Zihan and Yijing

I thought that there would be no next time, but I didn't expect that I could still be affected by emotions.We quarreled again.No, I quarreled unilaterally and then the two sides got into a stalemate.

This time it started because of my jealousy, but as the end of the term was approaching, the physical education class was canceled, so I lacked an opportunity to be honest, and I couldn't bear to go to her.Just like this, it was actually delayed.She doesn't seem to care, this is my opinion, but my stomach is messed up every day, twisted into a piece, as if there is something important to do, always put there, and welcome the final exam with this mood , where will the exam be good.I didn't expect the ending of this semester to be like this. I thought that I finally met a friend I like very much, and my life would change. I didn't expect to get back to my original shape so soon.

It's even more troublesome during the holidays. After being far away from school in time and space, I seem to have drawn a clear line with the school's sophistication psychologically. When my relatives get together, there are often times when I run around, and there are too many entertainments to be too busy.Just dragging and dragging like this, my heart tightened again.

Admit your mistake, I thought.She was not wrong about this matter, so she couldn't ask me to admit her mistake, so I had to mention it.

Could it be that they have not been in contact for the rest of their lives?

I dialed the phone, and my body became tense, I must answer it, if I refuse, I will probably be very sad.

"Hey?"

"I'm sorry, that..."

"No, what did you say, I'm sorry, what did you do wrong?" She said with relief, and then added, "We just haven't been together for a while, as long as you figure it out, I'm waiting for you to figure it out. ""Can you forgive me?" My heart is tightened because of waiting

"What's the matter? It's just a small thing."

"Then let's meet."

I think it is necessary to make it clear in person, which is probably much better than the phone.Putting down the phone, I thought about how to apologize. The emotional ups and downs and inexplicable unreasonable troubles were not intentional, but purely beyond my control.But from another point of view, I am also very hard. I have tasted bitterness and sourness. These days are much darker than before I met Yijing. For many days, I hesitated to make this call, but I was embarrassed.But it's all over, and it seems that things are going well, and I'm lucky.

In order to sincerely apologize, I had to prepare a gift when we met. I went straight to the flower shop and picked out a bunch of sunflowers. When I saw her in person, she didn’t show any anger. It's just me, I sigh, this is good and bad, the good thing is that she won't get angry and make this cold war worse, the bad thing is, she probably doesn't care much about me?At least not as much as I care.

Everyone handles things differently, and I gave her the flowers.

"Here, as an apology gift."

"I don't need to apologize, I'm really not angry."

"I can't help myself getting mad at you lately, and I apologize for that,"

"Apologize next time."

"Can there be a next time?"

I know myself very well, and I think there is a good chance that there will be a next time, and a next time, and a next time.

"Yes, it's fine, as long as you apologize well. Silly children always have the opportunity to correct their mistakes."

"Why do you say I'm stupid?"

"Because it's not very smart, only people who are not smart."

She smiled, and while it wasn't a compliment, I could feel the kindness in it.

A few days after this incident, it will be New Year's Day, which means the era of the new year. People live day after day, and take a year as a unit to choose a special day to rest and celebrate. joy.New Year's Day is such a day. My expectation for the new year is self-evident, and I want to be Yijing's best friend.In order to achieve this goal, I plan to start with good friends.

If the first day of the new year goes well, maybe the rest will go well?

It’s not snowing yet, I like snowing, snowflakes hate beautiful things, their structure is crystal, snowflakes fall to the ground without any sound, and bury all kinds of unsightly garbage or ugliness in the world, leaving a pure white appearance .I also tasted the taste of snow, that was when I was a child, of course it was not delicious, and I still have a memory of building snowmen and snowball fights with my childhood playmates, it was a joy.

When will it snow?

Just when I was sighing, I inadvertently saw a layer of hoarfrost on the ground outside, and when I looked carefully, there were snowflakes scattered in the scene, hovering in the air, and falling like little poops.Snowflakes nourish everything.I am looking forward to more snow and more accumulation, so that I can play in the snow when the snow stops.God, let’s snow more, last year there was only a thin snowfall, and it couldn’t last, and there was no sense of winter at all.

