[Angie] Double Wings

Chapter 110 ◇The Hidden Pain That Is Hard to Speak

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The lady officer of the Zicuckoo army was a little surprised, "Huh?"

That hand took the cup and repeated, "Let me do it, you step back." Then, the owner of that hand asked in a gentle but flat tone, "Master Clavis, this is just a very ordinary cup." milk tea, can you?"

"can."

"...Then, please taste it."

Clavis took it with both hands, omitting the words of thanks as usual.He never thanked Lumière for such things... and this time should not be an exception.

"Does your hand...need a change of dressing?"

Lumiere's voice was full of tension... The last time the two of them talked about that taboo topic, Lumiere threw down the half-eaten oatmeal and fled from Clavis in a gaffe, as if fleeing for his life like.The last time they were alone, Kravis lost the patience to persuade him, and left his berth angrily... It wasn't because he was forced to endure his temper that he didn't shake the door of his berth, but because the sliding door was not good throw.

"No need." Kravis' tone was still cold and steady, but he took a little more saliva to add, "It's only a few hours... I will come to you when I need to change the medicine."

"Your injury is not deep, but the injury is a bit strange..." Lumiere moved around to the front of the stool, and sat down next to Clevis, "If the condition of the injury changes, please be sure to hurry Come to Swan Squad."

Clavis nodded silently, "... Lumière, I'm sorry. I think I made you feel bad."

"Please don't say that, Mr. Clewis. If I want to apologize, I should review my...too subjective attitude." His calm tone was still filled with uneasiness, "I regret that I didn't become Clement The pillar of Lord Lavis's heart, but... when you need support... I think my behavior is a kind of betrayal to you."

"Then why not 'betray' now?"

Lumière suddenly turned his head to look at Clevice with a considerable movement, and Clevice also looked at him in astonishment.He was sitting next to Clevice, and their faces were very close to each other... Lumiere had a very unnatural expression on his face.

"I don't know, Mr. Clavis." There was no gentle expression on his face, but he looked very serious, "Some thoughts...I have never thought of it before, but now...maybe it was inspired by Mr. Kravis. I..." Lumière suddenly stiffened awkwardly, "Maybe I haven't thought it through enough, and now I can't tell you clearly..."

It's the same as if I didn't say this, I don't understand it at all...

Cleves nodded, "Tell me when you think it through, it's the same."

"Yes."

Looking at it from a close distance, Lumiere's face was faintly flushed, which was unusual.

"... something seems wrong?"

"Please don't..." Lumière took a sigh of relief and shook his head, "It's nothing, Lord Clavis. After a while... I have to think about how to tell you about this. It's important to me."

Cleves also simply stopped asking, "Okay."

Lumière laughed, the smile was as gentle as ever, "Thank you very much for not being angry with me. After all, I... when you are facing a very important decision, I am not by your side..."

"...You misunderstood." Klevis still apologized, "I didn't face any 'choice', it's been like this since before...I haven't changed my mind, in fact, he hasn't..."

"That..." Talking about Jules, Lumière began to feel unbearable again, "I, I... a little..."

Clevers grabbed Lumiere who was about to escape, "Sit down!" He was a little annoyed, "You don't worry about my affairs, and you don't want to hear about these things... What do you want from me?"

"I'm sorry, Lord Clavis." Lumiere explained in a low voice, "I never meant to boycott Lord Jules...It may sound far-fetched to say this to you, but please...trust me, I I really tried my best to give you... goodwill."

This time it was Cleves who shook his head, "I didn't doubt it." He remembered Jules' self-loathing look when he said he felt dirty, "Lumiere, your understanding is very important to me." important."

"Yes." Lumière lowered his head, "but I... am very sad."

Clavis was puzzled.Although I don't know what caused it, Lumiere's mood has obviously undergone a subtle change, which even made him finally willing to take the initiative to say a few words to himself... It looks like it used to be, but there is still resentment refuse.

Is the difference in Jules?Lumière has always disliked Jules... Is this the reason?No.Lumière kept a cold distance from Jules.He doesn't like Jules, it's the kind of alienation that he can't even be interested in hating...

"I feel like I'm no longer the same Kravis I used to be, I feel like I've destroyed the illusion you've always believed in," Kravis speculated with a little trepidation, "I feel like I'm morally...even my The whole person has become disgusting..."

"No. I just can't figure it out, why do you...why keep lying to me?"

"...If it's this issue, then there's nothing to discuss, Lumiere." Klevis looked down at Lumiere's hand grasping the back of his hand, and smiled wryly in relief, "I didn't lie to you, never .”

"But, but... those who are usually incompatible..."

Klevis was suddenly curious, "Apart from the occasional quarrel with him, do I still seem to be incompatible?"

"Ah..." Lumière said eagerly, "It seems not."

"Before you came to the Holy Land, I have been getting along with him like this." Clevers shook his head, "Do you still remember when you first arrived in the Holy Land? At that time, you just started to dare to look at my moonlight all day long." Mansion run away, in order not to offend me, a gloomy guy, I often stay in the living room of my mansion at night, chatting with my maid."

