time for sysyphus

After death, there is boundless loneliness and emptiness.

The dead cannot perceive the world, there is neither light nor darkness, and everything in the world disappears from then on.

—Lings thought so too.

When he regained consciousness and opened his eyes again, he saw damp moss and dilapidated wall dust.

The focal length of the two eyes grew from nothing, and the scene in the field of vision gradually became clear. The senses of sight, touch, and smell were all incomparably real.

It never occurred to him that he would wake up again.

Isn't it dead?How can I still see what is in front of me?Where is this place... Heaven should be white, right?It will never be such a dilapidated and poor scene.

The slum where he grew up would do.

Poverty, people, caves...

"Ok?"

Linston was awake for a while, but he suddenly felt that something was wrong, and after a little effort to sit up, he realized that his body was intact, and there were no signs of being abused or beaten.

This, what's going on?

He covered his left chest again, his heart was beating vividly, and he pressed his wrist again, his pulse was beating strongly.

All this shows that he is still alive!

Lin Si was stunned, he scratched his itchy scalp in a daze, and looked around the surrounding environment, everything seemed familiar——

Under the body is a nest made of rags and rotten quilts, there are unfinished vegetarian steamed buns on the table, waste products picked up and sold for money are piled up in the corner, the dilapidated lamp is hung on the wall by a wire, and there is a gap. A few pages of nostalgic Wind Harbor Star calendar...  

Isn't this narrow one-story house with only a dozen square meters the "kennel" where he lived since he was a child?

"To hell, to hell..."

Lin Si staggered up in shock, not knowing how to react for a while, he stumbled and pushed the door open, and rushed out of the house like crazy.

He stood in the open space in front of the door, the sky above his head was as black as ink, and the lights and human voices were scattered here and there.

All kinds of tents and houses built of bricks and stones came into view, like gravels of different sizes, scattered all over the whole area, and there was an atmosphere of decadence and despair everywhere.

"Daner——! Damn kid! Come back to eat quickly, your dad bought some good food today!"

"Smelly bitch! You want to cheat me, ah bah, give me the money!"

"Hey, I heard that Ah Qiang from the neighbor's family was arrested for smuggling coal, and he can't get any money..."

This is the slums of Ming City, a place Lin Si is all too familiar with.

Ming City is a city with two layers of rich and poor. The eastern city center is a rich place where various celebrities and rich people gather, while the western suburbs are dire slums.The boundary of the land is as clear as a scar carved by a knife, and the two magical worlds are clearly separated.

Lin Si was surprised that he didn't die, but returned to the slum where he grew up. He just felt incredible.

Returning to the house in a daze, Lin Si saw the calendar dangling on the wall, and the pages were blown by the wind blowing through the cracks in the wall.He went closer and found that the year number on the wall calendar was XX47 years, and it was XX50 years when he was killed.

In other words, the current time point is exactly three years before his death.

That's weird...how did time go back?

After being dazed for a while, Lin Si raised his hand and rubbed his face, walked to the broken sink, and splashed two handfuls of cold water on his face, trying to wake himself up.

When he raised his head again, he looked at himself in the mirror——

This is him three years ago.

23 years old, a disgraced poor boy, sloppy, greedy for money, and thin.Life is like a salted fish pickled with coarse salt, still living a dark life in the slums.

It was also in this year that he met Ji Zhongnian, and then fell in love with him.

However, if the time really returned to three years ago, what about the dead self in the previous life?What happened after that?

"Help...what the hell happened?"

Lin Si thought his head was splitting, and his nose was itchy from the musty smell in the room. He couldn't stand it anymore, so he walked out of the house to get some fresh air.

The night was unbelievably dark, so he picked up a grass and put it in his mouth, and walked along the path outside, surrounded by buildings and scenery that he was very familiar with.

Gradually came to a dense and low bungalow area, where the alleys were criss-crossed like a huge spider web, and the light was dim, Lin Si accidentally lost his way.

I haven't lived here for a long time, and I can't even find my way home.He tried to go around several times but couldn't get out, and finally he was so tired that he just squatted in a back alley and chatted in a daze.

Suddenly, a group of dense footsteps sounded not far away, from far to near, in a hurry, which seemed particularly abrupt in the slums that were exceptionally quiet at night.

"Hurry up! Don't let him get away!"

