Yumenglou

.. I will never forget that smile in my life.Looking at the streets and alleys that Dusk was nostalgic for, a gentle smile appeared on Chiyo's face at some point.And the warm feeling in my heart is as satisfying as drinking a glass of hot rum after entering the house in winter.Yes, why have I lived all this time? No matter how hard I try to live in this world, it's not for any value, but just to accompany her.Even the tears are for you, no matter how painful it is, I have to work hard to endure it, because you are the meaning of my life.While thinking this way, Chiyo felt that even if these things happened today, it would not be a big deal.

After walking for such a long time, and still unable to find the way, Chiyo just felt that her feet, which were so flexible when she was dancing just now, were sore and unbearable. She couldn't help but slow down and leaned against the wall to rest.Chiyo looked around and found that he had already walked into an alley. There were only a few izakaya's brocade lanterns fluttering in the evening in front of him, as well as a few sauce shops and powder shops that were about to close.It really doesn't work, I can only rest here for one night.Chiyo thought as she walked slowly towards the first izakaya in front of her.

Hmm, Qianhui? ...

Chiyo suddenly heard Qianhui's voice in a trance.But how is it possible?How could Qianhui be here at this time?Chiyo looked around to find the source of the sound, and suddenly found that there was a small half-opened window five or six steps away in front of him, and a man's voice was coming from it.Surprised, Chiyo moved lightly to the window, and the voice gradually became clearer.

"...It's like meeting someone I've always missed."

"You're so strange, I told you that I haven't seen you before." A light laughter like a silver bell entered Chiyo's ears.That voice is definitely Qianhui! ...but why her?Thousands of mysteries suddenly emerged in Chiyo's heart.Could it be that he came back early in the afternoon? !

"But in my opinion, you are the person I've always wanted to see, maybe it was a dream."

"What did you say..."

Hearing the man's voice, Chiyo couldn't help leaning against the wall and looking through the crack of the window, only to see a man holding Qianhui's hand and looking at Qianhui who was smiling shyly in front of him tenderly.Qian Hui was wearing a gorgeous purple gold-sprinkled kimono, her hair was rippling like water, her beautiful cheeks were slightly red, and she was looking up at the man tenderly.Just seeing the side face of Qianhui in the man's arms, Chiyo's heart felt like being emptied for an instant, and only heard her own restless heartbeat.

"Qianhui, do you want to go to Kyoto with me?" Yamashita lowered his head and asked softly in Qianhui's ear.Chiyo couldn't help trembling when she heard Chie's name.Feeling dizzy for a moment, Chiyo stretched out a hand weakly to support the window lattice, and leaned his body against the wall.

"Why..." Qian Hui rested her hands on Shan Shita's legs and looked up into his eyes.

"Because I have always been to you..." Yamashita gently touched the soft long hair of Qianhui in his arms, "I hope to be like this every day, looking at you. During that time, although I went to you, but you Neither... I thought you didn't know, or didn't care..."

"No, it's not!" Qian Hui looked up at Shan Xia's face, staring deeply into his eyes as if looking for something, and said eagerly, "Actually, I will never forget... about you."

Yamashita couldn't help reaching out to pull Qianhui into his arms again, and the two embraced tightly.

By the window, Chiyo's hand holding on to it turned white at some point.After the initial shock, Chiyo's body felt numb and cold now.Even his breathing became blocked, and his throat was so dry that he couldn't make a sound.Listening to the two people talking to each other in the room, Chiyo felt visibly shaken in his heart, so strong that he couldn't even stand firm.I saw it but seemed to see nothing, what I heard seemed to be only the wind, and I only heard the twitching heart struggling and trembling.For a moment, Chiyo wanted to question that man loudly, do you really love her!However, the longer he listened, the more Chiyo felt that all the strength in his body seemed to be frozen, and the air between himself and the two inside was pulled away little by little, until it became too thin to scream at the top of his lungs. Too weak, can no longer convey to Qianhui.And that Qianhui's face that flashed by - that beautiful smile that makes people unable to move their eyes away: those bright eyes, reddish ears, that almost transparent, eager flowery cheeks, are shockingly beautiful, but only To that man.You look so happy, but why... your smile hurts my heart deeply?

