I'm poor

I'm Poor and Fearful

When the two came out of the pharmacy, Assistant Lin also arrived and waved to them while sitting in the car.

"Manager Fang, I'll take you back home."

The car was driving on the street at night, Fang Yi and Yan Qinsheng were sitting side by side in the back seat, Yan Qinsheng secretly reached out his hand in the dark to touch Yi's palm wrapped in gauze, and apologized guiltily: "I'm sorry, I won't cause trouble next time if I don't drink gone."

"It's not your fault, it's my fault. I shouldn't have brought you to this kind of place."

Fang Yi brushed up the strands of hair that fell from his forehead, and regained Zhou Zheng's usual appearance. His five fingers passed through Yan Qinsheng's fingers and intertwined with his.

Yan Qinsheng lowered his head and looked at the two overlapping hands. He had been with Fang Yi for a while, and this was the first time Fang Yi held his hand, so he was flattered.

Yan Qinsheng suddenly remembered that Fang Yi had fought for him when he was in high school. He obviously took his girlfriend to watch a movie, but even his girlfriend was scared away.

Fang Yi may have also thought of this, and suddenly turned his head to look at Yan Qinsheng. The two looked at each other silently for a moment, and both laughed.

The moment their eyes met, the hearts of both of them trembled violently, as if seeing the boy they once were.

As soon as he got home, Fang Yi closed the door with his backhand and couldn't wait to kiss Yan Qinsheng. He didn't even turn on the light in the room, and walked from the entrance to the bedroom in the dark all the way to the bed.

Fang Yi's deep affection is really overwhelming. It was the first time Yan Qinsheng knew what it was like to be lingering to death. It wasn't an angry collision, it wasn't an outrageous action. separate.

Yan Qinsheng even thought in the moment of trance, if only he could die like this, at least he could feel that Fang Yi really loved him at this time.

After the enthusiasm subsided, Fang Yi hugged Yan Qinsheng's shoulder and kissed, "What gift do you want for Valentine's Day?"

Yan Qinsheng thought for a while, and then replied truthfully: "I don't want anything, as long as you can accompany me."

Fang Yi is a little embarrassed, his Valentine's Day has been booked in advance by Xie Qi.Xie Qi always loses his temper and is difficult to coax. Yan Qinsheng is easy to talk and can be moved for a long time by buying any gift, so he can only coax Xie Qi closely first.

Secretly making such a decision, Fang Yi also felt that he had wronged Yan Qinsheng, so he could only try to make up for it in material terms.

"Why don't you take the time to go to the 4S shop and buy whatever model you like. Didn't I give you a card before, just use that to swipe."

Yan Qinsheng looked up in surprise, "You want to buy me a car? But I don't even have a driver's license."

"There is no test, I asked Ji Yun to leave, and the driver's license test is not difficult."

Yan Qinsheng's depressed mood did not become happy because of buying a car.

"Is your NO.14 okay?"

"Yeah." Fang Yi replied with a guilty conscience, let go of his hands and turned his back to him, "Go to sleep."

Yan Qinsheng sighed softly in the darkness, reached out and hugged Fang Yi's strong waist from behind, and closed his eyes.

Valentine's Day is Friday, and there is no holiday. Fang Yi probably greeted Ji Yun. Ji Yun sent a message to Yan Qinsheng early in the morning: I heard that you are going to buy a car today and don't use it for work.

Yan Qinsheng glanced at the message, then put the phone into his pocket, picked up the work card on the table and went out to work on the subway as usual.

He originally thought that Fang Yi was busy with socializing at night, so he could at least meet him when he went to the company, but he didn't know that Fang Yi didn't come to the company at all until he got to class.

Looks like this Valentine's Day is going to be spent with a pile of bills...  

The more frustrated he got used to it, Yan Qinsheng sat at his desk to adjust his mood and began to immerse himself in sorting out the company's sales list.

Time passed quickly when I was busy, and I came in to make a phone call before leaving get off work, Liang Yushu called.

"Hi, Mr. Liang." Yan Qinsheng greeted politely, and he didn't know why Liang Yushu was calling at this time.

"Are you alone in the company?" Liang Yushu's voice on the phone was still so deep and gentle.

Yan Qinsheng was stunned: "How do you know?"

Liang Yushu couldn't help but chuckled: "Qin Sheng, when will you be able to gain some insight, you always refuse to listen to my advice."

Yan Qinsheng was silent and did not speak. He was not careless, and he knew the meaning of Liang Yushu's words, but he was willing to believe Fang Yi.

