bad derailment

The weather on the day of Lin Nuo's college entrance examination was just right, and the sun was shining brightly in Yancheng, which entered summer.

Waiting outside the school was full of anxious teachers, parents and police officers who came to maintain order.I stood among them and sent Lin Nuo into the examination room according to my mother's order.

"Examination admission ticket, pencil case, and ID card, have you brought all of them?"

"It's all set." Lin Nuo said on his lips, but he didn't know how many times he checked it in his hand.

I rubbed her head, "Don't be nervous, just play normally, and your level will definitely not be bad."

Lin Nuo murmured softly, "I wasn't nervous at first, but now you're talking about it all the time, and now I'm getting nervous."

"Then I won't talk about it," I changed the subject dumbfounded, "After you finish the exam, I'll take you and your parents out for a good meal, and the location is up to you."

"It's not my fault this time, is it?" Lin Nuo teased me, focusing on what happened last time, "By the way, do you want to call Brother Chen together? He is also a member of our family, and my parents like it anyway. He, if you make a reason, they will definitely not suspect it."

I froze, and my locked emotions were pried up by the name that suddenly came into my ears, and I raised a nondescript and somewhat bad smile, "No, we...he is very busy recently."

Lin Nuo didn't notice the strangeness in my words, and felt a little regretful when he heard it, "Is that so? That's fine."

Many students came one after another outside the examination room. After she greeted me, she hurried over to talk to friends she knew.I was still stuck in the blankness caused by Chen Feng for a few seconds before, and it took a long time before I took a breath of fresh air.

I'm not ready to confess to Lin Nuo. For her now, these things are a bit too complicated, and she may not understand them.But now, she has more important things waiting for her to do.

The surroundings gradually became noisy, and it was gradually approaching the time for students to enter the examination room.Lin Nuo was chatting with friends who were assigned to the same school. I didn't know who among them said "Ms. Jiang is here" first, and they all looked in one direction.

I almost turned around subconsciously, and my eyes met Jiang Qiushi who was walking not far away.

Up to now, I can't count how long it has been since I last met Jiang Qiushi, but the moment I saw him, all the unclear fragments suddenly jumped up clearly.

Jiang Qiushi also saw me, but the gaze under the lens paused slightly, then moved away to look elsewhere.He seemed taciturn, even a little cold to make people feel boring, but his popularity among the students was surprisingly high.When several students, including Lin Nuo, stepped forward to surround Jiang Qiu, they were chattering and didn't know what to say.

This distance is just right, allowing me to stop in place and stare at him quietly, without making any time-consuming reactions, or recalling the embarrassment of the last time.

He was still dressed in the simple and unadorned style, but he looked a little whiter and thinner. A narrow wrist was exposed from the cuff of his shirt, as if he could hold it with one hand.

My eyes flickered, and I thought about some things that were not so important in my mind for a while.When it was time to enter the examination room, I made a cheering gesture to Lin Nuo. She turned her head and smiled at me, swaying her ponytail and rushing into the examination room with all the candidates.

Maybe it was God who felt pity and put away the vicious sunlight.I suddenly felt nervous at the moment Lin Nuo left, and my mind was full of her performance in the examination room later.

If there is no such sudden interruption from the side.

"Lin Yao."

He called out my name.

In fact, when it comes to Jiang Qiushi, no action can be regarded as a complete 'disturbance'.When he came, he was like the wind, like the air, and it was only when he noticed that he was already so close to him.

I turned my head to look at him, and it took a long time before my heart beat faster, which suddenly disturbed the thoughts about Lin Nuo in my mind.

"Teacher Jiang..."

After the word 'Autumn Time' circled around his mouth, it was finally replaced by the word 'teacher' who couldn't hear the closeness.

Jiang Qiushi's eyes under the lens seemed to darken for a moment, maybe it was just my hallucination.He asked calmly and naturally as usual: "Didn't Lin Nuo's parents come over together?"

I couldn't understand his sudden approach, and I didn't understand why he took the initiative to chat with me after leaving the note of "don't meet again". I could only briefly say: "My family is old, it is inconvenient Standing under the sun for a day, we are going to go out to celebrate together after Lin Nuo finishes his exams."

Jiang Qiushi nodded, "There is a rest area for the candidates' parents over there. You can go and sit down when you are tired from standing."

I replied, "Okay."

He didn't look at me, and I looked back, looking at the entrance of the examination room with some concealment.In fact, there is nothing to say between Jiang Qiushi and I. We all know that we will never go back to the previous state.

Compared to such embarrassing silence, it is better to cut off the last link earlier, and go as far as possible.

Chen Feng's departure completely extinguished the last spark in my heart. Those throbbing that was about to move and shouldn't have caused me to stumble a lot.I wouldn't be so stupid as to stumble twice on the same mistake, Gu Mingsheng was too late, but Jiang Qiushi, at least not too late.

