three feet away

Xu Nuo's rhetorical question pushed the conflict with Zhang Qiming to a tense situation. Standing between the two, Zhu Yuan still pulled Zhang Qiming to stop talking in front of the peacemaker?

Zhang Qiming knew that he was in the wrong, so he didn't say anything more, turned around and left sullenly.

"Hey, what are you in a hurry for?" Seeing him angry, Zhu Yuan chased after him, and before leaving, he said to Xu Nuo, "He booked a private room at the hotel where the graduation party was held, and you can just come over in a while." With a wink, he signaled her to persuade her to promise.

Standing beside Xu Nuo, Xiao Jing saw Zhu Yuan's hints clearly but did not express her opinion. After Zhu Yuan left, she followed Xu Nuo and Zhou Qingming without saying a word.

The three of them walked forward side by side, but no one spoke in a strange tacit agreement, and the atmosphere became more awkward than the beginning.

Promises don't matter, she has never talked much, even after going to college and trying to integrate herself into the social life around her, she is still a quiet existence.And Zhou Qingming has long been used to the way of getting along with her. Although she knew that she would definitely feel uncomfortable because of Zhang Qiming's words just now, but if she didn't speak, she habitually refused to ask.On the other hand, Xiao Jing, when she was studying, things should have passed by with the time after graduation, but when she saw Xu Nuo again, she still couldn't treat her like an ordinary person. After Yuan and Zhang Qiming left, she was a little nervous. She remembered what Xu Nuo said to her on the day of graduation. She didn't know what kind of image she was now in Xu Nuo's eyes.

Sensing Xiao Jing's unnaturalness, Zhou Qingming took Xu Nuo's hand and motioned her to take a look at Xiao Jing.Xu Nuo turned his head obediently, and his eyes collided with Xiao Jing again. This time, Xiao Jing's eyes dodged a little.She turned her head, smiled slightly at Zhou Qingming, and after thinking for a moment, she slowly opened her mouth and asked:

"When did you and Zhu Yuan get together?"

"...About two months ago."

Xu Nuo nodded clearly, and replied lightly: "Oh, that's good. He has liked you since his sophomore year in high school. After all, he has a heart."

"Well, he's been nice to me."

"That's good."

The topic was cut off again, and the three of them fell into silence again, and walked out of the school with their own concerns.

Zhu Yuan and Zhang Qiming were waiting for them standing on the street 50 meters away, Xu Nuo glanced there from a distance, hesitant, a few days ago when Zhang Qiming called her and asked if she was going to attend the class reunion She was in class here, but she didn't say anything at the time. Xu Nuo didn't expect that he would bring two old classmates over to see her without notifying him in advance. He probably wanted to get together, but he didn't expect it. When they meet each other, they will feel tense.

Xu Nuo is not unwilling to meet them, and she is not really a cold-blooded person. She always remembers Zhang Qiming and Zhu Yuan's care for her, but now everyone is going to university as an adult, without the rules and constraints of high school students, Zhang Qiming looked at her with eyes that became more naked and hot. She suddenly felt that she was not emotionally intelligent enough to properly handle the relationship between the two of them. In addition to what he said just now, Xu Nuo couldn't understand today's dinner. Lost interest.If the result of the meeting is to make the already cracked relationship between classmates even more embarrassing, then it's okay not to get together.

Putting his coat together, Xu Nuo let out a breath, turned to Xiao Jing and said, "I still won't go, let's get together."

"Don't." As soon as Xu Xu was about to leave, Xiao Jing became anxious, and no matter what the embarrassment was, she grabbed Xu Nuo's arm as soon as she raised her hand.

"Everyone is a classmate, Zhu Yuan and you have been at the same table for two years, can't we have a meal together? We are going back to school tomorrow, and the chances of seeing each other will become less and less..."

Xu Nuo stood on the spot, looked down at his arm being held by Xiao Jing, and remained silent.

Seeing that she was unmoved, Xiao Jing changed her target to Zhou Qingming, looked at her with pleading eyes, and wanted to ask her to help persuade her to promise.

Zhou Qingming looked at her in embarrassment, and then at the promise. On the one hand, she thought that there was some unhappiness just now, and it would be good for everyone to have a meal together to ease the atmosphere, but on the other hand, she was unwilling to force the promise. From the looks of it, she deliberately came to find her, and if she didn't go, it seemed that she couldn't justify it.So she tried to say to Xu Nuo: "Or, just go. It just so happens that I don't have to cook tonight. Just treat it as an invitation to dinner and reward you for your hard work..." After finishing speaking, seeing that Xu Nuo didn't respond much, He shook Xu Nuo's hand again, pouted and said coquettishly:

"Are you okay~"

Xu Nuo frowned slightly, and looked down at Zhou Qingming's face. The childlike expression of pleading and longing on that face made her a little dazed for a while.

