Piano Song Killing Eve [Short Story]

01 As soon as Si Peng saw Ming Yuan, he recognized him.

Walking into the orphanage, from a distance, I saw a boy standing under a window in the corridor.He was no more than 15 years old, tall and slender.

White shirt and light blue jeans, this kind of dress is a little thin in the cold spring at the end of March, but it is also very cute.

The sunlight was divided into beams of light by the window, and after entering the corridor, they blended together again, scattered on the marble floor, and outlined the outlines of the deformed panes. , the bridge of the nose, and the small shadows under the lips—really a sharp, well-defined face.

When the boy noticed Sipeng's approach, his confused eyes suddenly became active, looked at Sipeng, and smiled shyly.

"Brother Si Peng, my name is Ming Yuan."

Si Peng will never forget his clear voice and clear smile.

two

The results of the paternity test will not be available until last week. When Sipeng told Mingyuan, he did not show the same impatience as Sipeng, but asked in amazement: "Can it really be so fast?"

During the waiting days, Mingyuan always called "brother" and "brother" as if he was trying to make up for the lack of more than ten years. Sipeng didn't know at the time that his self-willedness was actually due to being alone for too long. .

Mingyuan told him that the Mingxi Orphanage was founded by a philanthropist of the Ming family, and the orphans housed here all followed the surname of the philanthropist. He got it by lottery.

"Am I really like him?" Ming Yuan asked.

"Ok!"

"What's his name?"

"Si Hai!"

Mingyuan blinked his eyes, his eyelashes fluttered like wings.

"If... I mean if! If the appraisal results... I'm not your brother, can I still meet you?"

"I think... there should be no problem." Si Peng really thought there was no problem at the time.

Mingyuan stared at Si Peng's face for a long time, then suddenly jumped up and down and cheered.

three

Seeing Mingyuan being chased and beaten by a group of children, Si Peng walked over, protected Mingyuan behind him, and yelled at those children not to bully others.The one in the lead yelled, indicating that Yuan was a well-known broom star and an unknown person.

Mingyuan whimpered and told Si Peng the truth.

It turned out that he knew from the very beginning that he was not Si Peng's younger brother.Because he clearly remembers his life experience and how he "restrained" his parents to death.

When he was three years old, his mother played with him in the park in the middle of the street. The ball rolled on the road. He ran to pick it up. Just as a truck passed by, his mother rushed over and protected him with her body. .The father, who was still on a business trip, rushed back after hearing the news, but encountered a car accident on the road.

"The fortune teller said...that I...would kill...everyone close to me..." Ming Yuan choked up loudly, and kept rubbing his eyes with the back of his hand.

four

Sipeng adopted Mingyuan regardless of his family's objections, and brought him back to his home. A 23-year-old boy had to take care of a half-grown son. Gradually, rumors spread like wildfire.

——He is a false adopted son, he is really a child molester!

Si Peng's mother came and scolded Si Peng in front of Ming Yuan, saying that he was unfilial and shameless.

After Si Peng refuted a few words, she pointed at Sang and scolded Huai, targeting Ming Yuan.In the end, she warned Si Peng to go home for a blind date on weekends, otherwise the relationship between mother and child would be severed.

"Brother Si Peng, don't drive me away, I don't want to be alone anymore!"

五

After returning from the blind date, Si Peng told Mingyuan that it was that woman, and he didn't want to bother about marriage anymore, because he felt that it was the same to marry anyone, and he seemed to have no interest in women.

"Brother Si Peng, what do you mean by this?"

Mingyuan blinked his big eyes and looked at Sipeng, and Sipeng suddenly kissed Mingyuan's lips.Mingyuan was very scared at first, but gradually, he felt Si Peng's longing for him, he cried, it turned out that he could really be loved and pitied like this.

He gave himself completely to this man. Although he felt uneasy and worried that Sipeng would become someone close to him in this way, he used an excuse in his heart to excuse himself. He would not be wishful thinking about Sipeng. In repaying favor, Sipeng feels tired, he will leave silently, they will not form a close relationship, and he will not kill Sipeng.

六

I forgot when it started, Sipeng often came home late, and always giggled foolishly by himself, and he seldom entered Mingyuan's room again.

After a while, Sipeng's fiancée came to their home every now and then to wash and cook for Sipeng.

One night, Sipeng got drunk and his fiancée took him home. Mingyuan anxiously stepped forward to help. The woman he called his sister-in-law gave him a rude look and shouted, "Go away, this family doesn't need you." you!"

Mingyuan froze in the living room, watching the woman undress Sipeng and wash, and then helped him into the room. After a while, the light went out, and the darkness pierced into his heart like tentacles.

Seven

Suddenly it started to rain heavily, people on the platform put up their umbrellas one after another, Mingyuan's umbrella was in his backpack, but he didn't take it, relying on the rainwater to pour on his face, his tears could be mixed with the rainwater inside.

