Wintering

At 08:30 in the morning, colleagues came to take over the work. After Chen Yue finished the handover work, he stopped a taxi on the side of the road and went home.

The driver seemed to be a lover of heavy metal music. The sharp artificial overtones of the electric guitar pierced his eardrums, and his stomach began to resonate and twitch. His whole head seemed to be thrown into the vortex of the sea, spinning around.

If the driver was 2 minutes late to deliver him home, he had no doubts that he would vomit in the car.

Chen Yue dragged himself onto the elevator, found the door, leaned against the wall, and entered the password one by one, and when he was finally about to press OK, he stopped.

At this time in the past, Mo Dong was almost always standing at the door the moment he opened the door waiting for him to come in. The kitchen would recall the sound of boiling soup, and Dudu would squat under the sofa and tilt his head to welcome him home.

He pressed it, beep—

The door opened.

No one was standing at the door, and no one was in the kitchen.

Dudu nestled on its bed, heard the voice and thought it was Mo Dong, raised his head and saw it was Chen Yuehou, he meowed weakly, then lowered his head again.

Only then did he realize that he forgot to feed the cat in the morning, and it was Mo Dong who had been doing this all along.

Chen Yue poured some cat food for it, and Dudu was also very hungry, before he finished pouring, he lowered his head and started eating, the cat food was scattered everywhere.

He was already very tired and had no time to take care of it. He hurriedly took a shower, threw himself on the bed, and fell into a deep sleep.

I don't know how long it took, but he felt as if a mountain was pressing on his heart and he couldn't breathe. When he opened his eyes, a large ball of white fluff filled his sight.

He propped up his upper body, Dudu rolled down, Chen Yue caught it just in time, and put it aside.

Pick up your phone and click on WeChat.

Mo Dong did not send him any new messages.

Chen Yue threw away his mobile phone, washed his face in the bathroom, and sat on the sofa in the living room, surrounded by a huge emptiness.

It was sunset, and the vermilion sunset and dark orange clouds piled up on the horizon, and the weak yellow light crept into the house, drawing a lonely shadow on the white floor.

In this almost suffocating loneliness, he couldn't help calling out: "Mo Dong."

Of course there will be no response.

He fell on the sofa, raised his arms to cover his eyes, and the ticking clock on the wall was annoying and noisy.

Suddenly, the doorbell rang.

Chen Yue jumped up almost instantly, looking eagerly at the door.

is it him? !

Chen Yue staggered to the door, not daring to breathe, and looked towards the cat's eyes bit by bit.

When he saw a yellow hair, his heart was half cold. He opened the door with weakness, and took the courier handed to him by the other party in a daze. He didn't walk back to the living room with the pile of things until the door was closed.

After staring at the bag of cat food for a long time, he suddenly came to his senses, got up and rushed into the bedroom, found the mobile phone, turned on the mobile phone, and eagerly opened Mo Dong's communication box.

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Chen Yue: Mo Dong, I received the express delivery.

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2 minutes passed, Mo Dong did not reply.

5 minutes passed.

6 minutes passed.

Six and a half minutes passed.

For the first time, Chen Yue wanted to drop the phone.

Just when he was about to implement this idea, the phone vibrated suddenly, and Mo Dong replied.

He said yes.

Chen Yue was busy typing: "Are you off work now?"

"have you eaten?"

"Is it convenient for Fang to give me a call?"

He looked at the words on the upper column of the screen, and it changed into the name of the note for a while, and the other party was typing for a while. After changing back and forth several times, Mo Dong finally sent two words: convenient.

Chen Yue immediately dialed the phone, and was picked up after it rang.

After a rustle of electronic sounds, Mo Dong's slightly hoarse voice sounded: "Hello?"

Chen Yue's eyes turned red almost immediately, and great grievances surged up in his heart. He was excited and angry at the same time, just like a child who was abandoned for no reason.

Mo Dong didn't receive a response, so he asked again: "Chen Yue?"

He suppressed his emotions about to explode, suppressed his tone of voice, and tried his best not to let it leak out the embarrassing excitement.

"It's me." He carefully controlled his breathing.

"You are looking for me for something?" Mo Dong asked.

Chen Yue flustered for a while, before he had time to find a good excuse, the impulse to hear his voice overwhelmed his rationality.

In a hurry, he saw Dudu lying on the side.

"Yes, it's Dudu who misses you and keeps calling, even refusing to eat properly."

There was an unexpected silence for a while, before hesitatingly said: "You, try to change the cat food for it, maybe it is picky eater."

"It still gets into your closet and refuses to come out." Once a lie has started, it will be filled with countless lies.

"Really." Mo Dong's voice became quieter, obviously he didn't know what to do.

Chen Yue took the opportunity to make a suggestion: "You can try to make a video with it."

"is that useful?"

"Try it."

"it is good."

"You, wait for a while before making a video. It's not convenient for me now, can I do it in 15 minutes?"

"Ah."