In fact, since the day Yan Ruyi appeared years ago, she has rarely seen such a weird smile on Zhou Qingming's face. The former lively girl seemed to have died overnight. She couldn't remember. What exactly did Taiqing say when she had a fever that night? She only vaguely remembered that person's heartache and desperate cries. She knew that she had hurt Zhou Qingming severely. But after dawn, everything became normal again, Zhou Qingming was still gentle, would still smile at her, and still take care of her meticulously until her body recovered.It's just that Que always makes Xu Nuo feel that there are some subtle changes between them, but she can't tell what has changed for a while.

It wasn't until seeing the expectation on Zhou Simin's face that Xu Nuo suddenly woke up like a dream. Zhou Qingming's change was that she silently restrained her truest feelings for herself. The movements of coming up to hug oneself, and occasionally kissing, are just a taste, and most of the time, it happens in the middle of the night when I am half asleep and half awake.

Silently looking into Zhou Qingming's eyes, Xu Nuo felt sorry for her cruelty to herself and hated her bastard behavior. She remembered her bright eyes when she said in the classroom that she would take her to see her classmates and when she tentatively asked herself With an expectant expression, she suddenly felt terribly like an executioner. It took her less than a year to kill Zhou Qingming's pure and pure first love.

And this first love, at the beginning, was actually forced into her arms by myself, making her accept herself without knowing anything, and then love herself wholeheartedly. Hide her so strong love...

For a moment, Xu Nuo's heart ached as if she was about to suffocate. She pursed her trembling lips, unconsciously squeezed Zhou Qingming's hand, took a deep breath, and raised a brilliant smile towards Zhou Qingming. Smile: "Then go, just in time, and get to know them."

Xu Nuo's sudden change of attitude made Zhou Qingming unable to accept it for a while. She froze for a moment, and then grinned, her expression became much more relaxed, and she took Xu Nuo's hand and shook it slightly.

Xiao Jing followed behind them slowly, looked at the backs of the two of them side by side, looked sadly at the sky, and followed.

During the meal, the atmosphere in the private room was still not very good, but compared to what it was at school, it has eased a lot.

Zhang Qiming wanted to get drunk, so he took Zhu Yuan to drink a lot.After drinking for three rounds, the two of them talked more, and the atmosphere became more active.

Zhu Yuan drank a little too much, took Xiao Jing's hand and proudly showed off to Xu Nuo, holding the bottle and poured a glass of beer for Xu Nuo, asking Xu Nuo to bless him, Xu Nuo picked up the wine glass with a smile and got up to clink glasses with him, Then he turned his head to look at Xiao Jing, bent down to signal her to raise his glass, then lightly clinked glasses with her, and said in a teasing tone: "You are quite fast, I am afraid that Xiao Jing is too cute and will be snatched away as soon as she goes to college." ?”

"That's not true." Zhu Yuan squinted his eyes, pointed at the wine glass, and spoke with a bit of tongue: "In order to be worthy of him, my brother is cruel, how about it, look, he is much more handsome than before, isn't he? ?" As he said, he turned around the table for Xu Nuo and Zhou Qingming to see.

"In order not to embarrass her, my brother just lost [-] catties in two months. Don't tell me, I have been fat since I was a child. I have never seen myself lose weight. When I lost weight suddenly, I realized that it turned out that Brother, I am not bad looking. There is a saying, oh, fat people, they are all potential stocks! That's right!"

Zhu Yuan was a little over the top, swaying triumphantly with his feet a little vain, Xiao Jing got up to support him, and at the same time made him less embarrassed, and she followed him only after a moment of lard.

Zhu Yuan was not angry either, he just smiled, hugged Xiao Jing's neck and kissed her on the face, grinning so dissatisfied: "It's not embarrassing to find the girl you love to be your girlfriend, it's okay What? But then again..."

Squinting his eyes, pointing at Xu Nuo and turning his tongue, he thought for a few seconds before Zhu Yuancai went on to say:

"I said it in the high school group, just at that moment. When she just agreed to me, you didn't respond. You really went to a good school. You have to put aside your buddies. It's a relationship..."

"No." Xu Nuo shook his head and smiled wryly: "I just rarely pay attention to group news."

"Oh, that's right." Zhu Yuan stroked his tongue and continued, "No wonder, you didn't like to take care of that person in the first place. Back then, back then, those bastards spoke really badly."

"Okay, don't talk about it." Xiao Jing saw that Zhu Yuan was driving which pot he wanted and which pot he wanted, and pulled him back to his seat, and put vegetables in his bowl to tell him not to talk.

Zhu Yuan smiled and said thank you daughter-in-law, picked up the chopsticks and ate without saying a word.

Xu Nuo looked at him with a smile, then looked at Xiao Jing, poured himself another glass of wine, and toasted Xiao Jing: "I hope you are happy."

Xiao Jing stared at the wine in her hand for a long time, and finally said slowly: "Thank you."

After the meal, several people got up and prepared to leave separately. Xu Nuo asked about Zhu Yuan's situation. Xiao Jing shook her hand and said it was okay, and called a taxi to take him away.

