three feet away

When he came out of the test site, Xu Nuo couldn't tell whether his mood was good or bad.

Zhang Qing rushed out after she came out less than a minute later, with a bright expression on his face like a kindergarten student who had just received a little red flower from the teacher, compared with Xu Nuo's expressionless face, he looked much happier.

"Hey, how is it, how many points?"

Zhang Qing patted Xu Nuo on the shoulder from behind, took advantage of Xu Nuo's turning around, snatched the temporary report card from her hand, touched her chin, looked at her expression and said:

"What's the matter? This expression? Can't it be? Our class's top student didn't pass the exam?"

Xu Nuo glanced at Zhang Qing sideways, sighed deeply, and looked up at the bright sky, which was a bit dazzling.

Seeing that her expression was so gloomy, Zhang Qing couldn't figure out what she meant for a while, so she quickly lowered her head and carefully sorted out the report card in her hand, then stayed in place for two seconds, and then chased after her, baring her teeth and claws like an orangutan. Xu Nuo's forward figure ran over: "I'm leaning, leaning, promising that you're going to die, c1, it's only 10 points away from c2! What kind of expression do you have?"

"Hey, tell me, the two of us study together most of the time, right? You said you memorized vocabulary and practiced oral English, and I also practiced oral English. Why is there such a big difference? Tell me, how did you score the 4 points?"

Listening to Zhang Qing's noisy progress, Xu Nuo didn't say a word during the 5 minutes from downstairs to the gate of the test center.

The tcf score is the most basic and necessary item for applying for studying abroad. She had many opportunities to apply for the exam when she was a freshman and sophomore, but she never actually signed up for it once. Even the counselor was anxious for her for fear of accidents during the exam. Delaying her going abroad, she still calmly waited until the summer vacation to participate, not because she had much confidence in herself, but, it seemed that the decision that had been made since entering the university had become more and more serious in the past two years. The more weightless, leaving means a new start, but a new start means a break with the past.

In the past two years, she has never been flustered like this. The moment the results were displayed on the computer screen, she fell into an inexplicable fear. This time, she really wanted to leave.She wants to leave this land and go to a strange world where even the skin color is different from hers. She will go alone, but the future is unknown.

She was suddenly afraid of forgetting, afraid of forgetting the memories she dared not touch or pry into in the past two years. Is it true what the old man said that time will take away everything?Will she forget?Will you forget that face in memory, forget the warmth she once gave, forget the heartache she once gave?

"Hey, what are you thinking? I'm talking to you, with such a deep expression." Folding the report card in his hand, Zhang Qing bumped his arm and made a promise, and when she turned around, he put the report card into her hand.

Xu Nuo lowered his eyebrows, glanced at the report card in his hand, squeezed it into a small ball of paper, put it into the pocket of his jeans and pressed it tightly with his palm, then turned his head and smiled at Zhang Qing, saying, "I want to go back. "

"Let's go," Zhang Qing grabbed Xu Nuo's shoulders, and with a loud smile, he shook his report card and said, "I'm fine today, and my sisters have to go back to the dormitory. It wasn't before Have you made an appointment? Regardless, I’ll go out with Xiao Huang and the others to celebrate tonight. Besides, although I’m not as high as you, we’ve got a stepping stone.”

Xu Nuo stopped at the door, faced the passing vehicles, and said slowly:

"I mean, go back to school."

"It's back to school, otherwise where?"

Zhang Qingshun took Xu Nuo's words, and then she suddenly became hoarse after she finished speaking. She let go of Xu Nuo, stepped back half a step and looked at Xu Nuo with slightly squinted eyes. Seeing Xu Nuo's bewildered expression, she asked hesitantly:

"high school?"

Xu Nuo nodded, turned around and walked towards the bus stop opposite to going back to school.

"Are you sick, promise?"

Zhang Qing stared at her back, stunned for a long time before catching up, dragged Xu Nuo cursingly and walked back.

"Are you sick?"

"You just left, how did you ask me to tell Zhou Qingming at night?"

"Zhou Qingming?"

Letting Zhang Qing pull her to walk a few meters, Xu Nuo stopped after hearing Zhou Qingming's name, she looked at Zhang Qing's unnatural expression in surprise: "Did you date her?"

Zhang Qing was annoyed by his fast talk, and he rubbed the back of his head awkwardly and said irritably: "I have an appointment with Xiao Huang. No matter what the result of today's exam is, let's get together under this name. Zhou Qingming and her, in the past six months , have a bad time."

Xu Nuo narrowed his eyes, stared at Zhang Qing with cold eyes for a few seconds, then took a deep breath, and said calmly, "I broke up with her."

"Why are you so scumbag when I said promise? Do you know how indifferent your expression was when you just said that?" Zhang Qing folded his arms, his expression changed from his usual hippie smile to serious and serious.

Xu Nuo didn't speak, she poked Xu Nuo's shoulder with her finger angrily: "I don't know what you have experienced before, but I know a truth, don't tease if you can't afford it."

"Did you care about Zhou Qingming in the past six months? Do you know how she is doing? I went to the Conservatory of Music twice before the winter vacation. Do you know that she puts on heavy makeup every day just to cover up her fatigue? You know she doesn't even practice running. Going to the bar to sing? Promise, she is the promising seedling of the top piano teacher in the country, do you know what it means to her to go to the bar every day to get caught in the social atmosphere prematurely? She is destroying her little by little..."

Before Zhang Qing could finish speaking, Xu Nuo interrupted her. She closed her eyes and emphasized in a calm voice: "I said, I broke up with her."

"Then why the hell did you go to provoke others in the first place?!"

