Strange disease

Xi Rong got up at dawn, and somehow I suddenly realized that he, like me, had also stayed up all night.

I stayed on the bed for a while, and my mind was full of thoughts like entangled hemp, which was difficult to sort out.

I couldn't fall asleep, and it was uncomfortable to lie dry, so I lifted the quilt and went out.

Pushing open the wooden door, there was a creaking sound, as if the door that had been in disrepair for a long time issued a long whine.The fresh smell of grass and morning frost penetrated into the nostrils, and the surrounding village was quiet, except for a few birdsong occasionally.

Xi Rong stood alone in the desolate and desolate courtyard, his back was soaked in the faint light, looking cold and dusty.

There is only one well left in the yard, which is now dry. A pear tree is planted beside the stone well. Its trunk is bent and bent on the ground like a stooped old man. The trunk of this tree was broken by a strong wind a few years ago. Half of the roots, coupled with the barren land and no one to fertilize, it is the end of the day.

A dozen or so red ribbons are neatly tied on the dry paper with all the green leaves fallen, but the original bright color has also dried up due to the passage of time.

Now, they only look a grayish reddish brown, fluttering on the branches in the wind, somewhat desolately.

Speaking of which, my name actually comes from this tree.

My mother named it casually, but she happened to see this pear tree when she gave birth to me. My father's surname was Ruan, so I was named Ruan Li.

This tree has been there since my grandmother was a child, and I don’t know where the seeds came from. Later, it grew up day by day with generations. My mother often picked pears for me in autumn when I was a child, and coaxed me to eat them. Said at the same time: "Baby, this is a pear, it is sweet and watery, take a bite, your name is a pear, do you understand?"

I pursed my mouth, puzzled, refused her feeding, and asked innocently: "But they are all me, how can I eat myself?"

My mother hugged me in her arms and laughed.

Every year on my birthday, my grandma will tie a bright red ribbon on the branch of this tree for blessings. This is an unwritten custom here, which means to bless my children with peace, happiness and well-being every year.

Year after year, there are already sixteen ribbons on the branches, neatly arranged, and later, there is no No. 17.

At this moment, Xi Rong was quietly looking at the broken old tree, wondering what he was thinking.

When I approached, my footsteps made a crisp sound on the dead leaves, and he turned his head: "Are you up?"

I nodded.

We hit the road.

Before leaving, I only took the diary on the table.

When I looked back, the small, declining village was getting farther and farther away from me. The withered branches, houses covered in ashes, and courtyards that no one passed by quietly said goodbye.

I started journaling again.

From the time I woke up strangely from the refrigerator at home and found out that I had the disease, to the reunion with Xi Rong...

Record this pile of piles carefully.

Naturally, I carried out the whole process secretly. Only when Xi Rong went to work, I would take out the notebook and write a few strokes, and then carefully put it away before he went home.

On the one hand, I really have nothing to do when I stay at home, and I am very bored, so I just use it to pass the time.

Moreover, since I was "resurrected", the whole thing has been too bizarre, and I have no one to tell, so I have to use a pen and paper to express my desire to talk, otherwise I will really suffocate.

Unknowingly, winter has quietly arrived.

Xi Rong had already put on a coat when he went to work these few days, and the dark gray plaid coat looked tall and handsome on him, so handsome that my legs were weak, so I added a scarf to him.

He left, and I was wrapped up in a big, bulky padded jacket at home.

After winter, I seem to be particularly afraid of the cold. Even though the heating is turned on at home, I still have to wrap several layers of thick clothes inside and outside, but I am still so cold that my teeth are chattering uncontrollably.

I stopped writing, took a breath, and rubbed my cold hands, but it didn't help.

Perhaps because of the cold, my hands are not very flexible, and my joints are stiff. This has caused my writing speed to plummet recently, and my hands feel sore after writing for a while, and I have to rest before I can continue.

It felt like the heat was draining from me and I couldn't do anything.

In front of Xi Rong, I was still very restrained and tried my best not to let him notice the abnormality.

Since we came back from visiting the grave that time, he never asked me to move back. We each slept in a room and lived in peace, making us look like a young couple living in separate rooms during the Cold War.

I'm not sure if he's a little mad at me, after all I've turned him down many times on this matter, although he may not be able to guess why for a while.

But we still kiss, hold hands, date like a normal couple.

I don't know what he was thinking, until I came back, the relationship between the two of us seemed to be the same as before, but it seemed that everything had changed.

On this day, Xi Rong had a rare rest, so I went for a walk with him to a nearby park.

