paradox

"The temporary office has been arranged. It's just that Director Yang arranged for a newcomer to come in recently. He may share an office with you, but don't worry, there must be enough space." Xiao Mo explained while leading us to the parking lot, Sister Qin Said nothing, I don't care.

"By the way, Tong Tong." She said sideways, "That new girl seems to be in a tour group with us, her name is Su Mohan, don't forget to build a good relationship with her."

"This is desert and cold, and it sounds like a difficult person to get along with. Can I do it?" I doubted myself a little.

Now that I think about it, during college, I also became friends by chasing after Xiaomo relentlessly.By the way, Xiaomo was also a famous cold beauty in our courtyard before, why did she become such an unruly look.

"Aren't you very good at being stubborn?" Xiao Mo raised his eyebrows.

"Yeah, when I'm not around, I run to Wantong's office every day and every day. I'm sorry that she is annoyed by you for being a quiet and good-tempered person." Sister Qin, who was sitting in front, didn't forget to add a few words.

"Isn't that going to be an exam? You're not here, so I can only ask Teacher Xu." If you didn't teach me well, I wouldn't have gone to Teacher Xu either!Of course, this sentence is absolutely unacceptable.

"It seems that I have to watch at the office every day so that you won't bother her." Sister Qin looked out the window boredly.

"I spend half of my time on business trips, how can I keep it?" I murmured.

When I passed by Teacher Xu's office before, I heard that the two of them seemed to be having some troubles. I don't know if they have reconciled now, but since Sister Qin took the initiative to find Teacher Xu yesterday, it should be almost okay.

"It can be guarded." Xiaomo said in a low voice, and put her right hand on the back of my hand. I immediately turned to look at Sister Qin, but found that she was taking a nap and didn't notice our situation.

"Quick~let go~hand" I exaggeratedly lip-synced to her, but Xiaomo seemed to be more playful and held her tighter.

"Just~no~" Treat the person in the same way as the person...

It can't be like this, the feelings that I have managed to hide, can't be revealed so easily!My hands were trembling non-stop, the feeling of suffocation in the dream reappeared, as if I had seen through what I was thinking, and finally let go after a tight grip, and handed me a glass of water, which contained well-brewed scented tea , the temperature is close to the body temperature but it is hot and painful, and the gentleness makes people want to cry.

"Thank you." I handed her a smiling face, and inadvertently found the corners of her eyes flushed.

That year, I lingered in a room in a daze. She took care of me every step of the way, and she walked out of that door with me.

I thought I was strong enough, but in the end I was still the same. What should I do made her worry again. "Little Mo, I..."

"Everything has been delivered to your apartment, come back with me when you get off work." She interrupted me and rubbed my head with her hand. "Recently, my aunt asked me about your partner again. How do you say I should report to your mother?"

"Hey!" I was so scared that I was shocked, and immediately showed weakness, "Please show mercy..."

We chatted a lot along the way, and soon arrived at the main building of Risheng Company.Xiaomo also has a lot of things to do, so he can't stay with us all the time, so after handing over his work permit to us, he asked his little assistant to take us to his temporary office.

Through the blinds, I peeked at the scene inside, and sure enough, there was a person working inside.With long hair and shawls, he looks smart and capable in a formal suit. As he guessed before, he looks cold.But generally, the colder the person looks, the closer they are when they actually make friends.

"Sister Qin, you said that if such a juicy girl were to be placed in our office, would that group of people go crazy?" I asked the person standing behind me.

Sister Qin coughed lightly, "This is not our territory, pay attention to the image." After pulling me away from the window, she posted it herself, "This girl is quite beautiful, unlike us, a bunch of rough guys, Just pulling out one of them is enough to irritate the eyes."

"Miss Qin, this is the key to the office. Do you want to go in now?" The little assistant who went to get the backup key has already returned, and we obediently left the window.

After Sister Qin nodded, the little assistant knocked on the door to ask for instructions.

"Please come in."

As expected of a big company, the quality is different.In the office, in order not to disturb other people's work as much as possible, the door has always been opened and closed at any time without asking for instructions. This is also an old tradition.

"These two are Ms. Qin and Ms. Tong, and we have been notified before." The little assistant briefly introduced us, but Su Mohan just nodded, expressing that he already knew, he really lived up to his name, even a superfluous sentence unwilling to say.

Sister Qin began to smooth things over, "I am Qin Siyuan, and this is Tong Xin, one of my current students. From now on, we will all be colleagues. I hope we can get along well."

It really is an old fried dough stick, so you can handle it with ease.I complained silently in my heart, and I still planned to make a brief self-introduction.

"Tong Xin, Miss Tong, right? Manager Chu mentioned you to me, we are in a tour group." Before I could introduce her, she stood up and greeted us respectively, "I'm Su Mohan, a newcomer from Risheng. Employees, if you don’t understand anything, please ask your seniors for advice. Inside is your desk, and the required materials will probably be delivered later.”