The phone rang, and Ming Yuan didn't want to answer it, but the ringing didn't stop for a long time, and it seemed to be getting more and more urgent.Mingyuan picked up the phone, and it was indeed Brother Sipeng's call.

"Where are you? Come back!"

"...No, I'm leaving..."

"I won't let you go! You are mine!"

His words are so domineering, but Mingyuan feels at ease after hearing that, he is not alone anymore, because he belongs to Sipeng.

"You are waiting for me on the platform, you are not allowed to go anywhere, I will pick you up!"

After hanging up the phone, Mingyuan was so ecstatic that he forgot what the fortune teller said.

Eight

Four nurses pushed the stretcher trolley and hurriedly slid through the marble-covered corridor. Si Peng on the stretcher was already unconscious.The pale gauze smeared with blood covered his face, Mingyuan couldn't see him clearly, even after running a long distance with the stretcher, he still couldn't see him clearly.

Why so careless?Turn Si Peng into someone close to him?The terrible experience was repeated mercilessly like this, it was he who harmed him, knowingly committing the crime!

"Brother Si Peng! Wake up quickly! You can't... you can't... are you trying to kill me?"

The lights outside the operating room are like the devil's red eyes, flickering abruptly in the dark corridor.

Ming Yuan sat on the bench, letting the tears overflow his eyes, and then slid wantonly down his cheeks.The ticking of the clock came from nowhere, intertwined with the sound of rain falling outside the window, calm and indifferent, as if it would never stop.

Tick, tick...

nine

"You evil spirit!"

Si Peng's mother pointed at Ming Yuan's nose and cursed loudly, then begged Ming Yuan to let her son go and let him lead a normal life.

Si Peng was out of danger and was sent to the ward. Neither Si Peng's mother nor his fiancée allowed Ming Yuan to visit him, so Ming Yuan could only wait silently in the corridor.

"Excuse me, is your name Mingyuan?"

Mingyuan turned his head and saw a man in a white coat and glasses, he responded tremblingly: "I am."

"I'm a lifeguard on the ambulance. The injured man said something before he passed out. I think I should tell you."

Mingyuan was at a loss, rubbing his hands unconsciously on both sides of his body.

"what did he say?"

"He said 'it's my own fault, it's none of Mingyuan's business'."

Mingyuan held his breath for an instant, grief wrinkled on his face like waves, he twitched the corners of his mouth, turned around and wept uncontrollably.

Ten

Mingyuan's departure did not have too much influence on Sipeng, instead Sipeng's life became peaceful, his mother stopped scolding him, and his wife was obedient to him. In the third year after marriage, he still I found my long-lost brother.

In this way, another year passed without a hitch. If he hadn't received a sudden call from Mingyuan, he would have even forgotten that he had ever been with a man for a while.

They met in a coffee shop, on a March evening with a residual chill in the air.

He saw Mingyuan, sitting by the window. Although he was 20 years old, he still played with the silk flowers and napkins on the table because of boredom.

Si Peng was very happy, but he didn't dare to approach him. Only then did he realize that he couldn't help but believe that Ming Yuan was an unknown person.

Mingyuan turned his head inadvertently, the moment their eyes met, everything became the background, and there were only the two of them left in the world.

Mingyuan's smile is pure and kind, but Sipeng found something in his eyes that he had never seen before. Is it maturity and vicissitudes?It seems that it is not comprehensive.

Si Peng sat across from him, and after a few pleasantries, the two fell silent unexpectedly.

After a long time, Si Peng smiled awkwardly and said, "I always feel like I have a lot to say, but I can't say anything."

After hearing this, Mingyuan interlaced his fingers and kept rubbing each other with his hands that had been resting on the table.

"I...I regret it a bit, I shouldn't have come to you, right?" Ming Yuan laughed at himself.

"Why do you think so? Why shouldn't you come?"

"I...what am I? A friend, or a...brother?" Ming Yuan raised his head and stared at Sipeng, with blame looming in his tone.

"I..." Si Peng lowered his head apologetically, "Some things don't need to be too clear."

"But I'm very clear." Ming Yuan's voice suddenly became deep.

"what?"

"I know very well that you and I...are nothing."

"Who said that! We..." Si Peng held Ming Yuan's hand tightly.

But Mingyuan withdrew his hand.

"We've only been...sexual partners for a while." Saying this, big tears dripped down from Mingyuan's eyes.

"Brother Si Peng, do you know that there is a feeling that will not make two people approach each other, but will gradually drift away."

"what?"

"I left you because I cared about you. Can you feel this feeling?"

"I……"

eleven

They walked along the road for a long time, neither of them spoke, but Si Peng felt that Mingyuan was obviously hiding something.

They stood under the street lamp, and Mingyuan made one last request to Sipeng.

