Strange disease

When Song Huan was studying in medical university, there was a student who always impressed him deeply.

This guy became popular on the school forum on the day he entered school, nothing more than because he was handsome enough.

The female students around him were all discussing this person with great interest. When Song Huan left the classroom, he glanced at their mobile phone screens and found that they were passing around a candid photo. The boy on it was wearing a simple black turtleneck sweater. Wearing a pair of glasses with thin metal frames, the cold side face that rejects people thousands of miles away is pale and three-dimensional.

He didn't take it seriously, he just felt that this person was hard to get close to, and he didn't know what they were crazy about.

But if you only talk about appearance, there is indeed no one in a million who is impeccable.

Later he heard that this junior's name was Xi Rong.

Coincidentally, after Xi Rong entered school, he lived in the opposite door of his dormitory. It's just that he recently graduated from graduate school, and he ran around with his mentor to do projects. He lived so close, but he never ran into him once.

Once when he was going back to the dormitory to pick up something, he happened to meet a primary school girl he knew was waiting anxiously downstairs, and he asked a few questions out of curiosity, only to find out that Xi Rong lived on the same floor as him.

The elementary school girl said that she was here to send a greeting card to Xi Rong.

Not knowing what was going on, Song Huan stopped asking and was about to go upstairs when he saw Xi Rong coming down the stairs in black at this time. He was dressed very simply, but his whole body exuded a natural sense of nobility.

Song Huan heard Xi Rongqing from behind, cold and cold, like the sound made by ice flakes rubbing against each other.

He said two words briefly: "Thank you."

Song Huan climbed the stairs, and after a while, the sound of regular footsteps sounded behind him.

Is this guy a little emotionally deprived?

Song Huan thought so.

One night in the middle of the night, the faucet in the old student dormitory leaked, and there was a constant ticking sound in the public toilet.

Coincidentally, the dormitory where Song Huan lives is the one closest to the public toilet. Because the building is old, the sound insulation function of the dormitory is so poor that it is almost non-existent. The sound of water coming made him irritated.

In the end, he couldn't bear it anymore and turned over and got out of bed. After two o'clock in the middle of the night, he planned to go to the toilet to see if the damn faucet was running.

He pushed open the door, and at this moment, the door on the opposite side also opened.

Song Huan rubbed his eyes and realized that the person in front of him was not that popular school boy Xi Rong.

The other party was wearing pajamas, and he probably woke up at night. He didn't wear glasses, and his eyes narrowed slightly under the strong light in the corridor. Song Huan inexplicably remembered the black cat that came out at night downstairs in the dormitory.

Xi Rong didn't say hello to him, and walked into the bathroom in front of Song Huan. Song Huan thought he was going to take a pee, but didn't want him to go to the bathroom to take a look, and turned back.

What is this man doing?

Song Huan was full of doubts, didn't wake up, and went out for a walk?

After a while, Xi Rong came out of the dormitory carrying a big box. Then, he walked to the edge of the sink, picked up the vise in the tool box, and smashed it against the leaking faucet. He looked like he was going to kill someone, the hair on his forehead was curled up in sleep.

Song Huan felt a little funny looking at him like that, which was much more "normal" than his indifferent and alienated look during the day.

Xi Rong turned her head and finally seemed to see Song Huan, a big living man standing beside her.

"Hi." He raised the pliers and said in a flat voice, "Can you help?"

After that incident, Song Huan gradually became friends with Xi Rong, and many years later, they worked in adjacent departments of the same hospital, from alumni to colleagues.

Xi Rong's work style is almost the same as when he was in school. Song Huan naturally heard that Xi Rong's grades in professional courses were the first in the department every year during school. The outstanding graduates of the whole school gave a speech... Such an excellent performance made Xi Rong add an unattainable and dazzling aura among the students in the lower grades.

He will make a good doctor.

Song Hwan never doubted that.

But sometimes he feels that he can't see through the other party. Although Song Huan has a background in neurology and psychology, the knowledge in textbooks is not enough for him to fully understand a person's inner thoughts. There are even more iceberg theories. Only one-seventh of the surface can be seen by others, and the rest is hidden under the water.

Because Xi Rong doesn't seem to care about everything, he is stingy about other people's misery or any hysterical emotion, Song Huan sometimes even feels that his extreme excellence is simply a kind of perverted self-discipline and habit that has been cultivated all year round.

That year, Song Huan finally tied the knot with his girlfriend who had been in a long-distance relationship for five years.

On the day of the wedding, Song Huan unexpectedly found out that Xi Rong had a girlfriend who had been dating for two months, who was the school girl of the same school, but Xi Rong never mentioned this matter to Song Huan, Song Huan had no idea when did they get together.

Xi Rong and his girlfriend went to the banquet together. They were both talented and beautiful, but treated each other like a pair of familiar strangers. No matter how you looked at it, there was a strange twist.

Outsiders can see the problem, but the person involved enjoys it. Song Huan hesitates to speak and looks at the beautiful woman who is smiling like a flower and holding Xi Rong's arm, thinking, maybe Xi Rong is just not good at showing off, after all, love is Human instinct.