After a "kind" greeting, Su Mohan pointed out the location of our desk, and after I settled my things, I sat on the seat in a daze to pass the time, every time after having a nightmare, there would be a period of time for me to mention everything Not interested.It was a rare opportunity to see the world, but I wasted it.

On the contrary, Sister Qin was so energetic that she chatted with Su Mohan unconsciously, "Miss Su, your necklace is quite unique. Boy, do you think so?"

Now that Sister Qin has called me, she can't pretend not to hear me, so I have to go over to appreciate it.

There is a totem-like pendant hanging on the ocher red string, which is yellow and brown, and it turns out to be a kitten ready to go, so majestic.

"It's really unique. Generally, people don't use cats as totems, but there are also sayings in the West that cats are one of the guardians of hell." I played with the totem and said, "It doesn't mean that mummies were also found in Egyptian pyramids. Is it a cat? It’s about 6000 years ago, although I don’t know the background of your necklace, but it’s probably a cat slave.” I joked with a smile.

"Why didn't I realize that you know so much before?" Sister Qin knocked on my head.

"I read too many strange books, and I accidentally memorized them." I shrugged. A good memory is not a good thing.

"Not doing business properly." He said that he wanted to teach me a lesson, but he would not do this in other companies. I also took the opportunity to vent back the "resentment" that was usually accumulated.

Su Mohan sat there and watched the two of us bantering, with a smile on his lips, he had to say that he was comparable to Xiao Mo in terms of appearance.

Originally, I wanted to listen to Xiaomo's order and take time to chat with Su Mohan, but as soon as the information came, I knew what despair was. Although I had prepared myself before, I was still shocked by the amount of data. He said he had a rest, and he didn't even have time to raise his head to take a sip of water, not to mention that Sister Qin was sitting on the side, so she couldn't be lazy if she wanted to. The first day just passed by like this.

The luggage of Sister Qin and I have been sent to the designated place, Sister Qin is the apartment, and mine is the trunk of the small ink car.

"This is the first day, so that's it?" Xiao Mo pulled me up from the seat and "tied" the seat belt, "Sister Qin and Teacher Xu were both busy before. It took only a week to complete the work, and now it would take at least half a month if it were you. But the time should be enough, and the mid-term travel plan will not be delayed."

"Why is this!" I wailed, "Can you invite Teacher Xu over now?"

"Regret now? It's too late."

"Ah~ let me go back."

"Stop making trouble, I know you're tired, I'll cook something delicious for you when I go back." I've never tried Xiaomo's cooking skills, so it stands to reason that she does everything according to the rules, and the dishes she cooks won't be unpalatable Bar?

"Decree!" I replied vigorously.

Since it is Xiaomo who cooks, I will naturally leave it to me to do the cooking. Although it is still a bit difficult for me to do it now, it is still possible to serve tea and bowls.

I stood by the sink and washed the bowls and chopsticks over and over again. I always felt that there were still some dirty places, and I couldn't wash them clean.Probably because of the long wait, Xiao Mo also put down his work and came to my side.

"What's wrong?" Seeing the foam scattered by the pool and my half-wet sleeves, I frowned unconsciously.

"Xiaomo, I'm sorry, I..." I put the things in my hands aside in self-defeating, "I can't wash them..."

What are the steps in washing dishes?First add some water to soak it, and then the dish soap. Wait a minute, should I put the dish soap first or the water first?Do you wash it on a plate or on a sponge?Does this thing have steps?Or did I forget?Why can't I even do such a small thing?

Because of my failure to achieve anything, Xiao Mo has been worried. She obviously has a better way out, but because I delayed it, so did Tong Ying. Without me, her life would be more free.

ah!what to do?Negative emotions flooded in like a tide, and I couldn't breathe even though I was surrounded by oxygen, as if my throat was clamped by something.A person like me might as well...

"Tongtong?" Xiaomo patted my shoulder.

Only then did I react, put down the things in my hands and turned to her. "A troublesome person like me shouldn't exist in this world..."

She was silent for a while, hugged me tenderly, and kissed my forehead. "You're just sick. Like a cold, everyone gets sick, but not everyone gets sick all the time. I've been sick too, remember?"

"But... I don't want you to worry anymore. I thought I was healed and I was on my own, but in the end it still hasn't changed at all. You all have your own lives, and I shouldn't get involved..."

She put her finger on my lips and stopped me from saying, "Do you know how many stars there are in the sky?"

I don't know why I shook my head.

"Do you know how many advantages you have?"

Shake his head again.

"I have never counted the stars above my head, nor have I seen all of them, but they are there, and I don't need to confirm them one by one. Just like the advantages of us, it doesn't mean that if you can't see it, it doesn't exist, it doesn't mean that If you don’t have statistics, it means you can’t accomplish anything. If possible, I really want you to see what you look like in my eyes, it will definitely be much better than what you think in your heart.”

Xiaomo's flowing words slowly healed the wrinkles in my heart, I sighed slightly, my stiff shoulders relaxed, and my whole body depended on her warmth.

"Okay, maybe washing dishes is not your specialty, we can try other things." Xiao Mo took my hand and led me to the cutting board, "Do you want to try one by one with me?"

