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In the winter of 2008, the school moved to a new campus, and the promised classroom was on the first floor. During another exam, she chose the position at the back of the classroom near the inner corridor without hesitation. Old Wang saw her walking straight back Go, now the corners of her lips twitched fiercely on the podium, and after several hesitations to speak, she let her go.

Zhu Yuan returned to the original position, sitting on Xu Nuo's left, and the two of them had no unnecessary communication. In fact, Xu Nuo seldom talked to anyone since the beginning of September.

The farce in the old classroom at the end of last semester ended with Zhang Qiming transferring to the third year of high school and Yan Ruyi being arranged to be a teaching assistant.

After Zhang Qiming left, Zhu Yuan was depressed for a long time. Xu Nuo once heard that he was a little irritable in the eccentric chats of his classmates before going to bed in the dormitory. Later, the person who was beaten didn't come to school for many days. When he heard the news, Xu Nuo suddenly couldn't remember the boy's name, as if everything had passed for many years.

After Yan Ruyi left, she felt as if her memory had suddenly declined a lot. She tried to find some clues in every corner of the school to prove that Yan Ruyi had not abandoned her, but she had to choose to believe that Yan Ruyi had been disappointed again and again. Ruyi really left, except for the wish she said on Tiantai Mountain, she didn't even leave a word for herself.

Everyone said that she went to support teaching, but no one knew where she went to support teaching. It was probably because the relationship between students and teachers made the school feel ashamed. This matter was handled in an extremely low-key manner, and Yan Ruyi went to support teaching. Whether the rumors are true or not, no one really cares except the promise.

After a long time, no one gossips about it anymore, and Xu Nuo has been hidden among the crowd again.She said nothing to anyone, not a word.It was as if nothing had happened, she had never known Zhang Qiming, nor had she known Yan Ruyi, and everything in the past was just a dream she had lying on the desk during lunch break, when the bell rang during the class, she woke up from the dream Waking up with a start, although she was nostalgic for the happiness in the dream, she was even more resistant to the pain of loss, so she withdrew without hesitation, walked out of the broken dream, and threw herself into the endless ocean in the book.

No one said that she was a dark horse anymore, because everyone was used to her excellence, and no one said that she was withdrawn and cold, because Yan Ruyi and Zhang Qiming left one after another, she lived in adolescence for a long time. In the strange eyes of boys and girls, she doesn't need to avoid anyone, because she is already in the isolated area, and no one communicates with her except the teacher and Xiao Jing Zhu Yuan who are counting on her to go to college.

Like a flower that blooms too early in the garden, the surrounding flowers are just a grass, Xu Nuo is already swaying petals and stands alone in it, no matter her appearance or grades, she is envied by others, and her temperament is getting colder and colder , and was even more criticized.She doesn't care what others think of her, she doesn't even bother to look up at those people.If everything in the past is like a dream, the existence of those rumors seems to remind her that everything is true. She was once held in the palm of a person, and later, that person smashed it to pieces A heart dedicated to her completely, such pain, once recalled, it hurts once, and if it is forgotten, it will be fine.

In the flower bed at the bottom of the corridor outside the classroom, many osmanthus flowers trimmed into mushroom shapes were planted. The smell was fragrant. Xu Nuo finished his mock test paper for the college entrance examination. He put down his pen, rubbed his fingers that were a little stiff from holding the pen for a long time, and looked sideways. Looking out of the window through the transparent glass, the classrooms of the third graders in the opposite teaching building were on, and it was almost nine o'clock in the evening. The students in the lower grades had already returned to the dormitory. The playground was pitch-black, except for the occasional whispers in the classroom, only the sound of the wind outside the window. The leaves of the sweet-scented osmanthus trees in the corridor trembled in the cold wind.

Lao Wang walked over from the direction of the third group office in a soft voice, and stood silently at the back door of the classroom, looking at Xu Nuo who had wandered off to nowhere, frowned and knocked on the glass window in front of her, the crisp voice stimulated her Most of the students in the classroom who were just pretending to study looked up to this side. Xu Nuo came back to his senses and looked up at Old Wang. , eyes a little dull.

Lao Wang pointed to the back door of the classroom behind her to signal her to go out. She obediently stood up and walked to the door. The cold wind blowing from the convective direction of the corridor on the right bulged her down jacket, and the cold air brought her out of the classroom instantly. The turbid but warm breath was taken away, she couldn't help shivering, and she woke up.

"Promise, look at the numbers at the back of the classroom."

Before Xu Nuo walked in front of him, Pharaoh had already started his lectures. From September to now, Xu Nuo entered the office at least once a week and was forced to have a heart-to-heart talk with Pharaoh.The content goes around and around, but it is all for the college entrance examination, promise to understand Lao Wang's good intentions, but she is even more disgusted with Lao Wang's self-righteousness.

Among Lao Wang’s heart-to-heart talks, the topic of parents is indispensable in each issue. Xu Nuo doesn’t understand why teachers like to make a fuss about the hard work of students’ parents. Let them study hard, it may work for others, but for promise, it is simply a kind of spiritual torture.

Xu Nuo followed Lao Wang's words and looked back at the blackboard newspaper at the back of the classroom, looked at the numbers written on the large open space in the middle, and said nothing.

"It's less than two hundred days away, promise, the teacher knows that you are a good seedling, as long as you are willing, the notice of a good school is as easy as you can get, but the teacher is afraid that you will not learn."

Lao Wang pointed to the blackboard, rubbed his palms anxiously when he withdrew his hand, seeing that Xu Nuo didn't respond much, he took out his mobile phone and gesticulated in front of Xu Nuo for her to see: "Look, look, your mother just returned You are calling me to ask about your recent situation, promise, you said that your family is so concerned about your study and your life, why do you..."

