my dog ​​brother

After two or three seconds, the coughing on the other end of the phone stopped, my heart began to sink, and my forehead felt numb. At this time, the black smoke from the small window almost covered the entire alley behind me. drowned.

I grabbed the wall, not wanting to run to safety.

I asked him again, brother dog, where are you?

His voice became a little hoarse, but he spoke at a steady pace, but he didn't answer my question. He said, Ji Wen, do you remember when my birthday is on the lunar calendar?

My brain exploded immediately, like that kind of CD with a blurred screen, I ran to the front door with my legs open.

He laughed and said, I knew you couldn't remember. 0507, remember this time, remember a few more people's names, my father Ruan Yunxin, my second uncle Ruan Yunxi, and my third uncle Ruan Yuntai.If you can't find me, go to my second uncle. There is a basement in his house. I just told you the digital code for the basement.Remember it?

I couldn't speak, my throat seemed to be cut by a knife, and my lungs were beating like a blower. I ran out of the alley, and there were already many people around me, but they didn't dare to get too close. All green and red dots.

boom----

A heat wave poured out from the windows of the building, red tongues of flame rolled out black smoke, and a strong smell of burning permeated the air, crackling, crackling, my ears started to ring again, and the waves of fire made my hair start to limp.

He didn't pick me up at the alley, or at the front door.

Fuck you liar!

fraud!

fraud!

fraud!

I don't know what it means to be crazy, but I'm too angry and hopeless to think about anything, including death.

I remember I started rushing into the bar, the temperature was very high, it was very hot, it was very painful, I only noticed the fire, it was very big, overwhelming, the whole world was that fire.

But without him, there is no him anywhere.

There is Zhou Ao, there is A Sheng, there is Meng Xia, there is Xiao Xiao, there is Xiao Qiu, there is Liu Xue, there is Zhang Jidong, there are so many people, so many, so many.

But there is no dog brother.

I knew it at a glance, there is no him here, I remember him so clearly, I have thought about him so many times, even if I only see his pair of shoes, his back, and his arm, I can still recognize him.

but.

Someone grabbed me, I started yelling, I started struggling, I started hitting people.

How can he lie to me?

I trust him so much, how can he lie to me?

He said he would pick me up at the alley.

Just lie to me!

Just fucking lie to me!

I'm easy to cheat, right? Easy to lie, right?

I'm a fucking liar, right?

I said, Brother Zhou, I want to go in, but he hasn't come out yet.You let me in, and I kowtow to you.

No one paid attention to me, Zhou Ao just held me tightly.

He said, the firefighters are here, Ji Wen.he will be fine.

I knelt down, but I couldn't kneel down, and many people grabbed me.

I said, please do me a favor, please do me a favor, I will be your cow and horse in my next life, and I will do whatever I want.

Ah Sheng started to cry, he said, Ji Wen, you still have your father, think about your father, think about me.

What is he crying for?

The firemen are here, it's safe, I just have to go in and find him.

I said, Ah Sheng, let me in, we are brothers, let me in if we are brothers.

He cried even harder.

I said, Ah Sheng, don't cry, I miss my dad, I miss you, I will stay here.

I reached out to help him wipe his tears, he smiled and said, I will do it myself.

I punched him, I never punched him, the first time I punched him, I had to punch him in the hospital.

I ran away.

They all thought that I was going to die, but in fact, only that way was my way of life.

Otherwise, if I can't find him, how can I survive?

I still couldn't get in.

Can't remember, maybe I fainted, maybe someone knocked me out, maybe I was sedated.

I hate them, and I hate Ruan Xun even more.

It's hard to describe the trembling that spread throughout my body the moment I woke up again, because this world is full of cruelty and malice for me, and I would rather continue to sleep until I die.

I didn't dare to open my eyes, and I even forced myself not to think about anything, and I would collapse if I thought about it.

I am not afraid of breaking down, but I am afraid of thinking about him, I am afraid of facing the ending, I am afraid that I will never find where he is again.

I heard someone say, wake up.

I was very familiar with the very familiar voice, but I forgot who it was, but I just couldn’t remember it, the kind of inability to remember it, probably the same as the radar can’t locate it all the time.

He said, Wenwen, Dad is here.

My tears flowed out all at once, I am really a waste material, I don't even know the voice of my father who has worked so hard to raise me for more than 20 or [-] years.

