strayed into the world

[Lighting the lights to stand in the realm without you,

Only to find that everything has already been arranged. ]

******

Quan Ce and Xu Chi rushed into the room at the same time, shouting in unison,

"What's wrong!"

"What's the matter, Chen!"

Chen turned around, revealing the peacefully sleeping person in his arms. His pale and transparent face was as beautiful as if he was asleep. If it weren't for the scarlet liquid overflowing from his wrist, like an alcohol lamp strung together by flames, everyone would have thought he was just Sleeping quietly... Those uncontrollable blood gushed out of the tearing wound with joy, and blossomed red lotuses on the white marble, staining his white skirt and everyone's eyes red .

Smelling the blood in the wind, long-lasting memories are surging.It's been a long time since I had such a dull pain, it's a sign that I'm about to lose it.He lost his mother more than ten years ago, is he going to lose his mother again now?

... When Chen heard their voices, he was so panicked that he couldn't even speak clearly. His face was already covered with tears, and he hugged his increasingly cold body tightly in his arms, uttering broken sentences, "Hurry up, hurry up!" ! Hurry up and save him!"

Xu Chi was the first to break free from the bright red feast, barely restraining his trembling hands, and swiftly took out gauze from the overturned medicine box to wrap him up, but the wound was deep, and the white gauze just wrapped It was immediately soaked in blood, and the deep suturing equipment was not on him at all.

"No, I have to be sent to the hospital as soon as possible!" He didn't know how long he had lost blood like this, and all he could do now was to go to the hospital as soon as possible, the sooner the better.

"I'm going to call for an ambulance right now." Chen carefully moved the person in his arms into Xu Chi's arms, and then he was about to make a call. Before he even walked out, he was stopped by Quan Ce, who saw him coming directly from Xu Chi's arms He picked him up, strode out the door in a hurry, and dropped a sentence,

"no need!"

Xu Chi originally planned to send him directly to the hospital.In this way, it is still possible to wait for the ambulance to arrive. The emergency situation is like a race against time, and there is no delay.

If death is the person's will, then they are truly wrestling with death.

******

In the corridor of the hospital, two motionless people were sitting and standing.

He propped his head on his hands, and inserted the fingertips of his sleeves into his hair. The hair that was always carefully groomed was hanging down in a mess, casting shadows under his eyes.The other leaned against the wall silently, and they all waited for the red light on the closed door to stop.And this static waiting has lasted for two hours...

Putting his fingers into his hair, Quan Ce stared blankly at the floor... There were bloodstains everywhere on his cuffs and collar, which made his eye sockets sting...

I don't know how he carried that increasingly cold body into the operating room, the bloodstains all over the place were like the journey between them.Bloody, shocking.

The moment he let go of his hand, he felt an unprecedented uneasiness in his heart... the moment he closed the operation door, he even had the idea that he would never see this person again... until now, the violent beating of his heart is still going on, Perhaps it was the gloomyness of the hospital corridor, and the breath of death everywhere made him depressed.

"Damn! I should have known that he wanted to die!" Xu Chi who was on the side cursed angrily, wishing he could slap himself several times.He clearly felt Qing Che's despair and helplessness. Isn't what he said to him in the room the best omen?If he hadn't gone out, he wouldn't have been left alone, and this kind of thing wouldn't have happened.

"Begging to die...?"

Quan Ce recalled this word... strange and terrifying, yet so familiar.

It turned out that he was trying so hard to escape from this world.

For three years, he thought that Xia Qingche was just obedient, accepting all the arrangements he had made for him. He saw the fear and sadness in his eyes, those things that couldn't be more heavy, never made that person collapse. To be freed by death... He was also curious, thinking that at least he should work hard to get out of here, but the result was unexpected.He never once, never thought of escaping, never thought of resisting, although he was in pain, he still stubbornly lived in front of his eyes.

I heard from Chen that when she entered the room, he had already fallen on the ground, and Xu Chi's medicine box was scattered on the ground, and she saw blood-stained scissors among those things, which was the only sharp weapon in the medicine box Something... How much determination did the cowardly man use to hurt himself so deeply that he had to bleed profusely.

