Rebirth: Throwing the Bamboo Horse

An Zhentang is not stupid, he knows that there must be something wrong with him, and those things that he doesn't remember must have happened.

Close your eyes, trying to smooth out the incoherent and even chaotic thoughts bit by bit.

Looking back on his previous life, for Ke Yu who grew up with him, he would sometimes feel annoyed that Ke Yun would take care of everything in every detail.

Youngsters naturally long for freedom, and Ke Yu is like a door god, wishing to scan everyone who approaches him with a perspective instrument.

Sometimes being so tightly restrained by Ke Yu, I would be out of breath, and even ran away from home several times to protest, but was stopped halfway and returned without success.

These are all he remembers, and in those clips, he also seemed to be impatient with Ke Yun for a while.

Then according to my memory, I met Dong Le and fell in love with him, Ke Yu confessed to me and was rejected, then Ke Yu died of illness, and then I was reborn.

This paragraph seems to be a fork in the mouth, completely opposite to the dream.

When I grew up in my dream, I seemed to fall in love with Ke Yu instead of Dong Le, and I seemed to be with Ke Yu, and the relationship between the two was very sweet and loving, and my life was very happy.

Thinking of this, An Zhentang felt a little headache and wanted to reach out and rub it.

But afraid of waking up Ke Yun who was sleeping not far away, she could only continue to freeze on the bed.

It is true that one is reborn, one will not die and be reborn for no reason.

He remembered the time before his rebirth, for Ke Yu's death, he was so guilty and guilty that when he was with Dong Le, he couldn't help feeling a little self-loathing.

This point makes sense, Ke Yun's death can be said to be the chief culprit.

And after he died, he was still with Dong Le, which made him faintly feel like he had betrayed Ke Yu.

Wait, An Zhentang suddenly opened his eyes, betrayal?

Thinking back carefully to the time when I was with Dong Le, Dong Le's touch, some of his sweet words, and even the feeling of him sleeping next to me, I had some subconscious resistance.

There was even a time when Dong Le disregarded his refusal to force kiss him and wanted to have sex with him, and he had a conditioned reflex to vomit.

An Zhentang always thought that he was guilty of killing his best friend, but now thinking about it, he always felt something was wrong.

If this is not the case, but that he was originally in love with Ke Yu, and after Ke Yu passed away, he transferred this relationship to Dong Le for unknown reasons.

But when I was with Dong Le, even if I succeeded in deceiving that the person I fell in love with was Dong Le instead of the deceased Ke Yu, but subconsciously, including the conditioned reflex in the body, I felt that this was a kind of betrayal, so it happened. Such a feeling of resistance seems to make more sense.

But if this is the case, the time is not right.

Because when he was with Dong Le, Ke Yu was still there.

This is a big doubt, maybe if we figure it out, we can figure out the truth of the matter.

But if you think too deeply, you will get a headache, An Zhentang doesn't want to worry his family and Ke Xuan anymore.

Ke Yu's haggard look is simply unbearable to see, Ke Yu is already like this, and I don't know what kind of panic his parents, uncle and grandfather have become.

If you can't think deeply about those forgotten memories, then you can only explore and reason a little bit.

Then there is the reason for the rebirth, how he died.

Before rebirth, he seemed to have drunk a little wine.

Since Ke Yun passed away, her health has also become very bad.

Not to mention suffering from anorexia, there is also a tendency towards depression.

Suffering from anorexia, he remembers throwing up whatever he ate, forcing himself to eat in order not to worry his parents, but he vomited even harder.

During that time, his body was ruined, maybe it was because of this, so a little alcohol killed him?

He's not a medical student, so I don't know if that makes sense.

But there is no other reason for his death.

There is also depression. Thinking of depression, An Zhentang subconsciously rubbed his fingers against the sheet under the quilt, his heartbeat accelerated slightly, and he felt that many things could suddenly be figured out.

It was his mother who told him that he had depression.

Because the family found out that he was suicidal, they had to hire a psychiatrist for him.

He doesn't remember any suicide he ever did, but he vaguely remembers him being on the hospital bed, his mother crying heartbreakingly while holding him, his uncle sitting silently in a corner of the sofa, and his grandfather with all white hair Say something to him beggingly.

Then he saw a psychiatrist for a while, and then began to live with Dong Le to live a good life.

But now he can't think of the psychiatrist who specifically looked at it,

An Zhentang thought of the word hypnosis, psychiatrist, hypnosis, forgetting, then everything can be explained.

But there is another point that he can't understand, even if he fell in love with Ke Yu, and then Ke Yu died, he couldn't bear the blow, but he would really abandon his family, hurt his family and commit suicide so that they had to choose to use hypnosis to make themselves forget ?

An Zhentang thought to himself, this is impossible.

He loves Ke Yun, and he also loves his family. He can't do such a cruel and selfish thing. No matter how painful it is, he will live well for his family.

What if parents want to hypnotize him because they don't want him to be sad?

An Zhentang closed his eyes and sighed softly in his heart.

