Strange disease

Maybe it was because I lay down for too long during the day, but at night I was so awake that I couldn't fall asleep anyway.

I suddenly remembered that the ring I prepared when I was going to propose to Xi Rong should still be at home.

At that time, I wanted to give him a surprise. In order to prevent him from finding out in advance, I quietly hid the ring box at the bottom of the TV cabinet after receiving it, but I couldn't take it out in the end.

My mind moved slightly, it was already late at night, I quietly walked out of the room, walked to the TV cabinet, and searched with a flashlight.

Until the fingertips touched a small hard square box...

Sure enough, it's still here.

Even after my death, Xi Rong should not have discovered it.

I hooked out the ring box and opened it carefully.

There were two silver rings lying quietly inside, their luster was as new, and they were not stained by any dust. They shone brightly in the dim light of the night, like two gemstones clinging to each other.

With pity, I lightly rubbed the notch on the inside of the ring with my fingertips back and forth, and there are two names inside, me and Xi Rong.

I'm sorry to keep you in the box for so long without even a chance to bask in the sun.

I put them in my pocket, turned around and went back to the room, when I passed the door of Xi Rong, I saw a faint light inside.

Eh, it's so late...

I glanced at the clock hanging on the wall, it was past two o'clock in the middle of the night.

Is he still asleep?

Some scattered fragments suddenly flashed in my mind, I recalled the time when Xi Rong had a fever, he seemed to have taken an unknown pill before going to bed.

Combined with what Song Huan told me, he mentioned that Xi Rong seems to have sleep problems, but he never mentioned it to me. I don't know if he is better now.

I frowned, feeling something was wrong in my heart, so I ran to the cabinet where the medicine box was placed in the corner of the restaurant and searched lightly.I didn't expect much at first, but I did find some almost empty medicine bottles.

I looked at the description on the back of the bottle, and immediately thought that this should be the medicine that Song Huan prescribed to Xi Rong at that time. Its effect is to calm the nerves, calm down, and promote sleep...

The above date is still very new.

Is he still eating these things now?

I took a closer look and found that this kind of pill is not too strong, so it should not be included in the prescription drugs. I think maybe Song Huan was frightened by Xi Rong, and he didn't dare to give him something with strong effect, lest Xi Rong suddenly go crazy If you eat too much, you will have an accident.

But even so, the medicine is three-point poisonous, taking it for a long time will always hurt the body, not to mention Xi Rong's posture, it is simply eating the medicine as a meal.

I gripped the empty bottle tightly and found that I wanted to accuse him, but I didn't have a side.

There was only a dull soreness left in my heart, so sore that the root of my tongue was bitter.

I put the bottles back to their original places one by one, squatted on the ground covering my face for a while, and then slowly stood up.

There was still faint light coming through the crack of the door of Xi Rong's room.

I walked over slowly, and gently opened the door.

When I opened the door, the bed was still neatly made, the pillows and quilts showed no signs of having slept on them, and the room was empty, but I could smell a faint smell of tobacco in the cool air.

Turning my head, through the glass of the window, I saw Xi Rong leaning on the balcony, not moving for a long time.

The thick night enveloped him, and the sky was full of stars falling on his shoulders. Standing there, that tall and straight figure seemed extremely lonely and lonely.

He never looked back, and didn't see me barging in, but through the half-opened glass window, I saw that he was lonely and cold, a little bit of white smoke quickly melted into the black night, and the whole picture showed an indescribable feeling Fragile and fragile.

I stood there for a while, he turned his head slightly, and he seemed to finally see me out of the corner of his eye.

I walked over and pushed open the balcony door, and the cold night wind suddenly rushed towards me and burrowed into the opening of the collar, making me shiver with cold.

I hugged him tightly.

The light grass and mint fragrance on his body is mixed with the spicy taste of tobacco, carrying the cold wind, which is contradictory but harmonious.

"Stop smoking." After a long time, I pressed my head against his chest and said softly.

He silently stubbed out the cigarette, put his big hand on the back of my neck, and said nothing for a long time.

I hugged him, and heard through my chest, our heartbeats seemed to be slowly approaching the same frequency, rising and falling and vibrating together.

The urge in my heart was so strong that I put my fingers in my pocket and touched the cold metal ring at the bottom of the fabric.

At this moment, I no longer care about whether I am doing a right or wrong thing. I don’t need to rationally judge whether I am awake or not. Maybe I have never thought about it from the beginning, and I have never known what I should do. Doing is right, it is the best for him, I can't care so much, I can't consider all aspects, I am just a mediocre person, walking crookedly on a road that no one has ever walked before , Walking through the fog and swamp, swinging back and forth, shaking from side to side, struggling hard, maybe all are in vain.