"Brother, I will never see you again in the future, can you... kiss me again? Treat me like your lover, kiss me once?"

Sipeng took a step back as if frightened, and then teased: "Why don't we see each other again? I...but I have always regarded you as my younger brother. You can keep in touch in the future, as long as...as long as you don't let your sister-in-law Discover."

After finishing speaking, Sipeng stopped a taxi in a panic, said goodbye, and left Mingyuan alone on the side of the road. He didn't dare to turn his head to look at him until the car drove a long way.

But at this moment, he could only see the dim and vague outline of the boy in the shadow buried by the light of the street lamp, lonely and lonely.

Although he couldn't bear it, he took out his mobile phone and deleted Mingyuan's number.

twelve

Four years later, Si Peng's wife became pregnant, and he felt unprecedented satisfaction. His life seemed to have been going smoothly. He behaved well and had no bad deeds.

It's just that occasionally when he thinks of being obsessed with a boy's body, he feels a little uneasy in his heart, as if he has done something wrong but has never been found out.

One day, Sipeng saw a report on rare disease groups on TV, and it was the first time he heard about a kind of encephalopathy called Rocker Syndrome in the world. Only one in a million, the disease is hereditary.

And in this report, he actually saw Mingyuan.

thirteen

Si Peng came to the hospice where Ming Yuan was located.In the northern weather of November, the sun fused into the air, neutralizing the cold rising from the earth, and it was very warm on his body. He walked towards Mingyuan's ward while listening to the nurse explaining Mingyuan's condition.

People with Rocker syndrome, once onset, the brain will degenerate rapidly, from the initial memory loss, to the weakening of the overall function, and finally the brain function will degenerate to the same perception state as a single-celled organism, until complete brain death, The whole process generally lasts about three years.

Hearing this, Si Peng quickly counted his fingers. The last time he and Ming Yuan met was four years ago. At that time, Ming Yuan felt strange. He must have started to get sick.

"But Mingyuan seems to be very strong. Although he is stupid and doesn't know anyone, he is still very energetic!" The nurse smiled gratifiedly.

"He...is it..." Si Peng hesitated to speak.

"He may be waiting for someone." The nurse said casually.

fourteen

"Ah, there he is!" said the nurse, pointing ahead as she passed a garden.

Si Peng looked in the direction pointed by the nurse. Among the flowers withered branches and leaves, a thin boy was sitting in a wheelchair, wearing a fleece cap, and wearing only a thin hospital gown. His overcoat did not fall to the ground, but he He didn't show that he was afraid of the cold, in fact he didn't show any signs, he just stared blankly ahead, to be precise, he should keep his eyes open, but he couldn't see anything.

Si Peng walked over with a few strides, tied up Mingyuan's coat, and helped him put it on his body. He rubbed Mingyuan's hands and cheeks, feeling the bone-chilling cold. He couldn't help but blame the nurse: "How can I leave him alone?" Here? Has he been sitting like this for a long time?"

The tone of the nurse's answer was very flat, but it was also mixed with obvious pity: "Don't be nervous, he won't feel cold now."

Si Peng stopped moving, and a layer of tears welled up in his eyes.

fifteen

Sipeng never leaves Mingyuan's side and takes good care of him. Although Mingyuan no longer recognizes him or feels his existence, he still tells Mingyuan over and over again that he is sorry. When we met, he shouldn't turn a blind eye to Mingyuan's sadness, he should be more careful and aware of the contradiction in Mingyuan's heart.

He is a bastard, just like an irresponsible owner treats a pet. He took in Mingyuan on a whim, and then occupied his body according to his own temperament. In the end, because his existence affected his life, he abandoned him. over him.

But Mingyuan has always regarded him as his reliance, as his everything.

Si Peng has been with Ming Yuan for five days, but he has to leave because his wife is about to give birth.

He is very clear that this farewell is the eternal farewell.

sixteen

The weather was fine that day, the winter sun was warm on the body, and the cool air made people feel refreshed.Sipeng pushed Mingyuan's wheelchair and took him for a walk in the garden.

When he walked to the center of the garden, Si Peng stopped by a bench and sat down to rest. Mingyuan's wheelchair was beside him. He looked at Mingyuan, who had lowered his eyelids and looked peaceful, as if he was thinking Thinking about something, remembering something.He couldn't believe that such a bright and handsome boy would die soon.

"sorry."

Si Peng looked into Ming Yuan's eyes, hoping that those bright black eyes could give him some response.

"I shouldn't have let you leave alone, bear all this alone, how could I have made you so lonely? You must have been heartbroken when I left you? I'm sorry for you, you have done so much for me , but I... I detested you and even...forgot about you. "

Si Peng clenched Mingyuan's hand and shed tears.

"Mingyuan, I have to go, I'm sorry, because my wife...your sister-in-law, she is about to have a baby..."

