three feet away

Under Xu Nuo's deliberate avoidance, she and Yan Ruyi really retreated to the strangest position.

As time passed day by day, Xu Nuo seemed to be used to never going to the balcony, never waiting, and never thinking about her again.

She didn't even want to hear any news about Yan Ruyi.After confirming that Yan Ruyi set her invisible on the weekend, she returned the phone to Mother Xu, and when Mother Xu asked her in astonishment if something happened, she smiled and said, "Anyway, I also No need."

Yes, there is no need, no need to contact anyone and no one, parents, teachers, Yan Ruyi,... Maybe, she is the transparent one, good for everyone.

On the eve of New Year's Day, Zhang Qiming and Zhu Yuan organized a hip-hop dance with a few boys who were willing to perform, and planned to perform on New Year's Day. Before going to rehearse every day, he likes to hold Xu Nuo together and ask Xu Nuo to give him some advice.In fact, Xu Nuo never said anything, but after the quarrel with Yan Ruyi, she began to hate being alone, and the quiet environment would make longing grow wildly.So Zhang Qiming said, most of the time, she would go with her.

Promised to appear more often, a few boys who don't know the situation will look at her and Zhang Qiming with ambiguous eyes, and occasionally try to make fun of Zhang Qiming with her, and at that time, she will sit by the flower bed and watch a group of laughing The big boy reluctantly curled his lips, she didn't know what to explain, even, at that time, she hoped that the news that she was really with Zhang Qiming could be spread like this, that kind of hope that Yan Ruyi heard about it from other places Little emotions about her, and expecting her to respond to it, grew inside her day by day.She knew that what she did was disgusting. While rejecting Zhang Qiming in private, she also got along with him in public. This kind of contradiction, she couldn't resolve. On the one hand, she didn't want to hurt Zhang Qiming, but on the other hand, she was more I look forward to Yan Ruyi's reaction when she finds out about her relationship with Zhang Qiming one day.

Zhang Qiming understood everything, but never said anything. Whenever he was surrounded by his classmates, he would look at Xu Nuo first. Seeing that she didn't explain, he laughed and touched the back of his head and said, please drink water today. .

The news that Xu Nuo and Zhang Qiming are in a relationship quickly spread wildly among the grades. One is a dark horse student who has just started, and the other is a little rich second generation with good looks, good temper, good family background and affluent. The story of the two, Passing back and forth has become as colorful as idol novels.

Until one day during the lunch break, Xu Nuo was invited into the office by Lao Wang.

The content of the conversation was very simple. Pharaoh straight to the point explained his expectations for the promise clearly, hoping that she would consider for herself and her parents.Don't fall in love early, and advise Zhang Qiming to take back his mind and study hard.

Xu Nuo stood motionless in front of Lao Wang's desk. When Lao Wang raised his head to look at her, she saw that under Lao Wang's thick glasses that looked like the bottom of a beer bottle, the sockets of his eyes were sunken deeply, looking a bit hideous.

It was the end of December, and the camphor tree outside the window had already withered and withered. When the wind blew up, a yellow leaf floated in from the window and landed on Lao Wang’s desk. Xu Nuo lowered his head and looked at the area. On the leaves with clear meridians, she didn't say a word. When the camphor tree was still green, she knew Yan Ruyi. When the veins withered, she and Yan Ruyi were strangers.

Pharaoh read brokenly for about 10 minutes. Seeing that Xu Nuo still didn't say anything, he just lowered his head and didn't know what he was thinking. He sighed helplessly and said faintly: "Xu Nuo, you are not young anymore, and the teacher will not be too old." Say more, think about it carefully." After finishing speaking, he signaled her to go out.

Xu Nuo walked out of the office silently. Just as she walked outside the classroom, she heard Zhang Qiming calling her. She turned her head and saw Zhang Qiming leaning over there waiting for her at the corner of the stairs. Seeing her turn around, Zhang Qiming grinned Take a look: "What did Lao Wang tell you?"

"It's nothing." Xu Nuo went down the stairs, and the lunch break was over in a few minutes, and she wanted to go to the toilet.

"Really?" When passing by, Zhang Qiming leaned forward and quickly pulled her wrist, and put his head in front of her with an ambiguous expression, smiling lovingly and warmly.

She turned sideways to keep a certain distance from Zhang Qiming, and stood shoulder to shoulder with him with her back to him. She didn't speak, but frowned in displeasure, and looked down at the left wrist held by Zhang Qiming. The touch brought by her knuckles is completely different from what she missed.

"What do you think he's going to say?"

"Of course I know what Lao Wang will say when he asks you to come. It's nothing more than saying don't fall in love with puppies and study hard, but I said, Nuonuo, no matter where, I will follow you, just like I followed you to this school. You work hard , I will work hard, I will try my best to keep up with your pace, promise, I said three years ago, from now on, I will protect you."

