan himself didn't know, but he skipped this matter at the time and didn't think about it carefully.

The second time he thought of this idea was along the river bank.

Facing the torrential Honglan River, Fu Yan refused Liu Ruosong for a moment, and agreed to take him to a foreign land together.

At that time, in fact, he was already prepared to die in his heart.

If you put aside the fact that it can be restarted and just look at the objective situation, the special operations team is almost dead.

On the surface, they are going to sneak into the battle and steal the petri dishes and semi-finished medicines in the enemy's lair-but this is the most ideal situation.The greater possibility is that these few people can't escape, but they can obtain enough evidence of the situation and actions in the situation of the advance team, so that Feng Lei in the rear can justifiably lead a large force across the river.

Zhao Jincheng once did not want Fu Yan to perform this task ten thousand times, but he did not want to use him as a death squad.

Fu Yan understands this unspoken subtext, He Feng and the others understand it, and even Liu Ruosong himself understands it.

But Fu Yan still agreed to Liu Ruosong's request to follow.

At that moment, he thought of that idea again - if he couldn't protect Liu Ruosong, he could do it all over again.

At that time, the enemy was present, and Fu Yan was torn into two halves. One half pretended to be rational and could only care about the situation on the other side of the river; Leaving a little room, this abnormal thought only flashed in his mind, and was overwhelmed by other things with higher priority.

So when He Feng and He Tang disappeared for no reason and Fu Yan had this idea for the third time, he realized that this idea had appeared too frequently recently.

He seems to subconsciously regard the "next time" as a means of preparation, so that there is always a way out in his cognition, as if even if something really irreversible happens, he can still recover it in an almost tragic way and remedy.

——This is an extremely dangerous idea, Fu Yan told himself clearly.

This kind of confidence not only makes him dull, bold, and less cautious, but like mental opium, it subtly seduces him to get used to this method of handling.

He can start over countless times, try and make mistakes countless times, and accumulate experience countless times until he finds the most suitable and perfect path.

For Fu Yan, this is actually the easiest and most relaxing path.

Because he does not need to bear any responsibility, nor does he need to bear any regrets and emotions, only need to bear the chaotic time, and his necessary death.

A person's threshold for pain will continue to rise, as will his acceptance of death. He will only become more accustomed to "death", and finally regard this situation as a means of restarting—anyway, as long as he is happy, death will treat him It's nothing more than just a few seconds.

It's funny to say, if there is no special prefix of "restart", whether it is Fu Yan or others, they are not afraid of life and death.In the first timeline, Fu Yan personally sent away many comrades-in-arms, including He Feng and He Tang.At that time, he only thought that this was a part of the necessary sacrifice, and he would have to reach this step sooner or later, so although he was heartbroken and sad, he didn't have much other feelings.

But with "if", many things become different.

The germination of self-awareness brings more responsibility. At least at the moment when he saw the wreckage of the car body, Fu Yan's heart was shaken much more than when he was in the abandoned building for the first time.

So for a moment, Fu Yan almost wanted to let this subconscious grow.

But soon he stifled the spread of his thoughts with an almost decisive attitude, he cut off this possibility, and gave up this idea with a kind of self-control that went against instinct.

It can't be like this, Fu Yan thought, and Liu Ruosong.

If he was the only one, he could restart it ten times, eight times, a hundred times, and a thousand times. As long as the goal can be achieved in the end, Fu Yan has no complaints.

But Liu Ruosong is still there, and his harsh restart conditions are like a shackle from outside time, tightly fastened on Fu Yan, making Fu Yan in a dilemma and full of worries.

The country is important, and the family is also important. Fu Yan didn't want to give up the responsibility of "saving one more person", but he couldn't let Liu Ruosong watch him die over and over again.

His goal is to end this chaos, bring the whole world back on track, and allow Liu Ruosong to live the life he likes, take photos, and see the scenery he likes.

They always want to go back to normal life, Fu Yan has no way and can't force Liu Ruosong with the uneasiness and sadness that branded his soul over and over again.

This kind of shackles is too cruel for Fu Yan, because he has to take all the responsibilities of every new comeback—he has to go all out as if every time is the last time.

In addition to doing his best, he also has to bear all the omissions here.

Because he must reject the next restart from the bottom of his heart, no matter what irreversible regrets appear in this world, he can only "see death without saving".

If you compare a person to a bowstring, then the bowstring cannot be tensed all the time, otherwise it will break sooner or later.

But because of Liu Ruosong, Fu Yan had to be a bowstring that never let go.

So he roughly formed a short-term wavering ball into a ball and stuffed it into the deepest part of his subconscious mind—if the thought world could be visualized, Fu Yan should have put three fine steel locks in that corner by now.

