lightly cooked

My hometown has been raining like Linjiang recently, and the ferocity of autumn makes me uncomfortable because my body is always wet.

Xu Jing is taking care of the furniture in the bedroom.This time Xu Shuyuan bought her the plane ticket, and someone picked it up there.When her younger brother knocked on the door, she raised her head: "Shuyuan? Come in."

The light in the bedroom is soft, and the baby sleeps in a swaddle.Xu Shuyuan walked over, lowered his head and touched his niece's face.Xu Jing turned to look at him, feeling that he seemed to have something to say, so she asked, "What's wrong?"

"I won't see you off tomorrow."

"No need to send it off. My daughter and I will spend a lot of money tomorrow morning. Let's take a taxi there." She smiled, "If you have something to do, you can do it. Your own business is more important."

Xu Shuyuan's hand paused, "It's nothing important, I'm going back to Linjiang."

"Back to Linjiang?" Xu Jing looked at her younger brother in confusion, "Is it Xiaojia..."

Xu Shuyuan didn't say much.

Growing up, he was not used to opening his heart to others, especially his family members.Grandma, grandfather, sister, everyone has a heavy burden, but he is a foreigner, a burden imposed on them, and the culprit that makes the family even poorer.He must be more diligent, more sensible, and sacrifice more for them in order to live up to the grace of nurturing.

When he returned to the room, he packed some clothes, took his ID card, and watered the flowers that his grandma planted before going out.

The night train was bumpy and I couldn't sleep well all night.

Fu Jia had already woken up when she heard the knock on the door the next morning.In fact he woke up at seven o'clock because of a bad stuffy nose.Thinking that the cold medicine he ordered had arrived, he pinched his forehead and walked over with limp limbs.

"coming."

I didn't recognize it the moment I opened the door, because Xu Shuyuan was looking down for his phone.Looking up and looking at each other, Fu Jia was stunned for a moment, Xu Shuyuan also stopped his hands and stood still.

"How do you..."

Xu Shuyuan focused his eyes on his face, and found that his face was flushed, his lips were dry and white, and his brows were wrinkled: "Has the fever gone yet?"

"I—" Fu Jia raised her hand and rubbed her forehead, "It's not hot anymore."

The two were standing a mile away, when a delivery man ran up the stairs out of breath and squeezed between them: "Who bought the medicine?"

Xu Shuyuan stepped aside and entered the door.

"Me." Fu Jia took it, pursed her lips and glanced at Xu Shuyuan.After closing the door, he put the medicine on the shoe cabinet, turned around to get the slippers, and placed them in front of Xu Shuyuan.It was only after squatting down that Xu Shuyuan's trousers were wet, but the rain stopped last night, but there was still water on the ground.

Did he come in a hurry?

Looking up, Xu Shuyuan's expression remained calm, without any flaws.His gaze slowly swept around the house, and finally stopped on the sofa in the living room.

that coat...

Fu Jia's face became hot, and he hurried over to pick it up, and changed the subject, "Why did you come back suddenly?"

"I am busy."

"Then why... why did you think of coming to me?"

His eyes were burning, and Xu Shuyuan turned his face sideways: "I heard that you are sick, so I stopped by to see you."

Very polite answer.

Fu Jia groaned, and sighed inwardly.Xu Shuyuan went into the bathroom to wash his hands, and the sound of running water was heard.Fu Jia helped him prop up the half-wet umbrella to the balcony. There was a cool breeze outside, and the clothes hanging on the balcony were dangling.

The forehead is hot, and the mood is naturally very bad.

After opening the umbrella and walking back, Xu Shuyuan happened to come out of the bathroom, with his profile like a silhouette.Fu Jia looked at him from a distance of several meters, suddenly couldn't tell if it was a dream or real, and called him: "Shuyuan?"

Xu Shuyuan turned around to look at Fu Jia, and walked over in a short while.

"What?" He held a towel in his hand, no different from when he lived here.