He knows a truth better than anyone else, once the two parties in love lose trust, the relationship will never last long, but he wants to go on with Fang Yi.

"I'm sorry, but I, an outsider, have no right to intervene in your affairs." Liang Yushu thought he was angry when he heard that he didn't respond for a long time, so he quickly apologized.

"It's okay, Mr. Liang, I know you are also worried about my loss."

"Last week, the store was busy, and I didn't have time to spend the Lantern Festival with Xiao Mu, and this kid got angry with me again, saying that he didn't get any glutinous rice balls." Liang Yushu changed the subject, and gently sent out an invitation: "Would you like to have fun together. "

No one could bear to refuse a gentleman's polite invitation. If it had been a few days ago, Yan Qinsheng might have agreed.However, Fang Yi seemed to dislike Liang Yushu, and Valentine's Day was different from other festivals. Yan Qinsheng also felt that it was really inappropriate to meet others at this time.

"Mr. Liang, I won't go. I have a lot of work today, and I may have to work overtime late." Yan Qinsheng found an excuse to refuse.

Liang Yushu on the other end of the phone immediately understood, and Yan Qinsheng, who had never refused people, actually refused, which meant that Fang Yi must have warned him to keep a distance from him, so he would have scruples.

"Don't embarrass you. I'm at home these days. If you're bored and want to talk to someone, or if you need a private driver for shopping, you can call me and I'll be there on call."

Yan Qinsheng smiled, "I can't afford to hire such an expensive driver as Mr. Liang."

On the other end of the phone, Xiao Mu's milky voice could be vaguely heard, as if urging Dad to give her the phone.

Sure enough, Xiao Mu snatched the phone very quickly, "Brother Qin Sheng, when are you coming to see me?"

Hearing Xiao Mu's sweet voice, Yan Qinsheng's heart melted immediately, and he couldn't help but imagine Xiao Mu's starry eyes full of expectations. He couldn't bear to refuse a child's request, so he softened his voice and said, "Then I'll talk to you tomorrow afternoon." How about going to see you?"

"Okay!" Xiao Mu's voice was loud and clear: "What you say is what you say, a liar is a puppy."

"Well, I won't lie, I'll buy you a gift then."

The next afternoon, Yan Qinsheng appeared at the door of Liang Yushu's house as scheduled, holding a brown bear puppet bought for Xiao Mu in his hand.He was still thinking when he rang the doorbell. He clearly said he couldn't come, but he still came.

Just as she was thinking, Xiao Mu opened the door and threw herself on Yan Qinsheng's lap, then turned her head and cheered towards the room like a little sparrow holding the toy: "Dad, brother Qinsheng bought me a toy!"

Liang Yushu came out from the kitchen with a water glass and refreshments: "Then thank you brother?"

Xiao Mu immediately obediently bowed to Yan Qinsheng ninety degrees: "Thank you, brother Qinsheng!"

Liang Yushu suggested: "Qin Sheng, let's have hot pot tonight."

Yan Qinsheng sat on the sofa and waved his hands quickly, "Don't bother me, I'll just sit down and leave."

Liang Yushu went to the bedroom to get his coat and put it on, "Don't be polite to me, you come here and buy something for Xiaomu, I won't even let you eat, that's a matter of politeness."

Yan Qinsheng still hesitated to leave, Liang Yushu walked up to him and said softly, "Didn't you always say that I am a gentleman, let me maintain my image."

Xiao Mu grabbed Yan Qinsheng's finger and yelled excitedly: "Brother Qin Sheng, stay and eat. Dad told me to cook glutinous rice balls for me tonight, as well as the pirate's treasure!"

Yan Qinsheng asked her with a smile: "What is a pirate's treasure?"

Liang Yushu and Xiao Mu glanced at each other, and at the same time put their fingers on their lips tacitly: "You will know when the time comes?"

Yan Qinsheng looked at the two people, one big and one young, and he didn't know what kind of medicine they sold in the gourd. He was a little curious, so he said to Liang Yushu: "Then I will bother you."

"I'm going downstairs to buy ingredients, I'll be right back, you sit down and have a rest first." Liang Yushu turned to tell Xiao Mu again: "Take care of brother Qin Sheng, don't just watch TV."

"Understood, you can go now." Xiao Mu sat on the sofa and was engrossed in watching an idol drama, and responded casually without turning her head.