He forcibly suppressed that Pandora's Box in a simple and efficient way, and buried it under a seal named "Liu Ruosong".

In this dark night, in the nervousness of rushing to the enemy camp, Liu Ruosong did not realize that Fu Yan beside him had already experienced a battle between man and nature.

He violated the human instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages, and chose the most difficult path in the name of Liu Ruosong.

"300 meters ahead." Fu Yan suddenly said: "Close to the building, be careful."

His voice was flat and unwavering, and he had returned to his normal state. Liu Ruosong vaguely felt that something was wrong, and subconsciously glanced at him.

Half an hour ago, when Fu Yan saw the wreckage of the vehicle at the accident scene, his state fluctuated for a while.

As the person who knows him best, Liu Ruosong can easily see the turbulent waves under his pressure - at that time, Fu Yan obviously reacted greatly to the disappearance of the He family brothers and sisters. Nobu didn't completely let go of his concern over there.

But now it seems that Fu Yan has calmed down from the anxiety of missing his comrades in arms.

Liu Ruosong watched him carefully, but didn't see anything unusual, so he guessed that Fu Yan was in an emergency state of preparation for the war, so he didn't care too much.

The four-story gray building was not far ahead, and from this angle, there were still lights on the windows.

Liu Ruosong couldn't figure out if this was an empty city plan deliberately left by Joe Eden, and subconsciously looked around to see if he could find any clues.

"What are you looking at?" Fu Yanhuo seemed to have eyes on his back, and suddenly said, "Be careful."

"He may not have had time to evacuate everyone." Liu Ruosong said in a low voice: "The helicopter has limited manpower, and Joe Eden will go by land by himself, so he probably wouldn't drag his family with him, otherwise the target would be too big."

Fu Yan's eyes fell on the window of the small building. He obviously had this guess too. After weighing it secretly for two seconds, he turned on Feng Lei's call.

"Captain Fu." Feng Lei's voice quickly came from the opposite side, obviously waiting for him at the equipment: "What's the news?"

"Are the people from Jiangxin Island still there?" Fu Yan asked.

"Yes." Feng Lei said: "The zombies are still being cleaned up—those bombs blew up the bridge, and we are also cleaning it up."

"Call the reserve team and be ready at any time." Fu Yan said: "We will sneak into the laboratory building in 3 minutes, please pay attention to the situation at all times. If there is a chip position staying in the same place for 5 minutes or more, call your reserve team to cross the river." .”

Feng Lei was stunned for a moment, but soon understood Fu Yan's unfinished intentions, he said yes with a low tone.

In the laboratory building, the last team of researchers is busy packing up the last bit of experimental documents.

Those who moved quickly had finished tidying up, and left the office first, and ran towards the deepest part of the corridor on the basement floor of the research institute. He kicked under the filing cabinet.

"Hurry up." The person by the door urged: "There are still two and a half minutes, and the evacuation channel is about to self-destruct!"

"Got it, got it." The researcher inside the door randomly picked up a stack of documents, and rushed out the door quickly.

The basement floor of the research institute is Irene's residence, but in the depths of the corridor on the other side is an "evacuation passageway" that has been built long ago.

Joe Eden seemed to have foreseen the day when the Dongchuang incident would happen. The evacuation passage was almost as old as the laboratory building, but it had been shelved since it was built. No one except himself knew that this road led to Where.

The alarms in the corridor blared, and the countdown flashed on the LED screen at the end like a urging countdown.The researcher stumbled under his feet, stepped on the last ten-second countdown, and rushed into the black hole's evacuation passage. Because of inertia, he stumbled and rolled down.

Wet soil covered his head and body, and behind him, a heavy steel broken door suddenly fell as the countdown countdown was reset, and it was firmly embedded in the ground, isolating the light from another world.

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Although the reality in the article will not give them a warning, the author wants to warn [bushi] After the transition of this chapter, I will start to enter the ending line of this time [To make a digression, in fact, I am a person who is prone to true feelings, so I wrote in 16. It's a little painful orz, not because the plot is so difficult to write, but mainly because this mode makes me feel a little bit distressed, whether it's Brother Fu, or Xiao Liuer, who will be the dominant player in the third restart station, I feel that they are all working hard Struggling, but no matter how hard they try, they follow the failure line that I have set [My mother is heartbroken.jpg] I feel cruel QAQ, so every time I open the document these days, it is very difficult. 【Decided!After all the dust settles, write a lot of sweet episodes to make up for them and make up for themselves! [bushi] and the title of this chapter is the only one that has double quotation marks but does not appear in the text, everyone...myself...um...