As soon as he hung up the phone, Chen Yue rushed into the bathroom, washed his face and shaved, cleaned himself up, and picked out several shirts in the closet, but he was not very satisfied with each one, so he just dawdled around. As soon as he took off a shirt, Mo Dong's video request came.

He didn't dare to drag Mo Dong, so he hurriedly picked up a piece of clothing and put it on, set up his phone, picked up the cat, and accepted the video request.

The screen shook for a while, Mo Dong's face appeared in the center of the screen, behind him was a bookshelf, the light was a bit dim, it could be seen that he was in his own room now.

Chen Yue quickly took several screenshots, the kitten in his arms saw the familiar face on the phone, poked his head curiously, raised his little paw, poked the phone, and meowed at Chen Yue suspiciously, as if asking, How did you put Mo Dong in it?

Chen Yue hurriedly stopped the hand that was taking the screenshot, and pulled Dudu back. He was a little afraid to look at Mo Dong, and asked with evasive eyes: "Mo Dong, how are you these days?" As soon as the words came out, he wanted to bite his own tongue , the two of them had been separated for less than three days, and asked what was going on recently.

Mo Dong obviously didn't expect him to ask this question, he was stunned for a while, "Well, what about you?"

Chen Yue lowered his head and anxiously touched Dudu's body. He wanted to say that it was not good, not at all.

But in the end he said, "It's okay."

After he finished greeting, Mo Dong didn't know what to say, he just stared at Dudu in a daze.

Chen Yue obviously had a lot of things to say, but he felt that he couldn't say a single word.

The two were silent for a long time, but neither of them wanted to be the first to say goodbye.

Chen Yue pondered for a while, looked at Mo Dong, and asked cautiously: "Can I visit you next weekend?"

Mo Dong looked confused and puzzled, unable to understand why he would make such a request, but he would not refuse any request from Chen Yue.

After Chen Yue got the affirmative answer, he looked a little excited, as if it was a very happy thing to come all the way to see him, which made Mo Dong puzzled.

Shouldn't he be busy dating that girl right now?

I obeyed his will and hid far away, so what is there to worry about?

Are you worried that you will commit suicide again?

Mo Dong thought wildly for a while, before he opened his mouth to explain, Chen Yue who was opposite said: "Then, we will see you next week, I won't bother you, let's put it on."

Mo Dong had no choice but to say goodbye to him.

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After the video ended, Chen Yue opened the photo album, found the screenshots just now, and looked at them carefully one by one.

Mo Dong in the video is still wearing his pure gray round neck pajamas, his porcelain white slender neck is particularly conspicuous under the dim yellow light.

He didn't know if it was a problem with the light, but he always felt that Mo Dong looked a little haggard, with a faint cyan under his half-closed eyelids.

Did he not rest?

Chen Yue zoomed in on the picture, and couldn't help but stroke it with his fingers, from the smooth black hair to the restrained eyes, the slightly raised nose, and the faint lips.

After realizing what he was doing, Chen Yue quickly threw away the phone, the remaining tactile sensation in his fingers was hot, as if he had been scalded.

He lay on the bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking irritably: What's wrong with me?

There was a vague answer in my heart that was ready to come out, but I avoided it subconsciously.

He hugged Dudu and scratched its chin, "Do you miss him?"

Dudu looked at him with round amber eyes, and let out a few coquettish hums.Chen Yue took it as a default and rubbed its ears, "You should behave well when you go to see your father next week, you know?"

Dudu was made very uncomfortable by his hand strength and struggled to climb down. Chen Yue was in a good mood and stopped teasing him. He carried him back to the cat's nest, without any appetite, and went directly to the study to write a report.

While flipping through the anatomy book, he suddenly remembered that the background of Mo Dong's video was a densely packed book. As far as he knew, Mo Dong only read e-books, and Chen Yue had never seen him buy paper books.

He has only moved for two days, how could there be so many books in the house.

It could only be... those books belonged to someone else, and Mo Dong lived with his new roommate!

Although he knows that Mo Dong is a very introverted person, he will not have too much contact with people unless he is forced to, but he still has the idea of ​​Mo Dong and another man walking around in the same room in his mind Go, clean the house together, cook together, and say goodnight to each other, I feel so uncomfortable.

I can't read the book anymore, my mind is full of random thoughts, although I keep urging and warning myself not to think about it, but I just can't restrain it.

When he went to the kitchen to fetch water, he passed by Mo Dong's room. He stared at the closed door for a long time, and finally made up his mind to open it and walked in.

Mo Dong left, and there was only a bed frame left in the room, covered with a dustproof cloth.Open the closet, inside is a row of quiet empty hangers.Tiny dust particles danced in the air.

Nothing was left.

Chen Yue sat on the edge of the bed, touched the mattress covered by the white burlap lightly with his hands, and his stomach began to feel sore in pain.

He finally knew what he had lost.In just forty hours of separation, he was tormented almost insane by an emotion called longing.

To his MA friend, to his MA brother!

What he wants is for Mo Dong to be his lover for life.