Love is strong and passionate. If you fall in love with someone else, this iceberg will naturally melt one day.

What's more, he knows that Xi Rong is not always so indifferent to people and things.

When he got off work, he would go to the supermarket next door to buy cat food. Song Huan once saw Xi Rong squatting on the ground and feeding the cats expressionlessly. A group of stray cats circled around his feet.

At that time, he found that although Xi Rong didn't show it on the face, the coldness in his eyes that had never changed for thousands of years had changed, and there was a faint smile.

It's a pity, that warmth is only occasionally revealed to this cat.

Not long after, he heard that Xi Rong broke up with his girlfriend. What Xi Rong told him was that she couldn't stand her busy work, and he really didn't have more energy to take care of her at all times, so they broke up peacefully.

Song Huan witnessed the whole process of Xi Rong's mobile phone on the desk vibrating crazily, being pinched off by Xi Rong, and then back and forth. He thought, if it was him, his wife would call, unless he had something important to do and couldn't look at the phone, otherwise How dare you hang up her phone.

He secretly sighed, and silently worried about his friend's lifelong event.

But there is no rush, he thought, maybe it's just that fate didn't come.

A few years later, Xi Rong received a difficult patient.

It was a middle-aged woman who came to the city from a small country town to seek medical treatment. When she was hospitalized, her cheeks were thin and her face was sallow. She had already reached the advanced stage of pancreatic cancer and was in a critical condition.

There is no cure.Song Huan knew very well that Xi Rong, even a god, would not be able to recover from this kind of malignant tumor that the entire medical community is still helpless at present.

The difficulty is not because of how troublesome this patient is. In fact, although her education level is not high, she is still easy to communicate with. Most of the time, she treats medical staff very politely and politely. There are indelible and deep marks on her rough face, and she sometimes sheds tears silently. The nurses who make the rounds know it, but no one will say it.

The most difficult thing was that she brought a son named Ruan Li who had just entered college. His father passed away many years ago, leaving only his mother who was seriously ill at home.

Not long after, the woman left behind the young son to die. That night, Song Huan watched the young and thin boy squatting by the wall outside his mother's ward, with his head buried in his knees and his arched back. One pump and one pump.

He seemed to feel that shrinking himself firmly into a ball with a small footprint would be able to resist the malice from the outside world, from this world, from this trick of fate.

But all the doctors and nurses who come and go know that all these experiences are just normal in the world.

After a long time of pain, it becomes numb.

At this moment, Xi Rong in a white coat came over, Song Huan was beside him, seeing Xi Rong's perennially calm face seemed to show a slight intolerance, he stood quietly and shrunk himself into a ball Next to Ruan Li, Ruan Li didn't notice him.

Xi Rong stood beside Ruan Li quietly for a long time, he seemed a little hesitant and a little dazed, Song Huan rarely saw Xi Rong's expression appear on his face at this moment, just like Xi Rong used to be on the street When feeding stray cats, he stretched out his hand but retracted it.

But this time, Xi Rong put his hand on Ruan Li's trembling shoulder and patted it lightly.

So later, when Song Huan learned that Xi Rong was secretly taking care of that boy, he was not surprised.

From spring to winter, Ruan Li's appearance changed a lot, and her personality became lively and she loved to laugh a lot. Several times Ruan Li came to the hospital, and Song Huan couldn't remember how this little guy used to secretly hide by the wall and cry.

His clear and bright eyes flashed bright light again, Xi Rong was in the operating room, and he was lying on Xi Rong's desk, turning the chair boredly, playing with Xi Rong's pen, and the bright sunlight came in from the window , The soft short hair is as dazzling as the golden sun in the light.

Maybe it's a bit strange to use the word likable to describe a man, but in fact, Song Huan guessed a long time ago that Xi Rong would fall in love with Ruan Li.

He has come into contact with many homosexual treatment cases. Of course, homosexuality is not a disease in fact, and there is no need for treatment. However, many parents will drag their children to the psychiatrist when they find out that their children have this sign during adolescence.

Song Huan looks at things objectively. It is normal for people to fall in love with another individual who attracts them.

It has nothing to do with sex, or even with reproductive instinct.

There are both beast and divinity in human beings, and he has always believed that love is not a derivative of desire or race continuation, it is a greater thing that only gods have.

No one can penetrate the mystery, perhaps from a certain point of view, it is just the embrace and company of two souls.

Several times later, he even saw Xi Rong smiling faintly and imperceptibly at the phone.

When he answered the phone, his voice was so gentle that it was unreal, and he called "Lili".

He really has completely changed his gender.

Song Huan was sincerely happy for Xi Rong, and thought with satisfaction——

He finally saw the day when the iceberg melted.

However, good things are fragile, and happiness does not last long.

After Song Hwan thought they were finally settled, Ruan Li fell ill and went to the same fateful end as his deceased mother.

After Ruan Li left, Xi Rong changed back to his previous appearance, even more unkind and colder.

