please love me

Already numb.

"I can earn money by myself and pay for my college education without spending your money. Or I can pay the tuition and give you the rest, okay? Mom, I beg you, I really want to go to college. University... this is my dream... just let me study..." Xu Huan's voice became weaker and weaker, until finally he couldn't hear it.

Xu's mother stepped forward and grabbed Xu Huan's ear, picked up the broom beside her and started beating her, cursing as she beat her, "You've got an inch, and you've got an inch. Why do you have to read so many books, a girl? You're going to get married in the future." Money-losing goods! Read a hammer book, waste of money."

"How capable do you think you are? Why, you can still earn us hundreds of thousands of dollars. The girl next door is better than you in everything. I don't know what evil I did to give birth to you. thing."

"Dream about turning a toe into a swan and cow dung into a flower all day long. I really don't know what's in your head."

"Do you think we can count on you when we get old? Don't we all have to count on my precious son. Let me tell you, if you dare to go to your university, I will break your legs."

"You have to go to work for me! Every month's money must be given to me. Do you hear me?"

Mama Xu kicked Xu Huan to the ground, and walked into the kitchen panting heavily.If it wasn't because Xu Guangyan was coming back for dinner, she was busy making lunch, and she might have to hit Xu Huan for a while.

Xu Huan sat on the ground awkwardly, his eyes lost focus.

At this time, Dad Xu said: "Isn't this college just for fun? I heard your cousin say that college is just for fun and reading books. Don't waste money."

Xu Huan fell into despair again.Where did her cousin go to some university, and she played around with some hooligans all day long, and asked for money at home when she had no money, and she did not know how many times she got into fights.

Not long ago, when Xu Huan came out of school, he met that cousin who even reached out to ask her for money.Because there was no money for her, she was beaten.

The more she thought about it, the sadder she became, tears were about to fall, Dad Xu frowned and asked her to go out.She walked out the door and squatted in the corridor.

The neighbors in the past saw it and chose to ignore it.This was not the first time, every time Xu Huan was beaten or scolded, Xu Huan always squatted in the corridor for a long time.

Since she was a child, she was taciturn, skinny, and sickly. The neighbors in the neighborhood thought she was like a ghost, and few people were willing to talk to her.

It's too late to hide, who wants to strike up a conversation?

Xu Huan stared blankly at the front, with all kinds of emotions in his heart.

She didn't know why they were doing this to her.No matter what younger brother Xu Guangyan does, Xu's mother and Xu's father will support it, but when it comes to Xu Huan, it's just three words, a waste of money.

As soon as this was mentioned, Xu Huan suddenly remembered that when Xu Huan wanted to go to high school, Xu Huan knelt and begged them for a long time before agreeing.For this reason, Xu Huan never had a full meal in high school, and became thinner and healthier.

In the past, Xu Huan always thought that they did not allow him to study because he was not good enough in his studies.So she studied hard, no, she studied hard, just to get their approval, but in the end they were still not satisfied.

What am I doing wrong?

Xu Huan questioned himself over and over again, but couldn't get an answer no matter what.

At that moment, the memory of the past was also brought out.

When I was young, Xu Huan would be beaten for eating one more candy, but my younger brother could always eat whatever he wanted.

When they were beaten badly by their classmates, they would only say that Xu Huan caused trouble, and when their younger brother was bumped by others, they all rushed into the school to find someone to argue with.

My younger brother can do nothing, but Xu Huan can't, she has to do everything, and if she doesn't do it, she will be beaten and scolded.

When it comes to spending money, Xu's mother and Xu's father are never willing to spend an extra penny on Xu Huan's body. Even when they need money to buy sanitary napkins during their menstrual period, it all depends on whether Xu's mother is happy today.

But Xu Huan never complained, never.

She told herself that her younger brother was young, so it was right to let him go, and she should take on the responsibility of being a big sister.

But what did you get in the end?

She has never been a person who holds grudges, she just feels that she has some grievances, just a little bit of grievances.

All the sadness turned into tears blurred her vision, she choked up, trying not to let the tears flow out.

At this time, there was thunder, and Xu Huan hugged his head tightly. After a while of silence, footsteps came from the corridor.

A long-haired girl in a light pink dress was at the entrance of the corridor.She was holding some luggage in one hand and waving the wet umbrella in the other hand. The rain was thrown outside the corridor. The girl walked into the corridor and looked at Xu Huan who was sitting in the corner. She stepped forward and asked softly. Said: "What's wrong with you?"

The gentle voice softened Xu Huan's world.

Xu Huan immediately burst into tears, the girl was taken aback, and hurriedly took out a tissue to wipe her tears and comfort her.

"What's wrong? Did you quarrel with your family? Or broke up with you? Huh? It's okay, don't cry, don't cry."