In the sight of Laowang's mobile phone screen, Xu's mother's remarks were a bit eye-catching. Xu Nuo heard that Lao Wang was about to start another round of family affection offensive, and felt extremely depressed. She didn't do anything, she was just doing it for a long time He glanced out the window when he was a little tired, how did this escalate to the level of disobedience?Is learning only if you throw yourself in the sea of ​​test papers day and night?She couldn't suppress her irritability, she stared at Old Wang with a gloomy expression and asked, "That's all?"

"Just..." This is the first time I was looked at by Xu Nuo with such an expression. I don't know if it was hard to believe for a while. Although Xu Nuo is not yet 20 years old, and she often just looks at everything with an indifferent expression, suddenly she has such a gloomy face. , but it gave people a sense of unreasonable oppression, as if she was the teacher, and the aura was inexplicably drilled out. Lao Wang was stunned for a moment, looked at Xu Nuo, adjusted his expression, and continued: "It's not easy for your parents to raise you up. If you study hard, it's also a kind of reward for them. The teacher gives good news to your parents. For them, working hard is also motivating."

Xu Nuo sneered in her heart, and she glanced sideways at the osmanthus tree beside her: "I know Teacher Wang."

Lao Wang thought she had listened to his earnest persuasion, and talked to her for a long time, until his mouth was dry, then he waved his hand to signal her to enter the classroom.

Xu Nuo turned around, walked two steps forward to the door, then turned around again, looked at the figure of Old Wang who was about to lean against the glass window of the classroom, and asked what she had always wanted to ask but never asked: "Teacher Wang , Teacher Yan, where did you go to support teaching, do you know?"

Old Wang stopped walking forward, and the originally peaceful expression on his side face became a little stiff. In the past few months, he had observed it, and promised that he had never asked anyone for news about Yan Ruyi. He and everyone The teacher in charge of the class thought that the child had forgotten those things, but they did not expect that one day she would dare to ask herself such lightly, and it was precisely because she never imagined that she would have the courage to ask herself honestly, so when she When Xu Nuo asked, Pharaoh was more or less panicked.

But as a teacher, he couldn't lose his sense of proportion in front of the students twice in just a few minutes, so he lowered his face, looked sideways at Xu Nuo, and under the thick lenses, the other students in the class were daunted by his eyes. Light.

Xu Nuo looked into his eyes calmly, did not speak, but did not show a timid or unreasonable expression, she just looked at him, calmly waiting for the answer.

She knew she shouldn't ask, this was nothing more than offending Lao Wang, all the teachers pretended that Yan Ruyi never existed, and even she was desperately trying to bury her, but there is only one consequence of self-deception, that is, Deeper and deeper.

She had to know where Yan Ruyi was, and she had to find her and ask her why she said she would grow up quickly and be obedient, but she even deprived herself of the right to know, so she left it like that?Is this the responsibility of a people's teacher?She has grown tall enough, even if she can't protect her from the wind and rain, she firmly believes that she can face it with her, but Yan Ruyi doesn't believe her, she doesn't believe in her firmness, nor does she believe in the tenacity of this relationship , she still treats herself as a child from the beginning to the end, even if, even...she has given herself the baptism of an adult...

Lao Wang looked at Xu Nuo with a cold face for a few seconds, and saw her calm expression in his eyes: "That's not what you should think about, let alone what you should ask."

Xu Nuo looked into Pharaoh's eyes without blinking, "I have the right to know."

Old Wang was a little surprised by her calm manner, her calmness did not match her age at all, but she was a student after all, she hadn't taken the college entrance examination yet, and his identity was to guide her to her future. Go in the direction you should go.

"What rights do you have? You are just a student, promise, what a student should do, you..."

Xu Nuo didn't want to listen to Lao Wang talking about students and teachers anymore, she quickly interrupted Lao Wang's words, and said calmly: "She is my girlfriend, the kind of boyfriend and girlfriend, girlfriend, I have more rights than any of you know she's going to..."

"Shut up for me!"

Old Wang was irritated by the promise, and he angrily stopped the promise.

Everyone in the classroom, including the Chinese teacher on duty, also turned their heads and looked out the window. Pharaoh pointed and promised angrily: "What do you know? You are a student. School is not a place for you to fall in love, let alone teach you to be gay. place! Get in there!"

Xu Nuo stared at Lao Wang's extremely red eyes and remained motionless.She thought it was ridiculous, the matter between Yan Ruyi and her had happened for so long, it was the first time she heard a teacher's voice about this matter, but she didn't expect that she and Yan Ruyi were so embarrassing in their eyes.

"What's wrong?" Blinking her eyes, Xu Nuo couldn't help but feel a little sore in the corners of her eyes. From this, she could imagine what Yan Ruyi had to face at the beginning. She is a student, and the school needs to tolerate her both emotionally and rationally, but Yan Ruyi It's her teacher, no one knows what she endured...

She was heartbroken for what Yan Ruyi might have encountered in the past, but she hated it, hated that Yan Ruyi didn't tell her anything...

She roared angrily at Old Wang, "Who did I influence? Tell me, who did we influence?!"

"you…"

Lao Wang wanted to say something, but was stopped by the Chinese teacher who rushed out of the classroom: "Mr. Wang, Mr. Wang, calm down, she is still young and not sensible..."

"Promise, hurry up and apologize to Mr. Wang, and go in for self-study."

Still young and ignorant, Xu Nuo looked at the face of the Chinese teacher, feeling relieved, yes, in the eyes of everyone, he is still a child, a child, who can stand up to the sky... Yan Ruyi back then , must also think so, right?

Raising his hand to wipe his eyes, Xu Nuo turned around silently, returned to the classroom, sat down silently, and did not speak again.