Fu Jia's face wrinkled: "Oh, I thought it was imagined." His eyes were so dry that he wanted to cry, but he tried his best to smile, "So it's the real you."

Xu Shuyuan stared at him with lowered eyes, and he turned his face away, trying not to lose control of his expression: "You can't blame me, I didn't mean to be so messy. I have a fever. And...and I've been dreaming about you all this time .”

Xu Shuyuan took a deep breath.

Fu Jia continued: "The last time was last night."

Feeling embarrassed after speaking, he turned his head and went back to the living room which was not very brightly lit, turned on the TV and nestled in the sofa.The morning news on the hour arrived as scheduled, and the host's melodious voice came clearly.

Not long after, Xu Shuyuan came over and turned down the volume, wrapped an ice pack in a towel and handed it to him, "Put it on."

"Where did you get the ice?"

"I bought it at the convenience store downstairs."

Fu Jia raised her eyes: "Is this also the way?"

Xu Shuyuan turned his head and didn't respond.Fu Jia stubbornly pursued that gaze, wanting to see his heart, but he never responded.Fu Jia was discouraged, lay on the sofa with her head up and wrinkled her face, and breathed with all her strength.

"Speak up when you feel uncomfortable."

"Don't worry about it."

He threw away the towel and turned inside, his shoulders trembling slightly.Xu Shuyuan brought him a blanket, but when he was about to walk away, he was grabbed by his wrist.

Turning around, Fu Jia stared at herself stubbornly: "You will stay for me, right? I know, I know you still like me."

Xu Shuyuan frowned, his hands twitched.Fu Jia propped up her upper body, stretched out all the veins in her neck, her face flushed suddenly: "Speak!"

It seemed that my emotions were out of control in an instant, and even my breathing began to be out of control.

"What do you want me to say?" Xu Shuyuan's expression changed, "Even if I stay, it doesn't mean anything."

"I do not believe!"

Fu Jia panted heavily, her chest was like a bellows, and she stared at the person in front of her: "If it's true as you said, why did you still come to see me? Why did you rush back overnight after I called you?"

"Just by the way—"

"Why do you keep that photo frame? Why do you want to eat the food I cooked for you? Wouldn't it be more relieved to throw them away?"

Xu Shuyuan frowned, his Adam's apple twitched, and Fu Jia stared at him intently: "Okay, if you don't admit it, I won't force you. Just treat it as my wishful thinking. I fell out with my parents and moved here to save money. I bought you nutritional supplements, went to you wishful thinking, everything is my wishful thinking, okay? I'm a bitch, I—"

I didn't want to be so hysterical at first, but after enduring it for so many days, tears welled up in my eyes before I finished speaking: "I admit that I just can't forget you, I like you, and I want to be with you in my dreams, is that okay?"

After shouting, the small living room suddenly became very quiet.Xu Shuyuan's body froze, standing stiffly in front of Fu Jia.Fu Jia turned her back and wiped away her tears vigorously, her forehead was dizzy, and her body trembled uncontrollably.

"Fu Jia..."

Xu Shuyuan called him in a low voice.

He shuddered, twisting his neck to remove his blurred vision.Xu Shuyuan touched his cheek, which was wet, "Don't cry."

This kind of touch makes people turn off the fire in an instant.

Fu Jia burst into tears, with a self-deprecating expression on his face, he explained incoherently: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to rush you, I just... I just got burned out, and I lost control of my emotions. I know you're feeling bad, I I know, I'm sorry I didn't force you..."

Only when you meet this person in front of you will you know what you like and what the dilemma is.The bitter fruit was hard to swallow, but because it was given by Xu Shuyuan, he swallowed it willingly.

"I know." Xu Shuyuan whispered, "I didn't blame you."

"I won't do this again in the future." Fu Jia's voice was hoarse, he wiped away the remaining tears on his face indiscriminately, turned around and smiled, "I promise I won't do this again in the future, I am willing to wait for you, I will be obedient."

Xu Shuyuan was silent for a long time.

