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The door was opened, and Yan Ruyi hurried out of the house. I don't know when the wind blew, and the ruined landscape tree in the small garden next to the garage shook its dry branches, and the door behind him made a loud knocking sound. , Yan Ruyi trembled, paused for a moment, and heard a roar from the house behind him:

"Don't come back after leaving! Just pretend that I never gave birth to you!"

Yan Ruyi closed her eyes, the severe pain in her heart made her unable to breathe, the cold wind blowing past her ears stimulated her extremely fragile heart at the moment, she wanted to cry, but she didn't know why, suddenly her eyes were dry and astringent , no more tears.

She raised her head and looked at the ruined landscape tree in the garden through the street lamp outside the garden. The creaking sound of the shaking branches scratched her heart again and again. She felt that she was injured, and her heart hurt very painful. It came from the despair of being forced out of the house by her biological father again. She slowly raised her right hand, pressed it on her left chest, and tried to take a deep breath of cold air. She stopped because she left the house. She listened and smiled suddenly. When the corners of her eyes were raised, she felt that the bottom of her eyes were very moist. She raised her hand and touched the corners of her eyes, but there was no feeling of moisture.

The remaining leaves on the landscape tree, which had been defeated by the cold winter, could not withstand the roar of the cold wind after all. They broke away from the branches, twirled in the air, and fell unwillingly. Suddenly, the solid wall standing in her heart collapsed, and she suddenly lost the strength to stand upright, and squatted on the ground less than five meters away from the door of the house, covering her face and crying silently.It wasn't until the cold wind dried the tears between her fingers, and the tears turned into dry and painful invisible marks on her face, that she slowly got up and walked to her car parked outside the garage.

The heater in the car was turned on to the maximum, but Yan Ruyi still couldn't help shivering a little. She sat in the driver's seat, looking at the gray road ahead illuminated by the headlights for a moment, her eyes aching but firm.

Xu Nuo's phone call came in, she parked the car on the side of the road, picked up the phone, the tears that had just stopped, when she saw Xu Nuo's name, she was wronged again, she bit her trembling lip, and her thumb pulp repeated again and again. He caressed the two words on the screen until the ringing stopped and he didn't answer it.

After half a minute, a text message came in.Yan Ruyi slid the screen away, looked at Xu Nuo and said that she accidentally read the translation for too long and forgot to contact her, so that she could have a good rest. She lowered her eyebrows and sobbed softly, put the phone back on the co-pilot, and wiped her face with her hand. Then he smiled at the gray road ahead and continued driving.

At eleven o'clock in the middle of the night, Yan Ruyi knocked on the door of Yu Zan's house.

Everything that happened today was not rehearsed in advance in my mind, it was obviously too hasty to come out again, Yan Ruyi didn't have enough mental preparation, and she didn't have time to tidy herself up afterwards so that she wouldn't look so embarrassed.The place where the face was scratched by the edge of the teacup had already formed a bruise, her hair disheveled by the night wind and the red eye sockets made her look even more pitiful, that bright and moving face was hurt, and because of those pair of sad eyes The broken eyes turned into a pitiful look, startled Yu Zan, who was still sleepy when he was awakened by the knock on the door just after falling asleep, and the drowsy sleepy bug was also awakened without a trace.

"What happened to you?"

Pulling Yan Ruyi into the room, Yu Zan arranged for her to sit in the living room, asked her what happened while walking to the bathroom, and came out with a basin of hot water in his hand.

A hot towel was applied to her face, and her dry tears finally relieved the tight skin. Yan Ruyi closed her eyes, felt the steaming heat on her face, and slowly relaxed her mind. She nestled in the corner of the sofa and did not speak. Tired, feeling sleepy, as if talking has become a particularly draining activity.

The towel on her face was taken away, and the vision in her slightly closed eyes became brighter. Yan Ruyi heard the sound of Yu Zan twisting the towel, and then heard her sigh softly. She lifted her body sunken into the sofa, Frowning, he glanced at Yu Zan who was squatting beside him, and before she got up and covered her face with a hot towel, she asked, "Is there any wine at home?"

After hearing what Yu Zan had said, he sighed again with a louder voice, threw the towel in his hand on Yan Ruyi's face, turned around and headed towards the restaurant.

The mellow red wine entered her throat, and Yan Ruyi finally regained her spirits. She twisted the stem of the goblet, shaking the bright red liquid in the glass, looking at her embarrassed shadow on the wall of the glass, grinning the corners of her lips.The bruises on her face pulled the muscles with pain as she laughed, and the smile froze on her face. She raised her left hand and gently touched the bruises with the reflection of the wine glass in her right hand. When she was touched in pain, she couldn't help letting out a low cry of pain, and her left fingertips also trembled. She raised her eyebrows and looked at Yu Zan, who was sitting by the side staring at her worryingly. Yan Ruyi sighed and asked:

"Azan, do you have any eggs at home? I have to get rid of them quickly, I should feel distressed when she sees them."

Yu Zan was helpless, got up and walked to the kitchen again: "What did you do?"

"Yin Pengfei brought his parents to my house and said he wanted to marry me."

