I'll be hot when you're cold

Chapter 10

Cao Xiaoge had a car accident that day, but fortunately the driver braked in time and only scratched, but Cao Xiaoge has been talking to himself since he woke up, and from time to time he would get angry and throw things, scaring Cao's father and Cao mother to bring him to the spirit The diagnosis turned out to be schizophrenia, which made their hearts fall to the bottom. They didn't understand that their son was fine yesterday, but today he not only had a car accident, but also got schizophrenia. They couldn't accept it for a while.

The doctor who diagnosed Cao Xiaoge suggested that Cao’s father and Cao’s mother send Cao Xiaoge to a mental hospital for treatment. If he receives the correct treatment early, he can recover earlier and not relapse easily. But which parents are willing to send their children to a mental hospital? Cao’s father, Cao’s mother, decided to take Cao Xiaoge home, talk to him more, and spend more time with him. Maybe one day he would figure it out on his own. On the contrary, his mental condition was getting worse and worse, and he had a tendency to self-abuse. Cao's father and Cao's mother had no choice but to send him to the best mental hospital in the city with tears in their eyes.

Cao Xiaoge spent the New Year in a mental hospital. When Cao's father and Cao's mother came to see him, he was sitting on the bed in a daze. Cao's mother took his hand and called him, but he didn't respond at all.The couple's eyes were red when they saw their son like this, but because it was the New Year, they didn't cry because they were afraid of bad luck.

"Xiaoge, this is a red envelope from your parents. You need to get well soon. Your parents are still waiting for you to take care of yourself." Before leaving, Cao's mother grabbed Cao Xiaoge's hand and stuffed a red envelope for him. Then he left with Cao's father.

Looking at the back of his parents leaving, a tear slipped silently from the corner of Cao Xiaoge's eyes.I'm sorry parents, please forgive my waywardness...

In a blink of an eye, Cao Xiaoge stayed in the psychiatric hospital for more than a month. Cao's father and Cao's mother would come to see him whenever they were free. Looking at the faces of his parents who seemed to be several years old, Cao Xiaoge felt regretful in his heart. But he doesn't want to go out yet, he's afraid to see people outside, afraid that they will discriminate against him, even if they don't know anything, but he is still very scared, now he just wants to hide in this place, like a turtle hides itself It's like protecting yourself in a turtle shell.

Although most people around have mental problems, Cao Xiaoge believes that they are the kindest people in the world. They will help each other when they are not sick, they will care about others, and they will sincerely bless someone when they recover and leave the hospital. He, they know what it feels like to be discriminated against, so they never discriminate against others.

Just when Cao Xiaoge thought it would be good to stay here for the rest of his life, that person appeared, and his appearance made his heart ache.

After Qi Xusheng said those words to Cao Xiaoge that day, he regretted it. He was suddenly very afraid of losing him, so he ran out to chase him, but he didn't see him. For more than a month, he looked for him everywhere, went to his house, But Cao Xiaoge's parents refused to tell Cao Xiaoge's whereabouts. In order to let Cao's father and Cao mother tell Cao Xiaoge's whereabouts, he ran to Cao Xiaoge's door every day and asked them to tell him Cao Xiaoge's whereabouts. Where did he go? Finally, at his insistence, Cao's father and Cao's mother told him that Cao Xiaoge was sent to a mental hospital because of schizophrenia.

Hearing this news, Qi Xucheng regretted so much that he wished he could hit his head to death. He knew that Cao Xiaoge's character was weak, and even committed suicide when he was a child because he was afraid that others would know his sexual orientation. How could he say those things when he loved himself so much? .

Qi Xusheng rushed to the psychiatric hospital where Cao Xiaoge lived, and finally found him in the garden, only to find that he sat there like a puppet and didn't respond at all.

Qi Xusheng stepped forward and hugged him tightly, and kept saying, "Xiaoge, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."

Cao Xiaoge let him hold him without struggling, as if he was deaf to his words, and stared blankly at the front.

Seeing Cao Xiaoge like this, Qi Xucheng's indifferent mask was completely torn off, his eyes gradually turned red, and he said with great regret: "Xiaoge, don't do this, you can beat me, scold me, but please Don't do this, don't punish me in this way."

Cao Xiaoge looked up at him slowly, reached out to take his hand, Qi Xucheng thought he was awake, but the next second Cao Xiaoge suddenly bit his hand hard.

Qi Xucheng didn't break free, he saw hatred in Cao Xiaoge's eyes, he no longer had any love, his heart hurts very much, it hurts thousands of times more than his hands.

The two of them were deadlocked like this until the doctors and nurses came to pull Cao Xiaoge away. He was still immersed in Cao Xiaoge's eyes full of hatred. He didn't know how he left in the end, and he didn't know how he got home. , he only knows that Cao Xiaoge doesn't love him now, the Cao Xiaoge who said he wanted to give him warmth doesn't love him anymore, he only hates him.

One month later, Cao Xiaoge finally chose to be discharged from the hospital. He didn't want to see his parents worrying about him all day long. He could be sorry to anyone, but he could never be sorry to his parents. He also figured it out during the past few months in the mental hospital. Well, Qi Xucheng is just a passerby, as long as time passes, he will forget about him, and then he can still get married and have children, so he doesn't have to worry about others doubting his sexuality.

After staying at home for a few days, Cao Xiaoge decided to look for a job. He didn't want to rely on his parents. Although Cao's father and mother Cao were worried, they still followed his wishes. When he was looking for a job in the talent recruitment market, he met Zhou Yi.

Cao Xiaoge turned his head and wanted to leave, but Zhou Yi hurried up to stop him: "Hey, I said Xiaoge, what's the matter with you, just leave when you see me."

Being caught straight, Cao Xiaoge was a little embarrassed: "No, I just have something urgent."

"What's the rush? I've finally met and I'm too busy to leave. By the way, where have you been these past few months? I can't find you even if I try to find you."

"It's nothing, it's just that something happened in the past few months." Cao Xiaoge didn't want to mention those few months. When he saw the resume in Zhou Yi's hand, he asked, "Have you resigned?"

Mentioning this, Zhou Yi acted a little angry: "Resign, the company has closed down, and everyone is out of work."

"What? The company went bankrupt?" Cao Xiaoge was surprised.The business has been running smoothly, and there is no reason why it should go out of business.

"Yeah, it happened last month. The boss suddenly announced to everyone that the company was closing down."

"What about the boss?" Cao Xiaoge couldn't help asking the man.

"I'm not very clear. After the company closed down, he disappeared. Well, I won't tell you. I have to continue looking for a job. Goodbye."

Seeing Zhou Yi running away, Cao Xiaoge's mind suddenly flashed the hurt expression on his face when he saw a man for the last time, but he immediately complained that he was soft-hearted and must not have anything to do with that man again.