"I'm so happy!" I responded with a smile, and picked up the silver-white kitchen knife. The half-processed vegetables were lying on the chopping board for me to butcher.I took a deep breath. Although I couldn't see her, I knew she must be watching me not far away. Thinking of this, no matter how great my fear was, it disappeared.

Tong Xin, try it!

I spent some time aiming at a position, and started the first step hesitantly. Due to too much force, a few pieces fell off the cutting board, followed by the second step, the third step... the range where the vegetable slices were scattered It slowly expanded, and my forehead was also covered with tiny beads of sweat.

Don't worry... I whispered to myself in my heart.

When I was about to start all over again, my left hand was surrounded by a mass of warmth, "The hand that cuts vegetables should be curled up with the left hand, this is what you taught me." Xiao Mo stood behind me, holding my hand with both hands, and resting his head on it. Over my shoulder, so close I could feel her breath.

This kind of feeling has not appeared in my body for a long time. For a long time, I always feel that there is a corner missing in my heart. The feeling of emptiness comes from nowhere but it is cold and scary. It lingers in my heart every day, in my ears While talking some frustrating words, the noisy voice became more obvious in a quiet environment.I thought that indulging in sensuality would weaken this feeling of emptiness. After graduation, I tried desperately to make friends, hoping that I was not alone, but every time the banquet ended, this feeling would be magnified several times.

Just at this moment, a corner of my heart was filled, and there was a rare silence, only the sound of bubbles bursting in the pot, Xiao Mo's breathing, and my heartbeat.

I picked up the knife again, "I still have a lot to teach you." Pushing away the debris on the chopping board, I picked up another batch of vegetables and put the knife down neatly. The sound of the blade colliding with the chopping board has never been so pleasant, Put a little oil in the pot, sprinkle the seasoning with a spoon in one hand, crack the egg along the edge of the pot with the other hand, and let the egg white flow out.

I don’t know when Xiaomo let go of her hand and let me control her kitchen alone. I was overwhelmed by this sense of fulfillment, but we both eat all the ingredients that can be used in the refrigerator. Xiaomo didn't say anything from the beginning to the end, but just helped me out of the pot and put it on the plate.

Until the ingredients were exhausted, I was also exhausted, my whole body was soaked in sweat, and my whole body seemed to run out of the water.

Looking at the table full of "big fish and big meat", I realized the seriousness of the problem, "Are there too many dishes?" I cautiously asked Xiao Mo who was sitting on the sofa waiting for me.

"It's too much, let's work hard tonight."

"Hey..." I was afraid that I would die bravely today.

"Just kidding, just pick what you like, put the rest in the refrigerator, and continue tomorrow." She waved to me, and I obediently left to the side.

She took out a tissue and wanted to wipe my sweat off, but I blocked it by reflex, "...no need, I'll do it myself."

The lonely look flashed by, almost to the point where I wondered if my eyes were dazzled, "Are you still feeling uncomfortable?"

I shook my head, "It's much happier, thanks to you."

"Remember to take the medicine on time after eating. I still have the prescription from before. I don't know if it's still suitable. We'll go to the doctor tomorrow to have a look." She took out a bag of yellow and green medicine from the drawer This is the same one I used when I was in college. It seems that it was prepared before I came here. This temporary transfer is also...

"trouble…"

"Stop talking, let's eat quickly." She obviously didn't want me to say the same thing again.

Although I haven't eaten much all day today, the dishes on this table are still too much for me. After fighting for a long time, less than half of them were wiped out, and the rest had to be reserved for tomorrow.After everything is settled, I obediently go to the bathroom to wash up.

"The pajamas are put outside for you, they are all newly bought."

"Oh, I see."

The sweat on my body was washed away, and I felt a sudden and refreshing feeling. I just put a handful of shampoo on my head, and I thought of the phone ringing outside.

"Xiaomo, is my phone ringing?" I asked through the frosted glass door.

"You wash it first, and I'll pick it up for you." The sound of footsteps and the ringing of the phone went away together.

I hastily finished taking a bath and ran out. Xiao Mo was still on the phone, with a very bad expression on his face, "Don't come here to disturb our life again!"

"Xiaomo...?" I hesitated, only to see that she raised her mobile phone and hung up. The number on the phone was the one I called just yesterday.

"Is this why you got sick?" She swiped a few times and handed the phone into my hand.

I took it tremblingly, as if I was afraid of being burned, and immediately put it on the sofa, "I'm sorry..." I don't know what to say other than this sentence.

She slowly approached me, and I held my breath, waiting for a violent storm, but she just replied lightly, "Forgive you." After taking two steps towards the bathroom, she said with her back to me, "Don't forget to take the medicine , remember to rest early, don't wait for me."

"Xiaomo..." I wanted to stop her, but I couldn't move any further.

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2018年12月9日08:31:39

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PS: The follow-up content will be reset slowly, and the main plot will not change much.

In addition, it’s cold and I need to wear more clothes, and wrap my little quilt tightly in the northern Xinjiang of the motherland...