he gave me a candy

It was September again, there was no sun on this day, and it was overcast for a whole day.

There were no patients in the smiling mouth, Nian Sixian arrived home early.When I opened the door, I could smell a familiar aroma coming from the kitchen.He changed his shoes, "What is Aunt Li doing?"

Aunt Li was standing by the stove, holding a 32-carat cowhide notebook and looking at it seriously. She turned down the fan of the range hood, pushed up the reading glasses on her nose, and came out and said: "Matsutake ribs soup. What about the fresh matsutake that was shipped in by air.”

Nian Sixian thought for a while, as if he didn't make a reservation, "Who gave it to you?"

"Anhe called me and said that it was fresh by air, and asked me to make soup for you. The recipe is written on the menu. This stuff is really expensive." Aunt Li handed him the book.

Nian Sixian curiously took the cowhide notebook from Aunt Li's hand, and it was filled with words, "This?"

"An He left it to me. He usually likes to memorize things. Didn't he go to a food variety show before, and he came back to ask me about the special dishes he wanted to cook. Later, he taught himself To become a talent, look for some videos and tutorials on the Internet, and you know a lot of fresh ingredients better than me. Today he called me and said, let me just follow the above."

Sitting at the dining table, Nian Sixian opened the book page by page. There were some recipes on the front, but only a dozen or so pages, and the second half of the book recorded Nian Sixian's food preferences: [Brother doesn't eat chopped green onion.The shredded ginger must be peeled.He loves steamed eggs with sea urchins, so he has to go to the seafood store in the back of the vegetable market to buy them at three o'clock in the afternoon. They are fresh sea urchins just off the plane.If he catches a cold, he will drink black tea the next day.He likes to drink white tea when he gets angry; he must use oolong tea to cook tea eggs, he said that the fragrance is very light and tastes good...] Nian Sixian didn't finish watching, because he had mixed feelings in his heart, and he felt that he was shaken.

Not seeing him, deleting his WeChat, closing this notebook, can these behaviors make me stop thinking about him?

cannot.These behaviors of forcing oneself not to face Gao Anhe are tantamount to deceiving oneself and others.

He still wants to try, and he wants to work hard, trying to close the door of his heart unilaterally, he said: "Auntie Gao Anhe will not accept anything if she calls to deliver anything in the future."

The matsutake soup in the kitchen was boiling, and Aunt Li turned on the range hood to the maximum. He vaguely heard Nian Sixian talking, and came out: "What's wrong? What did you just say? I didn't hear clearly."

Just when Nian Sixian was about to repeat, Aunt Li's cell phone fell off the table with a "snap".

Aunt Li picked up the phone, gave a "tsk", and then smiled: "It's broken, the reaction is slow when you get older. This soup will take half an hour, you go to work." Turning back to the kitchen, closing the horizontal glass door pull on.

Nian Sixian remembered that he still had an old mobile phone, which was replaced by Gao Anhe after he had used it for a short time, so he thought about finding it and giving it to Aunt Li.

He was going to delete all the data first, it would be better to give the aunt an empty phone.There is an impression in my mind that the mobile phone is either placed in the drawer under the TV cabinet or in the study.So he went to the TV in the living room and opened the drawer.Sure enough, the old mobile phone was lying quietly. He charged it, turned it on, entered the four-digit birthday password, and opened the mobile phone.

He opened the "photo" with his finger, and it turned out to be full of his own photos!It's not his old phone!It's Gao Anhe's old cell phone!

When he celebrated his birthday last year, Gao Anhe replaced their old identical phones with two identical new ones.Gao An and the old cell phone were put in the drawer.

Compared with the few and almost negligible photos of Gao Anhe in Nian Sixian's mobile phone, there are more than 5000 photos here, all of them are me!

Some looked like they were wearing white coats, some looked like they were cooking, some looked like they were eating...Nian Sixian had some rare expressions on his plain face. He walked into the study and slowly turned over.

There are not many APPs in the mobile phone, and the most important position on the home page is "notepad".Nian Sixian knew that he was spying on Gao Anhe's privacy, which shouldn't be the case.But he was all himself in his privacy, and he couldn't help but want to see it.

The finger pondered for a long time on the "Notepad" APP, and finally clicked on it.

It turned out that this was Gao Anhe's diary.

In other words, it is the daily record of him and Nian Sixian being together.

The earliest one: [Big White Rabbit Toffee]

The second time we met, I finally met him again.Too bad he doesn't remember me.

Chapter [-]: [I took his hand]

Even if it's just about helping each other.

A picture of holding hands with extremely unclear pixels was inserted in it, which should be caused by zooming in from a screenshot of a video.This was the first time for the two of them to travel to a rural caravan camp with people from the hospital. When they went climbing together, Nian Sixian walked in front and helped Gao Anhe.

Nian Sixian recognized that the blurred hand was his own.

He continued to flip through the pages, and he didn't know how many articles he had read, but they were all about himself: [He always suffers from insomnia, when he falls asleep he is either having nightmares or talking in his sleep, or weeping in a low voice.I really want to sneak over and hug him. 】【I kissed him secretly today, that's great. 】

【Does he also like me a little bit?A little bit will do. 】

……

Nian Sixian sat blankly in the study, dazed until dark.He felt that he was defeated. He thought that the impregnable city in his heart was actually vulnerable to a single blow. With only a few words and pictures, he destroyed the city that he had defended for two months.