Zhang Qiming's serious promise, hearing Xu Nuo's ears, made her feel a little ridiculous, at the age of seventeen or eighteen, what is the future to talk about?Guarding, this is what Zhang Qiming told her since the third year of junior high school. She listened and was not moved, but thought he was naive.

"Zhang Qiming." Taking her hand out of Zhang Qiming's hand, Xu Nuo looked at the handsome and sunny face in front of her, and smiled lightly. She turned around and continued downstairs, and said to the people behind her in an unhurried manner: "Shut up." For your pity, I don't need..."

The words that were not finished were stuck in his throat when he saw Yan Ruyi standing on the platform between the third and fourth floors at the corner. Yan Ruyi was holding a textbook in his hand, and it seemed that he had been standing here for a while.

She stood there, wearing a short bright yellow down jacket, slim jeans and a pair of Martin boots. At some point, her hair, which was cut short in early autumn, had touched her shoulders again. The weather was cold, and she probably came from the office , The tip of the nose is a little red.

Xu Nuo has forgotten how long it has been since she looked at Yan Ruyi so positively, she is still tall and thin, she looks more energetic than two months ago, probably she has gradually come out of the state of broken love.

She even smiled at Xu Nuo, although it was a little blunt and unnatural.

Xu Nuo stood there, indifferent.What should she respond to?A smile against your will?But she couldn't act like nothing happened and say hello to her teacher.

Zhang Qiming followed Xu Nuo's footsteps and went downstairs. He was a little angry, and he finished what he was going to say in one breath with some annoyance in his voice:

"Promise, why do you always feel that my liking is because of my pity for you? I like you, but I just like you. Have you ever thought that you look at the world with such a pessimistic attitude? good?"

When he saw Yan Ruyi, Zhang Qiming was also stunned, and the scene became a little awkward for a while. Recalling what he said just now, he felt a little embarrassed for a while, stood beside Xu Nuo, rubbed the back of his head and asked Yan Ruyi with an unnatural smile:

"Teacher Yan, why are you here?"

After Yan Ruyi heard what she said, she averted her gaze from Xu Nuo, and smiled politely at Zhang Qiming: "Wait for the next class, class three, but, confessing your love in the stairwell like this..."

"Teacher Yan," Xu Nuo didn't give her a chance to lecture, she interrupted Yan Ruyi's words, went straight downstairs and went in her direction, when she passed Yan Ruyi not one meter away, she stopped, Turning his back to Yan Ruyi in a joking tone, he said: "People who eavesdrop on other people's conversations seem to be disgraceful."

Yan Ruyi's words were choked in her throat, and she insisted on not finishing the rest. Xu Nuo heard her take a breath, and then, without saying anything, went upstairs.

After Yan Ru left, Zhang Qiming still tried to follow her downstairs, but she turned her head and gave him a cold look, and Zhang Qiming stopped after just one look, and stood awkwardly on the spot as she walked into the next corner and disappeared.

When he walked into the inner playground, Xu Nuo realized that his left hand was trembling a little, and his heart was so stuffy that he seemed to be unable to breathe smoothly. Just now, when he met Yan Ruyi's eyes, it almost broke all her defenses. She missed her so much, even though As teachers and students, they would meet many times a week, but how could the deliberate avoidance between classes be compared with such a head-on accident.

The contradiction between the sudden joy of seeing her and the involuntary refutation when she wanted to speak and interrupting her made her feel like a psychopath.She wanted to know how Yan Ruyi would react to the matter between herself and Zhang Qiming, but when Yan Ruyi really stood in front of her, she became afraid again, afraid that she would stand above her with a teacher's halo and tell her, It's not right.

She didn't want to be an enemy of Yan Ruyi, but she had to be an enemy of her, because she knew that Yan Ruyi hated her, just like she hated herself.

She raised her hand to cover her chest, and stood motionless under a towering ancient tree. She tried to suppress the hot temperature in the corners of her eyes, but she felt a vision from the distance behind her fall on her back like a scorching fire. , she instinctively turned around and looked up in that direction. At the door of Class [-]'s classroom, she saw a bright yellow figure. Yan Ruyi was standing by the corridor, looking in her direction. She was looking at herself.I don't know what kind of psychology I'm in.

Originally, her emotions were a little stable, but when she found that Yan Ruyi was looking at her, she collapsed instantly, and before tears fell, she quickly turned around, and before the person who came out of the classroom to go to the toilet approached her, she strode towards her. bathroom.