A person has been overheated, warmed, and fell down again. In fact, there is no way to return to the state where nothing happened at the beginning.

Song Huan had seen Xi Rong look dazed and reeking of alcohol, his hard shell was completely shattered into ashes, leaving only a trembling and lonely soul inside.

He suffered from a disease that was difficult to detect under the surface. It had no substance and could not be described. Only the pain was real, and it was like a blunt knife cutting through the flesh.

Song Huan is a doctor, and so is Xi Rong. They are friends and colleagues, but the roles are reversed, and Xi Rong becomes the patient.

But what can he do?Song Huan thought, there is nothing he can do, no one can do anything.

one year later.

Everything seems to pass slowly, and the most painful scars should heal gradually with time.

Xi Rong suddenly asked Song Huan an inexplicable question one day.

He said, "Don't you think there are always people sneaking around in the corridors of the hospital lately?"

Song Huan shook his head in confusion: "Really?"

He worriedly thought of a possibility: "Recently, the family members of those few patients are always making trouble, especially for you. I'll let the security guard pay attention to it later. It's not good to let outside people in. In case When something unexpected happens..."

But Xi Rong said, "It's okay, don't worry about it."

He said to himself: "It should be just my illusion."

A few weeks later, Song Huan went to visit Xi Rong's house with melons, fruits, vegetables and daily necessities as before. This was a habit he had developed before, because he had seen Xi Rong in the worst and worst state, and he was worried that one day Xi Rong Lock yourself at home, don't eat or drink, and something will happen in the end.

That day, Xi Rong seemed to be fine and quite normal, but when he came up, he said to Song Huan: "Ruan Li is back."

Song Huan's first reaction was, okay, after such a long time, he finally went crazy.

Until Song Huan had a serious car accident and was lying on the hospital bed thinking that he had died once, he saw the boy named Ruan Li appearing in front of him again.

There was an indescribably faint sense of weirdness all over Ruan Li. This young man with a handsome appearance and a pleasing and lively appearance was now pale to almost transparent, bloodless, and somewhat weak, but the expression and shape on his face were not the same. Sung-hwan was no different when he knew him before.

For a moment, he couldn't believe his eyes at all, and even suspected that he was hallucinating.

Ruan Li is obviously dead...

From Ruan Li's mouth, he learned the too bizarre and absurd truth.

Ruan Li unexpectedly "resurrected".

How could such a thing happen in this world?How is this possible?

But the ironclad evidence in front of him could not tolerate his disbelief. Ruan Li came back, and Xi Rong was not crazy. Song Huan even wondered if God had seen them suffer so that they were extra merciful and allowed them to meet again in this world.

Even as a bystander, he never felt the pain of Xi Rong, and he didn't know the relationship between them. At this moment, he sincerely hoped that these two people who had gone through countless twists and turns could finally have a happy ending.

If there are gods in this world, please allow them to love each other, even if he knows that the adventure beyond common sense, life and death, is just a fairy tale, told to children, but adults cannot be fooled.

Song Huan still needs to go through a long and painful recovery process after being discharged from the hospital. He can no longer work and can only lie in bed all day long. He used to visit Xi Rong, but Xi Rong came to visit him.

One day, Song Huan noticed a ring on Xi Rong's ring finger.

Later, he didn't know what happened, only that the last light in Xi Rong's eyes was also extinguished.

Ruan Li really appeared, did she really come back?

Song Huan sometimes couldn't help asking himself this way, he had indeed seen the other party, and even talked to the other party, maybe it was just a dream when he just woke up, or maybe he himself went crazy and had some hallucinations.

Xi Rong has always been a workaholic, and Song Huan has long known that he would ask for leave frequently and disappear only when Ruan Li was around, and after that he worked even harder, Song Huan even heard about it from many former colleagues Regarding this matter, my colleague said worriedly, "I feel that Dr. Xi has been very bad recently. You can persuade him. He is working overtime now and he is desperate. We all feel scared when we look at him, and we are afraid that something will happen to him sooner or later."

After hearing this, Song Huan let out a long sigh.

He and Xi Rong have known each other since they were students, and it has been nearly ten years now.

After ten years, he finally fully understood this seemingly indifferent guy, who was actually more affectionate than anyone else.

Xi Rong is an iceberg, one-seventh of his appearance floats on the surface of the water, and he cannot see the darkness hidden underneath.

But seven-sevenths of him are all talking about the lost love, begging for the return of the only beloved partner in his life.

Then he knew that there was no need to persuade him.

A few months later, he received a sudden call late one night, and his whole body was instantly cold.

Something happened to Xi Rong.

According to the preliminary judgment, it was sudden cardiac death caused by overwork.

After grieving in vain, Song Hwan thought.

For Xi Rong, isn't this a kind of relief?

There is only pain in the world for him, and the person he misses has left him, so there seems to be no difference between living and dying.

At that moment, Song Huan was suddenly convinced for no reason that Ruan Li really came back, and Xi Rong knew it, so he just went to accompany him.

The ending is still inconclusive, where they will eventually go, maybe this is not the final end.

——They will be together forever in that world.