Leisurely with the wind

Sister Li and Sister Jiang lamented the past, which also made Xu Youran and Lin Keren deeply understand the difficulty of the two of them, or in their era, same-sex love was very difficult, even now, Although everyone's minds have been opened up a lot, there are still many people who are hiding their true selves, and more people finally fell apart due to various reasons. With a deeper understanding and thinking, I have a clearer plan for the future.

"Okay, okay, don't mention our bad things at the beginning, at least we still have a future, you two also tell us about your own affairs, I heard from you, sister Li, that you are also very upset because of these things , the two of us are experienced people, maybe we can give you some advice." Sister Jiang said with a smile, she has been living in China, and the environment before was too harsh, and then she got older, and it was more or less considered She is a public figure, so Sister Jiang has never been in contact with the same kind, and now she meets two young people, and she is a little curious.

Although Xu Youran and Lin Keren were a little shy, they still talked about their own affairs, especially Lin Keren. Xu Youran didn't know anything about her affairs. Said: "Why didn't you tell me these things, if I knew earlier, I wouldn't let Zhang Jie go easily."

Sister Li also frowned and nodded, "Darling, you really didn't pay attention. Next time you go out, you must bring more people with you. Although you are not afraid of drinking, sometimes you don't know what will happen to you." , Girls must learn to protect themselves."

Lin Keren smiled wryly and kept agreeing, "I know, I know, in fact, I have been paying attention to this incident after that, and I didn't tell Youran because I was afraid that she would be worried, but you see, she really exploded. I also Wrong, I thought that drinking was fine and nothing would happen, but I almost capsized in the gutter, and when I went out later, I would bring a lot of people with me, and there would be male colleagues, so the safety factor has increased a lot, so you can rest assured."

"You still have the nerve to say, if you told me earlier, I would have known it, not to mention that this matter is also a warning to myself, how could you hide it from me!" Xu Youran pouted, muttering dissatisfied .

Lin Keren blushed, and said embarrassingly: "Looking at the result of this matter, I didn't lose anything, and I have been unclear with Zheng Zheng since then, how could I have the nerve to tell you, let's talk about it , I didn’t make Zhang Jie feel better either!”

Sister Jiang smoothed things over with a smile, "Okay, okay, the matter is over, but I have learned my lesson, so I just need to pay attention in the future. But I think He Zhengqing is a child with a strong sense of responsibility. , and a very thoughtful person. She is a good child, but sometimes she thinks more complicated. When you are in a relationship with her, don't play tricks. It is easy to cause misunderstandings. Try to treat each other with sincerity. Any two people get along , Once there are more lies, the relationship will be shattered, not to mention a sensitive child like her."

Lin Keren nodded vigorously, "I know, and I'm also paying attention to this aspect."

"But I still don't understand. Even if they are friends, He Zhengqing's sense of responsibility for Chu Suifeng is too strong, right? What's more, they didn't grow up together like childhood sweethearts, just like you leisurely How could she care so much about Chu Suifeng because of her sister's relationship?" Sister Li said with a puzzled face.

Lin Ke was stunned. She didn't dare to fully explain the matter of Chu Suifeng and He Zhengqing, so she could only vaguely say that she couldn't figure it out. Anyway, that's what He Zhengqing said and did, and everyone agreed. I can only avoid this topic with confusion, and I can't ask He Zhengqing to ask.

Lin Keren figured it out, and said what should be said, everyone's focus was on Xu Youran.

"Youran, the problem on your side is more serious. I've heard you talk about it until now, and found that Chu Suifeng is actually a very low self-esteem person. Not only is he low self-esteem, but he also lacks a sense of security. It is very tiring to associate with such a person. Yes, most people will give up. Of course, I am not persuading you to give up, but I hope you understand that it will be difficult for you." Sister Jiang frowned and analyzed carefully, "And to be honest, this time she will go out with you I always feel that I don’t want to get back together with you, but rather want to draw a clear line with you. I think she should love you very much. Her love for you and her understanding of herself make her understand her There is no way to give you happiness, so I keep avoiding you."

