Change heart

At noon, the three of them had lunch together.The old lady found it strange that she was fine when she went out in the morning, but the atmosphere changed when she came back.

The old lady moved the food to Xu Xin'an, telling him to eat more.Xu Xin'an responded with a smile, but actually didn't eat much.The old lady gently pushed Zhao Jianyi, and whispered in dialect: "You made Xiao Xu angry."

Zhao Jianyi remained silent, and put a small brook fish into Xu Xinan's bowl.Xu Xin'an said thank you, Zhao Jianyi looked at him, frowning slightly, "You want me to feed you personally?"

The old lady next to him raised her eyebrows and kicked him hard.

Xu Xin'an put down his chopsticks and stared at him.

Is he... unhappy?rare.

In a blink of an eye, Zhao Jianyi scooped up a bowl of fish soup and brought it over, "Fish doesn't like it, so drink the soup."

As soon as the bowl was lifted and put down, Xu Xin'an felt that he had overreacted.The old lady got up and left with an excuse. It is not convenient for two people to talk with her here.

"Angry?" Zhao Jianyi picked up the bowl and ate.

Xu Xin'an didn't understand Zhao Jianyi until now. He just said such a strange thing, but now he seems to be okay again.

"I have a bad heart. You don't have to treat me like a porcelain doll all the time. You make me feel like I'm not a normal person." From just now, Xu Xin'an, who has always been good-tempered, felt inexplicably annoyed. This unhappiness came out of nowhere , but the pressure cannot go down.

"You look like a normal person, you can get angry, and you can still say it, which is pretty good." Zhao Jianyi finished the rice in the bowl in two or three strokes, and took out a wet towel to wipe his hands.

"Drink the soup quickly, it's getting cold."

Zhao Jianyi saw that Xu Xin'an hadn't moved, so he reached out to take his bowl.Xu Xin'an took the bowl over and drank it with his head up. When he put the bowl down, due to years of upbringing, he still resisted the fall, which seemed very imposing.

"I don't need you to take care of me." He said this for a long time.

Zhao Jianyi snorted, "Then who do you want to take care of?"

Xu Xin'an was speechless, her face turned pale with anger.Zhao Jianyi was afraid that he would be really angry, so he took out a handkerchief that he had prepared earlier and handed it to him, "Wipe, there is soup on the corner of his mouth."

Xu Xin'an didn't answer, Zhao Jianyi leaned over and reached out to wipe it, Xu Xin'an opened it.

Zhao Jianyi stretched it up again, and Xu Xin'an opened it again.After going back and forth like this several times, Zhao Jianyi lost his mind.Immediately put his arms around the person, and pressed the other hand to the corner of Xu Xin'an's mouth, Xu Xin'an couldn't hide and stared at him.

"You are so angry for no reason, what did I say wrong?"

Xu Xinci said that Xu Xin'an had a stubborn temper, Zhao Jianyi didn't believe it at first, but today he saw it.

"What do you take seriously? Others don't know the inside story, don't you know? What's the good of getting involved with me, and what's the good of letting others misunderstand you? If this continues, people will think you like me. "

The tip of Xu Xin'an's nose was slightly red, and both sides of her neck were red with anger.

Zhao Jianyi knelt down and looked at him at the same level, "Xu Xin'an, listen up. As you said, I am not a nosy person. I am not a person who easily shares privacy with others. I am not good to everyone, nor is anyone , I can take them home to see my mother. I don’t like being in the family. It’s really troublesome to get involved with you. I can live well without you, maybe it’s better. Since there are so many different Well, I am still by your side, what do you think I am for? The overwhelming scandal between me and you, as long as I want, I can suppress it at any time. They think I like you, so let them go. Because it is the truth. "

Zhao Jianyi said it frankly, and he admitted it.

At this time, Xu Xin'an calmed down instead, and the boredom and inexplicable anger in his heart gradually faded away.

From here onwards, everything that Zhao Jianyi did and said, he had a faint premonition, and suppressed not thinking about it.Isn't it good to be an ally? Why do you have to pierce this layer of window paper.Xu Xin'an was angry, angry that the balance between them was broken, and angry that he didn't know how to face Zhao Jianyi.It's useless to be even more angry at myself. If he is strong enough, Xu Xinci doesn't need to calculate so much for him, and doesn't need to stir Zhao Jianyi into it. Wouldn't it be good to just be friends? Stand in each other's position and keep a proper distance.

It was his fault. If he could have prevented the development of the situation earlier, it would not have caused the situation like today.It was because he was weak, because he underestimated Zhao Jianyi's goodness, thinking that he could resist such tenderness, but he didn't expect it to have penetrated into his life bit by bit, and when he recovered, it was too late.But Xu Xin'an, what kind of person are you? You were born in the Xu family, and you look at the scenery, but your family members are dead. No one really wants to watch you support the Xu family.The old men of the Xu family are waiting for you to fall down and never recover; outsiders are waiting to see your jokes and step on you a few times.Who can you rely on, and whom can you trust.

How can you be weak? It is because your will is not firm, and my sister will not feel at ease when she dies.Xu Xinci's confidants don't believe you, Xu Yan desperately wants to be on her own, they are protecting you, because you can't, you can't.

The exhaustion and grievances of the past few days finally broke out completely.What am I mad about?I was mad at myself all the time.

Xu Xin'an covered her face and bent down.Xu Ershao, who always straightened his back, finally couldn't bear it anymore.

Zhao Jianyi sighed, he is a person who rarely sighs, this is the first time today.