Zhang Qiming stood by the side of the road, silently watching Xu Nuo send Xiao Jing and Zhu Yuan to the car, and when she looked back at him, he said to her, "Let's have a chat."

Xu Nuo glanced sideways at Zhou Qingming, Zhou Qingming smiled at her, pointed to the light and shadow under the street lamp and said, "I'll wait for you here, don't worry."

Xu Nuo nodded, turned around and followed Zhang Qiming to the side, Zhang Qiming lit a cigarette and put it in his mouth, then handed over the cigarette case to Xu Nuo in a mysterious manner.

Xu Nuo looked at him in surprise, but he just smiled, tore off his jeans, bent over and squatted beside the flower table by the roadside, with a lonely expression: "I know you can smoke."

Without asking how he found out that he could smoke, Xu Nuo shook his head.

"I'm a bit irritable this afternoon, sorry."

"It's okay, I have a bad attitude." After squatting beside Zhang Qiming, Xu Nuo smiled, tilted her head and glanced in Zhou Qingming's direction. She was standing under the street lamp, stepping on her own shadow with her head down. The movement of jumping and jumping showed her mood at the moment.

Zhang Qiming followed her gaze, took a deep breath on the cigarette holder, and then spit out the white smoke.

Xu Nuo stared at the scarlet light spot on his finger, and asked, "Learned by the university?"

"What?" Zhang Qiming looked at her, and after realizing what she asked, he smiled self-deprecatingly: "Senior year."

After the conversation, the two of them had a tacit understanding and neither of them spoke anymore, just squatting on the ground, staring at the passing cars with the cold wind blowing.

After burning a cigarette, Zhang Qiming threw the cigarette butt on the ground, staring at the red light slowly dimming, suddenly heaved a long sigh, and said sadly: "Is it really impossible?"

"what?"

"I heard that homosexuality cannot be changed, is it true?"

"..."

Xu Nuo didn't answer for a long time, Zhang Qiming lit another cigarette and sighed sadly: "Xu Nuo, we have known each other for 7 years."

"Ah."

"I don't know if I should regret it, but regret it. Where should I start. Maybe I shouldn't follow you here, maybe I shouldn't hit someone so impulsively, maybe I should confess my love early, or maybe, I I really shouldn't know you..."

Taking a breath, Zhang Qiming raised his head, Xu Nuo saw his shadow under the street lamp raised his hand, and quickly swayed past his eyes.

"Seven years, I'm sure that will be the most unforgettable seven years in my life. I promise, once today is over, I will never miss you again. From now on, you, be well."

Xu Nuo turned her head and stared at Zhang Qiming's face with some surprise. She never expected that one day Zhang Qiming would tell her goodbye to the past in such a straightforward way.She thought that no one would mention it at most, and then let time seal it up. Even a few hours ago, she was still worried about his hot eyes.

It's just that the faint light in the corners of Zhang Qiming's eyes under the street lamp made her sure that it wasn't drunk talk.

"I lacked a lot of information, and all the endings I got disappointed me, but even so, I still held hope. Before today, I still fantasized that one day you would become my girlfriend, but you asked me The disgusting look in my eyes made me suddenly sober when it was none of my business, the difference between me and you is not that I don’t love you enough, but the gender that I was doomed to fail from birth.”

Speaking of this, Zhang Qiming suddenly laughed out loud. He stood up and looked down at Xu Nuo: "My brother's family has been passed down for three generations, so I can't just change my gender... Do you think so? So Xu Xu, you, be well."

Xu Nuo looked up at Zhang Qiming's face, feeling sad.

Folding up his coat, Zhang Qiming put the lighter in his trouser pocket, took out his cell phone, and quickly pressed a few times, a text message reminded him of the promised call.She took out her phone, opened the message, and when the MMS picture was loading, Zhang Qiming stomped his feet, rubbed his hands and said, "A classmate sent a picture at the party before. I thought you might want it, so I saved it."

After Xu Nuo listened, he lowered his head and looked at the phone again. When the screen was turned on, a photo of Yan Ruyi jumped into his eyes, and the shadow in the dream was so clearly imprinted in his mind. Xu Nuo looked at the screen blankly. She is wearing a white down jacket, blue jeans, and flat snow boots. Her expression is the surprise and slightly angry look when she found out that she was secretly photographed... In the past two years, her hair has grown a lot, but The appearance has not changed at all, it is still the same, people will fall into it at a glance...

But, can it really fall?

She pressed the delete button with her finger, and when the screen reminded whether she was sure to delete it, she hesitated.

Standing beside her, Zhang Qiming sighed: "It's cold, go back, I'm leaving."

Xu Nuo raised his head and watched Zhang Qiming stop the car and leave nonchalantly. When he lowered his head again, the screen was already black.

"go home."

Zhou Qingming's voice reached his ears, Xu Nuo looked up and looked at Zhou Qingming's face, she was standing against the light under the street lamp, smiling softly.

Holding the phone back into his pocket, Xu Nuo stood up, bent his lips, and replied softly with a smile: "Okay."