"Then I'll go and sit there first." Countless excuses tangled up in my mind, and I chose the one that sounded the most seamless and said, "It will take a long time to wait for Nuonuo to come out."

Jiang Qiushi said, "Okay."

He stood there without moving, and his gaze didn't move a bit. I breathed a sigh of relief, and when I turned to leave, there was an inexplicable sense of loss, which passed quickly.

Surrounded by waiting parents, groups blocked the road.I stopped and went, and it was a bit difficult to move. I looked around the waiting area to find an empty place, and I caught a glimpse of someone walking beside me out of the corner of my eye.

I turned my head to look at him, and was stunned for a few seconds before tentatively asking: "...Mr. Jiang, why are you here?"

Standing beside me, Jiang Qiushi didn't know when to catch up with me. At this moment, she met my gaze calmly and explained calmly: "The sun is a little bright, I will go to the side with you and wait."

I looked up at the faint sunlight behind the clouds, and nodded with difficulty pretending not to understand anything.

Quiet, still quiet, even though there are students and parents chatting everywhere, accompanied by the noisy cicadas on the trees, I still feel that Jiang Qiushi and Jiang Qiushi beside me have fallen into endless silence.

"Sorry, Lin Yao."

I don't know how long it took before I heard Jiang Qiushi's cold voice, "I haven't contacted you during this time because..."

I didn't know which muscle was wrong, so I rushed ahead of him and said, "Is it because you are too busy at work?"

The eyelashes under his glasses trembled, covering half of the exposed deep meaning.I don't know why I said it out of the blue, my mouth seems out of control, and so does my brain.

This is not a good time to chat at all, and in this environment where there is no privacy, there is still a wrong time.

But I vaguely know that if I miss this time, I will probably never have a suitable time with him.

Jiang Qiushi looked at me, made a certain decision in the wordless silence, and spoke slowly.

"During this time, I've been thinking about our relationship," he paused briefly, "I didn't contact you because I didn't think about the answer."

Unsurprisingly, I twitched the corner of my mouth, "Have you not thought about it yet?"

Jiang Qiushi always likes to keep all his emotions in his eyes and heart, and what he says is always a few words that have been carefully considered to ensure that there will be no mistakes.

In the past, this firmly attracted me to explore his unknown side, but now I am stopped in the middle of this road, tired of continuing to walk.

He didn't speak, and I couldn't help but continued: "Jiang Qiushi, in fact, your answer is already obvious. I know what you want to say, and what you want to say is also the answer I want to tell you. These things are all my own. It's a human fault, now I won't make things difficult for you anymore, in the future... we will restore our identities as parents and teachers of the students."

After that, I added with a smile, "No, she will officially graduate after Lin Nuo finishes the exam, we don't even count as this level of relationship, just like what you said on the note before, we will Just don't meet again."

These words were not as difficult to say as I imagined, but I spoke quickly and fluently when I met Jiang Qiushi's gaze.

When the last word was pronounced, I actually felt elated, as if venting the suffocation that had been suppressed in my heart for a long time.For probably the first and last time, I had the upper hand in the relationship.

Their gazes merged in the air, leading to a long silence.It seemed extremely difficult for Jiang Qiushi to understand these two sentences. The gaze he cast was deeply drawn into my eyes, as if he was trying to dig out the unnaturalness hidden in the dark that I deliberately concealed.

I took the lead to look away, blocking the heart-pounding stare at each other. Just as I maintained my composure on my face, his voice was carried into my ears again by the wind.

"Lin Yao, you don't know what I want to say, these are just your guesses."

Maybe it's due to personal preference, or some other reason, Jiang Qiushi always likes to call out my name completely.

These two words do not contain any intimate voice, only the tip of the tongue is pressed against the teeth, the lips are slightly opened, and a lingering note is released from the depths of the throat, like sticky sugar that has melted and dripped on the heart, with some unconcealable hot feeling.

"Then tell me directly." I was silent for a long time, and I heard my own voice asking, "Jiang Qiushi, what are you thinking?"

This is not a good place to talk, and he and I understand that.Jiang Qiushi walked a certain distance with me, away from the noisy center, and slowly stopped in an open space where no one was disturbed.

It seems that my heart has also calmed down, no matter what answer I hear next, there will be no more waves.

"Lin Yao, you should understand that this incident itself was a mistake." He looked at me deeply and restrainedly, with many emotions in his eyes hesitating, "That night also happened because of impulse."

I looked at him ridiculously and smiled, "I know, so I said it was all my fault..."

"No."

Jiang Qiushi interrupted me abruptly, he pursed the corners of his lips, his quiet face was rarely moved, trembling slightly.

He made up his mind and spoke slowly word by word.

"I knew your purpose from the very beginning, and your thoughts about me. Maybe you thought it was well hidden, but in fact it was not very successful."

My head buzzed, and then I heard Jiang Qiushi's next sentence.

"But you still succeeded," he lowered his eyelashes, and said very softly and slowly, "If you want to miss you at home... I miss you too."