Fu Jia walked over and hugged his waist tightly, his body was burning hot, and his consciousness became a little fuzzy: "No matter what you say, I know you still like me, and it has never changed from four years ago... In fact, I also , I have never tried to like someone so much..."

Feeling his hot forehead, Xu Shuyuan hugged him back to the bedroom and laid him flat on the bed, "You should have a good rest first, and if you have anything to say, let's talk about it when you recover from illness."

Fu Jia was holding on to his cuffs, staring at him stubbornly, her lips pursed into a line.

Xu Shuyuan said: "I'm going to cook some porridge and have dinner together at night."

Walking to the door and looking back, Fu Jia was still looking at him eagerly, and Xu Shuyuan slowly turned his gaze away.

Nothing has changed at home, except that the refrigerator is much fuller than before, which must have been brought by Fu Jia's parents.Xu Shuyuan took out the rice and the rice cooker to make porridge, and stood quietly in the kitchen for a while.

Have you really thought about it?he asked himself.

It's stupid to repeat the same mistakes, but that's Fu Jia, who has been waiting for that warmth for four years, so why not give it a try?

When he returned to the bedroom, he had changed back to his calm and unhurried self, but Fu Jia was still as frightened as a bird.Xu Shuyuan found a book to read at random, and stayed in the bedroom. Fu Jia stared at his back in a daze, and fell asleep in a daze after a long time.

"Fu Jia, Fu Jia?"

It was dark in the room when he was woken up, Fu Jia opened his eyes, confused: "What time is it?"

"Seven o'clock."

Actually slept all day.

He got up and changed his sweat-drenched clothes, went to the bathroom to take a shower, and when he came out again, Xu Shuyuan had already put the porridge on the table.

"Let's eat."

Fu Jia nodded and sat down.Xu Shuyuan reminded him again: "Don't forget to take your medicine." He obediently took two pills of cold medicine, looked at the side dishes on the table: "Did you make these?"

"bought."

The topic ended, and the meeting was always quiet.

The effect of the medicine started to take effect slowly, and Fu Jia started to feel sleepy soon after drinking the porridge, sitting on the sofa and nodding like a chicken pecking rice.Xu Shuyuan asked him to rest, but he refused, so he forced his eyes to watch the boring soap operas on TV.

"Okay, don't be stubborn anymore." Xu Shuyuan took the remote control away, "Unless you want me to leave now."

At first glance, it seems ruthless.

Fu Jia opened his mouth, and looked at the person in front of him by the light of the living room.Xu Shuyuan had a good rest during this time, his spirit seemed to be much better, and his posture returned to his former composure.

It was very dark outside, with a drizzle, and I could only see clearly under the street lamps.

In the bedroom, Xu Shuyuan closed the curtains tightly, turned around and gave orders to Fu Jia who was sitting: "Lie down." Fu Jia lay down as he said, with the blanket pulled high, exposing only the upper half of his face.

Xu Shuyuan walked over and pulled down the blanket: "What are you doing, you want to suffocate yourself?"

"Why don't you go tonight?"

"I have a place to live."

"This is also your residence..." Fu Jia hesitated to speak for a moment, and said vaguely, "I'm here."

"I know." Xu Shuyuan said.

Fu Jia was stunned for a moment, and looked at him bewilderedly.He took off his shirt leisurely, and Fu Jia was flattered all of a sudden, and hurriedly stepped aside.

The lights were all turned off, and the outline of Xu Shuyuan became unclear.Fu Jia looked sideways, unable to move his eyes away for a long time, but Xu Shuyuan had already closed his eyes, breathing evenly.

After feeling flustered for a while, Fu Jia reached out to turn on the desk lamp.With a soft snap, soft light filled the bedroom.He stared at the people around him unwilling to close their eyes, his neck became stiff and his limbs went numb.

When they were about to lose their strength, their shoulders were suddenly pressed together.He held his breath and didn't dare to move until Xu Shuyuan turned over and hugged him.

"The lights are off, and I have to get up early for work tomorrow."