After an unknown amount of time, a gentle whisper reached Chiyo's ears accurately, "I love you! Please live for me!"

Ah, so this is the meaning of your life...you who lived enough to meet him, why did you meet me again?If you can only live for his love, then... what about my love for you?Chiyo couldn't help but shed silent tears, I love you too!

"Shintaro, do we... really want to go together?" Qianhui asked softly, hugging Yamashita's neck.

"Do you really want to!? That's great!" Yamashita said excitedly.

"Really?" Qianhui couldn't help shouting softly, her face was filled with excitement and joy, "Then, I'll go back to pack my things tonight, and soon—what's wrong?" With an embarrassed look, Qian Hui asked carefully.

"It's nothing, it's just... sorry, I can't do it this time, I have to come back next time..."

"Eh?" Qian Hui tried hard to hide the disappointment in her voice, "But why didn't you take me away right away?..."

"I'm really sorry, because I'm so flustered to fall in love with you like this, and many things at home are not ready, and I'm also very embarrassed. If I want to take you away, there are still many things to do..."

Of course!That's obviously lying to you!Chiyo shouted in his heart, a manic mood surged.However, the question Qianhui asked while concealing her disappointment made Chiyo's heart feel as cold as if she had fallen into an ice cellar. She trembled all over and couldn't think. Her trembling pale lips could no longer speak a word, and tears flowed down like broken threads. , cannot be stopped.The pain in Chiyo's heart was unbearable.So you want to leave me just like that! ?Is it okay to leave the man immediately, even if I can no longer see me?

"It doesn't matter." Qian Hui said quietly and softly, "No matter what, I love you."

So here is the answer.Chiyo squatted down along the wall, supporting her painful head.She buried her head in her hands helplessly, trying hard to suppress her voice, only tears slipped from her fingers uncontrollably.

Night finally fell, and the cool night wind lingered and whimpered in the streets and alleys, and the room with small windows gradually dimmed, blending into the darkness.Among the gradually rising lights of thousands of houses, when the six city lights first came on, no one noticed the lonely figure with disheveled hair and the mournful and long-lasting weeping voice floating in the hustle and bustle of the street.

Is it child time or ugly time?Chiyo couldn't remember anything, didn't care about anything, just lying in the dark room, staring blankly at the wall.In the blink of an eye, tears fell quietly.There was a painful dull sound in the ear, and the seemingly endless sanxian music whirled in the air.What happened?How did he come back?

But can't remember.Chiyo couldn't think about anything, and just let the ups and downs of voices and faces in the river of memory pass by and disappear.The faces in those ghostly memories are like the pale profile of a drowned person, making people feel chills all over.Sometimes it is the voice, "I love you", "Whatever", "Why don't you take me away right away", and the soft whisper that is painfully sweet, the soft smile that seems to be from another world... Sometimes it is the face, like that A face, every slight tremor of expression expresses love.Such a beautiful woman is unreal like a dream, but at this moment, the wailing pain in my heart tells me that all this is reality.

You are really...too cruel.

The cold heart soaked in tears finally calmed down, Chiyo tried hard to think back in the empty and aching brain.That man, the man Chie called him "Shintaro", the man who said "I love you" and wanted to take Chie away from me.And Qianhui said that she loves him too, no matter what... No matter what, she wants to leave me.Her gentle smile...

Why!Why can't you feel my pain at all?Why can you leave like this as if you have forgotten my existence?Why do you look so...happy?

So is that all you want.Is this it?It's not me, but... happy?

Of course, this is what people call, "love".A bit of bitterness surged in Chiyo's heart.

It turns out... your happiness has never had anything to do with me.You can live for your love, even if you die alone without me.

If you are really so happy, what should I do?I don't even have the courage to look at your happy face. Do I have the courage to face your turning back?How should I face you like this...

For a long time, I just accompanied you through the most difficult years.I'm just used to crying with you, and coaxing you to laugh through your tears.I'm just used to looking deeply into your eyes, because