In a dream

Mu Elegy turned around with some difficulty, looked at Xie Jingwan who was still standing at the door of the room, suddenly felt that she didn't know how to explain why these things happened just now, she closed the door with her hands behind her, and each of them took their respective positions After standing for a while, she finally lifted her heavy feet towards Xie Jingwan and stopped half a step away from her, looking at her face that hadn't changed much, feeling uneasy about her attitude, "Jingwan. "Mu Elegy called her carefully, reached out and took her hand, "I will explain to you."

Xie Jingwan looked at her for a while, and finally sighed faintly, gently broke away from Mu Wange's hand, and caressed her face. From time to time, Xia Yanhuan's uneasy babbling after drunk came from the room, frowning, "Help her first." Pack it up, let her sleep comfortably, and we'll talk later, shall we?"

Mu Elegy looked into the room, Xia Yanhuan's shoes were still on, she put Xie Jingwan's hand on her face, turned her head and kissed her palm, looked at her with pleading eyes, "You promise me You can't go away." After receiving the response from the other party who nodded and agreed, Mu Elegy quickly hugged her again, "Believe me, I will explain to you, Jingwan, don't go. I will be fine soon." After finishing speaking, she loosened She walked into the room and helped Xia Yanhuan take off his coat and shoes, then covered her with the quilt.

Xie Jingwan went to sit on the cloth sofa in the living room, looked at a small clock placed under the TV wall, the hour hand was pointing exactly to eleven o'clock.Behind him was the sound of Mu Elegy pouring hot water into the bathroom, probably to wipe the face of the person on the bed.Xie Jingwan felt very blocked, she wanted to leave, she heard Wei Ran's words right, Xia Yanhuan was her girlfriend she dated abroad, right? What about now?Because Mu Elegy is back, so she has been following?What about yourself?He never participated in her best ten years of youth, didn't know anything about her past life, didn't help her life in any way, but because her mother made her suffer so much, can I blame her?However, he was clearly organized, knowing that he had no reason to blame her, why did his heart still hurt so much?

Xia Yanhuan's uncomfortable crooning could be heard faintly in the room, along with Mu Elegy softly coaxing her to sleep. Does she love anyone like this?Or is there something special about myself?Xie Jingwan stood up, walked to the place where the living room connected to the small balcony, and pushed open the closed glass doors on both sides. The cold wind passed through, and she couldn't help shivering and went out.It has gradually entered the middle of winter, and it has been almost half a year since I came back from Mu Elegy's midsummer place and met me in early autumn, but Xie Jingwan thought about it seriously, but found that I didn't seem to understand her current life at all. The sweetness that was lost and recovered at the beginning dilutes many doubts in her heart. For example, she said that the funds for starting the company were funded by friends, and why she first partnered with others to start a company in China when she was abroad. In the past so many years, she has experienced What, recently she went to buy land and build a house wantonly, and why?She never asked, and Mu Elegy never took the initiative to talk about it.

It was very foggy at night, and the wet air with mist was blown on the face by the cold wind, which made Xie Jingwan more awake. She knew that she shouldn't think about what was there or not, after all, they were together. It's not easy, but a heart that has been painted with too much emotion, at this moment, is completely out of her control to think about what happened to Xia Yanhuan and Mu Elegy, when did they get together, together How long, now, and what does it matter?

"Come on, drink water." Mu Elegy helped Xia Yanhuan up and fed her water. Her heart was still unsettled. She helped Xia Yanhuan take off her clothes and shoes, fetched water, wiped her face, poured it, and shouted Thirsty people drink water, but when doing all of this, she always thinks of the person outside who has been so quiet from the beginning to the end. The quieter Xie Jingwan is, the more disturbed she is. She is afraid that she has been quiet for too long , reason will overcome emotion, just like ten years ago, she thought about it all night, and then let herself go.

"No more." While Mu Elegy was in a daze, Xia Yanhuan finally cleared her mind, lowered her head and drank some water, she raised her head to watch Mu Elegy's eyes fall straight on another place, turned her head to avoid pushing her away Said the water glass in his hand. "Okay, Mu."