Where will we end up?

Is the end dark or light, happy or sad, lucky or unlucky?

But right now, I just want to do one thing.

I want to hold his hand.

I quietly took the two rings out of my pocket, and was about to put them on Xi Rong's hands.

At this moment, a gust of cold wind suddenly blew up, and I shook involuntarily, and accidentally dropped one of the rings from my hand.

The silver ring fell on the ground, before I could react, it bounced on the ground, and then slid down from the edge of the balcony on the third floor as if deliberately against me——

I froze, my blood was frozen, and I watched in disbelief.

This...how could it be?

Just a little bit, just a little bit, why did I drop it?How could I drop it?

Why at this time, I'm still so disappointing, even if I take a small ring, what else can I do?

Xi Rong reacted quickly, he spread out my palm, and there was only a solitary ring-shaped object lying in the palm of my hand.

It's pretty self-explanatory what I was going to do secretly just now.

His expression was very complicated for a while, so I couldn't see what he was thinking at all, and then he said: "You stay here, I'll go down and look for it."

Then he quickly opened the door like a gust of wind and went downstairs. I was completely stunned, still in a daze, my mind was completely blank, as if the electricity was cut off.

Is it God's will, or fate?

Even if I muster up the courage, even if I can pass my test, we will never be able to spend the day together, and even the ring that has been hidden for so long is inexplicably missing at the last moment, doesn't it mean that the two of us Doomed to be separated, doomed not to end well?

I don't know what suddenly aroused my great pessimism, the scene right now is too dramatic, I tightly hold the only remaining ring, and there is only one name left in it, which is Xi Rong's name.

The one with my name on it is gone.

Xi Rong's figure quickly appeared downstairs.

Under the balcony, there are clumps of green plants planted on the ground. In the dark night, it is almost impossible to see anything under the cover of lush leaves.

What's more, falling from such a high place, such a small ring has long been blown by the wind, and the difficulty of finding it is no different from finding a needle in a haystack.

I saw that Xi Rong got into the grass immediately after going downstairs. He bent his back and leaned over to search carefully inch by inch in the green belt, and soon he was covered in mud.

I can't describe how I felt at that moment.

I want to tell him, Xi Rong, don't look for it, it's impossible to find it.

But on the other hand, I couldn't help looking forward to it, even my heart raised my throat, I only hoped that a miracle would happen.

Xi Rong bent down and searched for a long time, then came out from the grass and stood up straight.

The boulder in my heart fell half again.

He raised his hand and wiped his forehead hair with his sleeve, then raised his head, just in time to meet my gaze upstairs.

Under the dim light, it was difficult for me to see his expression clearly, and the outline of his figure was almost hidden in the darkness, making it difficult for me to see clearly.

He stood there without moving for a long time, and I stood upstairs looking at him from afar.

That feeling, as if half of his body is sinking in the endless abyss of darkness, I was afraid that he would sink inch by inch if he was not careful, but he looked up at me.

I don't know if he wants to say something, the wind is so loud, I can't see anything, I can't hear anything clearly.

Then, he seemed to have just rested for a while to catch his breath, and then he bowed down again, held up his mobile phone, and continued to search by the light of the flashlight.

Time passed by every minute and every second, and I actually gradually gave up in my heart.

I don't understand why he is so persistent. He bent down again and again, raised his head again, and searched again. In the end, he almost knelt down on the ground.

If no one stopped, I even doubt that he can turn the whole field over.

I held onto the railing and shouted at him: "Forget it, Xi Rong, come up!"

He didn't react at all, pretending he didn't hear, he was still squatting in the mud, moving slowly with the light of the flashlight.

Don't look for it.Don't look for it.

Why bother, the feeling of being hopeful and then suddenly disappointed is not good. We all suffer in the meantime, but we still can't get rid of an accident, a blunder.

Forget it, really forget it.

That's it, nothing is gone.

This may be fate, don't resist, don't struggle.

I yelled at him several times from above, until my voice was almost hoarse, but Xi Rong was still deaf and unmoved underneath.

Why is this person so stubborn?

Isn't he tired?If he couldn't find it anywhere, would he just squat in the grass all night?

He said it was impossible, why didn't he believe it?

Just when I finally couldn't bear it and planned to run down to drag him up myself...

He straightened up suddenly, raised his head, and showed me a long-lost faint smile.

The dimly flickering old street lamp downstairs reflected his sharp face, with crystal beads of sweat on his forehead.

He spread his hands.

In the palm of his hand, something silver gleamed.

He lip-synced to me and said, found it.

The wind messed up the broken hair on his forehead, and his eyes looking up at me were as dazzling as the stars twinkling in the night sky.

Suddenly, tears filled my eyes.