Watching the fog on the windows, I stretch out my fingers and start drawing.

First a five-pointed star, and then a simple smiley face.The snowflakes fell bigger and bigger, and became more and more lively, and then slowly stopped, and the snow gradually weakened.I didn't have time to wait for the snow to stop completely, so I walked out of the house, put on my hat, and thin and dense snowflakes began to fall, kissing my eyebrows and hair, and I was happy with this gentle touch. Putting on a layer of silver, I picked up a handful of snow from the grass and held it hard in my hand, some ice.Then get together and start making snowmen, first the snowman's head, which doesn't need so much snow, and then the snowman's body, which needs more snow.I started to collect snow and rolled snowballs on the ground. The balls became bigger and bigger, and gradually became a scale.

"What are you doing?" A voice came from above my head, I looked up and saw the scene, and when I opened my eyes, it was her in a black coat.

"Snowman, why are you here?"

"I plan to come to play with you today. I didn't answer the call, so I just came to see it."

She looked at the work in my hand, squatted down and rolled the snowball with me.

After assembling the general body structure, I started to think about the facial features. I made it quite rough, and the snowman looked unclear.

"Let's take a picture, so as not to melt."

Yijing took out his mobile phone and took a picture of the snowman, leaving a souvenir.

I had a lot of fun and tried to pile up other shapes, such as bunnies, so I crouched next to the snowman with a four-shaped figure, which looked like some kind of reptile and was very abstract.

"Okay, let's go home and play, it's getting cold."

Yijing proposed, I nodded, and took her to rest indoors.

I took out the tea leaves I used for entertaining guests at home. I don’t drink tea too much so I can’t judge its quality. Then I boiled water.I poured out the hot water, and the tea leaves seemed to have a new life when they touched the water. The leaves began to unfold, and the colors became more and more vivid. Yijing obviously liked me doing this, and she always looked at me kindly. I am like a luminous body, and the light emitted is completely received by me.

"Thank you," she said, taking a sip of her tea.And I poured myself a glass too.

The hands that were cold from playing in the snow began to warm up gradually. We warmed our hands with teacups, and I took out some biscuits and snacks for her to eat.

"Are you hungry?" I asked Wang Yijing,

"Hungry. Traveling over mountains and rivers consumes too much energy" she said truthfully. "How about I order a takeaway."

"Wait, I'll make it for you." I've been living at home recently, and I've learned some new recipes, which I can use.

I fried a chicken breast, the white meat was tender and tender, and I didn't gain weight.After working for a while, it came out, and I had the joy of playing house when I was a child, but at that time, I played with leaves and stones, treating them as dishes, but now it is real swords and guns.

The two began to eat, and sharing food together has always been a primitive and friendly way. Food is the most basic resource for survival, and diseases come from the mouth. Only enough trust can accept other people's food. Small animals accepting human food means Domestication, from which a tame relationship arose.Speaking of which, apart from cooking for the family, I rarely cook for anyone. I looked at Yijing with relish, and was a little moved.

I think this is good, and it would be great if it can continue like this.Today is a day, if I can see her tomorrow and have dinner with her, it would be great.

hometown dog

As the new year approached, I moved back to the country to live. All the way I was wondering what happened to Axue. Axue is a big snow-white dog with a very gentle temper. Every time I come back, I can spend some time with him. As it keeps getting older, this kind of time has become a luxury. He used to be more lively and active, but now he is getting older and his movements are much slower.

When I arrived at the yard of my grandfather’s house, Ah Xue was sleeping in the kennel in front of the door. When she heard someone coming, she lazily raised her heavy eyelids. After realizing it was me, she trembled with joy, but her movements couldn’t keep up with his mood. , he got up slowly, and then staggered towards me, his tail wagging slightly behind him, expressing his long-lost reunion.