He is like a general who has abandoned his troops and armor, only the indifference and persistence on his face are deceiving himself, his city and his heart are completely defeated, the walls are broken and the house is destroyed.

It seems that there is a flood breaking through the wall, bursting the embankment, and it is out of control.

He felt that the corners of his mouth were salty, and he didn't know when he actually cried.The rain in the early autumn seemed to have heard his heart, and it was ticking and patting the window, like his heart, dripping blood.

It hurts.

The engagement banquet between Li Xiang and Huo Fanshuang was extremely simple. Both of them are doctors at X Hospital. They specially found a time when they were not on duty, called a group of friends, and booked a private room. A large table for 20 people is enough .

Nian Sixian was on vacation this day, so he came to X Hospital ahead of time, thinking of going to Li Xiang to prescribe a medicine first, and then go with him after get off work.

Li Xiang refused to prescribe sleeping pills for him, "Didn't you sleep normally before? Then find out how you felt at that time. I don't suggest you rely too much on drugs."

Nian Sixian knew that Li Xiang was doing it for his own good, so he stopped insisting, but he felt like a mirror in his heart. At that time, he felt that without that person, he would not be able to find him back.

Li Heng glanced at his watch, "I still have half an hour to get off work, so don't pester me. I'm too good-looking to affect my patients' treatment." He took out a large pack of snacks from the drawer, "Excuse me You old man, run an errand for me. Go to your original stomatology office and send this pack of snacks to Huo Fanshuang."

Nian Sixian smiled, "What's the matter? It's only half an hour, I'm afraid I'll starve your fiancée."

"Tsk! Snacks! Let her put them in the office to share with her friends. When you were in that room earlier, you didn't miss the heavy snacks!"

"Yes, yes, I'll go right now."

Huo Fanshuang was taken aback when he saw Nian Sixian, and said to the doctor beside him, "I really can't talk about people during the day. Talk about Cao Cao Cao Cao is here. It's a character who hasn't appeared in a few years."

Nian Sixian smiled: "Are you speaking ill of me?"

Huo Fanshuang pointed to a wall covered with pennants behind Nian Sixian and said, "We're talking about those pennants. Haven't you discovered the big secret hidden inside?"

"What?" Nian Sixian looked back.

Huo Fanshuang pointed to the bottom one and said, "The pennant seven years ago was inscribed with An He's younger brother. We are thinking about it, is it possible that this is the big star Gao Anhe?"

Others hurriedly said: "Yes! You just came! Tell us, is it him? Didn't you say that you went on an outing together before?"

Huo Fanshuang was also curious: "Could it be that you two became friends seven years ago and have known each other for so many years?"

Nian Sixian was stunned for a while.Various memories flooded his mind.I saw Gao Anhe's diary that day, and said that it was the second time we met in Smiling Mouth last year.The person he has been secretly in love with for a long time, could it be himself?He tried his best to recall the first meeting between the two in his impression, as if Gao Anhe knew him.

But going forward, he couldn't remember where he had seen it before, so he asked, "Why don't I remember it?"

Huo Fanshuang said: "Looking at this pennant, I am very impressed. As soon as I say it, you can remember it. Do you remember that there was a boy whose mother was in the ICU, and his mother's attending doctor brought him here Yes, it is said that this child is pitiful and stubborn. He keeps his head down and guards outside the ICU, refusing to move. When the doctor finds out, his face is so swollen that he can no longer look human, and he is too speechless due to toothache. Come."

He suddenly realized that the boy, he remembered.

That was about six or seven years ago. The teenager was put in the dental department, wearing a peaked cap to hide himself in the cap, and put the outer pullover on the cap to surround himself layer by layer.The boy kept his head down, as if he had never seen the boy's face.

Nian Sixian looked at the boy's teeth, and found that his wisdom teeth were too swollen, so he prescribed some anti-inflammatory drugs and let him go.

It was raining outside at that time, and Nian Sixian was worried that he would get wet when he went to another building of the inpatient department, so he grabbed an umbrella at the door of the office and handed it to him.

The boy stretched out his hand, pushed the umbrella, shook his head, he didn't want it.

Seeing that his fingers were shaking, Nian Sixian guessed that he must have hypoglycemia and hadn't eaten for a long time.He casually took a candy from the drawer and handed it to him, telling him that today can be sweet after eating this candy.

It turned out that he and Gao Anhe had met each other a long time ago.

It turned out that Gao Anhe had recognized him a long time ago.

The only persistence he had left had disappeared at this moment.He didn't quite remember how he got to the restaurant, and when he got a vague impression, it was Zheng Hai who came late and said, "The last patient I saw today, you must not be able to guess who it is! It's amazing! It's been a long time since Ah Si has been here." The hospital? I think that’s fate! That’s Yuelao! That’s the god of fate! Oh, no, it’s Cupid’s arrow!”

Tracy also came: "Don't be secretive, just get to the point."

"A Si's ex-girlfriend, He Qianqian."

Only then did Nian Sixian come out of his memory, "Ah, she, has she returned to China?"

"Well. She asked me for your contact information and where you work now, but I gave them all. Do you want to thank me? "

Tracy gave him a blank look, "You are really idle. Break up, don't you understand the meaning of breaking up?"

Zheng Hai looked innocent, "..." Why is my wife so angry.

The corner of Nian Sixian's mouth twitched, "Well, just give it."