At this time, Mingyuan's eyes flickered suddenly, but Si Peng didn't notice it.

"I must... must fulfill my responsibility as a husband, Mingyuan, forgive me, I will leave you alone again!"

Sipeng stroked Mingyuan's thick hair, and suddenly felt that Mingyuan was like his own child. How much he wanted to take good care of Mingyuan like he loved his own flesh and blood, and take care of him for the rest of his life.

"Mingyuan, we...will never see each other again? Can I...kiss you again? I want...to treat you as my lover, and I want to...kiss you goodbye. "

Sipeng leaned forward and pressed his trembling lips to Mingyuan's. He closed his eyes, and the past years were played back cruelly and affectionately in his mind.

At this time, Sipeng's cell phone rang. He picked up the phone, and his mother's voice came from the receiver. She scolded Sipeng for being irresponsible, his wife had a dystocia, and he was still taking care of irrelevant people outside.

Impatient for a moment, Si Peng stood up quickly, only to find that Ming Yuan's eyes had been tightly closed.

"Mingyuan...Mingyuan!" He shook Mingyuan's body a few times, trying to wake up Mingyuan who tilted his head and kept silent.

"You bastard! Who are you calling? Your wife is calling you, do you hear?"

His mother's scolding left Sipeng with no time to take care of Mingyuan, so he strode towards the door of the hospital. On the way, he stopped a nurse, pointed him in the direction of Mingyuan, and asked her to take care of Mingyuan.

He glanced in Mingyuan's direction for the last time, and saw Mingyuan sitting alone in a wheelchair, and he was walking further and further away.

Seventeen

Although the birth of the little life took some twists and turns, fortunately it is a healthy baby.Si Peng eagerly asked the nurse whether the child was a boy or a girl. When he hugged his daughter and looked at her weak face, he cried. He knew that Mingyuan had left him forever.

He also finally understood why Mingyuan wanted to be his lover, even if only for a moment.

According to legend, the daughter was the lover of the father in his previous life.

The past between him and Mingyuan seemed like a world away.

postscript

Five years ago, when Mingyuan returned to Sipeng's city to look for him, he passed Jiuhua Mountain on the way, and he went to a temple dedicated to Ksitigarbha Bodhisattva.

Standing in the Buddhist hall, he looked at the aloof Bodhisattva in front of him, with awe and anxiety in his eyes.He asked the monk standing by:

"Master, is there really reincarnation in the world?"

The monk smiled, put his hands together in front of his chest, and replied:

"Almsgiver, what we hope for in this life, what we rely on in the future life, the fate of this life, and the thought of the future life, if there is no reincarnation, how can my Buddha overcome the suffering of all living beings? If there is no reincarnation, wouldn't the suffering of life be even worse?"

Mingyuan's Adam's apple rolled a few times, and then he asked tremblingly: "Master, I haven't entered Buddhism, so can I make a wish to the Bodhisattva now? Will the Bodhisattva help me?"

"Almsgiver, my Buddha is merciful and cares for all beings. If you have a heart for my Buddha, even for a moment, you are my disciple. As long as your heart is sincere, as long as you are not in conflict with the Buddha's teachings, and in harmony with the laws of heaven, my Buddha will definitely fulfill your wishes! "

"Okay...okay..." Mingyuan smiled gratifiedly.

He walked up to the Bodhisattva and knelt down, kowtowed a few times, then raised his head, looked at the Bodhisattva devoutly, his eyes were full of yearning and gratitude, a tear fell down, and his bright black eyes were slightly gloomy in the crystal tears. shaking.

"Brother Si Peng, after my reincarnation, you must remember to love me."

02

Mingyuan said:

Brother Si Peng, I know, I am not your younger brother, how can I have such a blessing?But I really want to be with you.

You have your life trajectory, you will marry a virtuous wife, give birth to lovely children, have a few heart-to-heart friends, and you will definitely find your brother!But none of this has anything to do with me.

Your life has no place for me, even if I have already regarded you as my life.

I am a man, but I fell in love with a man, so my love must be borne in my heart, for your future and for you, can you not drive me away.

Falling in love with you is the greatest pain in my life and also my best memory.Even if one day God takes away everything from me, I believe that the memory about you will always stay in my heart.

Brother Sipeng, can you treat me as your lover for a moment in this life, in that case, I will definitely be your daughter in the next life!I will let you hold me, kiss me, and give me back what you owe me in this life.

Brother Si Peng, I can only accompany you to this point, for the rest of my life, you must be happy for me!

In the next life, I will definitely be your daughter.

***

Can there be a moment when you regard me as your lover,

In that case, I will definitely be your daughter in my next life!

I'll let you hold me, kiss me, love me,

Give me back what you owe me in this life.

Brother Si Peng, after my reincarnation, you must remember to love me!