I came forward and hugged his neck, and lightly touched my forehead to his furry forehead, which is what I often do to him.He is one year older, and his spirit is much weaker, and he seems to be thinner.

This age is equivalent to the grandfather of human beings.

The countryside is better than the countryside, where the pace of life is particularly slow, no one urges you to do anything, and those green waters and green mountains that can only be seen from afar are close at hand.The houses in the country are in harmony with the surrounding environment. The reinforced concrete buildings in the city are more inclined to human society, while the country houses are more inclined to nature. It must be deserted and lonely to stay here for a long time.Short-term residence is a good rest.

I have become less dependent on my mobile phone, anyway, the Internet is not very good, intermittent, I expected this situation, pre-stored some novels in advance, after reading a few pages, Axue came and rubbed against my legs Nodding my head, I put down my phone and decided to spend more time with A Xue, his days are numbered.

Thinking of how far he would chase me every time we parted, even wading across the river to chase me, which also caused him to catch a cold, I started to stroke his head.I can clearly feel his excitement. In Ah Xue's world, there is only a lonely hut, a monotonous diet every day, and me who can only come back once a year. He likes me the most. I can be sure of this.

When I was young, I would walk with him, and he always walked close to me. The fields in my childhood seemed to be much more beautiful than they are now. We walked through the fields of rapeseed flowers, and walked on the narrow farm paths, with soft soil under our feet. There will be a sense of nostalgia and warmth for the earth. The earth can be relied on under our feet. We are like infants in swaddling arms. The earth wraps us and protects us. We grow, run, and play here.I have a sense of gratitude for the land.

I handed him the prepared Axue’s favorite snacks. He was too old to go jumping and walking with me anymore. He could only sit and sleep every day, waiting for the coming of death. After that, I can still see him.

He sniffed the food and ate slowly.I want to keep him and hope that he will live forever, but God may not agree, maybe I won't see him next time.

I told myself to be kind to Axue, to be kind to all those who cherish me, maybe one day I accidentally lose someone, maybe the next time I come back, I can only stare at the empty kennel in a daze, and never get any more. His warm reception could not be seen from his clear and faithful eyes.

Here, my thoughts rarely jump back to study, but I still think of the unhappiness with Zihan. It is a lie to say that I am not sad and don’t care. It would be fine if I spoke first during the cold war. As long as I talk to her, then I am sure of everything that comes down, and I feel that I can control the development of the situation, so if there is a if, if only I have a little more patience.

Come to think of it, I have to be more patient next time, I am determined to be nice to all those who value me.

After sitting for a long time and bored, I decided to go for a walk by the lake. The lake was a bit cold and the water was choppy. Someone was fishing there. I stood and waited for a while, and saw him put up the fishing line, but nothing came up. , He swung the rod again, with a strong movement, the fishing line stretched out, and it fell on the water. The float fluctuated with the water surface. Fishing is a good hobby, where you can see nature and harvest fish.I heard that some people are so fascinated by fishing that they don't want to go home.

This is a kind of hunting. The joy of fish biting the hook and catching it has been engraved in our genes for tens of thousands of years. Only when we survive by hunting can we be considered healthy people and self-reliant animals. If we can’t If you hunt by yourself, you will not be mentally sound. Of course, you can harvest a fish by labor, but what you do during labor has nothing to do with hunting. Only hunting can truly radiate vitality and vitality.The labor of daily life will not excite people, but may cause depression, probably because the brain thinks that you will not hunt and will die, so you enter a state of depression in advance.

This is my understanding and opinion. Although I don't know how to fish, I yearn for this kind of hunting.

Back in the old house, charcoal is burned indoors. This kind of layout is spacious, and it doesn’t matter to burn charcoal in a ventilated room. The charcoal fire is more natural than electric heaters. I just sit and chat with relatives and friends, and the days go by like this.