Zhang Qing was greatly stimulated by Xu Nuo's indifferent appearance. It was hard for her to imagine that her friends who lived in the same dormitory and were almost inseparable every day were so indifferent. She always knew that Xu Nuo was cold-tempered, but she didn't know that She greeted the world with a polite smile and a cold heart.It's like, no matter what the girl who used to come to the dormitory happily turned into, it has nothing to do with her, but it's clear that everything is caused by her, and she can't believe that the promise can be broken up, no matter what Whether Zhou Qingming agrees or not, she can turn a blind eye to him for a full eight months.

Being poked by Zhang Qing's shoulder and taking two steps back, Xu Nuo smiled coldly. Looking at Zhang Qing's distraught face, she suddenly raised her lips and smiled indifferently: "Then, please, I will help you when I see her today. I'll say something to her, I'm sorry. Then, by the way, tell her that I'm a scum, and I'm not good enough for her. Let her stop delaying herself, find another home quickly, and stop torturing herself, for the sake of scum, no worth."

"Damn it! I promised you why you won't let in oil and salt, you! You go with me and tell them well, even if we break up, tell them well, there is no need to do it, they are so pitiful." Zhang Qing was anxious, and was about to drag him when he came up. Follow the promise.

Xu Nuo threw her away and sneered: "Are you surprised? Surprised that I am such a cold-blooded person?"

"You..." Xu Nuo's sneering expression made Zhang Qing feel unfamiliar like never before. Pulling Xu Nuo stopped in mid-air, and she stared blankly at Xu Nuo's face with a blank expression.

After clapping his hands, Xu Nuo lowered his head and tugged at the corner of his shirt, then looked up at Zhang Qing's surprised expression, and smiled coldly with the corners of his lips: "What you see is just one tenth of one percent of my hateful That's all."

"Exactly. Aren't you going to meet your girlfriend today? During the party, don't forget to ask Zhou Qingming what kind of garbage promises are."

"I never told you what a good person I am, and I don't want to hide my bad roots anymore. I have always been an existence that was spurned by others. Have you ever seen the promise to kill your own brother? Have you seen the same as your parents? Did you promise not to call? Have you ever seen a school full of bloody storms that force your teacher to fall in love with you? Have you ever seen a promise that you have not let go of your predecessors? But stretch out your hand to pull the promise of the person? You don’t, you don’t know anything, you haven’t seen anything, you only see her who lives under the mask and looks like a dog every day. But is that her? It’s not. "

"Do you think you are surrounded by people with great talent and learning? You are wrong, at least their hearts, not necessarily, are red."

After finishing speaking, Xu Nuo pursed his lips and looked at Zhang Qing's wide-eyed eyes with an expression of not being able to believe what he had heard. He raised his eyebrows indifferently, leaned forward, and stood within [-] centimeters from Zhang Qing's face. The place stared at her and said word by word: "You'd better stay away from the garbage."

After Zhang Qing left, Xu Nuo didn't go back to school or her hometown. She walked along the road alone for ten hours, from noon to dark.

She didn't know where she had gone, she felt her heart hurt, she never knew that one day when those words came out of her mouth, she would feel so distressed, she reminded herself countless times that what she said was the truth, But she didn't know those facts, which would make her heartache so much.The pain made his hands tremble unconsciously.

Putting her hands in her trouser pockets, she walked around the main road into the alley, then from the alley to another main road, just walking aimlessly one way after another.

She waited earnestly for the traffic lights at every intersection, followed the flow of people across the road when the car stopped, and stopped at the next intersection.Like everyone on the street, she walked among the crowd with a blank face. She followed the people around her to speed up or slow down her walking speed. It's just that those who were rushing had a purpose, and those who were waiting for someone to meet them, she didn't. .

Until close to eight o'clock, she stopped at the bank of an unknown river in the city center after going around the city for many times or overlapping circles. People are dancing in the square, some are eating and singing in the open-air tavern next to it, some are laughing, some are making trouble.

She walked along the river bank, and finally stopped in front of a barbecue restaurant, and asked the boss for two small dishes and a dozen beers.

The river wind was blowing, and she drank bottle after bottle of cold beer. When she started to feel dizzy, she got up rationally and paid the bill. The promenade crowd walks forward.

Probably because she was drunk, she felt her head became a little heavy, and the colorful street lights in front of her eyes became bright and sometimes dim.The cold wind was blowing on her face and lifted the corners of her shirt. She suddenly remembered that her report card was still in her jeans pocket, so she stumbled forward two steps, stood where she could not block passers-by, and took the report card. She took out the report card that had been crumpled into a ball and straightened it with difficulty with hands shaking from drinking. He wanted to see the results on it, but the streetlight above his head suddenly flickered quickly and went dark.

She raised her head, looked at the color slowly fading in the lampshade, hiccupped, looked around, and found an exit from the river road less than three meters away from where she was standing. At the exit, she Lifting her feet, she walked over with one step at a time, and walked under the streetlight less than ten meters to the right of the intersection. She opened the report card again, looked at the Roman numerals on it, and bent her lips.

When her thumb touched the three numbers, she suddenly felt that the words in front of her were blurred. A drop of clear liquid fell on the paper, and she quickly wiped it off with her hands. Then, the second drop, the third drop, When she realized that the water could no longer be wiped clean, she sat on the flower bed behind her for the first time without any image, squeezed the report card tightly, raised her head and cried loudly.

Passers-by looked at her with strange eyes, and then left quickly, she didn't care, she just wanted to cry happily, to cry away all the suppressed feelings in her heart, because until the moment the tears flowed down, she didn't care. Only then did she realize that she had been walking for ten hours and her heart ached for ten hours, but she just wanted to find a place where no one knew her, and cry wantonly, and why she cried seemed not so important...