After Liang Yushu left, Yan Qinsheng followed Xiaomu to watch idol dramas for a while, and couldn't help but lament that children are too precocious now, and they watch romantic TV dramas when they are only in the first grade, and Liang Yushu doesn't mention her. Pay attention to cover your eyes and run away when you see kissing on TV.

"Xiao Mu, I think it's too early for you to read this, do you understand?" Yan Qinsheng couldn't help reminding her.

"Understandable," Xiao Mu explained to Yan Qinsheng while stretching out her small hand, gesturing to the actors on TV, "This boy likes the girl with long hair just now, but that girl doesn't like him."

Yan Qinsheng frowned: "I think you should watch more cartoons, won't your father say anything about you?"

Xiao Mu shook her head: "No, Dad will watch it with me."

Yan Qinsheng found it even more difficult to understand when he heard it, how could he be such a father.

Not long after, Liang Yushu came back with a big bag of hot pot ingredients, and went straight into the kitchen. Yan Qinsheng got up and followed him and asked, "Mr. Liang, do you want to show Xiaomu a romance drama?"

"It's up to her, she will see what she likes." Liang Yushu took out the ingredients and hot pot base from the bag.

"But it's not that good, she's still so young."

Liang Yushu put down the ingredients in his hand, turned around and leaned against the cupboard with a smile and folded his arms: "I'm glad you care about Xiaomu, but compared to the restrained nature of traditional family education, I prefer to let children grow up freely."

"Grow freely..." Yan Qinsheng was thoughtful, he had no concept of this word, he grew up under strict discipline from his mother, he only knew to be an obedient child.

Liang Yushu took a look at the green vegetables at hand, and then put them into Yan Qinsheng's hands: "If children are only allowed to be plants in the greenhouse and not subjected to the scorching sun and wind and rain, then their fate is just to be eaten vegetables. I never prevent Xiao Mu from getting in touch with new things, no matter whether it is good or bad, only she will know when she gets in touch with it herself."

Yan Qinsheng was taken aback by his open education method, and couldn't help sighing: "Your educational philosophy is very Western."

Liang Yushu smiled, and there were two shallow fine lines at the end of his eyes, which did not look old, but had the charm of a mature man.

"Xiao Mu is an independent individual, she can do whatever she wants, blindly killing her nature will only be counterproductive, I just need to protect her from a distance, give her proper guidance, and there is no need to overly interfere with everything about her."

Yan Qinsheng thought about Liang Yushu's words carefully, and felt that it was indeed reasonable. As a child of a divorced family, Xiao Mu was not affected at all, cheerful and bold, presumably Mr. Liang put a lot of effort into training him.

Yan Qinsheng couldn't help but think of his father, feeling sad for some reason, and also developed respect for Liang Yushu, who was also a single father.

"Xiao Mu is such a naughty child, it must be very hard to take care of."

Liang Yushu was very touched, so many friends around him always praised his daughter for being lively and cute, but only Yan Qinsheng could see his dedication and understand how difficult it was for him to raise a child.

He couldn't help holding Yan Qinsheng's hand and said: "It's not hard, I should thank Xiaomu for sending you to my side in the vast crowd."

Yan Qinsheng was stunned for a moment, he didn't know how to react to Liang Yushu's words, for a moment he even forgot that his hand was still in Liang Yushu's palm.

"I'm sorry to scare you." Liang Yushu didn't let go of Yan Qinsheng's hand, his eyes were extremely sincere: "Qin Sheng, I want to know you better and approach you, can I give you a chance?"

His personable conversation seems to be just a polite gentleman asking his sweetheart to dance.

No matter how dull Yan Qinsheng was, he could still hear Liang Yushu confessing to him. He withdrew his hands and stuffed them into the pockets of his cotton-padded jacket, hastily avoiding Liang Yushu's eager gaze, and felt guilty instead.

"Sorry, I'm a superficial person, there's nothing to understand."

Apart from the flash of loneliness in his eyes, Liang Yushu didn't show obvious loss, and his response to rejection was as generous as ever.

"You don't need to have too much psychological pressure. Love is a two-way choice. I just want to treat the person I like frankly. Whether you accept it or not, it will not hinder our normal communication. I don't want you to alienate me because of this."

Liang Yushu spoke very decently, and his frank attitude made it difficult for Yan Qinsheng to say anything. After hesitating for a long time, Yan Qinsheng couldn't help but ask him: "Actually, I don't quite understand. You were married and have such a lovely child. Even if you want to start a new family, you should Find a beautiful and kind woman, at least...it shouldn't be like me."