After the Chinese New Year, I have to leave again. Axue can feel the parting. He is very smart. He reluctantly sent me back and forth several times. The dog’s affection is really warm and sincere. I don’t know what to do. In the end, Grandpa Only by locking him in the house forcibly can the situation be resolved. He wailed, can we see you next time?I asked silently in my heart, lamenting the ruthlessness of time.

This year has just passed, neither good nor bad, I have met new friends, and I still cherish me very much, and what I said about being close to her is not empty talk, although there is still some distance from the "best friend", I'm not used to using this kind of vocabulary, and I actually hope to get along well with her.It's just that everything can't be rushed, I think.

I haven't seen Zihan for a long time, and we are not good at chatting on mobile phones. This time when I return to my hometown, I decided to treat her better, and I can't break my promise, and I must fulfill my promise to her.First of all, we are good, I think we are very good, but she may want to improve, so she needs more contacts, spends more time and communicates with more heart, the little flower of friendship needs careful care, always ready to go I feel that if I can't manage it, I won't work hard if I don't work hard in a good direction. I saw her thoughts, so I should respond.

On the day I went back, I sent a message to Zihan, and she offered to pick me up, and we made an appointment to meet.

When I met her, I saw a glow of excitement on her face, as if she had forgotten how to walk, and her movements were a little stiff and unnatural, which I couldn’t see before, did I have to lose contact for a while to see this scene?

"I'm back."

"How about going back to the country?"

"not bad."

Seeing her, my mood also improved. I smiled and asked her, "Did you miss me?"

"A little bit." She admitted, in fact, I also thought of her, when playing with A Xue, when stroking A Xue, I would feel that time is precious, and then cherish the people and things around me, it is inevitable that I will think of her.

Being missed is a happy thing, "Thank you." I said.To celebrate, I held out my hand for her to shake mine.

"Come on, let's meet Qingzu again." I said.

She stretched out her hand and retracted it, and then hugged me. This movement was more tender and ritualistic, but it was a little too sudden, and I was not prepared for it.But I accepted this mood and this enthusiasm.

"Happy New Year, in the new year, you should also get along well with me." I said.

"Yijing, I want to ask you something." Zihan asked me, she was a little nervous,

"what?"

"That's right, are you free next?"

"When relatives don't come to visit, they should still be able to go out."

"Can we hang out together?"

"Yes, someday."

"That's right, isn't there going to be relatives coming to visit after that, so it will take a few more days, around the 14th."

"I'm not sure about this yet. If there are any arrangements for that day, I can't go, and I don't want to miss the appointment. Let's see."

I said, but I didn't want to see her disappointment, "Let's set that day tentatively. If not, I will definitely take a day to play with you before school starts."

"it is good."

I breathe a sigh of relief.

When I got home, I happened to think, isn’t the 14th Valentine’s Day? I remember that I didn’t fall in love in elementary school and junior high school, so I exchanged gifts with friends who also didn’t fall in love to fool me.There shouldn't be any special meaning for Zihan to choose this day. After all, it is also a festival, and it is always justifiable to go out to play during the festival.Let's celebrate Valentine's Day together this year.

On the 14th, Zihan and I made an appointment to meet in the afternoon. Coincidentally, there were guests at home in the morning, and a clingy little girl, a second-grade elementary school girl, had lunch together at noon. I think I should be able to do it in the afternoon. When I got away, I told them that I was going out for a walk, and the children immediately said that they would come too, and they couldn't get rid of it like a candy.

I had no choice but to make a phone call and ask Zihan for her opinion, "Do you mind if the little girl from my relative's family insists on coming?" After getting permission, I had no choice but to take the child with me, and today I had to take care of the child with Zihan.

When we came to the shopping mall, we successfully found Zihan. In order to take care of the children's preferences, we went to the skating rink. The children were very happy and were studying there, while I watched over her to prevent her from slipping.Zihan practiced there alone, and occasionally came over to watch the children with me.