What is Yan Ruyi looking at?See an obnoxious middle schooler who exists as a joke?Or look at a kid who thinks he is mature but is actually ridiculously naive?In her heart, I'm afraid it's just a sad joke, right?I like my teacher, or a teacher of the same gender as me.

For the first time in her life, Xu Nuo tasted the grievance brought by her feelings. In the past two months, she deliberately created the illusion that she never missed her. Torn, during this period of time, she was frantically suppressing the gaze of the person who didn't want to think about it, and she was defeated.When facing Yan Ruyi, her heart is so fragile that she really wants to hate herself, what should I do with her?Keeping someone in her heart, the feeling of liking, not being able to get, loathing, and not wanting to part with, is the most vivid but cruel lesson Yan Ruyi taught her.

What surprised Xu Nuo was that Yan Ruyi would take the initiative to come to her, during the break after she had just finished the class next door.

At that time, Xu Nuo was sorting out the notes from the previous class with her head down. Yan Ruyi stood behind her outside the back door of the classroom and knocked on the glass window next to her ear.

She turned her head instinctively, and her eyes fell on the yellow shadow slightly leaning against the door frame. Complicated ripples appeared in her heart, but her face remained calm.

"Promise, come out for a while."

Seeing that she was not moving, Yan Ru shook the textbook in front of her eyes.

Xu Nuo walked out following her will, followed Yan Ruyi to find a place where no one was around in the corridor, and she asked Yan Ruyi in the most plain tone she could: "What's the matter, Teacher Yan? "

Yan Ruyi was a little hesitant. She looked at Xu Nuo and wanted to speak several times, but she hesitated.

Seeing that she was hesitant, Xu Nuo didn't want to talk to her anymore, but she couldn't convince herself to go back to the classroom. She could only turn her head and turn her gaze to the direction that Yan Ruyi would pass by every time she came to class. The winter plums were in full bloom, and Yan Ruyi seemed to have that fresh scent on her body.

"Actually, I wanted to find you a long time ago, I promised... About the last time..."

Xu Nuo stared into the distance blankly, but focused on Yan Ruyi. When Yan Ruyi hesitated to speak, she listened, and her chest began to ache again.

Yan Ruyi took a long breath, seemed to be hesitating for a long time, and then continued to apologize in a low voice: "I'm sorry I overreacted, but promise...I...is your teacher...Besides, you are still young , you may not even know what it means to like someone..."

As soon as Yan Ruyi finished speaking, Xu Nuo laughed, and she didn't know what was wrong with herself, she just couldn't help but want to laugh, laughing at her own stupidity, laughing at her patheticness, and laughing at herself, and finally heard Yan Ruyi's saddest words. real answer.

For two whole months, I have caused serious troubles to her. She is a novice teacher, and she is liked by her students or students of the same gender. Presumably, she is also in trouble, right?

As the cold wind blew, Xu Nuo looked back slightly, watching the withered and yellow leaves fall from the branches of the camphor tree in front of her. An unknown pain spread from her heart to the little finger of her left hand. She couldn't help leaning forward, leaning against the Railing, fingertips trembling under the sleeves.

Two months, two full months, Yan Ruyi took the initiative to talk to her for the first time, and she said: But promise, I am your teacher...

Yes, she is her teacher, and they are the same gender. She likes her, and she has to overcome more than the gap between identities. To make Yan Ruyi accept her, she has to overcome obstacles that cannot be ignored by the world.Besides, Yan Ruyi, she doesn't like herself at all...

Xu Nuo took a breath and made a decision in his heart at that moment.She is willing to apologize, willing to make peace, willing to deny this relationship that she did not want to let it wither from the beginning to the end, and more willing to return to the simplest teacher-student relationship with Yan Ruyi...

"Teacher Yan." She raised her head slightly, looked into Yan Ruyi's eyes, looked at her thin shadow in those dark eyes at the moment, her smile became brighter, she bent her eyes, Yan Ruyi was in her eyes , becoming somewhat blurred.

"I'm sorry, you're right, Mr. Yan, I'm too young to understand feelings clearly, and I did something inappropriate under the impulse of illusion, which caused trouble to you. I'm sorry. Don't worry, in the future, this kind of thing... It won't happen again."

Yan Ruyi's eyes widened in surprise, and she looked at Xu Nuo with a very worried expression: "Xu Nuo, are you... all right?"

Xu Nuo let out a breath, she knew that there were tears in her eyes, which shouldn't have happened, but she just couldn't control it, even if she really did, she just wanted to leave Yan Ruyi with a smile.

Yan Ruyi didn't do anything wrong, she didn't have to make it difficult for herself.

She took two steps back, stood one meter away from Yan Ruyi, said to Yan Ruyi again: "I'm sorry." After that, she turned and went back to the classroom, leaving Yan Ruyi alone in the empty corridor.