"Damn, so exciting?" The stove turned on, and Yu Zan poked his head out of the kitchen to take a look at Yan Ruyi, then turned around and went in to cook eggs, the sound of running water from the faucet could not suppress her voice: "I I remember you told me two days ago that you broke up, so I went to the concert the day before."

"Yeah." Yan Ruyi took a sip of wine with low eyebrows, and Yan Ruyi smiled bitterly: "He disagrees."

"So he brought his parents directly to propose marriage?" After putting the eggs into the pot, Yu Zan walked back to the living room and sat down on the sofa while wiping the water off his hands.

"En." Yan Ru responded with a nod, her eyes fell on the wine glass in her hand, she was silent for a moment, she raised her head slightly, drank the red wine in the glass, then wiped the corners of her lips, looked sideways at Yu Zan, After a moment of silence, he said: "Since I realized that I was wrong at the beginning, shouldn't I be more thorough in refusing? What's wrong with this? Is it right to trick someone you don't love into marriage?" ?”

Yu Zan blinked, analyzing the meaning of Yan Ruyi's words, but did not speak.

Yan Ruyi glanced at her, his eyes darkened: "I can't fall in love with him. In the past few months, I really tried to change. I never refused him to hug me, never refused him to kiss me, I even promised to come back After realizing the pain in my heart, I deliberately tried to get close to him. When he received my call and came to the hotel to find me, I ran to him and told myself and everyone that he was my boyfriend. I knew exactly what it meant to take him back to my room, but I still didn't look back..."

Taking a deep breath, Yan Ruyi leaned over, picked up the red wine bottle on the coffee table, and poured herself a glass of wine. After she drank it down, she poured another glass, and then returned to the middle of the sofa with the bottom of the glass in her hands. Staring at himself in the cup, he laughed.

"I thought I was mentally prepared, we're adults, we can pay for our actions, but when he came out of the bathroom and I saw his naked chest, I suddenly felt sick. He used alcohol-smelling Kissing me, I didn't feel happy at all, I just felt pain, as if my heart was being torn apart, at that time, I suddenly understood why I resisted so much, Azan." Having said that, Yan Ruyi suddenly Stopping, she turned her head, looked at Yu Zan, and fell silent.

Yu Zan didn't speak, she frowned and stared at Yan Ruyi's face with worried expression.

Yan Ruyi was silent for a long time, as if she was thinking about what words to use to describe her mood, she indifferently drank the wine in her hand again but didn't speak for a long time.

Yu Zan took the wine bottle from her hand, poured her a glass himself, hesitated for a moment, shook his head and said to himself: "I have morning class tomorrow morning, alas, you woman." After speaking, he stood up He took the empty wine glass, poured himself a glass, bent down to clink the glasses with Yan Ruyi, and drank with her.

Yan Ruyi looked at her with a chuckle, reached out to touch the wine glass in Yu Zan's hand, and asked her with a side eyebrow:

"Azan, do you know what it's like to be raped?"

After listening to the words, Yu Zan sat up straight suddenly, looked at Yan Ruyi with a serious expression and asked in a calm voice: "He dares to force you?!"

Looking at her friend's expression, Yan Ruyi was a little relieved, but she couldn't help but shake her head, then nodded again:

"It doesn't count, after all, I knew this was going to happen from the beginning, and I invited him. But when he was on top of me, I felt his body change, and I suddenly felt like a piece of flesh that came back from the dead, A piece of meat lying on the cutting board waiting to be slaughtered suddenly came to life. I wanted to refuse. He touched me. There is only one thought in my mind, Azan, I feel that I am being fucked..."

Having said that, Yan Ruyi suddenly lost control of her emotions. She couldn't help her hand holding the wine glass trembling slightly. She covered her eyes with her left hand, and Yan Ruyi wept in a low voice:

"I think of her, of the promise, she is sleeping opposite, I don't know if she heard my voice, but my heart hurts..."

"..." Yu Zan frowned, pursed his lips tightly without saying a word, got up and moved to Yan Ruyi's side, hugged her in his arms and patted her on the back lightly.

"What exactly do you like about her? She doesn't understand anything, is naive and impulsive. What are you insisting on after all these years? If you really can't accept a man, then it's fine to change to a woman. Why should she be?"

Yan Ruyi shook her head, raised her hand to wipe her eyes, sat up straight, faced Yu Zan and said seriously:

"I like her without thinking about why. She acts childishly and impulsively regardless of the consequences, but liking her makes me feel as natural and easy as breathing."

"If you really want to say why," Yan Ruyi paused for a moment, closing her eyes slightly, and the face of promise appeared in her mind. She saw her smiling at herself, so she unconsciously raised the corners of her lips:

"Perhaps, it's because I like her eyes that can only pretend to be mine... they are clear and transparent, and they won't hide any emotions from me. Whether they are happy or not, they can't even pretend to be indifferent. But Azan, she Originally, he was a child with a cold personality that no one could see..."