Xu Youran nodded with tears in her eyes, "I know, I felt it when I was with her. During this time, every other week, Sui Feng would ask me out to the places we had been together. I found that there are really very few places we have been to together.”

Xu Youran couldn't help shedding tears, and the three of them surrounded her to comfort her, "When I was with her, I was busy with work every day, and the place where we spent the longest time together was the company and the villa. What she did was to take her romantically on her birthday, but the result was nothing more than self-satisfaction, because I knew she didn't like western food, but for the sake of atmosphere, I took her to a western restaurant, two days ago , she also took me once, made an appointment at the same place, ordered the same food, but the band was missing, probably because she couldn't find it, after all, I hired the band outside, so it's normal for her not to find it, But it made me realize that I'm running out of chance to get it back because we're now left with the playground, the last place we've ever been with memories, and there's nothing I can do to get her back."

Seeing Xu Youran bursting into tears, Sister Li sighed and said, "Does it really have to be her?"

Xu Youran nodded vigorously, and finally said with a wry smile: "I don't think so, I have tried, I have also been in touch, I have tried everything, but the moment I saw her, I rediscovered that my heart is Beating, at that moment, I was alive. When I was with her, I would feel attached and wanted to return to that warm embrace, but she didn't even give me the chance to hold hands, and avoided me like a snake. I know I hurt her, but she always says no. Every time I apologize to her, she will show a more painful expression, but if I don't apologize, I don't know how to save her. Sister Li, I have been avoiding She, but I found that as long as I think of her, I will smile unconsciously, and I will feel satisfied when I am with her, and I really, really want her to come back to me."

Sister Jiang shook her head and said helplessly: "At the beginning, when you Sister Li left me, I was also very painful and hated her very much. I even wanted to give up on her and forget her. At that time, I didn't even know that I was in What to insist on, and I don’t know what I want. It wasn’t until she came back and appeared in front of me that I realized that I had been waiting for her. Although some people said that a broken mirror is reunited, there will still be cracks left. This is true. Yes, when I was with your sister Li, I also felt very uneasy, and I felt very insecure at that time, but your sister Li never gave up on me and gave me a lot of support. I have been persevering. Youran, if you want to be with her, then I believe that even though she has many shortcomings, she must also have many advantages, and her feelings for you must be very sincere, because you are also a very Sensitive child, you can feel it. If you really want to be with her, then you have to be patient enough, sincere enough, and then let her feel it, let her open up to you completely. This The road is difficult, and it may not be able to pass through, if you want to persist, I can only say that we will support you, you can discuss with us if you have anything, and we will do our best to help you."

Xu Youran burst into tears and thanked her again and again. She didn't intend to give up, but this kind of strong support made her even more motivated.

"Youran, I think there should be a big problem with this Chu Suifeng. How should I put it, I always feel that there is something wrong with her, and it's not small, which makes her personality a little unpredictable, but people don't understand her well. It's not very thorough either. I could have asked Zhengqing to investigate, but with Zhengqing's personality, she would definitely not be willing to investigate her friends. Why don't we find other people to investigate her past? This might help us Understand her state of mind."

Before Xu Youran could refuse, Sister Jiang patted Sister Li on the shoulder reproachfully, "What kind of idea did you come up with? If someone has something on his mind and doesn't want to tell you, it means that you haven't done enough, you just know Can opportunistic, emotional matters be handled casually? Youran, I think you should have discovered that you have not done enough. You have obtained the emotions you need from Chu Suifeng, but you have not really understood I have never thought about what she needs before Chu Suifeng. Even now, all you think about is how to get her back to you, but you have never thought about what she thinks. You Ran, you must Find a way to get her to talk to you, let her speak out, there are some secrets in her heart, only if she is willing to share with you, you will really get her heart, and your relationship will be guaranteed. Feelings, yes It takes time and dedication.”

Xu Youran was silent. It's not that she didn't give her sincerity, but she felt that her dedication was meaningless to Chu Suifeng. Her deep affection, Chu Suifeng seemed to be unable to see her, and her persistence, Chu Suifeng avoided it. Xu Youran didn't know how to make Chu Suifeng understand her heart, did she really want to dig out her heart and put it in front of her?