The girl put down her luggage, hugged Xu Huan into her arms, patted her on the back lightly, comforting the person in her arms over and over again.

A fragrance enters the nostrils and refreshes the heart.

Gradually, Xu Huan stopped crying and stared at the girl in a daze.

The girl let go of Xu Huan, smiled at her, wiped her tears again, pulled her up, and took her back to her home.

They lived very close together, so naturally there was nothing to worry about.

The girl asked Xu Huan to sit on the sofa, and she went to pour her a glass of water, "Drink some water."

"...Thank you." Looking at the water glass handed over with both hands, Xu Huan couldn't help taking it with trembling hands.

"It's okay! Life is a long road. After a while, it's over. Don't think about going back and walking again. You don't know the new road. Look ahead carefully."

"……thanks."

"Don't thank you. Well, tell me why you are sad. Sometimes it will be better to say it."

Xu Huan was silent for a long time, and finally told the girl verbatim. After hearing this, the girl frowned slightly, sat down beside Xu Huan, and said, "You don't need others to choose for you."

There are many roads in life, and choosing the right road is responsible to yourself who works hard.

Many people like to give others choices, but they don't need to be responsible for the rest of their lives, and the one who is given the choice will always bear the consequences of the choice.

"Excuse me...may I know your name?"

"Of course, my name is Wei Xilin. How about you?"

"Xu Huan..."

"Xu Huan!" Wei Qianjin smiled, "I'm from Hubei, I'm 22 years old, and I'm a medical student."

"I'm 18 years old..." Xu Huan's voice was very low, and he was extremely unconfident.

Wei Qianling doesn't care about these things either, she just met after all, and not everyone is as talkative and shy as her.

The two chatted for a long time, and finally Xu Huan thanked Xu Mama and left.

After leaving Wei Qian's house, she stood outside the door in a daze for a long time.This is someone who has been so kind to her, who has been so gentle to her.

"What are you doing with someone's house? Come back, it's embarrassing."

Xu Huan returned to reality, turned and walked towards his home.She didn't dare to look up at Xu's mother, for fear of being beaten again.

Xu Guangyan was sitting on the sofa eating, and when he saw Xu Huan walking in, he gave her a blank look.He doesn't like this elder sister very much, because Xu Huan's personality is too withdrawn, she is like a mute when she doesn't speak at ordinary times, and her cowardly appearance makes people feel that she is eager for others to bully her.

Whenever he saw Xu Huan being beaten, he never stepped forward, but often stood aside and watched the play.Sometimes he would humiliate Xu Huan with his classmates.

Xu Guangyan threw the bowl and chopsticks and yelled at Xu Huan: "Don't fucking look at me, I'm annoying when I see you."

Xu Huan shrank his pupils, lowered his head, picked up his schoolbag that was kicked in the corner, and walked into his room.Her room was small, with a bed and a few old clothes, which were all she had.

She likes to sit in the corner, so the ground is cleaned by her, and this small room is her refuge.

She is in the room, and her parents are outside without denying:

"When I'm about the same age in the future, I'll find a man and marry. If you get married, you can live at home with your baby all day long, and the books you read will be useless."

"Don't waste your money going to college."

Xu Huan bit his arm to silence himself.Tears rolled down his face little by little, but nothing could be done.

The next day, Xu Huan was dragged by Xu's mother to work in her aunt's shop.

My aunt runs a small restaurant, and the business is very good. Usually, there is only one person who serves the dishes and cleans the dishes.

A few months ago, I was thinking that Xu Huan had dropped out of school to help her. After all, if he went to find someone else, the wages might be higher. Unlike his niece, he could just give him some wages.

For this, she kept blowing the wind in Xu's mother and Xu's father's ears.

My aunt is only 50 years old this year, but she looks more than 60 years old.Her curly hair fell one after another while walking, her obese body twisted artificially, and she wore strange heavy makeup, which was almost invisible.

But there is one thing that is undeniable, that is, it can be seen from the bright side that this is a 'smart ghost' who is greedy for petty gains.

Xu Huan was pushed forward by Madam Xu to stand with her aunt. She was at a loss for a while, so she could only lower her head and tightly grasp the hem of her clothes with both hands.

My aunt looked at Xu Huan lowering her head in fear, with dissatisfaction on her face, and thought, does this Xu Huan look at me getting fat and ugly, and seeing me make me even more scared like seeing a ghost?

Xu Huan has always been shy of strangers, not to mention that he has not seen her aunt for several years.When we saw each other, my aunt either showed off her things or slandered Xu Huan. How could Xu Huan have a better impression of her?

The aunt suddenly raised a smile, hooked Xu Huan's arm