Liang Yushu quietly stared at Yan Qinsheng's slightly flushed side face, and suddenly wanted to reach out to touch it. Even he himself was surprised that in his 30s, he still had the same physiological throbbing that he didn't care about when he was young.

It was this sudden heartbeat that made him believe in his thoughts even more. The partner to spend his life with must be Yan Qinsheng.

"Qin Sheng, I have experienced a failed marriage, and I have also thought about many things. Compared with being gendered, I am more concerned about whether the other half is suitable for forming a family in all aspects."

Liang Yushu frankly said what was in his heart: "I am really touched by your tenderness and consideration for others, and I feel very relaxed when I get along with you. I think you don't feel disgusted by getting along with me, do you?"

No one would dislike a generous and decent man like Liang Yushu, Yan Qinsheng was no exception, he would be very happy to be friends.

"You also know that I have a boyfriend..." Yan Qinsheng is not good at rejecting people directly with words, he just smiled awkwardly and politely, expressing that he is not disgusted but does not want to develop further.

Liang Yushu stared intently at the dimples at the corners of his mouth, his eyes became deeper, and he bent down and whispered in his ear: "You look beautiful when you smile."

Yan Qinsheng suppressed his smile in an instant, and froze his body. Liang Yushu's warm breath seemed to be still lingering on his ears, and the auricles became hot involuntarily.

The two were silent for a moment, and Liang Yushu couldn't help but smile first.

"The routines in romantic dramas really can't be applied in practice. To be honest, I feel too ashamed now. Don't laugh at me, I know I'm stupid."

Yan Qinsheng denied it habitually out of politeness: "No, Mr. Liang is not rustic at all." He organized his words in his mind: "It's very... foreign."

After speaking, he himself felt that the words were inappropriate, no matter how he thought about it, it was so strange, his head was like a short circuit, and he couldn't praise others at all.

"Being able to say this word shows that you are also very 'foreign', and we are all very foreign." Liang Yushu joked, and both of them couldn't help laughing.

The great thing about Liang Yushu is that he can unknowingly increase the distance with others. Even though he was rejected one second, he can subtly break the awkward atmosphere and chat with Yan Qinsheng while washing vegetables, as if they were just friends. He said something in his heart, and the relaxed atmosphere was not affected at all.

The three of them ate a hot hot pot meal around the dining table, and winter seemed to be far away all of a sudden.

After eating and drinking, Liang Yushu brought out three bowls of glutinous rice balls from the kitchen and put them in front of everyone.

"Make up for the glutinous rice balls that I didn't eat before, and see who is the luckiest this year."

Yan Qinsheng scooped up a glutinous rice ball with a spoon and put it into his mouth. After chewing a couple of mouthfuls, he suddenly let out a soft "Oops", and soon spit out a coin from his mouth.

He originally thought it was just an ordinary one-dollar coin, but he didn't expect it to be a golden coin with this year's zodiac pattern on it.

Liang Yushu propped his chin and looked at him tenderly, "Congratulations on winning the lottery, you will be very lucky this year."

Sitting on the chair, Xiao Mu clapped her little hands and cheered, "Brother Qin Sheng is amazing! This is the pirate's gold coin!"

Is this the pirate treasure?Real gold?Yan Qinsheng stared blankly at the gold coin in his palm, it was indeed a pure gold commemorative coin issued by the bank.

It's over, I came to someone's house for a meal and took away the grand prize. The gold coin weighs at least four grams, so it must be thousands.

Yan Qinsheng took the gold coin to the kitchen to wash it off, and then returned it to Liang Yushu.

"I'm really sorry, Mr. Liang, my luck has always been very bad, and I don't know why I won today. I will return this to you."

Liang Yushu grabbed his hand, turned it over, spread out his palm, and put the gold coin in.

"What you eat is yours. Every year, Xiao Mu and I are the only winners. There is no surprise at all. I am very happy that it is you this year."

Just as he was talking, Xiao Mu also took out a silver coin, held it high and shouted at Liang Yushu: "Father, I have also eaten the pirate's treasure!"

Liang Yushu touched Xiao Mu's head lovingly, "You have always been a child favored by heaven."

The air conditioner was turned on in the room, and the hot pot and glutinous rice balls got hotter and hotter after eating, Yan Qinsheng took off his cotton jacket, his cheeks were flushed.He drank a few sips of herbal tea, feeling a little relieved in his heart, as expected, people still need a warm home.

The only regret is that Fang Yi is not around.