The children are very energetic, and their interest is getting better and better after a slide, but I am a little tired.Then her mother came to the mall to pick her up. I breathed a sigh of relief and pulled Zihan out of the mall and went to a nearby square. Because it was Valentine's Day, there were many activities for couples. Now the festival is packed, and the merchants are eager to make money every day. They are all festivals. I hope that festivals are a way for people to soothe their nerves and make life more ritualistic, rather than a shortcut for selling various products.

There are many New Year's messages scrolling on the electronic screen, and the gameplay is still the same this year, so it's okay.I signaled Zihan to be optimistic, and also sent my message, and among the many sliding bullet screens, one of mine also passed by.

"I hope it will be even better in the future, Yijing."

"When I was young, I could post electronic messages on the big screen in the square every New Year here, and this activity is still there now."

I explained, I was a little shy because I was not good at expressing, so I averted my eyes.

Zihan took a step forward, probably wanting to hug me, I hurriedly stopped her, it's unbecoming in public.

"Don't hug me suddenly, it's not very good here, but you can consider changing to another place and another occasion."

I explained that I didn't want to startle those around me.

"That……"

"Don't thank me too much, it's just a message... But this is my mood and my expectation."

"Thank you." She stammered out the words.

Although I don't know whether this will achieve a better goal, I think that the relationship cannot be achieved overnight, and I can only do so far. It seems that she is still satisfied. As for the best, I have never thought about it. It's the best, I've never defined friendship like this.I just think Zihan is very cute, from the initial indifference to her attitude turned 180 degrees later, and I have to start responding to her enthusiasm, after all, I love this enthusiasm, although I occasionally hate it.I want to swallow small unhappiness, just like panning for gold, filter out a lot of grit and impurities, ignore these painful parts, and finally I can get feelings as precious as gold.

I think it's a good way to start the new year.

The first semester of senior high school has begun, and the school will conduct a round of class division. There is a possibility that Yijing and I will be divided together.If we get together, we will have more time to play together, I think school life will become more interesting, I can also be closer to her, see her smile every day, talk every day, in a word, I Hope the place next to her is mine.

I don't know if praying will work. If I don't get together, I can't always go to her with heavy schoolwork, and maybe I will end up drifting away.

And if there is another quarrel, the distance in space can easily lead to a delay in time. I don't want to have another unpleasant cold war.In short, it must be divided together.

The answer is revealed on the first day of school. You can go to the notice posted on the wall. The names of the students in each class are written on it. After sweating, I first found my own name, and then followed the class I was in to find her name, and finally found it.I finally became a classmate, no matter what, the space distance with her is one step closer, as for the distance in my heart, I can break through slowly.

I don't know where my fanaticism came from, but I insisted on getting closer to her.As if I would not be reconciled if I don’t, I want to have a unique position with her, and I will devote all my efforts and actions to this honor, although I am still hesitant about how to do it.

I understand that feelings are not forced, and I have to bear the pain of failure. If this relationship is going to break up, obviously our pain is different, but I have to accept it. I can accept all good results and bad results. , even if it really drifts away, I will not have any resentment about it.

In the crowd, I saw Yijing coming towards me.

"I'm in the same class."

It can be seen that Jingjing is also very happy, although she doesn't know my plans and inner activities.

"Let's go to the classroom together."

When I arrived in the classroom, I was still agitated. The seats were chosen freely by people. We went to the classroom together and became the next table logically.There is no tablemate here, and the tables are all separated. After setting them up, she tried the comfort of the table, lay down and tried to sleep with her arm as a pillow, "It's pretty good to sleep, and here it is. "

I also imitated her actions, lying down, burying my face, actually trying to hide my unstoppable smile, life gave me a candy, maybe a knife, but in the next moment Before the sharp knife stabs me, let me feel the sweetness of the sugar.Life is impermanent. Although there are so many unfortunate and bitter things happening, as long as you persist in living, you will eventually get some unexpected joy. It just takes a long time of patience and waiting.

