time for sysyphus

The weather tonight is like an airtight stuffy jar, even the air is full of thick moisture, as if holding a heavy rain.

After Lin Si was kicked out, he walked towards the gate of Ji's house step by step. His face was gloomy, and hot water welled up in his eyes, dripping with his unsteady steps.

This should be a kind of... extremely depressing feeling.

During this period of time, the harder he tried to do something, the more powerless he felt. As a result, he couldn't change anything, couldn't stop anything, and Ji Zhongnian would still go back to the old path.

This is a good proof that the more he tries to hold fate in his hands, the fate will pinch his neck and teach him a profound lesson——

Everyone is just a character being manipulated in a scene, and the direction of the play is still copied and pasted, developing bit by bit like in the previous life.

"Lance, don't think you can influence me." These words kept echoing in Lance's ears like hallucinations.

Ji Zhongnian just told him to get out of the study, but he just got out of the Ji's mansion, like an overly obedient puppy, obedient to what Master Ji said.

Lin Chihan has always been loyal to Master Ji, uh... except tonight, he tried to resist a little bit, and then failed without any suspense.

The gloomy sky began to drizzle, and Lin Si stood at the gate of Ji's house, blocked by the iron gate in front of him from leaving.

He squatted helplessly under the carved iron door, watching the only remaining moonlight being eaten away by the darkness, as if trying to eat the whole world.

"Can someone tell me what to do..."

Lin Si muttered to himself, his eyes looked at the sky emptyly, and the wind blew the slanted rain on his face.

He was so uncomfortable that he began to shiver, partly from the cold and partly from fear.So he breathed hard, his chest heaving greatly, like a drowning person desperately surfacing to breathe.

"How to do."

Ji Zhongnian still fell in love with him, and Tao Die's mother and son would still be sent abroad, even though Lin Si tried his best to change all this, but he was powerless and tried and failed repeatedly.

Things are like a train, galloping towards the original track, he is so humble and powerless, it is impossible to fight against a train, it is impossible to stop this train or change its track.

——So, the ending will definitely happen again?

"Or, or should I kill Ji Xiao?"

A thought suddenly popped up in Lin Si's heart, it was terrible, but he forced himself to nod his head, like a hypnotic self-acknowledgment, "Yes... yes! Kill him, just kill him, everything will be fine if you kill him All is well..."

But half a moment later, he suddenly woke up from this evil thought, and slapped himself resoundingly.

"Snapped--!!"

"What am I thinking. I actually want to kill someone."

A chill rushed up Lin Si's spine. He was awake, feeling cold like never before, hugging his knees and crying in despair: "What to do. Why, why..."

As if venting, Lin Si yanked his hand into a fist, and beat the concrete floor next to him again and again, exhausting the maximum strength he could use every time.

The hard sand and gravel on the ground cut his hand, and the blood mixed with the rainwater formed a small puddle on the ground, which was dirty and cold red.

In the end how to do it.

He didn't want to die, and he didn't want Ji Zhongnian to watch him die.

Not far behind Lin Si, there was a man standing in the rain with an umbrella.

Uncle Dong looked worriedly at Lin Si breaking down and crying, and seeing Lin Si's behavior out of control, he couldn't help but feel the love of the elders for the child.

He didn't understand the conflict between Ji Zhongnian and Lin Si, but seeing that Lin Si suddenly acted so painfully and desperately alone, he couldn't bear to watch like this any longer.

"Alas..." Uncle Dong let out a long sigh, beat his thigh, and went back to the house to look for Ji Zhongnian.

In the study room, Ji Zhongnian was wearing a pair of glasses, holding a bright pen in his hand, signing and writing documents non-stop. He had been working all night without raising his head, as if he didn't feel tired at all.

Whenever he was in a bad mood, he used to use work to anesthetize himself. As soon as he stopped, his mind would be filled with bad emotions again, so he didn't allow himself to stop.

Uncle Dong knocked on the door and came in. Seeing him like this, he said anxiously, "Second Young Master, you... why don't you go and see Mr. Lin."

Hearing Uncle Dong's words, Ji Zhongnian just remained expressionless, "I won't go."

He was still angry and didn't want to meddle in Lin Si's affairs.

"But, Mr. Lin, he's not in a good mood, he's feeling uncomfortable, and now, now—"

"I'm not in a good mood either, why didn't he come to see me?" Ji Zhongnian said indifferently, and the pen in his hand didn't stop signing the documents.

There is a limit to human patience. He is such an arrogant person. He thinks that he has been lowering his profile to please Lin Si during this period of time. What he got in return is nothing more than rejection again and again. He can bear all of these. But today Lin Si actually wanted to meddle in Ji Xiao's affairs, this meddling problem must not be ignored.