"He was beaten like that by us, he must not go far!"

"..."

Harsh voices came one after another, noisy, and the battle seemed to be very loud.The group ran and yelled and cursed, as if trying to catch a fleeing man.

"I've got all the guys! You must not let him go, or you won't be able to explain it when you go back!"

I don't know who took the lead and shouted angrily. These people seemed to have lost their minds and ran even more hastily.

Who is so fierce?Lin Si rubbed his ears, scratched the corner of the wall curiously, poked half of his face out of the alleyway, and vaguely heard the commotion getting closer.

For some reason, he always felt that what was happening and the scene were a little familiar.

Soon, a slender black figure entered his field of vision, walking unsteadily, and the outline became clearer and clearer, until Lin Si could see his face with a faint light——

Ji Zhongnian? !

It was a face that Lance could never be mistaken for.

It's just that Ji Zhongnian was covered in blood at this moment, he staggered and ran to this side, in order to avoid his pursuers, he had to look back and be vigilant all the time.

Lin Si was stunned for a moment, and finally understood why everything that happened was so familiar, because it was exactly the same as his previous life experience!

At the beginning, he saved the strange Ji Zhongnian in the slums, and got along with him day and night, and all the things that happened later happened.

So now all of this... is developing according to the trajectory of the previous life?

Seeing that he was about to be overtaken, Ji Zhongnian had no choice but to run into the dark alleyway. When he turned a corner, he didn't notice his feet, and was tripped by Lin Si, who was squatting in the dark and dazed.

"what!"

Lin Si exclaimed in pain, and Ji Zhongnian immediately covered his mouth with his hands.

The smell of this palm is so familiar, Lin Si's nose is full of memories about his lover.

Although it was very inappropriate, he really wanted to wet his eyes and kiss the person he thought he would never see again.

Ji Zhongnian, who was seriously injured, lay on top of him with no strength, panting lowly, already weak to the point of unconsciousness, and said in a weak voice: "...help me."

help me.

——This was also the first sentence Ji Zhongnian said to Lin Si in his previous life.

Everything was too stressful, and Lin Si was so stiff that he didn't dare to move. Just as he swallowed his throat, Ji Zhongnian had already passed out on top of him.

"Hey..." Lin Si patted him, but the other party didn't respond at all.

After a delay of two seconds, he acted accordingly and immediately turned over and hugged Ji Zhongnian.But due to the disparity in physique and weight, it was difficult for him to carry Ji Zhongnian on his back, so he had to hook the man's waist and abdomen first, and drag him to a darker place deeper in the alleyway.

Soon, some people in black clothes ran over, holding knives, looking fierce, wandering around the alley, looking for Ji Zhongnian's life.

"Look for it! I clearly saw him running over."

Lin Si was so nervous that his forehead was sweating, and his eyelashes were covered with salty sweat. He hugged Ji Zhongnian, who was unconscious, and hid behind a huge trash can, less than ten meters away from those people.

Such a situation was really frightening. Lin Si didn't even dare to breathe too hard, but he tightly wrapped his hands around Ji Zhongnian in his arms, and kept praying to God and asking for the blessing of Buddha in his heart.

Why does time flow back to such a node?It's just cheating!

"Fuck, do you have any over there?"

"No, damn it, not a single one."

"Then let's go over there and have a look, hurry up!"

"..."

After waiting for more than 20 minutes, the footsteps of those people seemed to gradually disappear, getting farther and farther away from here.

Taking advantage of the faint light coming in from above the alleyway, Lin Si lowered his eyes and looked at Ji Zhongnian's handsome sleeping face, a face he thought he would never see again...

The fear slowly eased a little.

As long as there is someone he loves in his eyes, all panic can turn into tenderness.

Lin Si raised his hand and wiped off the dirt on Ji Zhongnian's face and the blood around his mouth for the fainted Ji Zhongnian.Wiping and wiping, some tears leaked out of his eyes unexpectedly.

In fact, it's good to go back to this node, at least, you can meet Ji Zhongnian again.

When it was over, he lowered his head and kissed those thin red lips cherishingly and lovingly, very lightly.

——It was the first kiss he gave his lover in his life.

"That's great," Lin Si looked at his Ji Zhongnian, and said happily, "I can still meet you in my new life."

The author says:

Lin Si: Ah, ah, husband! !