I vaguely got the answers to the troubled questions before, and the hazy perception and imagination of love in my teenage years gradually took on a specific shape and image. Oh my friend.I think I may fall in love with her, I don't think I should deliberately avoid her, liking someone is a natural thing, this is God's arrangement, being together is another matter, I haven't reached that point yet , I have to become her best friend first, and then slowly reach other positions.

Ugh, I'm having a hard time.Leaving aside whether it will be accepted or not, I think confession is hard to confess, and it will cost me half my life. If I fail, I am afraid that I will only be able to solve my embarrassment and shame by transferring to another school, so confession is really not advisable. Besides, the other party does not agree. Must have other ideas about me, Yijing may just treat me as a good friend, and if he is confessed, he may be scared.I can't imagine the possibility of success, and thinking about it makes me feel deeply dissatisfied. Even if I become the so-called best friend one day, I will still feel dissatisfied.

The first day of school was spent in cranky thinking.

I haven't been very busy at the beginning of school, and I have a new inspiration. I want to write a novel with her as the protagonist, and I am one of them. The two of them overcome difficulties and fight side by side. Here I have a little private stuff. I hope that we are together in the virtual world, so there should be a description of the emotional line here. I will spare an hour or two to write it every day. Other things are easy to say. I feel very embarrassed when I write emotional scenes. After all I have never been in love, and the character design borrows her image, so I feel very shy when writing it.

Yijing knows my writing plan and always asks to read it, which puts more pressure on me, so I have to change her character design again, hoping she won't see it,

"The second girl likes the first girl?" She asked me.

"Yes, but it's not easy to write."

"Why is it difficult to write, give you the pen and fix it for me quickly."

"The first female can't detect it, she is slow, and the second female can't open her mouth, so it's hard to write, and it's hard to develop later."

"It seems that an opportunity is needed."

"No, my setting for the female one is the kind that she can only understand after she has to make a very clear confession."

"What the hell setting, that's okay."

"Yes, I will continue to write the plot."

In the room at night, I tossed and turned, why not just write the confession scene, I will definitely not confess at this stage, but I can write the future plot in advance,

So will they be together?I was in a bit of trouble and decided to draw a lot. I took out a one-yuan coin and spun it on the table. If it was a chrysanthemum, it would be together. The coin began to spin whizzingly, and finally slowly lost momentum and stopped on the table. It was a chrysanthemum.

Even if they are together, it won't be soon, it will definitely take a long time, and it is impossible to be together all at once.

I conceived, thinking about what would happen to make the relationship sublime.

Finally sank into dreamland.I had a dream that I didn't like very much. I was blocked by various obstacles and couldn't pass smoothly. No matter how I walked, I couldn't go smoothly.

Just when I was at a loss, the flood came, and the last impression I left was the monstrous water like a high-rise building, two floors above the horizon, falling towards me, and I was scared out of my wits Then I woke up, my heart was still beating.

Ah, had a nightmare.Fortunately, it is a dream. There is no misfortune in having a nightmare. The nightmare will be untied. After unraveling, you will be relieved. Life will be unlucky. If the problems in life can be woken up like nightmares, it will be over. The end of life’s problems It is death, and after death, I don't know whether I will enter another world, whether that world will be better, or whether I will lose my consciousness forever and disappear forever.

learn to cook

I affirmed my feelings for Yijing in the article. This is the benefit of the virtual world. The story is not real, and the character design cannot be real. The protagonist’s experience cannot be real, but among so many fabrications, there are also Many things we've been through.Many emotions have been expressed in this way. You can't love someone for thousands of years, but you have loved someone for a period of time. You can't be the protagonist of the cool article who was born as a commoner but became a knight, but you have fantasies or longings. Hope to get rid of the life of chasing fame and fortune.

Writing is anti aging.Every minute and every second, I am getting old, but the things recorded in writing will not change. Even if Yijing leaves my world one day, I will finally record the temperature she gave me and the efforts I have tried. As long as it exists, it is immortal.

Come back to reality.