Uncle Dong wanted to persuade again: "Second Young Master..."

"I said no." Ji Zhongnian snorted coldly.

Seeing him still not moving, Dong Shu didn't dare to provoke him any more, so he had no choice but to give up, turned around and walked away slowly.

But Uncle Dong is an old man after all, and he can’t change his habit of thinking about things. He sighed, and murmured softly as he walked: “Hey, Mr. He was injured, and his hands were bleeding a lot... Also, it's so cold today, he didn't wear much, and it was raining outside, and he refused to enter the house all the time. It's like a big stone mill... If this goes on, his body will definitely not be able to bear it..."

Ji Zhongnian couldn't listen anymore, paused his pen, raised his head and called Dong Shu: "Wait."

Uncle Dong turned around slowly, "Huh?"

"What did you say?"

Uncle Dong was a little deaf and confused: "...Huh?"

Ji Zhongnian dropped his pen, "Then why didn't you call him in?!"

The paper on the document melted into a ball of black ink, and the pen was thrown aside by its owner, and stopped after rolling a few times, lying silently on the desk.

The cold rain was getting heavier and heavier, splashing noisy water on the uneven ground, and a pair of shoes stepped on the dripping road and hurried towards the gate.

At this time, Lin Si had already been drenched by the rain.

His half-opened and half-closed eyes were extremely heavy. Suddenly, a pair of shoes appeared in his sight, and he walked straight over, and finally stood in front of him.

"Don't tell me you've been sitting here all night in the rain?"

Holding a black umbrella, Ji Zhongnian stood in front of Lin Si in a daze. Seeing his distressed appearance, he couldn't even speak coherently for a moment.

Hearing the sound, Lin Si felt dazed. He slowly raised his head and looked at the person in front of him.

Lin Si's lips were bloodless from the rain, but the eye sockets were obviously red, and there were dense bloodshots covering the two lax eyeballs.

"You fool is really stupid every day!"

Ji Zhongnian panicked a little, knelt down and stuffed the umbrella into Lin Si's hand, then hurriedly took off his thick clothes, and wrapped them tightly around Lin Si.

"If you tell me to get out, get out, why don't you usually see you so obedient? Can't you hear that what I said is all angry? The weather is so cold, you actually went outside to blow the wind, and you don't know how to go back, and you are still here in the rain. …”

The clothes draped on Lin Si carried the remaining warmth of Ji Zhongnian, which cut off the coldness of the rain, Lin Si shivered, and only then did he have a sense that Ji Zhongnian really came to him.

His eyelashes were covered with drops of water, and he stared fixedly at Ji Zhongnian's face, empty and absent-minded, not knowing what he was thinking.

Ji Zhongnian was soon drenched by the freezing rain. He felt cold even for a short while, and he didn't dare to think that Lin Si had been drenched here for so long.

His gaze swept down inadvertently, and he found Lin Si's hand hanging on the ground, which was already bleeding, and was washed by the rain so that even the white flesh could be seen.

"What happened to your hand?" Ji Zhongnian grabbed Lin Si's wrist in disbelief.

Lin Si didn't answer, didn't look at him, and lowered his eyes.

This is obviously a wound caused by self-mutilation. Looking at the wound, Ji Zhongnian immediately became angry and cursed: "Lin Si, is there something wrong with your brain? Do you want to use up your hand? Are you crazy?!"

He blamed Lin Si for not caring about his body, but when Lin Si didn't speak, but just looked at him with watery and foggy eyes, his anger flowed back into his lungs in an instant.

Thinking that he had frightened the other party, Ji Zhongnian softened his tone unconsciously, "I'm sorry, I spoke too harshly."

"Pain." Lin Si spit out a word.

This word made Ji Zhongnian calm down. He looked at Lin Si's pain, and said softly, "It's too cold here, let's go in first, and I'll treat your wound after going in."

Lin Si didn't speak, Ji Zhongnian wrapped his arms around Lin Si's back, "Come on, I'll hug you."

The icy rain splashed, and Lin Si seemed to be drowsy from the cold, but the next second after being moved by Ji Zhongnian, he suddenly pressed Ji Zhongnian's extended hand like a waking robot.

He stopped the other party from hugging him, and said a word to Ji Zhongnian: "Go and like someone else."

Ji Zhongnian was stunned as the rain fell on their surroundings.

The other party's voice was broken and weak, and he thought he had heard it wrong, so he confirmed it again, "...what?"

"I said, Ji Zhongnian," Lin Si raised his eyes, "You have to like others, not me."

The author says:

(Nevertheless, Lins is almost captured