I dare not go to crowded places, and I can't go to any place where I need to buy tickets or show my ID. This leads to a sharp reduction in the scope of our entertainment activities, but fortunately, Xi Rong doesn't seem to care.

I wrapped myself into a ball with a down jacket, and moved forward wobbly. When I went out, I almost got stuck in the door because of its size.

Xi Rong held my hand in his coat pocket, it was very warm inside, his body temperature was tempting me to commit a crime, I couldn't help but want to stuff myself into his pocket and tell him to go away Carry me everywhere.

We walked to the park while chatting. Today is Sunday and the weather is fine. There are many parents playing in the park with their children. There are also a few children playing football on the lawn. There is a lot of laughter and lively scene.

There are also a few swan boats floating around on the artificial lake, which are really beautiful on the sparkling lake. I suddenly became interested, and grabbed Xi Rong and asked him to play with me on the boat.

Xi Rong didn't say anything, and was obediently dragged to the payment window by me, and we paid 20 yuan for each of us, and then we happily mentioned a swan boat and an hour of play time.

We got on the boat. Fortunately, the boat has an electric motor, and we only need to control the direction. Otherwise, I really can't imagine Xi Rong and I rowing together.

The boat slowly drove towards the center of the lake, and it was getting farther and farther away from the noisy crowd on the shore. In the end, only the sound of water and wind surrounded us, as if there was only the two of us left in a small world, legs next to each other. Holding hands and sitting together.

I put my head on Xi Rong's shoulder and took the opportunity to rub it. Xi Rong turned his head and touched my face.

My heart moved slightly, and I kissed him.

We exchanged a short, lingering kiss.

Then I found that even today, I still have to hide in a dark corner to kiss him with peace of mind.

I am an existence free from this world.

——I am abnormal.

In the end, I realized that when we said we were rowing, we were just sitting in a different place.

But as long as he stays with Xi Rong, no matter how boring things are, he won't feel bored.

An hour later, I drove the boat back to the shore. When I first got off, I was a little dizzy, as if I was stepping on flat ground and the ground was shaking up and down, which made me walk unsteadily.

Xi Rong laughed and said, "Why do you get seasick on a boat on an artificial lake?"

"How do I know..." I replied dully, "I've never been on a boat before."

Yes, don't be surprised, I have lived for more than [-] years, and I have never been on a boat since I was a child.

I was born in the mountains when I was a child, and came to study and work in the city when I grew up. Because my family was very poor, I had very few opportunities to travel. After I met Xi Rong, we only went to nearby towns during vacations.

I didn't like socializing at all. In today's words, not only the fat house is actually quite socially phobic, if no one is with me, I would never dare to pack my bag and leave, which led to my past life. Quite barren, it can be described as dull.

Xi Rong stopped laughing at me, and he probably didn't expect that I would have an accident when playing with children's entertainment equipment. He supported me, and we walked out of the park slowly.

Unexpectedly, just as we were passing the lawn in front of the park, a few children who were kicking the ball in full swing made a mistake and exerted too much force. The football deviated from the track and flew towards us like a bullet.

Xi Rong quickly pulled my arm to block it for me, but because the dizziness hadn't passed, I was unresponsive, so I froze in place, and I didn't have time to completely dodge.

In a blink of an eye, the ball hit my forehead straight.

"Hey!" I cried out with my headache in my arms, Xi Rong tightly protected me, and said anxiously, "Are you all right?"

I was hit so hard that I shook my head reluctantly, signaling him that it's okay.

The football fell to his feet, and several children ran over, blinking their eyes and said nervously: "Big brother, I'm sorry..."

I waved my hand, not wanting to fuss.

It's not that I didn't never be a bear kid when I was young, but I was hit by a ball, it's not a big deal.

But they didn't leave, they stared at me helplessly, and there seemed to be some fear in their eyes.

A middle-aged woman who looked like a patriarch hurried over upon hearing the commotion. When she saw me, she was taken aback and exclaimed exaggeratedly: "Oh, what's wrong! Did my child do it? What? Did you smash it like this? It's scary, why don't we send you to the hospital to see if it's a concussion..."

She slapped the little boy who was holding the ball vigorously, and scolded: "Kick the ball well, can you take it easy? You can't finish your energy, you think I'm feeding you too much, don't you? Just find trouble for me, and see what I've made of him..."

Xi Rong frowned tightly, and looked at me quite solemnly.

I don't know exactly what happened, and I don't know what I look like at this moment, why everyone is staring at me with such a startled look.

A strong, bad premonition rose out of nowhere in my heart.