After being in the same class, because of the increased contact, it is indeed closer.In addition, the friends who play with her are also familiar, so I no longer exclude the presence of a third person.This leads to fewer opportunities for us to get along alone, and we all play with a group of people.

It would be better if two people can be alone, and one more person always feels that there will be fewer opportunities to speak heart-to-heart.But it's good enough to see her every day, I shouldn't have too many demands.

There are many ways to improve the relationship. The saying in the game is to increase the favorability, but it cannot be so simple and rude in life.Life is not a game, how can there be so many conversations to improve the goodwill, and I am not very good at talking.

Send a Gift?

I figured I could find out what she likes, and go for it.People sometimes express their goodwill by giving gifts, such stories are reciprocated.

send books?

I think it's a bit funny, we are already very busy, if I send a three-year simulation of the five-year college entrance examination to express my kindness, then she will probably roll her eyes and say, "Thank you to your family."

This is how I started to have difficulties. It is impossible to give out a mooncake casually like before. Because I care, I will be more cautious and solemn.Moreover, there is no suitable festival, and there seems to be no reason to give gifts.

Then put this idea on hold for now, and I want to wait until the next festival comes before thinking about it.

During the recent cooking practice, I started thinking about the two eating together, what should I do next time she comes to my house, maybe I should prepare it in advance.You can find out her preferences and tastes by making side-steps, and then practice in advance, and Yijing seems to like dialogue-based plot games, so I can play some dialogue-type plot-oriented games on the computer. Before I know it, I am already preparing. Looking forward to her coming home as a guest.But I don't seem to understand the concept at all.I began to ask myself how much I knew her.

I don't know much about Yijing. I know that she is as lazy as I am, and doesn't like to study. I give up on myself. She just doesn't have enough energy and no motivation.What attracted me to her was her warm smile and cute posture. I don’t know where anyone can have such a beautiful smile, and she has a gentle voice, but as far as I know, she doesn’t sing very well.

I took a piece of paper and wrote down a few questions like I usually organize the characters.

Favorite food, I left a blank behind.

The type I like, I haven't heard her say that, two single dogs don't seem to be worthy of talking about love.Although I am curious about her past love history, I have never asked about it. I can start to look for clues from here, but even if the type of liking overlaps with mine, she may not choose me.

shortcoming,

Of course there are shortcomings, she seems to be very talkative, but in fact she is indifferent. I feel that she doesn't care much about feelings, and seems to think that maintaining relationships is too laborious, which makes me exhausted, as if I am the only one doing it Each other's friendship worries and crumbles.This kind of advantage also has advantages, that is, when I can't calm down, her mood is always stable, and it won't make things worse, and it is easy to reconcile after apologizing.

way of closer relationships.

Don't give gifts for now, so try to cook her a meal.

I started to practice cooking again. I am also a person who is afraid of trouble. I only enter the kitchen when I have to. You need to do housework, you don’t even need to wash the dishes, you just need to eat when it’s time to eat, and the things you see are already finished products.There are many troublesome processes from the ingredients to the dining table. First, go to the supermarket to buy food, wash it, cut it, and prepare various seasonings. Eating is a time-consuming but stress-reducing activity. Trying to make a good meal is similar to painting or writing. It is all about envisioning in the brain before realizing it. Eating is also the most functional and brings people The most direct enjoyment.

It's good to do it occasionally, but it's not good to do it every day, and I'm afraid of trouble.While cutting vegetables, I think it’s more meaningful than learning. I don’t know why I spend a lot of time on boring knowledge. Popularizing knowledge for social citizens and exercising their professional ability is secondary. The main function is selection and diversion, let's get rid of people like me,

For how to live in the future, I have no plan at all, just like a dandelion, I will bravely fly around after the wind blows, maybe I will go to a new world, just go with the situation.

Sunday is the day I cherish the most. I can finally no longer wake up early, no longer feel the inner depression and anger of getting up, and I can continue to sleep in the haze, what?