Mu Elegy came back to his senses, and hurriedly replied: "Okay, I see." Putting down the water glass in his hand behind his back, Mu Elegy put Xia Yanhuan's head gently on the pillow, and tucked in the quilt again, "Go to sleep, I drank so much , I'll have a headache in a while. I'll cook some ginger soup for you tomorrow morning to get rid of the cold." After speaking, he got up and walked out.

"Don't..." Xia Yanhuan grabbed Mu Elegy's right hand, "Mu, don't go. Sit with me for a while."

Mu Elegy turned around and looked at the wrist that was being held by Xia Yanhuan, hesitated for a moment and then took it back, "Yan Huan, go to bed early, can we talk about something tomorrow? Go to sleep tonight."

Xia Yanhuan was lying on the bed, watching Mu Elegy leave and then gently closed the door. When she was the only one left in the huge room, she shivered from the cold, as if she had fallen into the room. In the ice cellar, Xia Yanhuan opened her eyes and watched her heart gradually being eroded and frozen in the zero-degree cold. She felt that the corners of her eyes were particularly wet, and she reached out to touch them with her fingertips, but there were no warm tears as she imagined. Dip, finally she raised her head to the ceiling and smiled, with a desolate smile on her coquettish face, with a trace of imperceptible despair in her desolation...

Mu Elegy walked out of the room, stood at the door and glanced around the living room but saw no one, and called out in a panic, "Jingwan?"

Xie Jingwan stood on the balcony, heard Mu Elegy's anxious voice, turned around and saw Mu Elegy's body cast a black shadow on the thin sandy curtain, she stood on the balcony with no lights on, facing the Shadow stretched out his right hand, feeling as if he had touched her thin face, tasted her cold kiss on his palm, Xie Jingwan smiled, suddenly she felt a coldness on her neck, and touched her neck instinctively, Feel the coolness that melts at the touch.She raised her head and looked at the dark sky, it was too late, the community fell into sleep, but the snow in the sky, after sleeping for a whole year, finally woke up and covered the whole sky cheerfully, and the fine snowflakes fell on her On her face, the coldness that brought her all over her face took away her full of melancholy when it melted.She put her hands together to let the snowflakes fall on her palms, watching them slowly melt in her palms through the light from the living room, her mood suddenly became better. She remembered that Mu Elegy liked snow very much. Snow, she was very happy.

"Mu Mu." She opened the curtains, stood by the glass door and called to Mu Elegy who was about to go outside after changing her clothes and arranging her scarf.

Mu Elegy heard her voice, her eyes lit up, and her face was a little unbelievable, "Jingwan?" She quickly walked up to Xie Jingwan and held her hand excitedly, "You didn't leave?"

Xie Jingwan winked at her, pulled her to the middle of the balcony and motioned her to look at the sky, "It's snowing, Mu Mu." She tucked her hands into her pajamas, and she took a few snowflakes from her cuffs and sent them to Mu Elegy, "Look, do you like it?"

Mu Elegy felt that she could hardly breathe. She felt that her chest was stuffed with a thick ball of cotton, which made her feel stuffy as if she couldn't breathe, but she could still breathe hard through it to continue her life.She lowered her eyes and watched as the few drops of white with drizzle on Xie Jingwan's cuff slowly melted into a few small drops of water, and a few large drops of teardrops slowly condensed on her eyelashes. It tremblingly landed on the cuff of Xie Jingwan's pajamas.

"You cried, Mu Mu." Xie Jingwan gently touched the few tears on her plush pajamas with the tip of her left finger, feeling the deeper wetness on the back of her hand, raised her head and looked at Mu Elegy's pear blossom belt Rain's face "What's the matter? It's snowing, don't you like it?"

"I thought you were gone..." Mu Elegy was sobbing, her heart was in severe pain, she hugged Xie Jingwan tightly into her arms, "I've been thinking about what to do if I come out and you go away, will you come back again?" The last time you saw me you said 'we can't.' I thought I was going to lose you for years and I didn't have time..."

Xie Jingwan kissed Mu Elegy with cold lips, and when she sobbed and said that she thought she was going to lose again, she also felt pain. She thought of the lonely nights she spent alone in the hotel, and she thought of those days. This kind of deep-seated pain, she doesn't want to go through it again.