Yu Zan stared at Yan Ruyi and talked about Xu Nuo's increasingly soft expression, and couldn't help pouring cold water on her: "It's true that no one can see, can you walk into someone's arms as soon as you turn around? Don't forget , when you were struggling in dire straits, she found comfort in another woman's arms."

Yan Ru's expression froze for a moment, and she was stunned for a moment, then said with pain in her heart: "Love is love, and you should not test it with a tempting mind. Besides, I left her first, and she was just forced to accept it at her age. The reality of being abandoned forever, what right do I have to blame her..."

When Yu Zan heard what he said, he didn't get angry, and drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, shaking his fingers, Yan Ru didn't swear a word for a long time, instead he suffocated himself to death.

"I think you are poisoned! There is no cure!"

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Yan Ruyi looked at Yu Zan's distraught look, got up and hugged her apologetically:

"Azan, I'm almost 30 years old, I know what I want, and I'm very glad that I'm halfway through my life, and I can be crazy about her again. I know you just love me, but love is love, there is no reason, besides , you also said that she is excellent, right?"

"..." The scar on Yan Ruyi's face made Yu Zan, who had grown up with her, heartbroken. Her firmness in Xu Nuo's relationship made her even more worried. She admitted that Xu Nuo was excellent. She is a human being, but when it comes to emotional matters, how does being good on the surface represent everything?

"I don't care about you." Yu Zan sighed, and let go of Yan Ruyi: "The egg is ready, I'll go pick it up and put it on your face."

After Yu Zan left, Yan Ruyi turned around and nestled on the sofa, looked sideways at the mobile phone beside her, thought for a while, and replied a text message to Xu Nuo, telling her to go to bed early.

The promised phone call came in a few seconds later, and Yan Ruyi answered it unexpectedly:

"Hey?"

"I thought you were asleep." Xu Nuo's voice came from the phone, sounding very energetic.

Yan Ruyi responded with a smile: "Well, I woke up suddenly, so I will send you a message."

"..." Hearing her voice, Xu Nuo was silent for two seconds and asked her, "Is something wrong?"

"Huh? No, why..."

"Hey, apply it carefully, it's hot."

Before Yan Ru could finish her sentence, Yu Zan came out of the kitchen, holding two peeled eggs in his hand, walking this way while talking.

Yan Ruyi didn't have time to cover the microphone, so she quickly silenced her, but Xu Nuo was still sensitive to the abnormal information.

"you are not at home?"

"... Well, coming to Yu Zan's place, I have something to do." Yan Ru said something simple as soon as he avoided the seriousness.

"What's the matter?" Xu Nuo didn't seem to intend to follow Yan Ruyi's intentions, and asked, "I heard your voice is wrong, what happened?"

"It's okay. I just drank some wine with her and accidentally touched my face. She cooked eggs for me to rub."

Yu Zan poked his waist and looked at Yan Ruyi's carefully lying appearance, a little annoyed, and muttered: "Is this how my good friend tricked you?"

This sentence was completely heard by Xu Nuo, and the phone fell silent, Yan Ruyi looked up at Yu Zan helplessly, heard Xu Nuo's dull breathing with emotion, and tried to continue to cover up: "It's nothing, don't worry. "

Hearing Yan Ruyi's words, Yu Zan became more and more angry, bent down and said loudly to the phone: "You plan to carry such a big matter by yourself? If you don't tell her now, when are you going to tell her? You My girlfriend came out again and was beaten by her father!"

"Azan!" Yan Ruyi got a little angry, she stood up and walked quickly to the balcony, closed the isolation door behind her, and tentatively said to Xu Nuo: "My parents know..."

Xu Nuo sneered on the phone: "I didn't hear wrong, Teacher Yu said your father beat you?"

"..." Yan Ruyi fell silent, not knowing how to answer this sentence.

"Where are you, I'll pick you up."

"It's too late now, can we talk about it tomorrow? I'm at Azan's house. It's nothing. I just bumped into it accidentally. There's no major problem."

"I'll pick you up now." Xu Nuo said in a calm voice, with a tone that could not be refused.

"it is too late now…"

"I have been late for seven years, and I was not there when you needed me for seven full years, and now I finally came back, and you were still there, but you still want me to wait?! Why do you want to make decisions for me?! Yan Ruyi, where are you, I want to see you now!"

Yan Ruyi was taken aback by what Xu Nuo almost yelled out, she grabbed the phone and thought for two seconds, with tears rolling in her eyes, but she smiled suddenly, and quickly reported Yu Zan's address, Then he turned around and opened the door and walked into the living room, grabbed his bag, told Yu Zan to go first, and went downstairs.

When Xu Nuo came out of the taxi, Yan Ruyi stood up from the side of the road, ran towards her without hesitation, and hugged her.

Xu Nuo looked at her face distressedly, then hugged her back with an angry force, and threatened with gritted teeth: "Yan Ruyi, you dare to refuse me again, I have been wrong for so many years, how dare you refuse me again?" try!"

"I love you." Facing Xu Nuo's frantic threat, Yan Ruyi Yanran hugged Xu Nuo, put her lips next to Xu Nuo's ear, and whispered again: "I love you, no matter what, Xu Nuo, this time, I want to be with you." You are together."