prefer silence

The next day, in order to satisfy Chen Zheng's rare and naive needs, I went to the flower and bird market again.

Sending a pot of ball orchids that are the same as Yuan Jie's is obviously not satisfactory to Chen Zheng, I have to pick a pot that is more thoughtful than ball orchids.

This potted plant should be placed on Chen Zheng's desk, it should be small, preferably a green plant.I walked around and saw mostly green radishes and succulents.These are already very common on the desks of female colleagues in law firms, so I don't think about them at all.

Finally, I saw a pot of asparagus bamboo in a larger shop.The leaves are small, green, small and delicate.As soon as my eyes lit up, it was it.

The boss is very enthusiastic. Seeing the small rockery I bought as an accessory, he sent two extra bags of nutrient soil prepared by myself, and added WeChat to say that he can contact him at any time if you have any planting problems in the future.

I was carrying all these things and was about to go home, but my mother suddenly called me.

"Hey, Mom, what's up?"

There was no sound from Mom for a while, and there was a faint sob.

I was in a hurry, put down my bag, stood by the side of the road and turned on the speakerphone, "Mom, can you hear me? What's wrong?"

"Yuanyuan..." Mom called my name in grief, and couldn't help crying, "Your grandfather is going to die, you can ask for leave tomorrow and go to the hospital with me to see him."

Grandpa is dead?Why can't it work, the old man is still very energetic during the Spring Festival...

I was pinching the phone, and every word my mother said made me flustered, "Mom, I can't make it clear on the phone, I will go home tonight, you wait for me."

After hanging up the phone, I quickly ran to the parking space, my hands were shaking when I inserted the key, I fell on the seat and took a few deep breaths, and finally started the car.

I don't know how I got home, I followed the traffic through several traffic lights along the way, maybe ran a yellow light, but I don't care anymore.

From the short ten seconds after ringing the doorbell to when my mother opened the door for me, I kept thinking about what the scene would be like inside the door.Is Mom holding Dad and crying, is she calling Uncle to inform them, is she staring at the window in a daze again.

She became a housewife after being fired from her work unit, and every time she felt sad, she would just sit there by herself.

The door opened, Dad opened the door for me.His eyes were red, and when he saw me, he only said, "Go and see your mother."

I went to the bedroom, the door was ajar.Mom leaned against the bed, weeping silently, and her mental state seemed to be ten years older all of a sudden.My heart hurts, the last time I saw her was only a few weeks ago.

"Mom." I stepped forward and took her hand, "What's the matter?"

Mom heard that the tears flowed even more fiercely, "Your grandfather has liver cancer, which is at an advanced stage. He found it through his own physical examination. Your grandmother left early, and no one cared about him. He just told us last week. The doctor Said, at most one month left. He still doesn't want to be hospitalized, saying that he has lived enough, how can there be such a person? How can he do this?"

Liver cancer in the advanced stage is such a terrible disease that even our courage to fight against it has faded away.

"Is grandpa in the hospital now? Is there nothing the doctor can do to prolong his life?" I asked.

"It's useless, Yuanyuan. He's taking medicine now, but he can't control it anymore. It's useless. It would be great if he could find out half a year earlier..."

My tears were crackling on the hands I held with my mother. Grandpa said he had lived enough, how could he? He has not yet celebrated his 73rd birthday this year, and some elderly people in our community are still dancing at the age of 80 .

Saying that enough is enough is just comforting the children.

"Uncle, does uncle know?"

The relationship between grandfather and uncle is not good, and the biological father and son seem to have some mortal hatred, and they never even get through a phone call during the holidays.It's just that grandpa is already like this, so what's wrong with him.

"Your grandpa told me first, and then I told your uncle." Mom wiped her face, "I get angry when I think about it, what time is it, your grandpa is still stubborn! Do you want to make it so that you will be praised after death?" The urn's people don't even have it!"

In my grandfather's hometown, the custom of funerals is that the male of the immediate family will hold the urn, and the female will hold the posthumous photo, and substitutes according to blood relationship.

"Did uncle go to the hospital to see grandpa after he found out?"

"I went there, and there was a quarrel again. We were all kicked out by him. I don't understand, human life is too big, how can they still quarrel? Yuanyuan, remember to ask your grandfather tomorrow, he is now You have a weird temper, you don't like anyone, if you say something ugly, just pretend you didn't hear it."

Before seeing grandpa with my own eyes, I didn't take these words seriously in my heart.Although I am not his grandson, he has always been kind to me. I remember receiving thick red envelopes from him when I was young.For a grandfather who treats people so kindly, no matter how harsh his words are, he can't hear them.

Chen Zheng and I entered his ward, he was half lying on the pillow, reading the newspaper with reading glasses, his eyes were dull, and he didn't move for a long time.

Before entering the ward, the nurse reminded us that the old man had just taken painkillers and was in a bad mood.

I didn't dare to speak loudly, so I walked to the chair beside the bed, knocked on the bedside table to remind someone that someone was coming, then sat down carefully, and called him softly: "Grandpa."

Chen Zheng followed me and also called out "Grandpa".

Grandpa turned his head to look at me. There were still drops of wet sweat on his gully-covered face, and the newspaper was scratched and scratched a few times. It can be seen that he was not reading the newspaper, but was just covering up the pain by reading the newspaper.

"You, what are you doing here?" Grandpa's voice was hoarse, and the byte connection was intermittent, which was due to coughing up phlegm.

"I'll come to see you, you..." I choked up when I said this.For an old man who wants to be strong, is it superfluous to care about him sincerely?

Grandpa didn't appreciate it, he waved at me with one free hand, and motioned me to go, "You shameless bastard, my daughter didn't raise you to make you gay, don't come to see me in the future. I'm about to die , just let my eyes be clean."

My face felt hot.It turns out that the vaccination my mother gave me was not aimless.

"Then, rest well." I hurriedly left this sentence, and dragged Chen Zheng out of the ward.Chen Zheng squeezed my wrist hard, comforted me and said: "The old man is just talking without meaning, don't take it seriously."

Mom waited outside and asked me anxiously: "How is your grandfather?"

Grandpa refused my uncle and mother to visit him. Now, I have been added to his blacklist.

"He was in pain and took painkillers." I shook my head and smiled bitterly, "Grandpa told me not to come here in the future."

Mom was so angry that she shed tears, "This old man! Why are you so stubborn!"

Mom cried a lot outside the ward, and we helped her into the elevator.There was also an uncle in a suit and leather shoes in the elevator, with a mournful expression, and stepped aside when he saw us coming in.

I saw that he looked familiar, so I took a second look. When I got home, I didn't remember where I had seen him before.