I'm so stupid, how can I not be deceived.

He said, Wenwen, is there any pain?

I shook my head.

He reached into the quilt, stroked my arm, sighed, and said, the doctor said there was a slight burn and tissue damage, nothing serious.

I tilted my head, my whole body curled up, and I never opened my eyes. I tried very hard to sleep, but I couldn't fall asleep anymore.

After a while, someone came in, and I heard footsteps.

With a low voice, he said, Ji Wen, Ruan Xun has been rescued, he is safe, and he has not woken up yet, don't worry, I will accompany you to see him later.

I was shaking my dad's hand, and I was so excited because I hated him so much.

I don't want to see him at all.

I buried my head in the pillow, tearing at the fabric of the pillow while weeping.

My dad called me and patted the quilt on me lightly.

I remembered the fire again, and I remembered what he said on the phone to wait for me to come out.

If only I had been smarter, instead of digging out, I would have knocked open the toilet door and found him.

It was he who lied to me.

Ruan Xun woke up two days later.

Zhou Ao said that he did not have superficial burns, because he was hiding in a small basement under the storage room where the wine was stored, mainly due to lack of oxygen and inhalation of carbon monoxide. However, the rescue was timely and his life was saved, but his lungs were damaged and infected. , but also hospitalized for a period of time.

He said, Ji Wen, are you going to see him?He is awake.

I said nothing.

He smiled and said, he must want to see you the most. When the fire started, he was closest to the door. Everyone ran outside, but he ran inside. He said he wanted to find you, but I couldn't stop him.

I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth.

Zhou Ao said, don't talk if you don't want to talk, go and see him.

I couldn't speak, and I couldn't speak when I woke up.

Sore throat.

As soon as I opened my mouth, I thought of my hoarse begging them to let me in, of the smoke pouring in, and of him asking me if I remembered his birthday.

I followed Zhou Ao to his ward, but I didn't go in.

I have seen it secretly before, standing far away, I can only see the people coming in and out of the ward and the security guards outside the ward.

I leaned against the door and poked my head. There were not many people inside at the moment, except for Zhou Ao, there was another man of indeterminate age, probably in his forties, and he looked a bit like Ruan Xun.

He caught sight of me and squinted his eyes.

I backed off again.

Ruan Xun said, Ji Wen, won't you come in and see me?

I heard him laughing, and coughed a little while smiling.

I turned sideways and glanced in, and my eyes turned red.

What's it like to love someone and hate someone at the same time?

I don't want to go in, I really don't want to see him.

When I saw him, I couldn't help but think of that despair.

The world is so big, but you can't find him.

There are infinite things, the infinite starry sky, and the infinite universe, but he can't find any of them. Isn't this infinite despair?

He said, are you really not coming in?If you don’t come in, I asked Zhou Ao to close the door.

I took a step inside and stood against the wall.

He said, stand up.

I looked at him, his chin was full of stubble, and his hair was almost shaved, probably scorched by the fire.

He saw that I was not moving, and said, are you unable to speak or walk?You want me to get out of bed and go to your side, right?

The man sitting on the side cleared his throat and said, I'll go back first, your second uncle will come over tonight.

When he walked past me, he patted me on the back and said, Xiao Ji, it’s not a big deal, just relax, don’t be so nervous and you will be able to talk in a few days.

Zhou Ao said, Uncle Ruan, go slowly.

He nodded and went out the door.

Zhou Ao also found an excuse to go out.

Just me and him.

He said, pour me a glass of water.

There was a good one on the head of his bed, I glanced at it, and walked over to hand it to him.

He asked me to drink it, and he said he couldn't drink it yet.

I took a sip.

He stroked my Adam's apple back and forth with his fingers and said in a low voice, why don't you talk?

I poured that glass of water into it, not wanting to say, my throat hurts.

He touched it for a while, then took my hand and put it on his chest. I could feel the place inside the chest beating rhythmically, strong and powerful.

He said, Ji Wen, I am here.

I wanted to kill him, I squeezed my fist.

But it just pressed against his chest, panting violently.

He said, didn't he say he wanted to love me all the time?It's only been a few days since you wanted to hit me.

How could I really be willing to hit him, I just put my ear up to listen to the sound of his heart beating.

He touched my ear, didn't know whether to rub or pull, after a while, he suddenly said, Ji Wen, do you know me, do you love me the most?