Perhaps his nature is stubborn, but his persecution made him humble and humble, and now all the explosions are replaced by exhortations blooming on his wrists, which are so beautiful and thrilling.

"Now, you are satisfied." Xu Chi looked at Quan Ce on the seat, his tone was mostly helpless and sighed, "As you wish, he is finally going to free you."

He said 'relief', which was a kind of relief, a tragic and magnificent escape... and was this what he wanted?Is he happy?Is he overjoyed to be free of this burden at last?

In the following time, the two of them waited in silence for the red light to turn off...

Xu Chi didn't know the dejection under the man's silent face at this moment.It's not that there's no pain, it's not that there's no shock, it's not that there's no regret... It's just that it's too late... before he makes a decision before him... This is the first time Xia Qingche is stronger than him.

*****

Half an hour later the operating light finally went out.When the doctor came out, the little white figure was pushed out by the nurse while lying on the same white hospital bed. The wrist was wrapped in thick gauze, scarlet was faintly visible, and purpura had already appeared on the back of the hand wiping the needle. The faint undulations under the blanket could not even find evidence that he was alive.

Xu Chi asked,

"How's it going?"

"My life is saved. It's just..." The doctor looked at the two men in front of him, hesitant to speak.

"Just what? Say what you have to say!" Quan Ce frowned impatiently.How could he be in the mood to listen to the doctor mumbling for a long time at this moment.

"Who are you from the sick?"

This question was asked to two people at the same time, each thinking about this seemingly simple but extremely sharp question, paused, and when they spoke again, they were surprisingly the same,

"elder brother."

The doctor was taken aback by the tacit understanding between these two people, he couldn't help being a little skeptical but he could only speculate to the end, so he put on a serious tone, looked at them,

"It's good to be a family member. I hope you will bother to take care of the patient in the future. There are many bruises on his body, and there are many new and old wounds... Has he been abused? How could the child commit suicide when he looks so young? I think you should also think about his future life." The doctor said it very bluntly, and the two big men were speechless.Quan Ce's hands in his trouser pockets had long been clenched into fists, and his nails were digging into his flesh, causing tingling pain.

"Yes, I will pay attention." Xu Chi glared at Quan Ce.I'll, huh!well said.It's all thanks to this perverted brother.But the instigator remained silent from beginning to end, was he blaming himself?is it possible?

Xu Chi was really surprised to hear that he told the doctor that he was Qingche's elder brother just now. This person felt that Yu Xin couldn't bear it, did he? He regretted it only after losing it, and it was already too late.

"He's mentally unstable right now. Don't stimulate him again when he wakes up. I'll say the same thing... Your family and friends will have to take good care of you in the later stage of recovery." The doctor's tone was pertinent, as if he saw something Clue.

Thanks to the doctor, the two followed the nurse to the ward.The three words 'Xia Qingche' were written on it, which was both familiar and unfamiliar.

The ward was cleaned up so that the pungent smell of disinfectant could not be smelled, which made Quan Ce feel at ease.Trying to treat this as an ordinary bedroom, Xia Qingche just fell asleep on an extremely ordinary small bed, falling asleep deeper and deeper than usual.I appreciate that only in the dream, the world is peaceful and beautiful.

There is not much time to admire his sleeping face like this. Quan Ce stood by the bed and looked down at his bloodless but still delicate face.The corner of his mouth still has a faint trace, and he knows best how much effort he used before.Probably, apart from this face, there is not much intact skin on his whole body.There are countless places that have been injured, and they get better and get hurt again, and they get better after being hurt, and it goes on and on again.Especially the left hand, I can't remember how many times those needles were inserted into the smooth skin, and the back of the hand would be swollen after taking it out, but he never complained of pain.By the way...he didn't seem to be as afraid of pain as he imagined, even if he was scalded by boiling water or pricked by a needle, he never complained of pain, so...he used his bruised left hand to injure his good right hand, Wouldn't he cry out the pain until he died?

Did I misread you, or did you deceive me... Quan Ce doesn't understand... It's obviously so painful, how could he do such a painful thing without saying a word...

Caress that gauze-wrapped hand, which is so cold that it doesn't match this season...Look, look...you have another scar now, you can't have another scar...with this forever Lines that don't fade and you don't need another scar... right...

Right... my younger brother, Qing Che.