Mu Elegy nestled on the cloth sofa, holding Xie Jingwan in her arms without a moment's relaxation, rubbing her head affectionately in her arms, "Jingwan," she whispered in her heart.

"Huh?" Xie Jingwan patted her head and responded softly. She felt dizzy, her throat was dry and itchy, and she had an ominous premonition in her heart.

"I want to tell you something." Mu Elegy finally felt a little more comfortable in her heart. She just thought that Xie Jing had left late but the heart throbbing pain when she saw her on the balcony was slowly weakening, so she raised her head and looked at the expression on her face. Scarlet Xie Jingwan "About me and Yan Huan."

Xie Jingwan nodded heavily, perhaps because she was not used to being out of the cold air suddenly and entering the warm indoor environment after staying outside for too long. She felt her head was heavy, so she forced a smile and said, "Okay."

Mu Elegy looked at her forced smile, with complicated emotions in her heart, "Jingwan, she and I used to be together, when we were in the United States a few years ago..." She paused, thinking that Xie Jingwan would say something, who would have known? She just listened quietly, Mu Elegy looked at her, then lowered her eyes again, "I had a one-night stand with her after I was drunk, and we were together later."

"How long?" Xie Jingwan took a deep breath. She had thought about many possibilities. For example, she and Xia Yanhuan might have met during an academic exchange meeting or a trip, but she never thought about it. They actually got to know each other deeply through a one-night stand.She tried her best to calm down her emotions, and finally only asked two words.

"More than a year.."

"Do you love her?"

"I thought," Mu Elegy looked up and looked into Xie Jingwan's eyes, "I thought I could fall in love with her..."

"and after?"

"We broke up, she returned to China, and I will continue to stay in the United States."

"..."

"..."

The short silence has become extremely long at this moment, Mu Elegy doesn't know what Xie Jingwan thinks about herself, but what she said is the truth, maybe Xie Jingwan will feel that she is a person who can have one-night stands.She was a little worried, but felt that she deserved it. "Jing Wan, if you want to blame me, I'm willing to accept any punishment from you."

Xie Jingwan gently broke free from her embrace and stood up, looking down at her from top to bottom, "Including breaking up?"

Mu Elegy's body trembled, and her voice changed a tune, "Are you going to break up with me?"

Xie Jingwan shook her head, holding her head in her arms, "No." She slowly stroked Mu Elegy's soft hair, "I won't break up with you."

Mu Elegy raised his head against her abdomen in doubt, looked at her and saw her lips parted slightly, "Because I love you."

Because I love you, the simple words passed from Xie Jingwan's abdomen directly through the skin to Mu Elegy's ears, making her feel that her lifeless heart was revived in an instant. She thought that at least Xie Jingwan would make her suffer a little. Disaster. "Jing Wan" she stood up and hugged her, resting her head on her head, feeling a different temperature "Do you have a fever?"

Xie Jingwan smiled and pecked her lips, "It seems so, I feel a little dizzy. My body is so hot."

"Let's go to the hospital!" Mu Elegy dragged her to the guest room, then went back to her own room to take Xie Jingwan's clothes and was about to help her change. Xie Jingwan shook her head and asked Mu Elegy childishly, "Don't go." Hospital, just hug me."

Mu Elegy couldn't laugh or cry but was full of anxiety, hurriedly helped her take off her pajamas, just about to help her put on a sweater when her hot body threw herself into her arms, "Mu Mu, you want me." Xie Jingwan was at her whispered.

Mu Elegy never knew that these two simple words had such great magical power. She seemed to be possessed by an evil spirit, forgetting that the person in her arms was still having a fever, and that most of the reason for her hot body was due to the blood in her body. The virus was causing trouble, and she was hypnotized by Xie Jingwan just like that, just like that on that snowy night at the beginning of this year, her heart beating ability that was on the verge of the limit made her suffer again and again until the sky turned pale, Xie Jingwan Finally passed out in her arms, she stretched out her hand to hug her and kissed her lips lightly, and fell into a dream from exhaustion.

The author has something to say: I'm so busy, I don't know how long I can last like this.A feeling of exhaustion.