all i want is a man

In September [-], in autumn, the sun was still very bright.

Xia Xuechen, who took the college entrance examination for the third time, was successfully admitted to University Y (abbreviated as Y University), which is the only university in Y City.

High school is the farthest place Xia Xuechen has ever been to. Thinking of going to Y University alone to study far away from the county town, Xia Xuechen couldn't help feeling flustered. Although he was [-] years old when he took the college entrance examination for the first time, his mental age was far away. less than that number.

For a mountain boy who has never taken a train, never left a small county, and has never spoken Mandarin publicly, it is a bit sad and magnificent to study in a different place, pack his bags, and travel alone.

At special moments, people are often used to doing some special things, such as saying goodbye and expressing love, and the world always enjoys it.

"Brother Xiaoyuan, I'm going to school in Y City." Xia Xuechen came to say goodbye to Lin Yuan.

"Be careful alone. Call me if you need something." Lin Yuan smiled slightly, and gently stroked Xia Xuechen's hair.

Familiar movements, familiar smiles.

"Brother Xiaoyuan, I like you." Xia Xuechen yelled many times in her heart, like overwhelming the river, but she still tried her best to be calm on the surface, she pouted slightly, her cheeks turned red, and even her ears were flushed .

"Xiao Chen, what are you doing standing there stupidly? Who bullied you again?" Lin Yuan had already been aware of Xia Xuechen's gloomy face for many years.

Paused.

"No, it's nothing. It's just that I feel a little guilty when I think of going to such a far away place." Try to change the subject.

"You're going to be promising..." Afterwards, Lin Yuan's long words of persuasion and comfort followed.

In September, the night breeze was slightly cool, saying goodbye to Lin Yuan, Xia Xuechen was walking on a small road in the country.

"Do you think everyone is like you? It's your business that you like men! Don't use your logic to think about others! Especially people who treat you well! Lin Yuan can't like you! Lin Yuan doesn't need to find a man to fall in love No future!" Xia Xuechen warned herself over and over again, beating the big poplar tree by the road. "Why me? I hate this! I'm a boy, why should I fall in love with him?" Xia Xuechen has asked countless times about such helplessness and helplessness, asking the sky and the earth, except for the voice of the heart, the sky and the earth are silent .

The first confession is always unforgettable. Xia Xuechen blamed herself deeply while recalling the details just now. She was not only ashamed of her true thoughts, but also regretted that she didn't have the courage to speak her mind.If you really say those words, will everything be different?After many years have passed, Xia Xuechen often thinks like this.

Lin Yuan is only one year older than Xia Xuechen, and he is also a native of X Village. The distance between the two families is only a hundred meters away.

Both of Xia Xuechen's parents died, and she and her elder brother Xia Xue depended on each other for life.

When she was a child, Xia Xuechen was often bullied by other children for no reason or occasion.Lin Yuan always arrives in time to help Xia Xuechen drive away the bad kids, pats the dusty clothes and pants, and wipes away the sad tears.Xia Xuechen couldn't remember when this kind of thing started, how many times it happened, and when it started, these became memories.

The love for Lin Yuan is inborn, right?Xia Xuechen often thinks this way.

Xia Xuechen grew up day by day, and her academic performance fluctuated up and down, which made Lin Yuan anxious.For this reason, under the guise of doing homework together with Xia Xuechen, Lin Yuan insisted on tutoring Xia Xuechen's homework in order to make Xia Xuechen change from the upper middle class to the absolute main force.

In the second year of junior high school, Xia Xuechen's academic performance dropped sharply, and she studied until late at night every night. Although Xia Xue saw it in her eyes and was anxious in her heart, he automatically dropped out of school after graduating from elementary school due to family financial difficulties. He worked hard to ensure that Xia Xuechen went to school smoothly. However, there was nothing he could do to help Xia Xuechen's troubles, so he could only rely on Lin Yuan to guide Xia Xuechen to review.

In order to do a good job in Xia Xuechen's psychological work, Lin Yuan has to comfort Xia Xuechen regularly in addition to completing the heavy and complicated homework of the third grade of junior high school every day, and take the initiative to explain his doubts for him. summer without interruption.

Because of helping Xia Xuechen, Lin Yuan was punished by Lin's mother many times to stand.One night, he even broke his leg because of the rain and slippery road.However, Lin Yuan prefers to hide himself. His emotions belong to him alone, and he never shows them openly.

Mother Lin's name is Chen Fang, and she is an extremely strict woman.

In the first grade of elementary school, Lin Yuan was asked to compose until two o’clock in the morning because he couldn’t form the words that Chen Fang thought were beautiful; From one o'clock to eight o'clock in the evening, he continued to copy the massive homework of five times each of the new characters and pinyin of each text assigned by the Chinese teacher. Lin Yuan was the only one in the class to complete it; Chen Fang asked Chen Fang not to touch any popular songs in middle school because of a lyric; when the college entrance examination was approaching, Lin Yuan did not perform well due to insomnia all night and failed to enter the best class of the best high school in the city - the experimental class , was asked by Chen Fang not to go out for a month.

When she was young, Chen Fang was a hotel girl, but Lin Tian welcomed her back home despite this.One year after marriage, Lin Tian ended his short life at the age of 24 due to a mine accident. As the sole legal heir, Chen Fang received six-figure compensation.That winter, Chen Fang picked up Lin Yuan while collecting firewood in the mountains.

In this way, Lin Yuan became Lin Tian's son and called Chen Fang his mother.

Lin Yuan is a child who abides by the traditional Chinese virtues of filial piety and respect for elders.Maybe it's because of growing up in a single-parent family, the idea that a mother's life cannot be violated is deeply rooted in Lin Yuan's heart.Even if it is suffering, even if it is pain, Lin Yuan endures silently.Even if it is wrong, even if it is right or wrong, Lin Yuan never speaks in vain.

In Lin Yuan's dictionary, "I don't want to" means "I shouldn't", including liking someone.

Foolish filial piety is always shameful.Lin Yuan has always understood the simple truth, but he didn't realize it until a long time later.

No matter how much nostalgia and reluctance to give up, the time to say goodbye has come as scheduled.On September [-], [-], Xia Xuechen embarked on a journey to Y University with a strong childishness.

The author has something to say: This is the first time I publish an article, I hope it will not sink in seconds. . .