Lumiere was a little embarrassed, "At that time... I was afraid that I would offend you unintentionally and make you keep me away from me thousands of miles away. Your preferences and taboos are not so easy to feel."

"Remember? One night, it was still raining heavily outside, and I was like being possessed by a wandering spirit. I didn't even wear shoes, and walked outside with bare feet. You were trapped in my mansion by the heavy rain. See I just walked out like this, and I followed."

"Yes, I remember." Lumière nodded.

Kravis also lowered his head, as if recalling the heavy rain that night.

Although Cleves did not mention the specific year and month, Lumiere clearly remembered that late at night, Cleves walked out of his mansion in a daze, and his own maid did not dare to intervene Blocking... Before he went out and was wet by the rain, his pale face was already covered with tears.At that time, he was muttering something in his mouth... Lumière rushed to the door anxiously, trying to hold Cleves, only to hear Jules' name whispered out of his mouth.Cleves walked barefoot from the Moonlight Mansion to the Sun Shadow Mansion, covered in rain and embarrassed, stepping on muddy feet, ignoring anyone standing in front of him, and drove straight in.Jules' maid didn't dare to stop him at all, and silently gave way to him.

"Later you asked me what happened at that time, but I never answered... because it was my hidden pain." Klevis buried his face in his palm, "I saw the scene of my mother's death in the crystal ball that day .”

Lumière was silent for a long time before reaching out to caress Clavis's back, and said softly, "It's my fault, Lord Clavis... I shouldn't remind you of this again."

He shook his head and pressed Lumiere's knee, "Even though I had a heated argument with him during the day, when I was emotionally broken, I would... still go to him. In fact, I have always... been very dependent on him. he."

What Lord Clavis said is true.

Lumière recalled many fragments of memories chaotically in his mind... The high-speed car crashed in the Holy Land, Mr. Clavis faced the seriously injured and dying Mr. Luwa, "Go to Jules!" ' That was Lord Clavis's first order, 'he knows what to do! 'That is not a rational judgment, but an absolute trust...

"Has it always been like this?"

"It's always been like this."

Lumiere recalled that night, probably because Clewis's appearance was too abnormal and too abrupt, and Jules greeted him in person.He obviously didn't understand what happened to Klevis, but he still brought the dripping, terrified and sad elder child in without saying a word... Jules accepted Klevis' request for help unconditionally, Take over his emotions and be responsible for comforting him.

"Now that I think about it, maybe it is." That night Jules asked Lumiere to go back to rest first and hand Clevice to him, but Lumiere still stood outside the door all night.At daybreak, Jules sent Clavis back to the mansion alone, told him to rest well, restrained the crystal ball as he wanted, and gave him a few days off.

Master Jules seemed indifferent, but in fact that was the most appropriate treatment.Mr. Clavis, who has calmed down, only needs time to heal slowly.

"That man..."

"Master Jules is actually a very gentle person."

"...not to this extent." Speaking of him like this, Klevis was a little shy, "I was too sad at that time, and my words were very messy. He just... just listened quietly. But , that's enough."

"You just said...you never lied to me."

Clavis spread his hands, "You asked me what I think of Jules, and I told you honestly, he is a very difficult, self-centered, pure and soft person, who will never give up at important moments. With a brain... And to me, he is a difficult and very important person. Which of these words is a lie?"

"……No."

"Lumiere," Clevers suddenly turned to grab Lumiere's shoulders, looking seriously into his eyes, "I won't lie to you. I don't like to talk about my private affairs, and I'm not good at expressing myself. Emotions. But, Lumière, I do not mean to deceive you."

"But..." Lumiere lowered his voice, "If I had asked you at that time... did you... love that one..."

"If I asked at that time, I don't know how I would answer. I probably wouldn't answer." Kravis smiled wryly. "You also know how we got along...I felt terrible at that time."

"But now?"

"...You couldn't talk about Jules with me calmly before, and now it's natural to ask."

"Yes..." Lumière was taken aback, "Because I let go of my knot."

Klevis smiled faintly, "Because I care about it, many things will... give way to him." Although he was frank, his face was slightly flushed, "There is no big problem in getting along, even if we quarrel, it won't last long. "

"That's great." Lumiere gave an answer that Clewis didn't expect, "It's very enviable, Lord Clavis." He laughed, but lowered his head, "From your words, I learned a lot... things I wouldn't have thought about before."

"Love is troublesome...but it's good."

"is it?"

Klevis wanted to reach out to touch the top of his head, but he was concerned about Lumiere's face in front of everyone, not to mention that Jules and Oscar were walking towards them side by side, so he withdrew his hand, "... let's not talk about it now "He raised his eyebrows and looked at Jules, "Our chief lord's medical team said that they will contact the Swan Army first, do we need to tie up the chief lord and hand them over to them?"

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The author has something to say: This is the second update today, and there was another update at [-]:[-] in the evening earlier, did you read it?