Seeing that Xu Youran was silent, Sister Jiang continued to speak with a smile.

"When you Sister Li and I just got back together, you Sister Li always felt that she was ashamed of me, she was obedient to me, and she was cautious. At that time, even though she treated me like this, I still didn't feel safe. , and even thinking about it. Every day lying in bed, I would think about whether I did something wrong today. Is it really okay for me to go on like this? Will your sister Li get bored one day? I am so useless , Can two people really go on? This kind of thinking disturbs my nerves every day and makes me suspicious. At that time, I really thought, did I do something wrong? I finally made up my mind to find you, Sister Li, and the two of us had a thorough heart-to-heart talk."

Sister Li seemed to recall that memory, and couldn't help laughing out loud. When she found that her laughter had attracted the attention of the other three, she looked at Sister Jiang's unfriendly gaze, and then quickly waved her hand to explain: "It's nothing, I just remembered the way it was then.”

Seeing the puzzlement in the eyes of Xu Youran and Lin Keren, Sister Li continued to explain with a smile: "At that time, I was actually very disturbed. Although your Sister Jiang agreed to get back with me, we separated too much after all. Time, personal habits and so on, have changed a lot, coupled with the pressure of the domestic environment, the pressure of the family, and your sister Jiang's neurotic performance, these all make me very uneasy. If it is not because I have exercised abroad, I I'm afraid I really can't support my nerves. The most important thing is that I was working in a foreign company at the time, and the style of those foreigners was completely different from that in China. Although I was capable, I was under a lot of pressure, so I was about to collapse at that time. If it wasn't for you, Sister Jiang, who had a good communication with me, we might not have made it to the end."

Hearing Sister Li's explanation, Sister Jiang rolled her eyes and said with a smile: "When two people are together, there will always be various problems. After all, they are two different people with different thoughts and different opinions. Habits, blindly accommodating each other is not a good choice, mutual compromise, mutual understanding is the way to get along. In my life, the only two things I can't let go of are you, Sister Li, and your career as an actor. My sexual orientation problem If it was exposed at that time, it would be a fatal blow to my career. Although I have never been very famous, I really like acting. For acting, you sister Li has always been a shady existence. Even if I am not famous, we are together I always felt sorry for her. But you sister Li has always supported me, and even waited for me for so many years. We have no wedding, no blessings, no children, and even I almost They were all raised by your sister Li, but she never complained, she never left me, this kind of love is the reason why I will never change until death, because of this love, I can always maintain the love for me. Her love. Love is mutual, and love is also realistic. Don’t idealize love too much. You can’t take care of love when you don’t have enough to eat. If you want the other person to always know what you want, what do you think in your heart? Yes, this is also unrealistic, it is realistic to turn love into life, integrate it into life, and then live with love.”

When they left Sister Li and Sister Jiang's home, Xu Youran and Lin Keren didn't speak for a long time. They learned a lot and thought a lot.

Unlike the two of them, the starting point of the two of them is higher than theirs. At least, even if the domestic companies go bankrupt, the money in the foreign account is enough for the two of them to spend the rest of their lives in style, and there is no need to think about what will happen if they don't have money .

The starting point of love, bread is absolutely guaranteed.

But even so, the two still took so many detours in love, and they didn't have much confidence in the future. However, what Sister Li and Sister Jiang told them made them understand a lot.

They will take so many detours and have no confidence, it is because they think too little.

Yes, they are guaranteed, their money is enough to guarantee their future, even after ten or twenty years, if they feel that they can't live with each other, they can turn around and leave gracefully, but what about Chu Suifeng and He Zhengqing ?Who will guarantee their future?How should their anxiety be eliminated?

For the first time, the two of them began to think carefully about the future. It was no longer a mirage, no longer a vague concept, but a down-to-earth face of reality and problems.

When two people are together, they have bread, a sense of security, and love, so why can't they achieve the goal of loving each other and growing old together?

The two felt that they should work hard for this goal.