Parents love him and are willing to do anything for him, which is not impossible.

However, he vaguely felt that this should not be the case. There are only a handful of doctors who can deeply hypnotize people and selectively forget and alter people's memories. So how serious was he at that time? The doctor hypnotized himself?

An Zhentang thought of a possibility, his pupils shrank involuntarily.

What if, what if Ke Yu didn't die of illness...

An Zhentang was startled by his own thoughts, and after repeated deliberations, his head was only muddled.

It was slightly bright, and Ke Yu's first reaction after waking up was to look towards the hospital bed.

I saw that the person who should be sleeping with his eyes closed was staring at the ceiling with big bright peach blossom eyes, and his eyes were no longer empty and dull, but flashing with the familiar spirit.

Ke Xuan's heartbeat accelerated suddenly, and his throat tightened and itched.

Standing up slowly, the person on the bed noticed the movement and looked towards him, his hands and feet were a little weak, a little uneasy and unreal dizziness.

An Zhentang saw Ke Xuan staring at him stupidly, smiled slightly, and stretched out his hand to him.

I wanted to talk to him, but my throat hurt so badly, and I couldn't do it well, so I couldn't make a sound.

Ke Xuan even forgot to put on his shoes, so he walked quickly to the bed in three or two barefoot steps, not daring to use any force while holding An Zhen Tang's hand

"Tangtang, do you recognize who I am?"

An Zhentang was heartbroken seeing his uneasy but pretending to be calm.

He opened his mouth, but he did it so hard that he couldn't speak.

Seeing this, Ke Yu hurriedly poured water for him, but realized that it was boiled water that had been left overnight, and couldn't suppress the surprise of An Zhentang's waking up, and said hurriedly, "Tangtang, wait a minute, I'm going to change a bottle of boiled water, I'll be back right away, don't move around, I'll ask the doctor to come over again, I'll be right back, you wait for me obediently"

Seeing him running out without shoes, An Zhentang thought it was funny, but couldn't help feeling distressed.

Ke Xuan finally realized that he was still barefoot, he fed An Zhen Tang a few sips of warm water, and only turned his head to put his shoes on when the doctor came to examine him.

When An's mother came over with soup early in the morning, several people in white coats gathered around An Zhentang's hospital bed, and rushed forward in panic.

Ke Yu hurriedly reached out to take the thermos bottle held by An's mother, "Don't panic, Auntie, Tangtang is awake, fully awake, the doctor is examining him"

An Ma confirmed to Ke Yu in surprise, "Are you really awake? Can you recognize someone?"

Ke Yu nodded, finally he could let go of the boulder that had weighed on his heart these days.

An elderly doctor put away the examination equipment, glanced at Ann's mother, motioned to take a step to speak, and then walked outside.

An's mother raised her heart just now, and followed the doctor anxiously.

"My son he..."

The doctor smiled at her consolingly, "There are basically no major problems physically, take good care of yourself and pay attention to your daily routine. According to the film and some examinations, there is no foreign body in his head, but the human brain is a very complicated area. So the specific reason for his headache may be caused by many factors, I suggest you find a psychiatrist to show him.”

Mama An was taken aback, and asked in confusion, "Psychiatrist? You mean, my son's health is fine, and it's because of his psychology?"

"I can only say that the possibility of this reason cannot be ruled out, but the specific situation can only be determined by a professional doctor in this field. Of course, I just suggest that the patient can observe for a period of time to see if there is still a headache."

Ma An nodded, and waited for all the doctors to leave before entering the ward.

Ke Yu was sitting on the edge of the bed, feeding soup spoonful by spoonful.

An Zhentang turned his head and smiled at her, his voice was still hoarse, "Mom"

One word made An's mother's tense emotions collapse in an instant.

After finally calming down, An's mother burst into tears, "Stinky boy... I scared my mother to death... Woo...Stinky boy..."

An Zhentang bit her lip, took out a few tissues, "Mom, don't cry"

Hearing his son's hoarse voice, he held him in his arms and kissed him again and again.

"Baby... Mommy's little baby, you can't scare mom like this in the future, you know! Does the head still hurt? Is there any discomfort in the body?"

An Zhentang didn't dare to make big moves. When she just sat up from the bed, her eyes were dizzy and black for a while, so she pinched An Ma's palm and said, "It doesn't hurt anymore."

Ke Yu handed the soup bowl in her hand to An Ma, "Auntie, the doctor said that you can eat some liquid food. You can feed Tangtang some hot food first. I will call home to make them feel at ease, and let the chef cook some porridge by the way." "

A phone call, and not long after, An's father, uncle, uncle, and old man Bai all came over. After comforting and caressing the sweetheart, he began to ask An Zhentang if he bumped into anything on the set that day, such as dirty things.

An Zhentang saw that they thought he had run into evil, and asked some so-called eminent monks to ask for some blessings and stuffed them all over his bed. Some of them felt distressed and kissed each other, saying that they were completely normal and let them not worry.

How could he not love such a family, and how could he cruelly abandon it?