Patting Xu Xinan on the back, said softly: "Everyone is tired, you have done a good job. Don't push yourself too hard, don't compare yourself with Xu Xinci, you are you, she is her. Iron-blooded wrists, too many enemies. Her death brought many problems, and you handled them well. Xu Xin'an, have more confidence in yourself."

The palms were a little wet, and Xu Xinan's back trembled.Zhao Jianyi stroked his hair, and there were still some mud stains in the hair. Zhao Jianyi paused, and suddenly felt a little sour in his heart.

He helped him up and pulled Xu Xin'an's hands away. Those beautiful eyes were swollen, and they were beautiful even when they were swollen.

Gently leaning over, kissed the corner of the reddened eyes, with a faint salty taste.

Xu Xinan pushed him away.

Zhao Jianyi held his face, and suddenly rubbed it vigorously, "Go wash your face and eat, I promise not to tell anyone what happened today."

Xu Xin'an's face was rubbed red, and there was some pain,

"Is that how you like me?"

Xu Xin'an went to Zhao Jianyi's mother to apologize.It doesn't matter if the old lady speaks half dialect and half Mandarin.The old lady didn't mind, but Xu Xin'an felt a little guilty about losing her composure in front of her elders.The old lady talked for a long time and didn't know how much Xu Xin'an understood, so she simply took a few home-grown sweet potatoes, which were still warm just after the exam, and wrapped them in a newspaper and stuffed them into his arms.

"Take it and eat it."

Zhao Jianyi helped clean up the dishes, washed his hands and came out.

"The water heater has been repaired, let's go wash it." He reached out and flicked the mud spots on Xu Xin'an's hair.

Xu Xin'an hid for a while, smiled at the old lady, turned around and went into the bedroom to get a change of clothes.

As soon as Xu Xin'an left, the old lady turned around and slapped Zhao Jianyi's arm, "What's the matter with you? Such a good boy, is it interesting to tease him? Be careful if you tease him away, you won't even be able to chase him back."

Zhao Jianyi looked into the kitchen, "Is there any more? Sweet potatoes."

The old lady pointed at him, "It's gone! If you want to eat, go dig it yourself."

After Xu Xin'an took a shower, fell asleep, and washed his face, the person in the mirror became the impeccable Xu Ershao again.

Opening the door, Zhao Jianyi stood aside, "Come on, I'll take you out for a walk. My mom has already prepared dumplings for dinner, and I can eat them when I come back."

"Do you need help?"

Zhao Jianyi looked him over from top to bottom, "If you go into the kitchen, you probably won't be able to eat at ten o'clock in the evening."

The shell that Xu Ershao had just put on had a crack.After taking off the disguise in front of Zhao Jianyi, this man can make him unable to pretend with just a word.

Xu Xin'an frowned, Zhao Jianyi took his hand naturally, "With me, be yourself."

Zhao Jianyi took him to the fish pond. Several village names were fishing, but when they saw Zhao Jianyi, they put away their fishing rods and ran away.

Zhao Jianyi took out the heated sweet potato and handed it to him, "Eat this to pad your stomach first."

Xu Xinan took it and took a bite, it was very sweet.This was the first time he ate roasted sweet potatoes, and no one would allow him to eat these things in the Xu family.

"Do you like this place?" Zhao Jianyi ate very quickly, and finished half a sweet potato very quickly.

Xu Xin'an swallowed the sweet potato in his mouth, "It's pretty good here."

Xu Xin'an likes it here, it's quiet, beautiful, and calming.

"I'll build you a house, according to your preferences."

"Huh?" Build a house for him?

"This is my hometown. It's the custom here. When the eldest son gets married, he has to live in a separate family. Building a house is considered a family."

Only then did Xu Xin'an recall, "Are you serious?"

Zhao Jianyi buttoned Xu Xinan's coat, "Do you think I'm lying?"

Xu Xin'an put down the sweet potato in his hand, and looked at the willow tree by the pond, with bare branches, a little depressed.

"The things about me and Zhou Shaoqin are all fake."

"I know."

"I don't like men."

"I like."

Xu Xin'an couldn't help laughing, and suddenly remembered the first time he saw Zhao Jianyi, on the rooftop, the way this man resisted him.

"I can't even believe that we can become like this."

"I haven't thought about it. But it's not too difficult to make a decision. I asked myself, if I changed someone else, would I still make such a decision? The answer is no, everyone I am not a natural kind person, and I am not even Zhao Jianyi. My background and everything I have experienced do not allow me to show mercy to others. People like me have no good intentions. Xu Xin'an, I have blood on my hands, and my experience is not innocent. Why do you Don't be afraid of me."

Xu Xin'an took a bite of the sweet potato in his hand, chewed it for a long time, "At first, it was because of Qiu Lin, how can such a long-term lover be a bad person."

"So what now? Is my personality broken? I don't have the long-term love you imagined, but instead I use the long-term love you think as my protective color. Indeed, it saved me a lot of trouble and blocked a lot of people who came to my door." Come men and women."

"Including me? At first, you thought I had ulterior motives for you, so you deliberately told me something about you and Qiu Lin, to discourage me?"

Zhao Jianyi did not deny that Xu Xinan's kindness towards him was indeed misunderstood by him at first.

"You're very clever. But now, I hope you have ulterior motives for me."

Xu Xin finished eating the sweet potato in her hand quietly, and patted her hands lightly, some pot ashes stuck to her fingers.

"People in our family don't live long. My mom, my sister all died of heart attacks."

Xu Xinan got up and stood in front of Zhao Jianyi, looking at him seriously, "Zhao Jianyi, Xu Xinan who is in front of you today may have died at some point."

"I don't want one day, you watch me die, but you can't do anything about it."